your name is so tricky

In the ninth year after I came out, Lao Qi finally acquiesced in my sexual orientation. I brought He Yu into the house. The battle that day was like a new wife meeting her parents-in-law for the first time. coming.He Yu dropped out of high school, and the rest of his life seemed to be a mess. Lao Qi said that although he agreed with me to find a man to live with, the other party's conditions should not be too bad, and He Yu just couldn't catch his eyes. .Of course, nine years have passed, and it is naturally a small problem that the family is not in the right place. If they disagree, then I will continue to waste.

My acquaintance with He Yu is actually full of drama, not as romantic as Ao Ao and Hao Fang.In our circle, the two of them are a miracle. Those who have heard of them are half-believing, thinking that this legendary story must have been processed by many people. The chances of a straight guy bending over naturally after meeting a guy is next to zero.Of course, I know this very well. I am both envious and jealous of Ao Ao. I envy him for having good parents, and I envy him for being romantic and happy for so many years and finally finding someone who can catch Hao Fang.

After graduating from university, I spent two years starting my own business. Of course, I was not quiet during my entrepreneurship period. I met a group of people on the Internet, and occasionally went out to find fun. Of course, the few gay shops in the city I went to the most. Bar.Although it is a first-tier city, there are only a few GAY bars. I often go there, and the bosses and customers will feel familiar when I bump into them occasionally.He Yu didn’t know him because of his familiar face, but he was mentioned by his friends. Many people wanted to find him, including some of my friends. After pointing him out a few times, I recognized him.

In fact, I have a good impression of him. Speaking of appearance, I can pick out two or three like him out of a hundred people.When he was quiet, he was a little childish and youthful, and when he was crazy, he was a little unrestrained. I saw him get drunk the other day, holding the steel pipe and twisting his waist. Is the command of the lower body, like many people who like him, I want him.

But I have never been very proactive, and I don’t like to force others. If there is a destiny, I will meet him one day. With this idea, I am like a spectator, watching others chase him, watching The foolishness of being ready to move when discussing him with the friends around him.Maybe God pity me, since the first person I liked was forcibly dragged out of my world by Lao Qi, I have never been tempted again, so I thought about sending He Yu to me.

At that time, He Yu was only eighteen or nineteen years old. Anyone who saw him would think that he should be the kind of good boy who studies in school obediently. A table boy in a nightclub.But I also heard that he is very proud, it seems that going to work in that kind of place is purely for his own fun, he will show up to the customers he likes, and he will not be moved by the ones he doesn't like no matter how much money is thrown at him.It was a coincidence that I was dragged by Tang Shiyang to a nightclub that had just opened that day. When the manager led the boys in, I recognized He Yu.

It was not a coincidence that I pointed him out. I have been curious about him for so long, and it is a rare opportunity to get close to him. Of course, I will not waste it in vain.When he sat next to me, I became unpromisingly nervous. It is not a normal man to order a boy in this kind of place and not take the opportunity to take advantage of it. It is normal to take it out if he takes a fancy to it.Thinking about it, I was really a little unconscious at the time, and I actually thought that he was the kind of boy who was so pure and clean that I couldn't handle it with my dirty hands.Later, He Yu told me that when he saw me that day, he thought I was still a well-dressed beast, better than anyone he met before.

After drinking some wine, my nervousness slowly dissipated. He chatted with me from time to time, and he didn't take the initiative to lean on me unless I touched him.When it was time to close, Tang Shiyang asked me if I wanted to take someone out so that he could pay the bill.He Yu also heard this, he didn't look at me, I tentatively asked if he would like it, but he nodded readily if he didn't want to.

Instead of taking him to a hotel, I took him back to my bachelor apartment.In fact, along the way, I have been struggling with whether to take the initiative as soon as the door is closed or to be a gentleman step by step, but when I got home, I became nervous again, thinking that I was almost sober from the wine.He Yu suddenly said that he has always been based on the appearance of people, and he can't be old, short, ugly, or whiter than him.Although I don't usually look in the mirror very much, I can also know that he is complimenting me in disguise as more beautiful than ordinary people.

