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drunks are hard to care for

It's harder when the drunk is Dazai

During the time I carried him up to the second floor, he either whimpered and asked me to praise him, or waved his hands and said he was not drunk

"My little moon, be good, I won't be able to hold you later, you will fall." Because whenever I call my name, Dazai will ask me pitifully if I hate him, so I can only call him now" moon"

If I have memories the next day, I hope Dazai will not use this to tease me

Ah, the subject is correct, the shameless Dazai will definitely shout "Little Moon" in my ear

Dazai can do this kind of thing

Hey... This bastard is obviously super good-looking, but he is too refined

The drunk Dazai obediently stopped moving, and after a while he started calling my name again, without saying why, just calling it over and over again

"Origin."

"Yes."

"Origin."

"I'm here."

"Origin."

"I'm by your side."

"..."

He didn't calm down until I put him on the bed in the guest room, and he called my name nineteen times

"Yuansheng, where are you going?"

Well, it's No.20 now

"Go and make you hangover soup."

"I also need to go."

"We just came up from the ground floor."

"Do you think I'm impatient?" Sad cry

Can you be a little self-aware?Maybe I think you're impatient?

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I couldn't, so I had to carry him to the first floor again

This time he was finally obedient, and sat on his exclusive sofa waiting for me to finish the soup

"Dazai—my little moon, if you're bored, would you like to watch TV for a while?"

I didn't get an answer, so I went out of the kitchen to see that Dazai had fallen asleep

——Sure enough, I want to sleep after getting drunk.

I can understand the reaction as I used to get drunk a lot too and would sleep through the next afternoon

But Dazai hasn't drunk the hangover soup yet, and hasn't changed his clothes yet, so he will be very uncomfortable when he wakes up the next day.I frowned and walked over to take off his black coat

——Hmm, the coat also smelled very strong of alcohol, could it be that his shaking hands spilled on the clothes when he drank just now?Then this suit needs to be washed.

I turned and went upstairs to get pajamas for Dazai, he hadn't stayed here overnight, so I got him pajamas that I hadn't worn yet

But... to wake him up?I hesitated, after all Dazai seemed to be sleeping peacefully

... Wait until the hangover soup is ready and then wake him up, and change the clothes when the time comes.I silently put the pajamas aside and went back to the kitchen

"Origin..."

Not long after I went back, I heard Dazai's voice calling me

"What's wrong?" I hurried over to look, and found that his face was full of discomfort, and his breathing was a little short

Maybe the tie is too tight.I squatted down to take off Dazai's tie, and undid the first button, and he finally fell asleep peacefully

Looking at Dazai's peaceful sleeping face, I don't know what to say

I like Dazai's face

But I don’t see one and love one, after all, I have seen all kinds of beauties since I was a child, which also made me have extremely high requirements for beauties

But Dazai... It would be strange to say it, but the truth is true—whether it is his appearance or the mysterious temperament revealed in his gestures, every part of Dazai makes me feel beautiful

he is my inspiration

That's why I call him "Muse"

Dazai said that I yell that to everyone, in fact, my real "muse" is only him, from the past until now

Dazai in the past was very timid (this statement may not be convincing, but it is true). If I stretched out my hand to him, he would pretend not to see it. If I walked towards him, he would back away without a trace, smiling on his face Yingying

So in order to prolong this relationship, I took a few steps back

I like Dazai's face, so in the early stage I can stand back for that face and keep a proper distance from Dazai

What about now?

Is something wrong now?

No, I don't regret being friends with Dazai, I just feel... I have a high opinion of him, how can I like a person's face for so long?Obviously, the longest time in the past lasted only three hours, 42 minutes and [-] seconds. Once the time passed, I would have no interest in the face that I praised so much before

Why do I keep liking "Osamu Dazai's face"?Do you even like it to the point where you are not interested in other people?

friendship?Ha... I've known Odasaku for a longer time, this reason is not valid no matter how I think about it

desire?I am not a pervert who will attack minors, I only feel distressed when I see his scarred body

That is——no, no, don’t think about it any further

Wouldn't get what I expected if it were now

i hurried into the kitchen

Dazai slept in the guest room all night, I lost sleep all night in my room

Ah... trust me... anyone will lose sleep when they find out that they might have a crush on a friend

I say "maybe" because I'm not sure what it's called - but I do have a boundary-crossing feeling for Dazai, and it's a feeling that would easily kill me

It's kind of bad isn't it?

After all, I like it—actually, I don’t know if I should call this feeling "like", but I can’t find another word, so I’ll just call it that for now—the person I like has such a bad personality

Not only that, but also because I have too many concerns, I will say "maybe"

Why do I feel this way for Dazai?

Do I have the courage to hold his hand through this life?

Can I bear all the unforeseen things that happen after being with him?

Can I stand up to all the gossip?

How deep is my love for Dazai, and which day will it dissipate?

……

I've thought about it for a long time, and I still think that I'm more likely to be rejected by him after confessing to Dazai, so I won't be obsessed with the matter of "like Dazai" anymore

Dazai can't bear the blazing feelings from others, that warmth will make him feel fear, and then back away, and then he will push the other person away

Even if it's me

Dazai seeks the meaning of life from me, and I seek from him the warmth, trust, tacit understanding and vigilance that can only be given by the same kind

We are of the same kind, each other's only accomplice

I don't think Dazai will treat me special. On the contrary, I think he will be stricter with me in this regard, because we are still worried that the other party will pull us to him (or I will follow Dazai in the mud Fall and fall, or he stands with me in the sun and lives)

After all, I am not someone who can be treated specially by him, so I just need to keep this feeling well, so as not to embarrass everyone after being exposed

After figuring out these things, my spirit finally relaxed, and with the temperature of the sun at seven o'clock, I fell asleep

When I woke up, it was already afternoon, and the food Dazai cooked for me was completely cold

Some kind of complicated and indescribable feelings in my arms reheated the food before I ate my "breakfast" today

No matter what, after realizing this feeling, no matter what Dazai does, it will increase my goodwill

Hey... Do I have a crush on this person for the rest of my life?

Well, Dazai is an amazing person, even if I don't have a crush on him for the rest of my life, it will take me a long time to forget it

Forget it, eat first, lest I have to reheat it when it gets cold

The author has something to say:

After reading this chapter:

Han Yuan Sheng Han

Until now, Yuansheng still thinks that the previous biting was Dazai’s joke (Yun Bei)

But at least Yuan Sheng discovered his feelings, so it's not a waste of time.

Makes me think how many more chapters are left to drive...

Wait, I didn't even write about marriage... (Stay)

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