Continuation of "Gone with the Wind"

Chapter 98 Deason's plan

Lan Li finally got her freedom. She wanted to run back to her room immediately to hide, but when she saw Disson's eyes like a whirlpool with strong suction, and the sea-like blue pupils exactly like Angela, she couldn't help herself. He quickly took back the steps he had taken and stood there firmly.She used to wonder why Angela's eyes were more like Dyson's than hers, let alone the taupe eyes of a father she'd never met.Not only did this not change her impression of Disson, but it intensified her disgust, making her feel that he was using her closest people to invade her psychological defense.Of course, she herself knew that this was pure nonsense, but what she needed at that time was this kind of unreasonable hatred as a defense, because her hatred needed a reason to support it, no matter whether the "reason" itself was reasonable or not.

She used to be very reluctant to meet Disson's eyes. In fact, Disson was right. She was always afraid that she would get lost and be trapped in this deep blue.But she knew that she really couldn't escape this time, and she didn't want to escape again, she just waited for the deep affection in Di Sen's blue eyes to engulf her into a field she had never set foot in.To her surprise, she wasn't afraid at all.

Dison stood up from the sofa and stepped in front of her. His tall figure completely blocked the light in front of Lanli.The gas lamp dragged his shadow very long, enveloping Lanli and her shadow completely.All kinds of complex smells on his body: the undispelled smell of wine, the smell of coffee left at the corner of his mouth, and the strong masculine smell, intertwined into a dense net in the air, covering her overwhelmingly.Her eyes moved slowly over Disson's face. She had never observed him so carefully before.Her gaze finally settled on his eyes, and she found herself in his blue pupils became so clear for the first time, she even saw the expression on the woman's face, there was no fear, some were just able to explain the confusion clearly Looking forward, that expression is quiet and even gentle.

Disen clearly saw the change in her facial expression, and his voice softened for a moment: "Honey, even if you hate me, I still want to call you that, because I love you, since I saw you You hated me because you knew about it, right, because I shot your husband on the right index finger at close range and disqualified him from being a soldier. He was taken to a prisoner-of-war camp, and he was treated by Kevin. But his southern blood made him prefer to die than accept medical treatment from the north, so he died of wound infection in the end. I think you later blamed Kevin It's not all because you don't understand his pains about Angela's illness, but you did misunderstand him. It wasn't him who told me about your husband's situation. I knew it myself. I don't want to say it if it wasn't because I was on him I found your photo, I know he is your husband, so I made up my mind to go to the south and snatch you from him. If you shirk your responsibility, that's a jerk-although I know I'm a man in your eyes An out-and-out asshole, but I never think so myself-sorry, it seems to be a long way off-what I want to say is that Kevin really did his best when he rescued him later, and he can only blame himself for not To live up to expectations. Moreover, I can only say that his injury is my responsibility, but I am actually very grateful for his death."

Lan Li originally thought that after so many years, she could calmly listen to Disson's grievances and grievances, but she was wrong. For her, some things can't change their bloody and hideous image no matter how long it has passed. I can never accept such a so-called "love" with a strong bloody smell.Even if she never loved her cousin, does he deserve to die because of herself?Even if the man in front of him loves him deeply, can he not be responsible for his husband's death?The damned Yankee!It wasn't enough for them to invade her home, they had to take away her daughter and her unbroken love.The blood of the southerners boiled in her body, but her face gradually became serious, and her voice also became cold.

"According to what you said, I really shouldn't hate your cousin anymore. But that doesn't mean I will forgive you for the wrong things you did. How many people you kill on the battlefield is your own business, but I It's my own business to hate you." Looking at the helplessness in Disson's eyes, she felt inexplicably heartbroken, and it was this heartache that made her even more ashamed.The intense shame and her heartache were fighting fiercely, and the rising smoke covered all the weakness and tenderness in her heart, stimulating her to say the most hopeless words: "I will never forgive you."

"I know." Disson's voice revealed a kind of helplessness, but it was still gentle, like a grass growing tenaciously under the weight of a boulder. "It's me you hate, and it's what I did, even though it's my part. I don't think I've done anything wrong, so I don't need to ask you to forgive me." Gradually, his tone hardened , with firmness as always. "But I still want to say, what I want is you. Even if you hate me, you can't stop me from loving you. To put it another way, I love you is my own business." His breathing became heavy, his eyes It was suddenly brightened by a bolt of lightning that came in from outside.