If it is hypocritical, it must be Ao Ao, but I also became hypocritical that night. I chatted with He Yu for a long time, and he didn't remind me until it was almost daylight. When in vain.I smiled and said that I didn't pay the money anyway, so I don't feel bad.

But he said that he wanted to do it, and he hadn't met a customer who closed his eyes for half a month, and he was almost dissatisfied with his desire.I shook my head with a smile, then leaned down to kiss him, and my lips gently touched his eyes and forehead, and then he threw himself into my arms, biting me like a puppy .If I can hold back in this situation, then I am really not a man.

After I was done, I carried him to take a bath, and he didn't even bother to move when he lay on top of me, letting me manipulate him.It is true after thinking about it, with his thin body, it will be strange if he has the strength after four or five hours of doing it.He didn't tell me anything about him before, but from his tone, I can feel that he has experienced some things. His attitude towards life is not in line with his age, and there is some old-fashioned charm. I actually Some feel sorry for him.

I said to him, He Yu, why don't you follow me and stop working in nightclubs.As soon as I said this, I regretted it a little. It was a bit abrupt for someone I just met for a night.He Yu smiled and asked me if I wanted to keep him?I patted his head and said, I'm only 26, and I'm not an old man.

But he agreed, just as easily as I asked him if he wanted to introduce me.

After getting along for a long time, I found that He Yu was completely born according to the type I like, and the crazy energy that comes up occasionally can always make my life fall to the bottom.Since coming out of the closet, the relationship between me and my family has not eased. It is a lie to say that I am not lonely. No one cares, no one cares. This rare freedom has turned into torture.

He never took the initiative to ask me what I wanted, and he would never refuse anything I gave him. When he was in a good mood, he would act like a baby, and when he was in a bad mood, he would go crazy. I am willing to tolerate everything about him, and there is no slightest accommodation in the middle Inside, no matter what he looks like, it is rare for me.Maybe it's been too long since anyone has indulged himself in front of me so truly, he didn't pretend, and I devoted myself wholeheartedly.

Of course, we have also broken up several times, each time he raised it unilaterally and I coaxed him cheekily, and I was able to coax him back every time.I always thought it was my sincerity that made him irresistible. It wasn't until Yang Mo's reappearance that I really realized that the small fights were just because I never really hurt him. Once he felt really hurt, It will completely leave me.

Ten years later, Yang Mo, to me, is like a good song that was once popular. If you listen to it too much, you will get bored, but if you listen to it after a while, it will stir up the emotions that are gradually buried in your heart.When he appeared in front of me again, the seeds that had been buried in the deep soil quickly revived. I spent almost all the enthusiasm I could use in my youth on him, so this germination was unstoppable.

When He Yu broke up with me again, I didn't coax him, and I didn't have the extra thought to coax him.I ignored Lao Qi once said that he bought Yang Mo from me with 20 yuan. All I could see was the affection and self-blame in Yang Mo's eyes. Time had settled on him, and he was no longer the same Yang Mo is also more lethal than back then.

Ao Ao said that I am a person who is too nostalgic, which is not bad, but it depends on what the matter is. I know what kind of person Yang Mo is, but I still want to move forward as always.I said that he can't be blamed for that incident back then, and Yang Mo also said that we were too weak at that time and had no ability to resist the world and our family members. Now that our wings are full, no one can stop us anymore.

In all honesty, I trust him completely. The fire that burned the most vigorously ten years ago was cut off out of thin air, and it burned fiercely again ten years later.A few months after my old relationship with Yang Mo rekindled, I found out that he had someone outside. That was the first time I tasted betrayal, which made me feel more uncomfortable than leaving me back then.

On the day when he tore his face apart, he said that I hadn't changed at all all these years, and that any time he got close to me, it was just nostalgia.He also said that there are very few people in this circle who are sincere. Maybe he was sincere ten years ago, but after ten years, we will not have the strength to love again except relying on the unburned firewood.

That day, I actually smiled in relief. How is it different between me and him?

