Yaohi Hill

Shi Kui finally remembered who the boy in front of him was.

It was not long after she returned to the Warring States Period, she rescued a comatose child on the road.That child has a pair of very deep eyes. Although his appearance is still immature, what is contained in his eyes is a kind of vicissitudes that have gone through the world.

She will never forget those eyes.

Dark and grim.

——This is exactly the same as the boy in front of him.

The boy raised his head to look at her, and seeing Shikui's expression became a little weird, he said quietly: "Master Miko, when I saw you, I finally understood one thing."

For some reason, Shi Kui suddenly became nervous, and she asked, "What is it?"

Although the boy's eyes are calm, there is a sense of pressure that makes people have to look at him.His voice is clear and clear like a child's, but his tone is old and intimidating: "I have always thought that I am alone."

"I am a unique existence in this world. Wealth and fame are just fleeting things. Once a person dies, everything is gone. But I am different from them. Only I can span time, so I will live in this body Hundreds of years."

When Shi Kui heard this sentence, he had a faint guess in his heart.

This boy is probably the same as I imagined... It was only after eating mermaid meat that he became like this.It's just that he is more miserable than himself, because time relentlessly stays in his childhood.

He does not have the life of a normal person, and it is bound to be impossible for him to marry and have children like a normal person, and then feel the pain and joy in the world.

After eating mermaid meat, his fate changed.

He will never grow up again.

But no one's mind will stay in childhood forever, even if he can feel and think about the people around him like an adult, there is no way to treat him as an adult.

Even himself.

The boy hugged the little bear in his arms, and said calmly, "But it's different now." Although he was used to being quiet, his eyes still flashed with excitement uncontrollably, "Master Miko, you are still alive. "

"Hundreds of years have passed, but you are still alive—as expected, there are still existences like me in this world."

"I have never died. The long search must be for this moment. Our goodbye shows that my guess must be right."

Shi Kui's heart is also a little complicated.

Looking at the little boy, she remembered the days when she was wandering alone.

At that time, she also asked herself, why did she come to this world?

What she saw after her death was not the unchanging tranquility for thousands of years, but the long-term inseparable loneliness and loneliness.

The kind of loneliness that can almost kill a person can also make a person crazy.

Shi Kui did not become the latter because she met someone who gave her warmth, but the little boy was not.

So he will inevitably be tortured to the point of madness by loneliness, and do things that he can't even predict.

The little paper people flew back.

Their small bodies emit faint light, like the stars that are not bright in the sky.

The little paper people whispered a few words in Shi Kui's ear. After she heard the message they conveyed to herself, the blood in her body seemed to freeze. She could hardly believe that the little boy in front of her could do such a thing, but Her expression finally froze on her face.

"I understand how you feel, I know that loneliness is enough to destroy people, and I also understand the feeling that life is worse than death." Shi Kui heard herself say coldly, "But anyway, this is not what you do. The cause of the matter."

The boy listened to her sigh without moving, and a kind of sadness suddenly appeared in his slightly drooping eyebrows and eyes.

He knew she had found out, but he didn't want to argue.

It was also the first time that he didn't want to defend himself, and he didn't want to use lies to cover up his mistakes—although he didn't think what he did was wrong.

For so many years, he used to use his weak body to deceive one human after another.They simply believe that he is a really innocent child, but the most deceiving human beings in this world are their own eyes.

Man is such a self-deceiving animal, and has always been.

Shikui cast a curse on the little boy.

He was a little surprised, only felt that his body seemed to be out of his control, and he could only follow her steps.

Her heart was beating extremely fast.

He turned around and ran towards the villa.

When she found the room, she was shocked by the picture before her eyes.

In the bathtub, the face of the woman in a long white dress was pale and blue, and her lips almost lost all color. When Aoi put her hand on the tip of her nose, she noticed that her breathing had stopped.

The long white dress on the woman's body was already soaked in blood, and the blood flowing from her back even dyed the snow-white bathtub a tragic red.

She is dead.

