Continuation of "Gone with the Wind"

Chapter 110 Five Hit a Passerby

Before leaving Paul's room, Paul asked her one last question: "Mrs. Butler, will you still insist on teaching me gentleman etiquette tomorrow?"

"It's okay." Scarlett felt that she didn't answer well enough, and added: "Don't forget, don't sleep late tomorrow." She put on the most kind and friendly look, looking at Paul, her cousin, the Robillard family The new generation smiled softly.

It was very late at night, but Scarlett sat alone in the darkness, still sleepless.The silence around reminded her to think, and there was nothing else she could do now.

Paul's matter was settled, even though the two of them cut corners and got a false result that seemed satisfactory, and the real substantive issues were not touched at all.But Scarlett thought about it again. In any case, the reputation of the Robillard family was temporarily preserved, and Tara was not in danger of changing hands.By the way, she suddenly remembered that she should send Will a telegram to remind him to pay attention to Tara's safety. Those two people definitely have no good intentions for Tara. She has to tell Will to ask him to prepare a few more guns. .Today is too late, she will do it tomorrow.She doesn't feel relieved to leave this matter to anyone, she has to go by herself.But tomorrow I agreed to Paul's request, so I had to go early and return early.Although it is impossible to make a full-blooded young man behave in one day, Rhett told her that the child has become much more honest than before, so that her pressure can be reduced a little. .It is difficult for a girl to become a lady, but it is easier for a boy to be accepted by the upper class, because adults do not have so many demands on boys.As long as Paul didn't cause trouble on purpose, she didn't expect that much else.Although northerners' gatherings are also gatherings, she is very reluctant that her family members will eventually learn to be a fan of the north, and the loss outweighs the gain.She didn't think so because of prejudice, but because of the long-standing habit of southerners. Southerners have to look like southerners.

Other problems couldn't be solved by thinking alone, and Scarlett just passed them through her mind for a while-though she knew they would not let her go easily.Not only did the mystery of Jack not decrease, but it increased with his departure.His memory is blank, he came from the north to the south, he met Philip, he was brought back to Hartford by Kevin, each of these things involved one or even several secrets that made her always uneasy, and between them I am afraid that only Jack himself knows how the relationship between them is, and it is even possible that he himself does not understand.There are many people who bear secrets, but he is the only one who insists on uncovering the truth, but he doesn't know that this simple persistence is the root cause of his successive unfortunate blows.

And Paul.Although she had told him the truth, she hadn't said enough.The truth is right, but it is wrong to deliberately hide most of it and only show part of it.Because she had a selfish purpose, she didn't want to tell him the truth. Although he didn't care, she had to care about her concealment from him.When Rhett told her the truth, he thought it was a matter that would be resolved sooner or later. He just raised a question that she ignored so that she could prepare early. He didn't know that there would be so many dusty pasts involved in it——she It was also impossible to tell him—Rett could not be blamed for the current dilemma, nor could Paul be blamed. The person to be blamed was not in front of her eyes, she had no idea what he looked like, and had no target at all.Besides, blaming other people will not help solve the problem at all. What she really needs to do is to try her best to make up for the hurt Paul has suffered in these years, and tell him about it after Paul has truly become a responsible and courageous man.At that time, he should be acceptable to his parents.After all, people don’t depend on their parents all their lives. After becoming independent, their dependence on their parents will naturally decrease, and the relationship with their parents will also change. They will not be as fragile and easy to break as before. Blood ties cannot be denied.He will have his own things to do, assume his own responsibilities, and form his own family. Boys are more obvious in these aspects. She was a woman who supported a family alone when she lost the protection of her parents. A man Why can't we?Of course, if he is really unwilling to accept it, Scarlett can understand it. After all, it is a mistake for a prostitute to be with a swinger, and it is even more wrong to have a child. It is an even bigger mistake not to be responsible for sending the child to other places. , if other children want to deny this mistake, why not?One does not have the right to choose one's God-ordained relatives, but one can choose to recognize or not recognize them.She would definitely feel sorry for Bell, after all, she is a good person, but for that Philip, she really hoped that Rhett could tell her that the mistake was not his child, he would have died long ago, even if he confessed to himself that Paul was his illegitimate child She can take it too.But, alas, this kind of thing is just thinking about it.In the end, she still didn't want to admit that her mother liked such a man who was not worthy of liking, and she also didn't want to admit that it was not worth it for Bell to give birth to Paul for him. Rhett became friends—in her eyes, there is no difference between an acquaintance and a friend in a man—although Rhett said that he was such a person himself, and he was not a good person, but she still looked down on Philip for abandoning his wife and children. She felt that she had every right to look down on him.People are like this, not only need the help of good people, but also need the help of bad people, because they need to be compared with them to prove that they are not very bad.Not everyone can stand on the moral high ground, especially for people like Scarlett. In fact, they often have the highest moral requirements for others.

