Continuation of "Gone with the Wind"

Chapter 65 Langley's Story

She was unwilling to admit the existence of such a terrible thing from the bottom of her heart.Although it is the same "that kind of thing", the difference between voluntary and involuntary is too great.No matter how she thought about it, she didn't want Lan Li to suffer misfortune.The Yankees are the Yankees, and Jack isn't from the North, and he hasn't done anything bad.Of course, she also knew that Jack was a foreigner after all, and it was okay to stay in the north for a long time, but Lanli was her compatriot, which was definitely different.But she couldn't tell what was different.The concept of a country is by no means distinguished by continents and oceans, nor is it defined by skin color and accent. It is more of a cultural level, and it is not an exaggeration to say belief.That is why Southerners—even cynical speculators like Rhett—fight for their Confederacy and their cause.And the northerners, no, the Yankees too?The thought jumped into her head suddenly, and she hurried to get it out, but it just stayed there.Rhett said that the war was all about money, but she found out he was wrong when she returned to the dilapidated Tara after the war.What was she thinking then, they were fighting for the land because Papa said the land was forever.The lands of the South are eternal—and so are the lands of the North.God forgive me for thinking of the Yankees!Scarlett was taken aback by her own thoughts, and she didn't know what was going on with her. She had never had enough brains to deal with such metaphysical problems that belonged to the spirit.Jack and Lanli, these two people who were only a little more familiar than strangers, just happened to have stayed in the north, and they aroused so many strange thoughts in her.Fortunately, Lan Li started talking again, otherwise she would be crazy to think about this issue.

"From your description, I really can't tell that this child has any traces of accomplices." Lan Li's expression softened, "Actually, it's because I didn't think carefully, if someone really brought him from the north to Charles If there is a pause, why did you throw him at the gate of the monastery again?"

"I can assure you, Lanli." Scarlett's expression became serious, "Jack is definitely not that kind of person. I am his legal guardian, and I have been with him for so long. I know him well, but he really hasn't done anything outrageous so far. There is only one thing he thinks about, to get back his poor memory." After she finished speaking, she immediately remembered Jack's painstaking efforts to help her and Rhett get back together , but she resisted the urge to tell Lan Li about it.In fact, she had another stubborn idea in her mind: even if Jack did that, she couldn't let anything happen to him.

"You don't have to be so formal, honey." Lan Li comforted her, "I also know that he is a good boy, and I am willing to believe him just because he cured my baby. You know, now except for Angela, For me, there is nothing more precious in this world. By the way, what happened to the portrait you mentioned just now? I’m just asking casually. If you have any inconvenience, don’t tell me.”

Scarlett almost forgot about it, but she remembered it when Lanli reminded her.She wanted to tell everything about this photo, but she had many concerns: few people knew about her killing of Yankee soldiers, and now only Rhett and Ashley knew about it. , is she going to tell Lanli about it, will she faint from fright when she hears that she killed someone?Besides, it is not sure whether that little girl is Angela herself. If not, Jack's efforts to retrieve his memory will have to start from scratch.Also, it was strange that Rhett took the portrait. She still didn't understand what he was trying to do.But looking at Lan Li's gentle and expectant eyes, she suddenly had the courage to tell the truth.To be honest, I only have Lan Li as a clue now.If it breaks, get a new one right away.Scarlett doesn't like to be sloppy, so she moved her brain quickly and organized her words—she was always careful when talking to Langley, not as casual as talking to Rhett, although that was a long time ago in her eyes It's over—from when she found out that Yankee soldier was sneaking into Tara to steal, how she worked up the courage to shoot, how she searched his knapsack and pockets with Melly, how she found that expensive picture frame ——She deliberately searched her memory and described its appearance in detail, as well as the amazing coincidence that the little girl and Angela in it were carved out of the same mold.Finally, what Jack told her just now, the portrait was borrowed by Rhett, but she didn't understand what he borrowed it for, but since Jack said that Rhett was willing to help him retrieve his memory in the north, it shouldn't be a bad thing.But why did Rhett know Lanli's daughter?Maybe knowing Angela's dad.

"Did you really kill that Yankee?" Lanli didn't ask about Angela's portrait first as she expected, but first talked about the Yankee who was killed by her, which caught Scarlett unexpectedly , "I'm so proud of you, dear Scarlett, you are so brave."

