I got better with my ex-husband's white moonlight gl

Qin Muyun poured another cup, but before reaching his lips, Zhao Xianci stopped him.

"Don't drink anymore." Zhao Xianci held her wrist and sighed deeply, "Yun'er, to be honest, I am very afraid of suffering. But if I have to, I can bear it. It's just that I don't have the heart to let you Suffer with me..."

Zhao Xianci's voice became lower and lower, "I feel...I can't make it through."

Qin Muyun understood her, so how could she know nothing about Qin Muyun?Miss Qin's expressions changed several times and she hesitated to speak, Zhao Xianci saw it all.It's just that she doesn't like to talk about many things.

Words are always powerless in the face of reality.

But right now, it seems that there is no other way except to express in words.

Qin Muyun stared at her with deep eyes and remained silent.

Zhao Xianci took down the wine glass from her hand and put it back on the table.After pondering for a moment, he blushed and said, "I care about you far more than you know."

The voice of this sentence is not high, but low, like Zhao Xian's words to himself, but Qin Muyun's heart skipped a beat when he heard it—her sister Zhao has always been emotionally restrained, only a few times Confessions of heart, are all in an unpleasant situation, a little sudden.

Zhao Xianci took a deep breath, held Qin Muyun's hand, and said solemnly, "Maybe, you don't know me well enough—" After all, in Zhao Xianci's view, she and Qin Muyun didn't get along very long in this life. There is no tacit understanding of heart-to-heart communication that accompanied each other day and night in the previous life.

In this life, everything seems to be in a hurry. Zhao Xianci even feels very dazed every time she thinks of Qin Muyun's confession. She doesn't quite believe Qin Muyun's feelings for her—a fifteen or sixteen-year-old girl who was raised in captivity. In a large family like Zhou Mansion, except for Zhou Xuejin, there are almost no outsiders, and even few women—Zhao Xianci always feels that at the age when Qin Muyun’s love first started, a woman disguised as a man would appear. It disrupted Miss Qin's judgment on personnel, and even caused Qin Muyun to misjudge herself.

should not.Zhao Xianci didn't want Qin Muyun to make a hasty decision about her life in such a muddle-headed way, otherwise, with her combined experience of nearly 40 years in her two lifetimes, Ms. Zhao would feel guilty for deceiving Qin Muyun.

Frankly speaking, if it wasn't for Qin Muyun's pressing every step of the way, Zhao Xianci would not have thought about the personal relationship between his children at all.

Before that, Ms. Zhao only had money in her heart every day.

But after all, Miss Zhao's young body now hides a soul that has experienced ups and downs. Facing the naturally beautiful Miss Qin, and Qin Muyun approaching in every possible way, she still couldn't help herself.

Fortunately, now at most it's just a small hand, and even the number of kisses can be counted on one hand.

Zhao Xianci mused, what should I say so that Qin Muyun would not misunderstand that he meant to abandon her?Sometimes, Zhao Xianci felt that Qin Muyun was too naive, had read too many books and had little contact with things, and would have a too noble requirement for feelings.But such a thing as Gao Jie is not a height that ordinary people can reach.

She can understand Qin Muyun's thoughts.Zhao Xianci wanted to take care of her request for a pure and almost sacred relationship, but he was extremely disturbed.Because Zhao Xianci knew very well that he could not meet Qin Muyun's requirements, and even, in this world, there might be no one who could achieve the kind of innocence in Qin Muyun's mind.If he insisted on maintaining it, then Qin Muyun would only be disappointed in her constantly.

Zhao Xianci... was afraid of facing Qin Muyun's disappointment.

So, most of the time, she is silent.

It's not that I don't understand Qin Muyun's worries, but for this kind of thing, promises are the most boring.The best answer to Qin Muyun is the actual action when he is on the scene, and Zhao Xianci really does not want Qin Muyun to suffer.

Qin Muyun couldn't understand her thoughts.Although Miss Qin died again, but in the final analysis, she has never really walked out of the high gate compound.Even though she was able to see a lot of disgusting things because of the great family and business of the gentry, she was watching the fire from the other side after all, and no matter how much she saw, the lessons she experienced would not be as profound as the lessons she experienced.In her previous life, she was only sixteen or seventeen when she passed away, and now she is only close to sixteen. Although she is more than 30 years old together, age does not equal experience. She has just changed from being imprisoned in the Zhou Mansion to being trapped in the Qin Family. Miss Qin In terms of feelings, after all, ideals are greater than reality.