It was rare for Ao Ao to be sincere once, but he met Hao Fang. I was sincere twice, but I couldn't get Yang Mo back.

Calm down and think about it, what Yang Mo values ​​more is not the old relationship, but the career I have accumulated over the years.At that time, I was not clear-headed, thinking that it was just mutual benefit, but the one who benefited the most was nothing more than him who had no fat when he first returned to China.In fact, I am still not as good as him, at least Yang Mo knows what he wants, and the acting is quite good.Of course, I told him that there is no righteousness in buying and selling, and I'll just give him what he wants, but just don't lie to me again, I won't be so pitiful that I need him to give me affection.

I didn't have the face to go to He Yu again, and I let myself mess around, and my life returned to its original state.Lao Qi actually started to worry about me now, and put down his dignity and asked me to bring He Yu home again, as long as it wasn't Yang Mo.It is said that if you don't listen to the old man's words, you will suffer in front of your eyes. I'm afraid he has already recognized what kind of person Yang Mo is.

If I ever had love, it was all for Yang Mo.But what I want now is to have someone who can let me guard him with peace of mind and who can always let me take care of him.But fate is like this, you have to wait until you lose everything before you suddenly realize that the best has already been missed.

At a gathering of friends, I met He Yu again. I think this should be arranged by Hao Fang.When I broke up with He Yu, if Ao Ao hadn't pulled Hao Fang, he would have beaten me half to death. He said that He Yu is not a person who can't afford to play. Pretending to be affectionate, taking He Yu's heart away and throwing it back, it's a human thing!

For Ao Ao's sake, I didn't fight back, let him scold me.At that time, no matter what I said, it would be considered sophistry, but I still hope that He Yu can understand me and don't hate me.It wasn't until he looked at me angrily with red rabbit eyes at the party that I knew I was wrong.

I know I'm a jerk, but after thinking about it, I still feel that I shouldn't treat He Yu like this. Even if I know that he can't forgive me, I can't just let it go.

I said that I never like to take the initiative, nor do I like to force, but I still brought the drunk He Yu back to my home, and he will naturally leave after waking up.I stopped him and asked if he could forgive me just once.He Yu punched me, and that small fist hurts a lot. He said you should go dreaming. You only thought of him after being dumped by Yang Mo. Even if he sold it at the beginning, he was also an ancient Qinhuai. The famous courtesans on the river, no one likes me like a stray dog.What He Yu said not only did not destroy my confidence, but made me feel more likely to chase him back.

So I went to ask Hao Fang, Hao Fang is his best friend all the time, so I had no choice but to ask him for help.I think it was because I stayed with He Yu for too long, and Hao Fang was unambiguous when he scolded others. My half-life brother just watched quietly and didn't say a good word for me.I knew I was wrong, and I was already prepared to be beaten. These few scoldings were nothing to me.

Hao Fang asked me if I had figured it out or because I thought of He Yu because there was no one around me. I patted my chest and said that I came here with the idea of ​​living with He Yu for the rest of my life.Speaking of this, Ao Ao began to speak good words for me, and promised to watch from the sidelines. If I had any other thoughts, Hao would have solved me with his own hands without letting go.Hao Fang finally let go, and began to give advice on how to win back He Yu's heart.

Hao Fang said that it was a good idea for Ao Ao to sneak into his house in the middle of the night. He gave me a key to He Yu's house, and told me to sneak into He Yu's house every night after twelve o'clock from now on. I can't do anything. Do it, just hold him to sleep.Hao Fang said that He Yu's heart is not as soft as his, so I must recharge my energy, otherwise I will not be able to withstand the next beating and scolding without good physical strength.

Just as Hao Fang expected, I was beaten a lot in the first few days, but I just stayed at his house and refused to let me hug me, so I slept next to the bed and hugged him when he fell asleep. God he must have woken up in my arms.In the next few days, not only did he not beat me, he didn't even scold me, he just treated me like air. I don't know if this situation is developing for the better or worse.

