hope and gift

Teng Jiangyan calmly supported the notebook that was about to fall, and slowly put it into the backpack.After a while, he raised his head with a smile on his face, and asked ambiguously: "You are so interested in my private life, do you want to chase me? Okay, let me tell you, he is my ex-boyfriend."

Teng Jiangyan's smile has the power to seduce people's hearts, especially when he half-closes his eyes, he is like a fairy in a fairy tale book who confuses others, with a different kind of coquettish attitude.

Mu Chengming's throat tightened while watching, and he didn't say anything to refute for a long time.When he reacted, only Teng Jiangyan's back was left in front of him.

In fact, Teng Jiangyan's college life was not as sad as imagined.No matter what the rumors spread outside, the seniors and seniors left in the laboratory now have a very good attitude towards Teng Jiangyan, and they joke with this handsome junior from time to time.As for the professor, he really couldn't put it down for this smart and motivated student, and he insisted on letting him stay and study as a graduate student under him.However, Teng Jiangyan already had a direction for the postgraduate entrance examination in his heart. After explaining it clearly to the professor, the professor expressed his support and was willing to help him write a recommendation letter.

After the freshman year, Teng Jiangyan won the first place in the department with a score close to the full grade point.He was not idle during the summer vacation. He opened a project of his own to participate in the selection of the Outstanding Achievement Award for College Students, under the guidance of a professor, and the main direction is quantum physics.But due to lack of experience, after the game, Teng Jiangyan didn't have the mentality to win.

When he was free, it happened to be the S3 season in mid-August. Teng Jiangyan specially bought tickets to watch the game in Beijing. HAL's performance this season is relatively weak, and they haven't won a few championships in the points competition. The most important thing is that the team almost doesn't let Sun Yunyun play. After Mu Xiao took milk, their configuration is really struggling.

The VIP seats bought by Teng Jiangyan are really comfortable to watch the game.I don't know if it was good luck or bad luck, the tickets were randomly assigned to the first row, so that when Mu Xiao and the others came on stage, they immediately saw him wearing the HAL support uniform underneath.Others are fine, but Mu Xiao was really stunned for a while, only to realize that he was patted on the back by Su Jinnian.

I have to say that the host and director were very naughty, and when they found out that something was wrong with Mu Xiao, they directly cut the lead to Teng Jiangyan who was sitting there.

When Teng Jiangyan saw his face suddenly appearing on the big screen of the event, he couldn't help being startled.

"Teng Jiangyan, a former member of HAL, also came to support the game! Although there were a lot of rumors at the beginning, there was evidence later that Teng Jiangyan regretted leaving the team for academic reasons. It seems that a year has passed, and he still holds HAL. There is an old love."

When the host said this, Teng Jiangyan waved and greeted the camera cooperatively, and when the camera cut away, he concentrated on watching the game.

This year, HAL has a big disadvantage because there are only four players, and it was stopped by Waterloo for the third place.Since HAL's performance was significantly lower than the previous level, the final champion is no surprise that the two-time runner-up KingDom.

Teng Jiangyan felt a little regretful, but it was expected. After all, if Sun Yunyun didn't leave the team, Chen Si wouldn't be able to get in. No matter how you look at it, HAL has one less output, and the disadvantage is too great.

But the game is over after all, all the results are final and cannot be changed.When the awards were presented, the officials began to randomly draw fans to take a group photo on stage, and Teng Jiangyan was actually drawn in this draw. The fans below burst into laughter and shouted "There is something shady".

However, when Teng Jiangyan came to the stage to shake hands and hug the five HAL members one by one, he heard fans shouting "stay" from the audience.

"Xiaoyan, let's be successful in the future, so we can get some credit too." Su Jinnian hugged him and patted his back a few times, saying with emotion.

"Okay, brother Jinnian, you should also pay attention to your health, you're already worn out a lot." Teng Jiangyan took the official bouquet and handed it to Su Jinnian, letting him hold it and then walked to the next person.

"We all sympathize with your difficulties, and you will be well alone in the future." Sun Qingyun did not hug Teng Jiangyan, but stretched out his hand to compare Teng Jiangyan's height, and said with a tearful smile: "You have grown taller Quite a lot, Xiaoyan."