Therefore, it is difficult for her to understand Zhao Xianci's silence and hesitation.

Because of this, I feel that Zhao Xianci is very scheming, that Zhao Xianci has a lot of concerns, and even feels that Zhao Xianci doesn't care about himself that much.She valued Zhao Xian's words so much that when she didn't get a reciprocal response in this relationship, she still couldn't help feeling sad.

Especially now, when Zhao Xianci said that he didn't know her well enough, Qin Muyun's face became weird.She thought that she knew Zhao Xianci better than Zhao Xianci thought.

Zhao Xianci looked at her expression, swallowed the words secretly, and there was a gentle smile in his eyes, "Yun'er, I may have fallen in love with you earlier. I wish you well, far more than I wish you well." Well, you have to look forward to a lot. Although," she said slowly but gently, "since I decided to marry you, I have made up my mind to haunt you for the rest of my life, but I still—— looking forward to you If you can make this decision yourself, I hope that after you have seen many people and things, and met people who are better than me, you can still... love me."

"Our marriage this time, to be honest, was too hasty. My father-in-law forced you and me to get married because of my mishandling. I think you may not have prepared for it. Really, it was too fast, wasn't it?" Zhao Xian Ci’s heart beats fast, and it’s not as easy to confess one’s feelings after all, “There are still many difficult… conflicts between us, for example, what I wrote and Li Shu.”

Zhao Xian let out a long sigh of relief, and finally said it, "Do you think that I wrote He Li Shu because I don't care about you?"

Qin Muyun frowned tightly, following Zhao Xianci's words in his heart, and gradually became a little confused.I have to admit that what Zhao Xian said is true.Even though there was affection between them, it was too hasty, and many things would not be unraveled in the future, especially the matter with Li Shu, together with the experience of being almost betrayed by Zhao Xianci in the previous life, made Qin Muyun feel a knot in his heart, which he could not solve. open.

For a moment, Qin Muyun even had some doubts. Did she really have a deep love for Zhao Xianci, or was it the obsession in her previous life that made her miss Zhao Xianci so much that she was self-confident but had no time to see her heart clearly?

Qin Muyun couldn't help but wryly smiled, her obsession with Zhao Xianci was really too deep, probably because the pain of betrayal in her previous life was so deep in her bones, that it was still deeply imprinted in her heart when she did it all over again.

After all, for the precocious Qin Muyun, there were not many people in Zhou Mansion who could talk to her.

Elders are elders, peers are peers, and there is no one who can really speak quietly, so she has a good relationship with Zhou Xuejin, and also has a good relationship with Zhao Xianci.Coupled with the difference between men and women, she is far more affectionate to Zhao Xianci than to anyone in the Zhou Mansion, so that love has grown for a long time, and when the love is deeply rooted, she no longer knows where it started.

It was precisely because Zhao Xianci was so important to such a trapped Miss Qin that Qin Muyun couldn't bear the betrayal.Even death, with incomparable resentment.

At this moment, Qin Muyun looked again at Zhao Xianci who was dressed in men's clothing and smiled gently.In a trance, she actually felt, as if, she really didn't understand the current Zhao Xian Ci very well.

It's not the last life.

This time, there is not much intersection between them.

It was Qin Muyun's obsession and Zhao Xianci's obsession that made them come to this point.

Although both were caused by obsession, Qin Muyun was obviously more troubled than Zhao Xianci.

Qin Muyun's heart was turbulent, but facing Zhao Xianci's pity eyes, she still calmed down slowly.

Even in this life, Zhao Xianci experienced many things she didn't know, which made her less understandable, but Zhao Xianci's heart, at least the heart for her, was no less than the gentleness in memory, even more Lots of hot rays.Qin Muyun exhaled lightly, and asked quietly, "Isn't it?"

Zhao Xianci sighed inwardly, and shook his head, "It was because I cared so much that I was asked to sign the letter of reconciliation."

She couldn't help tapping the table with her fingertips, thinking about what to say so that Qin Muyun could understand, "Uncle naturally loves you very much, why did he ask me to sign and leave the book? Probably because there is something wrong with my identity. I hurt you. You must understand how uncle loves you. "

Qin Muyun nodded, that's natural.