He Yu changed the door lock, and I couldn't get in anymore.It happened to be winter, so I sat directly in front of his house for the whole night. He Yu opened the door early the next morning and saw me at his door. The expression on his face fluctuated a little. It would be the best thing to faint in front of his house, but unfortunately, he is in good health, and he doesn't feel any discomfort other than feeling sleepy.

Ao Ao said that it was time to take a strong medicine, so that day he took off my coat and asked me to go in only a single shirt.I didn't even take a nap that night, I was so cold that I jumped back and forth, and the people who went up and down the stairs looked at me with crazy eyes, but no one with good intentions sent me a piece of clothes.

For two consecutive nights, I finally felt that I had a fever, and the fever was so severe that I collapsed in front of He Yu's house before dawn.The neighbor next door finally showed kindness and knocked on He Yu's door for me, asking if someone died in front of his house.In a daze, I saw He Yu coming out in his pajamas, and slapped my face hard twice, not waking me up.Seeing that He Yu finally paid attention to me, the stone in my heart fell and my will became weaker, and I couldn't lift my eyelids anymore.

My illness looked scary, but it was actually just a common typhoid fever.After Tang Shiyang heard about how my disease came about, he kept complaining about how bad the idea was. It would be more fun to break my arm with a stick. As an orthopedic doctor, he can be so dedicated That's really nothing to say.Originally, I could leave after the infusion, but Tang Shiyang did some manipulations in the middle, and the doctor said that I need to stay in the hospital for three days for observation.

He Yu sent me here during the day and then went back. Hao Fang said that my condition was a little bit serious, saying that I couldn't take care of myself these days and had to stay with someone at night.In the evening, He Yu really came, he didn't bring anything, he just poured me a glass of water, and said that if he wanted to go to the bathroom, he would ask for help, and then he fell asleep on the nurse's bed next to him.

It's a pity that there is no infusion at the moment. If there is, I can bite the bullet and dial it.In the middle of the night, I climbed onto the narrow nursing bed lightly, with half of my body hanging over the edge of the bed.Fortunately, He Yu didn't turn over all night, otherwise I would have fallen to the ground.When I woke up the next day, I only felt that my throat was on fire. After the doctor who made the rounds took my temperature, I wondered why I had a high fever.Later, I went for a blood test and it turned out to be pneumonia.

Tang Shiyang told He Yu that if he didn't forgive me, he would have meningitis tomorrow, and he would be the one crying if I had something to do.Before I had anything good or bad, He Yu started crying. The people watching the excitement in the ward were very interesting, and they didn't forget to close the door when they left.I finally did something I wanted to do last night but had no chance to do it. I tore off the needle with one hand, grabbed He Yu's neck and gnawed it.

I tasted He Yu's tears, it was very salty and hot, it was so hot that my whole heart felt like a knife was gouging out.Everything today is my own fault. If I could wake up earlier, He Yu, who has always been strong, would not cry in front of so many people.I know that he has forgiven me at this time, but I can't forgive myself, and all I can do is to try to make up for him in the days to come.

You ask me what happened afterwards?As a person in authority, I can't describe us in the eyes of others, but I think He Yu and I are no different than Ao Ao and Hao Fang.He doesn't like to go to work, so I will support him, if he doesn't want to do housework, then let me do it, after all, I owe him.

Love is such a thing, you can't go deep into it, you can't feel it when you are in it, and you will feel that it is just a beautiful illusion after jumping out.I will tell He Yu that I love him, and there is no emotion in my heart when I say it, but he always laughs like a mountain flower.It's not so much the love between me and him, it's not the fishy pity between two bruised beasts, we are both willing to put aside our stubbornness and show our wounds to each other, this kind of acquaintance can be much worse than love.

When I was 32 years old, Ao Ao invited the four of us to have a wedding in the Netherlands. We even bought the rings as a group.Because it was too far away, I thought there would be few people attending the wedding, but I never thought that Tang Shiyang and Song Yan would parade through the streets with a big horizontal symbol, saying that anyone who is willing can come to watch the ceremony, and thanks to them , Our wedding actually made local headlines.

My story has been told here, and it will be long-winded if I go on.We are all consummated, but Tang Shiyang is still on the way of courtship.