"Aren't you afraid to hear such a thing?" Scarlett looked at her radiant face strangely, feeling the excitement of being understood and supported again in her heart.

"Of course not. I really admire you, dear." Lan Li looked at her with a kind of reverence in her eyes, "I hate the Yankees the most in my life. If it weren't for them, I wouldn't—" She suddenly stopped He stopped talking, saw Scarlett's puzzled eyes, and immediately changed the subject and said, "I mean, if you didn't kill him and thought of searching him with your friend, Miss Melly, Stoke and I The last ties of the family must have been broken."

"Wait, Lanli, why don't I understand what you mean? Isn't that little girl Angela? Then who is she?" Although Scarlett knew that Angela's age and portrait did not match, she hadn't thought about it yet. But what is the relationship between that little girl and Lanli?Could it be—

"You guessed it right, Scarlett." Lan Li's expression suddenly became more gloomy, "That is indeed not Angela, no, it cannot be said that she is not Angela. To be precise, she is my little sister Angela , not my daughter Angela. They have the same name, in honor of my poor sister." Her eyes were full of sadness, and she looked a lot older.

"Then your sister..." Scarlett's first half of the sentence was a subconscious reaction in surprise, but after seeing Lan Li's heartbreaking eyes, she immediately retracted the second half of the sentence she was about to blurt out.

"She died because of the war. She was suffering from a strange disease. I still don't know what kind of terrible devil's curse it was, but it just focused on her, an angel who fell into the mortal world. Even I was infected I died, but I didn’t die—I would rather die myself. Later, I comforted myself that she was actually called back to heaven by God. God couldn’t bear her to suffer, so he took her back. Later, the merciful God saw I’m sorry, and another angel was given to me. She was like her when she was a child, but now she’s grown up, but she’s still like her.” She forced a smile at Scarlett, but Scarlett felt her heart for a while. pain.She understood the feeling of the sky falling. When her mother died and her father died, although she was not by their side, she was almost knocked down when she heard the bad news.But God seemed to think that he didn't suffer enough, and then there was Melly's death, Rhett's departure, and the death of Mammy, each of which was enough to make her feel heart-piercing pain, but she still survived , Every time I can put my heart that was torn into pieces together again, and after putting it together, I am still Scarlett O'Hara, and continue to live strong.Although she also has a feeling that is almost superstitious: God is just making trouble with herself, or just playing with herself.Every time I will bring myself a bigger blow, waiting for myself to stand up again-and then knock myself down; every time I will tear my heart to pieces, waiting for myself to put it back together-and then put it down shredded.She was really a little scared, and she didn't want to fight with God anymore, she just begged God not to make life difficult for her.But she also knew that it was useless, really useless.I still have to live like this in the future, I can't avoid it.All she can rely on is herself.As bleak as this is, it's better than nothing.

But she really doesn't like this kind of cruel game over and over again. In fact, no one in the world likes it.Although she was very strong, her strength was like a thick and solid wall that protected her from the storms in the outside world, so that she would not be harmed, but it was just a cold wall without any heat.Being strong does not warm people's hearts, she suddenly realized this.Because she remembered what Grandma Fontaine had said to herself: a woman is the worst if she is not afraid of anything;Who else said the same thing to me, oh, it was Rhett, when he was leaving-Scarlett really didn't want to say that he "run away from home"-what did he say to himself, "Your life is not easy, Scarlett, no one knows what you've been through better than I do. I just want you to stop struggling and let me carry the load for you." Well, why didn't I think of that sooner?Rhett loves her so much, that's why he is willing to treat her well, but as for himself, he keeps saying that he is the one he loves the most, but he doesn't even know what he wants. He just wants him to come back to him with all his heart, but never Think about how he feels.She doesn't know how to love someone at all.I didn’t know it in the past, so I fell in love with Ashley like a beautiful dress, but I didn’t think about whether he fits me; I still don’t understand it, so I lost Rhett, and I still can’t get it now. He—unless she is willing to change herself, or change the way she loves.Scarlett was no fool, life tried to beat her every time, but she never let it succeed, and after each victory she learned from him—or stole, it didn’t matter what—new things to arm her with. Own.Right now, there is only one way that works for me, and only this way can make Rhett happy—make him change his mind.Although her wish was so beautiful, she was still defeated by the deepest desire in her heart, which has almost become the only motivation for her to keep fighting: to get Rhett back to her side.