Teng Jiangyan handed him the bouquet, and said with a choked voice: "Yes, it's you, it's been a year, and it's still the same."

When Chen Cheng arrived, he, who had always been taciturn, seldom said a few words to Teng Jiangyan: "We are all uneducated, and when the contract is up, I will wait for you to become the boss and go to work."

Teng Jiangyan held back the tears in his eyes, gritted his teeth and said, "Okay."

When it came to Mu Xiao, Mu Xiao was rarely silent.It wasn't until he hugged Teng Jiangyan that he asked hoarsely in his ear: "Is your phone number empty?"

"I've thought about it for a long time, if we have a six-year term..." Teng Jiangyan whispered in his ear, "Do you agree?"

But there is really a time limit for hugging someone and making flowers. When Teng Jiangyan finally shook hands with Sun Yunyun, he couldn't wait for Mu Xiao's "yes".

After the game, Teng Jiangyan played and ate Beijing again and again before finally returning home reluctantly.But as soon as I got home, I don’t know whether it was because of evil spirits or what. Every time Teng Jiangyan slept in his room, he was haunted by nightmares. In the middle of the night, he always struggled to wake up from the bloody and weird dreams, and in the end he simply fell asleep. Can't sleep all night.

So during that time, Teng Jiangyan was very haggard, and almost had a nervous breakdown.In the end, he had no choice but to go to see a psychiatrist before school started, but at the bus stop, he ran into Han Zi who had finished sending Han Qiao to school.

Teng Jiangyan subconsciously turned around and wanted to escape, but Han Zi grabbed her clothes and couldn't break free at all.Han Zi walked around to him and stared at him for a while, then let go of Teng Jiangyan and asked, "Did you not sleep well recently?"

"No." Teng Jiangyan quickly argued.

"There is nothing to lie to me, I can see through it at a glance. It is a nightmare, I heard Han Qiao said that you moved out of the dormitory, did you go back to live in Yu Shaoqian's house?" Han Zi stopped here. After getting down, he took out a box of sedative medicine from his pocket, handed it to Teng Jiangyan, and said, "It's not enough, you are also under a lot of pressure from studying. You should try this first, and if it still doesn't work, go to the hospital to prescribe some sleeping pills, but ... I see that your condition is not stable, and I am afraid that you will commit suicide by taking medicine."

"Suicide is an act of a coward, and I'm not a coward, but I still have to thank you." Teng Jiangyan breathed a sigh of relief after taking the medicine, and directly planned to turn around and go home.

"That's fine, I suggest you go directly to prescribe sleeping pills. I think your eyes are wandering and your tone is flirtatious. I'm afraid it's a bit serious." After Han Zi finished talking to him, the car arrived just in time.He got into the car neatly, turned around and waved goodbye to Teng Jiangyan.

After Teng Jiangyan sent Han Zi away, she still went to the hospital to be admitted to the psychiatric department. Finally, she followed the doctor's advice and took sleeping pills, intending to go back to sleep.

At the beginning of the sophomore year, Teng Jiangyan first received a scholarship from the school, then delivered a speech as a student representative at the freshman admission, and finally won the provincial scientific research achievement award with the project of being a professor.This provincial-level scientific research achievement award is logically not ranked in his place, but the professor's laboratory is strict in selecting people, and the number of people reported is not enough, so Teng Jiangyan was pulled to make up the number.When Teng Jiangyan was pushed onto the stage by his senior brothers and sisters to accept the award, he was really ashamed.

Then, just one month after the start of school, Teng Jiangyan received an award for outstanding scientific research achievements of college students.He really didn't expect to win the award, and he was so excited that he almost tore the certificate in half.

"Xiao Yan, don't get excited." When the professor handed the certificate to Teng Jiangyan, he didn't expect him to react so strongly, "I said you can win the award, don't always be so unconfident in yourself."

Teng Jiangyan took a deep breath for a long time and finally calmed down his mood, but still said in a passionate tone: "I don't think the subject is particularly mature. If you give me more time, it will definitely be better. I didn't expect to win the award. Thank you, professor. .”

