Continuation of "Gone with the Wind"

Chapter 73 Concessions

Also, if what he said was false, it would be of no benefit if he told Lan Li himself. At that time, he would not help himself no matter what threats or temptations.From any point of view, I shouldn't be an informer, so forget it, I can't pretend that there is no such thing - I told Lan Li just now - just keep this secret for Jack, and it can be regarded as helping Angela do me a favor.Having said that, this was the first time that Jack was willing to share his secret with himself, and he only told himself after he caught her handle. He didn't need to do this at all, it was just out of trust in himself a test.And if all this is false, then Langli's suspicion that Jack is a murderer will be self-defeating.Her gaze returned to calm again, and she looked back at Jack without hesitation.She knew that he had understood her thoughts, and she must be happy for herself, because there was a gratifying smile in his eyes.Sometimes there is no need to say anything between two people, but the eyes are enough to represent everything.The more words were spoken, the greater the misunderstanding, and she and Rhett had an absolute say in this.She smiled wryly again, thinking that she should also do something for Jack. He has helped her so much, and she should pay back.By the way, isn't he interested in Angela, then match them up.Anyway, there was nothing unworthy of Jack for her, and besides, Langley and Angela also liked him, and the two got along well.Oh, what am I thinking, it's just two children, it's too early to think so far.But frankly speaking, I really don't have much to do recently. The poor business of the grocery store can't be solved in a day or two. I have to discuss it with Lanli.She should find something else for herself to do instead of just thinking about making money, money can't represent everything.Now she can finally calm down and think this way openly, the dream of running hungry in the fog never disturbed her sleep again.Of course, she can no longer be as impulsive as before. It depends on the intention of the person concerned. Maybe she can ask Jack himself first.

Jack watched her facial expression constantly changing, and his mood went up and down involuntarily. From the anxiety of seeing her shining eyes like blowflies at the beginning, to seeing her eyes no longer wandering around, but looking firmly at her. Looking at his relief and relief, and now her bright emerald eyes (although they are the same pair of eyes, but it gives him a world of difference between bad ideas and good ones), he feels A little nervous, but also with strong anticipation, like a child's mood before opening a gift box.But although he was well prepared psychologically, he still didn't expect Miss Scarlett to say such earth-shattering words.He had long forgotten how he felt at that time, and only remembered that he was there in a daze.Later, Miss Scarlett imitated his expression with Mr. Rhett in front of him. In her words, it was "like a well-grown big tree was suddenly struck by lightning, and the whole face was shattered." It was burning red, and she was shyer than a little girl who met her lover for the first time." It made Mr. Rhett laugh out loud, and told her that she didn't expect you to be so penetrating and sarcastic, it was so vivid.Never ask how the person being satirized feels.At that time, he thought regretfully, if he didn't become a hotheaded old man, and only one of the two of them was left, it would be easier to deal with it. Now it seems that his life will be difficult in the future.Who said that good people must be rewarded with good rewards? Isn't he a living lesson?

In fact, although his reaction was a bit extreme, he quickly returned to normal. It was not as exaggerated as Miss Scarlett said. After all, he was considered a seasoned veteran.But this was the first time that Miss Scarlett had seen through his mind, and it was inevitable that he would be a little surprised.Later, recalling the scene at that time, what he admired most was himself.Because the first thing he said after waking up was: "Miss Scarlett, you are really free." Maybe it was out of revenge for his ungrateful young man that Miss Scarlett intentionally gave Mr. Ritter Let's slander him like this in front of him.If you talk too much, you will lose. It seems that I can't talk so much in the future.