"What are you going to do?" Lan Li sensed the dangerous atmosphere spreading around her, but instead of backing away, she stared fixedly into his eyes. The worries are not for her. "You're not letting go of Scarlett's business, are you, you promised—"

"Of course I won't deliberately do things that make you look down on me." Disson raised his chin, his unshaven beard glowed with a soft blue light. "The two of us have known each other for so long, I think you should have some understanding of me."

Lan Li didn't speak, because she knew he was right again, but her self-esteem didn't allow her to admit it.On the contrary, his confidence in accurately predicting his own and her thoughts is the only thing she can't think of but the only thing she can't hate.Deep down in her heart, she is a sensible person who is right about things but not about people. No matter what people say, as long as what she says makes sense, she will not talk nonsense because of others.Even when facing someone she hates, she will choose the truth silently but without hesitation.Her silence was an admission.This character, of course, caused her many troubles that could have been easily avoided, but she always felt that she was right in doing so.

Having said that, is it because he has known about his character long ago that he is so confident?

The atmosphere became awkward again, but at this time Scarlett changed her clothes and came down.A lavender long dress looks mysterious against the light, but it won't keep people away because it's too high.Disson was obviously very satisfied with her dress taste and nodded repeatedly.And Lan Li was secretly glad that she had such precise timing, which just avoided the embarrassing situation between her and Disson because they couldn't talk together.For some reason, she is now very afraid of the recurrence of the situation where two people face each other silently.But she suddenly understood why, because she had nothing to rely on to escape.Not Angela, not Scarlett, not even the Southern spirit that had sustained her until just now.This big house is filled with the unique enthusiasm of the northerners and the self-confidence that they don’t care about their injuries. Her southern spirit has not been wiped out, and it still lingers tenaciously in her heart, just like the most loyal and brave Su Mu. dog.Only when she wanted to release it to fight against the "Yankees", did she find that what she met was not a wolf, but a shepherd who had been waiting for a long time.No matter how stubborn and rebellious this Su Mu dog is, it will still be tamed after all.Because what they are guarding is the same precious flock after all.

Lanli wondered how her thoughts changed so quickly. Just now, she was still at odds with the man in front of her. Why did it only take a while... She didn't dare to think about it anymore, and there was no time, because Disen had already Talk to Scarlett about rescuing Rhett.This required his introduction and her close cooperation, and the rest depended on Scarlett's own ability.

But not only Scarlett, but even Lan Li felt that Disson's opening remarks were incomprehensible and long-winded. He didn't talk about specific actions for a long time, but repeated some principles of handling things. He didn't look like a commander who graduated from West Point Military Academy. Well, it looks like a bad preaching preacher, and certainly a preacher much older than his hair.

"What I am about to say may sound uninteresting to you, but please bear in mind that it is as important to you as it is to him if you really want to get Mr. God’s revelation to Moses or Noah’s dream.”

Scarlett said nothing, because Deason's words had succeeded in tightening her nerves to the point where she couldn't open her mouth—though she didn't remember who Moses was.

"First, this matter must not be made a big deal. Even if it is a big deal to you, it must be made into a small deal." Disson looked at Scarlett seriously, and seeing her puzzled expression, he explained Said: "Because you should understand that Rhett's identity is very sensitive. Regardless of what he did, whether it was selling arms or intending to treason, in short, whatever crime those people say he committed, it doesn't matter how many lawyers he has to defend. The law changes, because the courts will not sit at all. This has advantages and disadvantages for you. The disadvantages needless to say, normal judicial justice will not help you, although the laws here are rarely fair; the advantages It is that this matter can be solved directly by someone without going through the judicial process, and it can even be done quietly, and no irrelevant people will be disturbed. You don’t want your husband to be accused by the New York Times or the Tribune. Go on board, so that you will not be a good man when you return to the South. The governor does not want his name to be associated with a political prisoner. After all, he is not the president, has no power of amnesty, and it is not so easy to release someone. And General Grant seldom comes to San Francisco. In fact, this is good. If the governor can manage well, he will not need a bigger official. Southerners regard honor as life, and now the relationship between the North and the South has not been reconciled. It is not so good to do so. It is eye-catching, and it can better maintain the reputation of you and your husband in the south." Scarlett heard him say such a long paragraph, although she still can't fully understand some parts, but she knows the main idea, in short, she can't disturb too much People, whether they are from the south or the north.She really didn't think much about this point. When she first heard Deason say that the president has the power of amnesty, she wanted to go directly to Washington to meet the president and ask for an amnesty order, but she forgot to consider what would happen if the news spread to the South. How to repair your own reputation.Now she only reacted after Disson's reminder, so she was very grateful to Disson for thinking of this layer for her.