It’s hard to say when Scarlett fell asleep. When she wakes up, she still admires her concentration. These things are mixed together to attack her mind, and she can sleep peacefully. Aunt Pete might be able to close it. The eyes are just to the point where no amount of smelling salts can save him from fainting.

She wondered why she suddenly thought of her, and then thought of many people in the south, no matter those who were close to her or those who avoided her, even those who opposed her everywhere like India became in her memory. So cute, Scarlett even missed the days of bickering with her.I don't know how it happened, maybe it's the psychological comfort of being away from home for too long.But to be honest, I have been in the north for some time, and this is the first time I miss people and things in the south.She had been living in the south before, but she didn't realize the beauty and loveliness of the south until she arrived in the north.She suddenly understood the motive behind Lanli taking Angela back to the south. No matter how bad her hometown is, it will not be forgotten by memory. It will gradually become gentle and amiable in the soft light of memory. It's hazy and mysterious, making people fall in love with it more and more, not to mention it's already very cute.A foreign country is the best catalyst for homesickness.People only want to remember the good things, and they are willing to forget the bad things.

In fact, it’s not just about my hometown, but many things are like this.

The summer morning is full of vitality, and the singing of the mockingbird is refreshing, and the clear and crisp voice is like a little hook, which draws out all the tenderness in Scarlett's heart one by one.At this time, it is actually the easiest for people to forget some things, such as Rhett's arrest, Paul's life experience, and Jack's departure.Just remember other things, such as Tara's white house shining with gold, such as the vigorous figure of father on the horse and whip, such as the beauty cherry scent on mother.Scarlett stayed like this for an indeterminate amount of time, until she remembered what she was going to do today.

When Scarlett was busy getting dressed, she already knew that leisure was not suitable for her. She was the type of person who was chased by life and ran forward desperately. For her, comfort was not only a luxury, but even a chronic poison.

Scarlett changed into her clothes, and rushed out of Walmont's house without saying hello to Lanli. The sun was gradually waking up on the city streets of San Francisco, and when she saw the flow of people flowing like blood in her veins, she remembered that she didn't know the way to the post office, and her wallet was left in the clothes she changed yesterday.Fortunately, she was quick and bold enough to think of asking someone for directions.Although she was still beating drums in her heart, she was worried that she would not understand what the northerners were saying, and she was even worried that those people would not want to tell her, but she immediately told herself that there was nothing to be afraid of. Find someone else.

But the situation was far less optimistic than she had imagined, or she couldn't be optimistic if she wanted to.When I was with those northern baggers in Atlanta, I didn't think she could understand what they said. Although the two parties were just acquaintances with wine and meat, at least there was no obstacle in communication.Who knows that now she is in the north and she is confused when she speaks, and the people she asks are very polite, and she patiently says to herself, "I'm sorry, ma'am, I don't know" .But what was the use of being polite now for Scarlett?Although she found that the northerners' personalities were not as exaggerated as they heard in the south, the gentleness did not help her at all.

In a moment of impatience, she forgot where she had been. She hadn't gone out much in the past few days since she came to San Francisco.When she was in a hurry, she didn't pay attention, and accidentally bumped into a person who happened to pass by and was about to walk behind her.Originally this was an accident that added trouble, Scarlett said sorry and hurried away, but because the man hurried with his head down, Scarlett bumped into his hat and almost knocked it to the ground, so she I couldn't help but stopped, and looked at him naturally.

Well-tailored clothes are worth a lot just by looking at the fabric, but wearing a dark gentleman's hat to cover the sweat on a hot day, and wearing it crookedly, looks a little funny, and Scarlett has the urge to laugh when she sees it , but she still held back, after all, she also bumped into the hat, and quickly bowed her head to apologize: "I'm sorry, sir, I didn't mean it."

The man was a little caught off guard, perhaps because he felt that Scarlett's accent was different from that of the locals, so he stopped in his tracks, turned his body slightly to adjust the knocked and deformed gentleman's hat, and put it on properly, and then felt Seeing that the weather was incompatible with this thing, she took it off and gave her a non-standard hat-off salute. Scarlett had no choice but to return the salute politely. The crooked etiquette can't hang on to the real elegant demeanor.