As a result, he naturally became the object of freshmen's aspirations, and also became the topic of conversation in other courtyards, and even won the status of the school grass in one fell swoop-even though the school grass does not know how to play basketball.Everyone knew about his sexual orientation, and rumors about being adopted were also widely spread, but this couldn't stop the enthusiasm of a group of little fans and even little fans from sending him love letters.The main reason is that apart from the above two points, Teng Jiangyan is an almost impeccable person.Although he is usually a little cold, he has a good temper, good personality, polite, and smart. From time to time, he goes to the playground to run laps and encourages those who can't run.

So the professor's laboratory became a hot spot for a while, and a group of people wanted to squeeze their heads into it.However, in the second semester of his sophomore year, Mu Chengming was the only fresh blood who entered the laboratory.

Because Teng Jiangyan and Mu Chengming were in the same class, the professor specially arranged for their two partners to operate the instrument and record the data.Teng Jiangyan may have lost a lot of grudges against Mu Chengming as he grew older, but he was still barely able to accept partnering with this person.In the end, the two of them still worked out a certain tacit understanding and were in a state of happy cooperation.

For more than half a year, Teng Jiangyan hadn't seen Mu Xiao once.Missing this thing can really erode people's will. Every time Teng Jiangyan turned to Mu Xiao's Weibo and looked at the people in the photos, there was always an uncontrollable emptiness in his heart, which made him too lazy to do anything. I don't want to do it, so I just sleep with my phone in my arms.And on weekdays, when he heard people around him talk about Mu Xiao from time to time, he felt an unbearable itch spreading to his limbs.

Seeing each other in one day is like every three autumns.

Teng Jiangyan's fingers contracted inadvertently, and he pinched the phone tightly to his chest, and he understood the power of this sentence.

During the Chinese New Year, Teng Jiangyan will go to Hangzhou to visit their family. After all, he will not come to Qingming Festival and Memorial Day.But when he was in the cemetery, he happened to meet Shi Zhengren again.In fact, it was not a coincidence, Teng Jiangyan always felt that he had been waiting there for a long time, so Teng Jiangyan went to his house for dinner in his thirties this year.

"Uncle Shi, isn't this year's work intensity a bit heavy? It seems that you have lost a lot of weight." Teng Jiangyan took the pile of vegetables and snacks in Shi Zhengren's hand, and walked slowly along the road of the cemetery with him.

Shi Zhengren smiled and coughed violently: "I have caught a cold recently, you have to stay away from me, so as not to infect you. The police, there is no rest day 360 days a year, you always You can’t expect those bad guys to give yourself a holiday, right? It’s normal to work hard, but every time I see these thousands of families get together with the beautiful and beautiful, I feel that all the hard work is worth it.”

"I think you are really a great person." After hearing these words, Teng Jiangyan couldn't help feeling a little admiration for Shi Zhengren.

Shi Zhengren smiled and shook his head when he heard this, reached out and patted Teng Jiangyan's shoulder, sighed and said: "You are still too young, you will understand when you are my age. There is no such thing as who is great or not. People who strive to live are great."

Teng Jiangyan looked at the snow-stained shoulders of the people's policeman beside him, and reached out to help him remove the cold snow, leaving a pool of water stains.

"Look, I have a wet spot on my shoulder. What is it? 'The geese leave their voices, and the wind leaves their marks'. Everyone has his meaning in this world. If he can make good use of this meaning, then he is worthy of admiration." " After finishing speaking, Shi Zhengren jumped on the spot a few times, shaking off the snow on his body.

"If my father was still there, he would probably tell me these things too." Teng Jiangyan choked for breath, and clenched his hand inside the down jacket as if trying to grab something, but opened it because it was empty.

Shi Changying was very happy that Teng Jiangyan had come. As soon as Teng Jiangyan arrived at their house, he threw himself into his arms, and one of them didn't stop, and even hugged him and fell onto the sofa.

At night, Shi Changying asked Teng Jiangyan to sleep with him, but Teng Jiangyan couldn't make trouble with children, so he agreed.

On the first day of the new year, after he got up carefully and left, he ran into Mu Xiao again in front of the same hotel at the same time, but the difference was that this time Mu Xiao had to go to Sun Yunyun's house.

"I haven't seen you for half a year." Mu Xiao went to get the remote control to turn on the air conditioner, took off the snow-stained windbreaker and threw it on the ground.

