you don't like other people

Xu Zhou's mother said, "Are you back? Xu Zhou is already asleep."

Xu Zhou's father said: "It's okay, I'll just take a look, the plane will take off in three hours."

After finishing speaking, Xu Zhou heard Xu's father enter Xu Zhou's room. Xu Zhou lay stiffly on the bed, pretending to be in deep sleep, to make himself look more natural.

Xu Zhou couldn't explain why he pretended to be asleep. In the final analysis, he still blamed his father for failing to fulfill his responsibilities as a father.

Sure enough, Xu Zhou escaped Dad Xu's eyes. He felt that Dad Xu stood at the door for a while and then closed the door and went out.

Xu Zhou breathed a sigh of relief.

However, Xu Zhou never thought of what happened next, and Xu Zhou couldn't recover for a long time.

Later he thought, if he really fell asleep that night, would he not have embarked on this path, would he not be as different as he is now.The answer is no, because it's just a matter of time, it's just a matter of sooner or later, I will only walk on this road after all, because the blood that belongs to another kind has completely flowed freely in my body.

Xu Zhou closed his eyes in the dark room, but his ears had already flown to the living room. Xu Zhou still had a little expectation for a family, a complete family, and never being ridiculed by the children in the class again. Xu Zhou is a wild child without a father.

Xu Zhou is like a voyeur, watching every move in the living room.

Xu Zhou's father said, "Then I'm leaving."

Xu Zhou's mother said: "Do you really want to leave? Is it in such a hurry?"

Xu Zhou's father said: "He was waiting for me at the airport. I just passed by. I miss my child, so I came to see him."

Xu Zhou's mother said: "You are still together? That's great, he is much happier than me."

Xu Zhou's father said: "Yes, we are still together."

Xu Zhou felt his mother's voice choked up a little, and his eyes should have been red.Xu Zhou wanted to go out to comfort his mother, but he also wanted to know who he (she) they were talking about, so Xu Zhou lay motionless on the bed, afraid of making any noise.

Xu Zhou's mother said, "Don't you want children?"

Xu Zhou felt sour when he heard these words.Xu Zhou also held his breath, waiting for Xu Zhou's father's answer.

Xu Zhou's father's voice came, a somewhat haggard voice, "Think."

Xu Zhou's mother immediately asked: "Don't you regret it? Even once? Although Xu Zhou never said anything, how much he wishes to have a father by his side."

Xu Zhou listened, and started to cry, yes, he missed his father, so his mother knew, so he had nothing to hide in front of his mother.

Xu Zhou's father said: "Can you find a father for Xu Zhou? It's really impossible for me and you."

"But, I only love you. From the first time I saw you, I decided that I only love you." Xu Zhou's mother cried.

Xu Zhou's father's voice became a little helpless, and said: "But, I don't love you, I love him. I'm sorry, I caused you so much harm."

Xu Zhou's mother kept crying, Xu Zhou's mother said: "Why? Since you are gay, why did you marry me? Why did you give birth to Xu Zhou with me?"

Xu Zhou's mind went blank, gay?That was the first time that the word "homosexuality" really appeared in Xu Zhou's ears.

The quarrel outside the door was still going on, but Xu Zhou didn't have the energy to listen any more, he was completely stuck there, it turned out that his father was gay.

Xu Zhou has no memory of the subsequent conversation, only a few memories of his father saying "I'm sorry." and his mother just crying there, crying non-stop.

Later, Xu Zhou's father left, leaving Xu Zhou's mother alone.

None of them noticed that in a room separated by a wall, there was a little boy staring at the ceiling with his eyes wide open, his face full of disbelief.

Later, Xu Zhou gradually discovered that he had a different disease, a very serious disease, which almost made Xu Zhou suffocate.

Since when, Xu Zhou can't remember clearly, anyway, after Xu Zhou's father left that night, Xu Zhou gradually grew up, became more sensible, and had more hormones.

However, Xu Zhou's hormones made him unable to restrain himself from using them in other places.

He will consciously or unconsciously stagger away from the girls in the class, and his eyes always stay on the boys.

Will quietly look at them.At that time, there was a little boy in the class who was very popular with the girls. At that time, it was popular to be called Bancao. Xu Zhou couldn't help but fall on Bancao.

But he turned a blind eye to the so-called class flower in the class.

At that time, Xu Zhou was already 13 years old, and he also had some awareness of his strange behavior. When he searched for homosexuality, it was impressively written that it would be hereditary.

When Xu Zhou understood, he realized that he was gay like his father, and that he would live in darkness forever.

Afterwards, Xu Zhou hid himself very deeply, tightly wrapping himself in a place where there was no light.

Until I came to Chongqing, until I met Yang Sen.

In fact, it was fate to meet Yang Sen, but it still took some of Xu Zhou's luck.

Xu Zhou put the bag in the dormitory, and the seniors from the junior year hadn't come yet.That's right, Xu Zhou was pulled to make up the numbers this time because of the college's activities, and the senior is from the liberal arts college, so he has nothing to do with it.

This school has a tradition of starting school very early.

Chongqing, a well-deserved "stove" city, combined with the weather in August, is enough to burn people directly on the iron plate.

But the school's name is to temper the will of the students, so the military training is half a month in advance.

Last year, Xu Zhou really experienced the training of his will. The tired Xu Zhou still has lingering fears when he thinks about it.

But this year is different. This year, Xu Zhou is here purely with the intention of running his legs and being a free audience. By the way, he can also satisfy the eyes of freshmen in military training.

Xu Zhou is from the reporter department of the school news network, and it happens that Xu Zhou is a boy in the reporter department, so the duty of running errands in the military training falls on Xu Zhou honorably.Running errands is nothing more than carrying a SLR under the hot sun to capture a few photos of military training and hang them on the campus news website.For a big man like Xu Zhou, it's not worth mentioning.

It has been three days of military training, and when the freshmen are at their most energetic and most in shape, Xu Zhou came to the training ground with a DSLR on his shoulder.

The first reaction is that it is green, but it is not too unfamiliar to Xu Zhou, after all, it has only been a year.

There are many big umbrellas beside the military training field, and there are many small refrigerators below which are filled with drinks. The drink sellers are all part-time seniors, and Xu Zhou doesn't know any of them.

The sun never let go, Xu Zhou felt his skin was going to explode just after he came out for a while, so he quickly found a big umbrella with no one to stand under.

Xu Zhou looked and looked left, thinking about where to find a good angle to take some photos that would satisfy the leader.