"As for me, Yun'er, my uncle and I feel about the same. You are the jewel we hold in our hands, so why would you be willing to let you suffer?" Zhao Xianci sighed, "If one day, my real identity is exposed, how will the business be?" Not to mention, I'm afraid life will be difficult. I know that what I'm doing now is very risky, and I'm betting that I'm cheating. But I can't help it. If I want to get rid of the control of my family, I can only rely on myself. "

Her mother and elder brother are unreliable, and when life and death are at stake, she has no one to turn to for help, how miserable!

"But you are different. Uncles and aunts love you, and you can live a life without worry. If I am in trouble and I can't protect myself, how can I protect you? If it were you, if one day, you were in trouble No guarantee, how will you treat me by then?"

Zhao Xianci smiled wryly, "You may not be able to imagine what the day of disaster will be like. Even if you imagine it, you won't know what you will do when the time comes. It's just Yun'er, I hope you understand that I care about you, so I will I hope that I can do my best to protect you. If I am in trouble, I only need a piece of paper and a book to help you out of the sea of ​​suffering. To be honest, even if I do it again, I will sign it without hesitation. However, this is not It doesn't mean that I don't care about you. Yun'er, can you... understand?"

Qin Muyun was startled.

She listened to every word of Zhao Xian's words.However, Qin Muyun had never seen Zhao Xianci's heaviness and powerlessness when speaking.She didn't even know why Zhao Xianci had such an expression?Looking at it makes people feel, as if the sky is falling down, making people feel heavy and out of breath.

Zhao Xianci seems to have experienced some unimaginable tribulations, and it was those tribulations that made her become the current Zhao Xianci.

And myself, I don't know anything about it.

Qin Muyun's expression was complicated, and after a while, he said slowly, "Maybe, I really don't understand you."

Or, he was really too smooth.Without tempering, I don't know the sufferings of the world.

"You don't believe me. In your eyes, I'm just a little girl who fell in love for a while. Although I don't know why you are so prejudiced against me at my age, but since you don't believe me, it means I didn't do well. I don't blame you." Qin Muyun's heart was heavy, she raised her eyes, gritted her teeth and said, "But, if you sign the agreement again, Zhao Xianci, no matter what your reasons are, I will never forgive you."

Zhao Xianci's heart skipped a beat, seeing Qin Muyun's decisive gaze, he immediately crushed the thought of reconciling Lishu to pieces, and never thought about it again.

Qin Muyun said again, "I just want to ask you, about our marriage, do you want it or not?"

"Yes!" Zhao Xian almost blurted out, "Marriage is of course necessary, I...I can't bear you."

Thinking of Qin Muyun's possibility of marrying someone else, Zhao Xianci felt breathless.

A smile flashed across the corner of Qin Muyun's lips, but he pursed it back very quickly, and snorted inexplicably, "Then don't worry about what my father says, don't worry, we will be able to return to Nan Province in half a month at most."

Zhao Xianci was a little nervous, "You must not force yourself."

"The mountain people have their own tricks." After Qin Muyun finished speaking, he poured a glass of wine.

Zhao Xianci wanted to stop her again, Qin Muyun went around with the wine glass, and looked at the person in front of him with wandering eyes, "What are you doing?"

"You can't drink that much."

"Really?" Qin Muyun said, raised his wrist, deftly dodged Zhao Xian's words, and poured a glass of wine into his mouth.

Zhao Xian stroked his forehead, "Yun'er, you are not in good health—"

Halfway through the conversation, it stopped abruptly.

Because Qin Muyun suddenly leaned on her body, played with the wine cup and said, "I am in good health. The kung fu taught by Master is very useful, and I also practice hard every day, and I dare not slack off. Look, is my complexion getting more and more rosy?" ?”

She put her face in front of Zhao Xianci, Zhao Xianci smelled the good smell of ink on her body, and then saw the red face, he couldn't tell whether Qin Muyun's face was rosy or he was drunk.

However, Qin Muyun calmed down, his eyes were like autumn water, looking at Zhao Xianci, the stars in those eyes seemed to have smashed into the bottom of Zhao Xianci's heart, making Zhao Xianci's heart jump uncontrollably again.

His eyes couldn't help but be on Qin Muyun's thin lips, which had turned red from drinking.

Zhao Xianci swallowed involuntarily.