Teng Jiangyan rubbed his hands angrily, covered Mu Xiao's cold hands because of wearing too little, and said with some reproach, "Why are you wearing so little?"

"I don't always go out, it's warm in the car and on the plane." Mu Xiao looked at Teng Jiangyan who had grown a lot taller, and touched his hair with his forehead, "Miss me?"

Teng Jiangyan gasped at his hand for a while, and then said calmly: "You cheated behind your fiancee's back, and I feel guilty for you."

Mu Xiao didn't care what he said, and asked again: "Miss me?"

Teng Jiangyan was so entangled by him that he had no choice but to respond: "I think, I really want to, I think about it deep down."

"I miss you too." After Mu Xiao whispered, he pushed Teng Jiangyan onto the bed, bit his lip and kissed him.

Teng Jiangyan was tormented by Mu Xiao to the point of breaking his waist all night, but he also heard a lot of news from Mu Xiao intermittently.For example, Sun Yunyun was living in a dormitory in the company’s empty training area on the grounds of avoiding suspicion. For example, Fang Shimei’s company has been successfully registered. For example, Sun Yunyun should leave the team this year. Easy to play a lot.

But no matter what Mu Xiao said, when Teng Jiangyan woke up and looked at the empty room in the second day of junior high school, she still couldn't avoid feeling disappointed.After rolling on the bed for two or three times, he collected his emotions and bought a plane ticket back to Wuhan.

Along the way, he always felt guilty that he was having an affair with Mu Xiao, accompanied by the illusion that he was being a mistress.

From the new year to the second semester of his junior year, Teng Jiangyan has already won numerous awards.He not only published many articles in some well-known journals, but even co-authored a research paper with a professor in a highly authoritative journal.After the professor wrote the application letter for him, Teng Jiangyan began to submit the application to his favorite school.

However, in the thirties of this year, Teng Jiangyan went to Hangzhou as usual, but did not meet Shi Zhengren.But he didn't take a few steps, but saw a little boy kneeling in front of a tombstone, sobbing silently.

Seeing that the little boy looked familiar, he went up to say hello.When the little boy turned around, Teng Jiangyan realized that it was Shi Changying.Shi Changying's hands were blue from the cold, and he didn't know how long he had been kneeling here. His eyes were red and swollen, like rabbits.

"Brother Teng..." Shi Changying stood up aggrieved and threw himself into Teng Jiangyan's arms, probably because he had been kneeling for a long time, and almost fell because he couldn't stand up.

Teng Jiangyan saw a monument standing in front of him, with the words Shi Zhengren and his birth and death dates simply engraved on it.The black-and-white photo on the tombstone shows him smiling cheerfully in casual clothes, and he looks kind and kind.

After Teng Jiangyan comforted Shi Changying for a while, he went back and bought a bouquet of flowers and put them gently in front of Shi Zhengren's tombstone.After bowing deeply to Shi Zhengren's tombstone for a minute, he covered his red nose and led Shi Changying to send him home.

Li Jin was pregnant, and when she opened the door for Teng Jiangyan, her stomach was upright, and her entire face was swollen to the point of disfigurement.Seeing that their orphans and widows were inconvenient, Teng Jiangyan cooked for them a New Year's Eve dinner, and then left when the police visited them the next day.

Before he left, he exchanged contact information with Shi Changying, and after a long phone call with the little boy on the first night of the first day of junior high school, he finally figured out what happened.

Shi Zhengren was exposed as a target in an anti-drug operation, and several police officers died in the line of duty with his partner.In times of crisis, Shi Zhengren still sacrificed his life to protect their captain and his partner. Although his partner could not be rescued, the captain became the only survivor in the team.However, the captain was still seriously injured and disabled a leg.

In order to protect the safety of Shi Zhengren's family, the police station can't even award Shi Zhengren as a martyr, they can only let him be buried in an ordinary way.

"My father is a great hero, and I will become a great hero like my father in the future!"

This was the last time Teng Jiangyan heard Shi Changying speak, that childish, choked but firm voice. After that, Teng Jiangyan never thought that he would never have the time to hear it again.

The author has something to say:

_(:з」∠)_Why haven’t I finished writing it yet, I’m going to jump off the building.