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Yang Yang fell ill on the train.

Wen Liang fed her the heart-saving pill, and knelt beside her helplessly.

He has never been so flustered. Every time Yang Yang fell ill, he was safe and sound, and every time he dealt with it perfectly, but this time he seemed to lose his soul, stroking her pale and blue baby with trembling fingers. My face and my brain were extremely chaotic, with thousands of thoughts rushing together, one voice was shouting "Please don't leave me behind", another voice was shouting "Let's get rid of it, let's get rid of it together", another voice was crying Roaring, "It's all because you are too incompetent, you know she can't bear this kind of life! You killed her! You killed her!" There was another voice, crying quietly, "Jin Ye, Jin Wild, what should I do?" For the first time, he really felt that something was wrong with his spirit, he couldn't control his thoughts, there seemed to be countless turbulent currents in his mind, shaking his reason to the point of collapse.

As if begging for something, he lowered his head and gently kissed Yang Yang's forehead with his trembling lips.

In the midst of sin, only this girl can redeem him, and now she is leaving too.

Even she is leaving now.

Just when Wen Liang was in a state of unconscious chaos, a passenger next to him patted him on the back anxiously: "Quick, I'll call the flight attendant for you!"

The flight attendant girl turned pale with fright: "What's wrong with her?"

Wen Liang felt as if he poked his head out of the deep water suddenly, and his mind reset instantly. He grabbed the flight attendant's hand and said, "Save my daughter! She's having a heart attack!"

The flight attendant quickly ran to notify the train conductor, increased the speed, and arrived at the next station W City ahead of schedule. With the help of the passengers in the carriage, they sent their father and daughter to the ambulance that was already on standby.

Wen Liang held a lot of money in his hand. Someone kept giving him money in the carriage just now. He was in a panic and didn't know how to refuse. When he got into the ambulance, he directly held it up to the doctor, as if he was in a hurry to talk to the doctor. The doctor exchanged the lives of yang and yang in general.The doctor was busy doing first aid measures, speaking instructions quickly in his mouth, and together with several nurses, he quickly placed the respirator and other medical equipment on Yang Yang's body without even looking at him.

Wen Liang held up the money, looking a little at a loss.

A nurse next to him comforted: "Don't be afraid, don't worry, we will try our best, you collect the money first, and I will ask you for it later."

Another nurse glanced at Wen Liang when she heard the words, and saw the thin man clutching the money with a dazed expression on his face and his eyes were out of focus. He did seem to have some mental problems, and he didn't know if he was mentally ill or if he was scared by his daughter's illness. have to.The father and daughter don't look rich, but they are also pitiful!

It wasn't until Yangyang's operation was over that Wen Liang recovered, went to the window to pay the bills, and went out to buy some daily necessities for the hospital.

He sat beside Yangyang's bed, slowly peeling an apple, and while peeling, he tried to straighten out his thoughts and behaviors that were completely out of control for such a long period of time since his daughter fell ill.

Was he crazy just now?Still stupid?It was like a dream, drowsy, what he was saying and doing seemed to be handed over to his instincts, those many messy thoughts and voices strangled the awake him like silk threads, and then let his The body is like a disordered machine, revealing the unconscious parts that should not be shown to others.

Become a completely incomprehensible, uncontrollable self.

Wen Liang knew that his mental illness had caused "it", and Wen Liang had gradually convinced himself to accept this fact. He didn't look at it or think about it, clearly distinguished reality from illusion, and worked hard to talk to reality step by step, sober He did what a normal person should do, and as a result, he practiced it very well, and no one found that there was an extra "it" in his world.But Wen Liang didn't know that sometimes he would... go crazy?

He thought about it a little bit, in the past period of time, did he have similar experiences, did he have a "crazy moment" that he didn't know about, and did any strange things... Very good, no.

From then on, in the limited life, you only need to pay attention to controlling yourself, keep rational, keep rational, this should not be difficult.

"Warm and cool."

Wen Liang shook his hand, "呵啦", the sharp fruit knife cut his finger, and the bright red blood instantly stained the pale yellow flesh of the apple.He turned around, and there was no one at the door of the ward.

Cut off the blood on the dirty apple and throw it into the trash can, Wen Liang closed his eyes, it's fine, there is no sound now.

He continued to peel the apple seriously, trying to focus all his attention on the knife and the fruit in his hand, very good, the peel was very thin, the blade was buried under the peel, through the faint green, very good, there was no sound, the apple A thin layer of transparent juice oozes out of the pulp when the blade is cutting with a slight squeak...

"Warm and cool."

Wen Liang didn't look back.

"Cool, cool, cool, cool, cool..."

He lowered his head and slammed the knife into the apple, and whispered in his heart, "You are a fake", and then he couldn't hold back, and said aloud: "You are a fake."

"I didn't actually hear anything."

"No one is talking now."

"The reality is no one talks."

"So I shouldn't answer you."

He endured it for a while, and finally replied: "Don't call me, Jin Ye."

Yang Yang's situation is not optimistic. She is already weak. The doctor predicted that she would not live to be six years old. Now she is more than seven years old. In addition, her life is unstable recently. Although the operation saved her life, it cannot Give her many days.

In the following days, she suffered respiratory failure twice and cardiac arrest once, and was rescued three times.

The few tens of thousands of yuan that Wen Liang had on him were like stone cows entering the sea, and they were all spent in a blink of an eye. The hospital window called for payment of the medicine for the next day, a total of 300 yuan.

That night he went to a well-known gay dating park in W City, and got the money in the bushes at night, amidst the dirty soil and the wet steam unique to the South.

It remained the same for the next few days.

When he was lying on the muddy ground, he closed his eyes and thought, the so-called death is probably nothing more than that.

The author has something to say: A little abuse makes you happy, but a big abuse hurts your body!