Sensing her movements, Qin Muyun laughed, pressed his fingertips on Zhao Xian's throat, and asked her as if whispering, "What are you thinking?"

Zhao Xian calmed down, stretched his arms around her slender waist, and said in a low voice, "I miss you."

While talking, I have already breathed.

The lips of the two were already close at hand, Zhao Xianci was holding his breath, and just about to press down, who knows, Qin Muyun suddenly licked her lips, and then took advantage of the moment Zhao Xianci was in a daze, turned around and laughed out loud Come.

At that moment, Zhao Xianci's whole body went numb, as if being licked to the top of her heart, and she couldn't recover for a long time.

Even though it was fleeting, Qin Muyun at that moment was simply charming like never before, making Zhao Xianci's heart beat faster and faster, and his breathing even heavier.

It wasn't until he heard Qin Muyun's laughter that Zhao Xianci held back his hot cheeks, hugged her and said softly, "Yun'er~"

"What are you doing?" Qin Muyun's eyes rolled, he tilted his head and said, "Don't think about anything serious."

Zhao Xianci opened his mouth, met Qin Muyun's serious expression, couldn't help but put his arms around her waist, and hugged her in his arms, "You!"

Nothing more can be said.

Qin Muyun whispered in her ear, "You like my waist so much."

"More than that," Zhao Xianci pressed his cheek against Qin Muyun's cold neck, "I like everything about you."

His face, which was already flushed from the wine, became hotter now.Qin Muyun smiled lowly, "Sister Zhao's waist is also tight to hold, it's hard to put it down."

She put her palm on Zhao Xianci's waist, feeling Zhao Xianci's body suddenly tightened, she couldn't help but secretly sighed, but she still didn't let go.

"Yun'er," Zhao Xian said for a long time, holding Qin Muyun's caressing hand, "itch..."

Qin Muyun blinked and said with a smile, "I forgot, my sister is the most ticklish."

Every time he frolicked with Zhao Xianci, and grabbed Zhao Xianci's waist, he would always grab the right one.Qin Muyun let go of his hand slightly, and leaned on Zhao Xianci relaxedly, "Xianci..."

"Ok?"

"I'm glad you said these things to me today."

Qin Muyun sighed secretly, it's really been a long time since he had a heart-to-heart talk with Zhao Xianci.Even if two people get along day and night, if they can't communicate with each other, they are just strangers living under the same roof.

"You care about me very much, even if you use an inappropriate way, I am very pleased."

Qin Muyun said, "I thought that I knew you well. However, maybe we haven't had a good chat for too long. In addition, you have experienced things that I don't know about after being separated in the past few years, so we seem to be a little bit apart."

After a pause, she asked again, "During these years, have you... encountered any difficulties?" But she didn't mention it?

Zhao Xian paused, knowing that what he said just now made Qin Muyun suspicious, so he murmured, "If you want to say that you have encountered a particularly difficult situation, it's not a question. However, I went from the palace to the southern province. Then it is really not that easy to build Fulong Tower."

"If... something bad happens to you," Qin Muyun said, "I hope you can tell me. I don't want to. Although I am with you, my heart is getting farther and farther away."

"I will." Zhao Xianci kissed her forehead, "I will."

Perhaps, if the time is right, I should also tell her about the knots in my previous life.Even though Qin Muyun in this life has never experienced those things in his previous life, if he could tell Qin Muyun personally that he never wanted to hurt her, and tell Qin Muyun those unavoidable and unbearable losses, perhaps, it would be able to offset some of the feelings in his heart. guilt.

Zhao Xianci has been tortured by this guilt for too long!

She couldn't help hugging Qin Muyun tightly, and her heart was full for a while.

Although he never thought that one day he would get along with Qin Muyun as he is now, this unprecedented sense of happiness also made Zhao Xianci more and more want to hold on to everything in his hands.

There is even an urge to throw everything at one basket.

Sensing her emotions, Qin Muyun asked softly, "What's wrong?"

"No, it's nothing," Zhao Xianci let out a satisfied sigh in his chest, "I'm just, so happy."

It never occurred to her before that Qin Muyun could be written by Zhao Xian!

The two women leaned on each other, this warm and fragrant nephrite made people so addicted!

Unfortunately, before she could be tender for a moment, Wan Qing knocked on the door, "My lord, Fuxin is here to pick up Miss Qin!"