Because of Jack's rude words, Scarlett scolded Scarlett, which completely dispelled her idea of ​​an arranged marriage.In fact, this is a good thing for Jack, because so far he still doesn't know what kind of feelings he has for Angela. The worst thing is that he doesn't know which Angela he has feelings for, whether it is a portrait or a real person, is it pure Want to help someone or help this person as a friend, or as someone else.It wasn't until this time that he realized the embarrassment of his identity. He had never bothered about it before, and he had thrown it aside a long time ago, but now it came back.The social status gap between him and Angela was too great, and it was an insurmountable gap.He is an unknown foreigner, and there is no one to prove his parents' family, let alone his family background.Although he was adopted by a lady from a great family, it was only legal. Apart from changing a more noble surname, he didn't even have the right of inheritance, which Miss Scarlett told herself from the beginning.In fact, he doesn't care about whether he has the right of inheritance at all, and it doesn't even matter if he changes his surname. Anyway, he will make money in the future, and his name is just for others, and it doesn't mean much to himself.Since the day he was adopted, he has recognized one thing clearly, that he will never be able to return to China in his life.After a short period of sorrow, he immediately decided to take root in the United States and live a good life.It's just that he doesn't know what to do now, and his survival orientation has always been vague.And the three identities he defined before, conscientious nanny, obedient servant, and boarder who doesn't pay the rent, are just the roles he should play in the eyes of others, not what he really wants.He should make a complete plan for his future life, how to integrate into American society, what he will do when he becomes an adult, and how to make enough money (he regrets thinking of his absurd ideal, he really shouldn't be so impulsive) said).All of these can be summed up in one sentence, how to get a better life on your own in an unfamiliar place.

In fact, there is another very important thing, whether I want to go to the north.The case of Dr. Duncan's family is not over yet, the murderer is still at large, and his own amnesia must be inseparable from this matter, he must figure it out.Now that I am alone and weak, it is tantamount to a fantasy to do this. Maybe I should put it aside and concentrate on solving the problems in front of me.Regarding the matter between himself and Angela, he decided to let nature take its course, and he was mentally prepared that it was his own wishful thinking; let them solve the affairs of the adults, and he should not interfere indiscriminately; he should go back to school to continue studying, but not Knowing whether Miss Scarlett is willing to sacrifice a nanny in exchange for a college student, relying on her own manuscript fee is a drop in the bucket.Besides, he has been busy with other things, and he hasn't written anything for a long time.Although the relationship between himself and Miss Scarlett is not as defensive as before, but if he asks for help, he still needs money, and he might as well be dumb for the rest of his life.Even if the money is paid off in the future, he will never pay back those feelings for the rest of his life.He didn't justly accept other people's good capital for him, let alone begging for others to be good to him.

These practical difficulties were laid before him one by one, and he forced himself to face them, and carefully studied the methods of overcoming them like a persistent thief picking a lock.I should resume writing immediately. I can no longer write those leisurely planting experiences. I have to learn to write other things. Readers can write whatever they like, at least they must earn enough to travel to Hartford.He thought of Balzac who was exhausted writing to pay off his debts. Of course he didn't want to become like him, but he could learn from that spirit.My own life is so rich, is there still something I can write about?He suddenly remembered his half-joking quarrel with Miss Scarlett. The story of the two of them was so worth writing, but he didn't know how the parties would feel.As for writing, Mrs. Lanli's family has a lot of books, probably bought for Angela, and he can borrow some for reference.By the way, Angela, he thought of her again, but this time not out of some ambiguous thoughts that he couldn't figure out, but out of pure worry.The color of the blood on the fishbone she spat out was very ominous, and it might be a sign of some serious illness.He should have seen it long ago. Apart from her mental illness, she was also physically ill.I don't know how much my medicine will work, but I'll give it a try anyway.

Because he couldn't find a suitable casserole pot, it took Jack a lot of effort to boil the medicine. Finally, he finally thought of a remedy, using clay pots instead, and the effect was not bad. Angela just thought Chinese medicine was bitter and didn't want to Drink, Jack told her for a long time that the good medicine is good for the disease, and she was not moved. He had no choice but to ask Mrs. Langley for help.Originally, Lanli thought that Angela would listen to her the most, but after hypnosis, she found that her good daughter seemed to be a different person, still docile, but not as obedient as before. Angela drank the medicine slowly until she promised to send a telegram to Deason asking him to come to Atlanta, and took the medicine that Jack would never forget in his In the impression that only women who are in childbirth can have a joyful expression bursting out of pain.He was sure he was blushing again, but luckily no one noticed.