Tokioi does not have the ability to resurrect the dead, so she is powerless.

"Did you kill it?"

Seeing this scene, Shi Kui felt that her heart also cooled down.

The little boy's eyes were extremely calm, looking at the woman's body, he just said lightly: "She wants to leave by herself."

"She wants to leave my side, but I don't allow it."

He raised his head and said in a voice that was so cold that one could not help but feel a little scared: "If I want to survive in this society, I must have an identity."

"She is my mother, but she wants to abandon me. It is she who has not taken due responsibility."

"Your mother is dead." Shi Kui's tone was also tinged with anger, "She is not your mother."

The little boy smiled.

This smile made Shi Kui feel a little creepy.

"That's right, my mother is dead." The little boy said, looking at the little bear in his arms while speaking, and gently stroking the fur of the little bear with his hands. "She was starved to death. Before she died, she was still thinking about how I should live in the future."

"In this world, only my mother can truly love and care about me. But she will grow old, die, and her body will rot, and then slowly disappear."

"What I'm looking for is a mother who will never grow old, never die, and who will love me forever. So I asked her, would she be my mother?"

Shi Kui felt that something was a little unusual.

From the tone of the little boy, he seemed to have done something else.

"She said she would." The little boy said softly, "I was afraid that she would turn into a monster, so I gave her some powder made from mermaid meat, and she began to look like the mother of my dreams. Injuries will heal quickly."

"... Mermaid meat?" Shi Kui asked, "Why do you have mermaid meat?"

The little boy looked up at her: "Over the years, I have been to a village near the sea. When the tide was high, I saw the corpse of a mutilated mermaid by the sea."

"I cut off a lot of meat and put it in a jar. Then, I have been looking for a woman who eats mermaid meat and lives forever. In this way, she can become my mother and accompany me all the time."

"But——I've been searching for a long time, but I have never encountered such a human being. Most of them have turned into monsters, from a human to an unconscious monster."

There was some regret in his tone.

"Why did you tell me this?" Shikui was alternately shocked and angry, but in the end she still asked the question that puzzled her for a moment.

The little boy looked at her without speaking.

Maybe I don't know what to say anymore.

He glanced at the dead woman in the bathtub—at first, she treated him like a real mother.

She would sleep with him and take him to the amusement park.

Because she is relatively rich financially, she does not go out to work, and spends most of her time at home with him.

Although he is no longer interested in children's games, after all, he is not a real child, but he is used to this identity, and he is also used to living with this identity.

In the eyes of outsiders, he is a real child.

He is just greedy for that short and illusory warmth.

Although his body will not grow up, his heart is already old. Compared with material satisfaction, he needs spiritual companionship more.

It made him feel less alone.

But after discovering the secret that he would not grow up, she became afraid. She regretted what she had done with him, and regretted bringing him back from abroad.

She began to want to escape, but was found by him again and again.

In the end, she didn't have to flee because she died.

Maybe it's a happy ending too.

"Because you won't be deceived," said the little boy. "Everyone else thinks I'm a child, but you know who I really am."

"The reason for deception is only to protect oneself. Human beings are forced to change their will and learn various disguises if they want to survive."

"However, I don't want to live any longer. Therefore, there is no point in cheating."

He looked at her calmly, and expressed his wish that he had been thinking for a long time: "After eating mermaid meat, human beings will either become monsters or become immortal. I have lived enough, do you have a way to make me sleep forever?" ?”

"I don't know what death is like. People who are going to die are always afraid of this unknown feeling. But I think that living too long is always painful. In the end, it becomes numb pain. I don't Know if what you're looking for is the right thing."

"But I really don't want to go on."

From his words, Shi Kuiguang could understand how much human blood was on his hands, just for his own selfish desire.

Human beings are always selfish, especially children.

He has never really grown up, because in his world, only making himself happy and satisfied is the first thing.The pain and joy of others have nothing to do with him.

"I promise you." Shi Kui said after paying half the salary, "But before that, give me your jar containing mermaid meat."

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