Ye Ye Zhiqiu

The day after the two of them came back from Jingchuan was the 26th of the twelfth lunar month. As the Chinese New Year approached, relatives at home began to move around frequently. Tong Qiu was stared at by her parents and couldn't find time to go out to find Han Ye'an.

"Sister," my aunt's daughter came over with her winter vacation homework, her eyes flickering, "Can you teach me to do my homework?"

The pencil circled twice between her fingers, Tong Qiu sighed, and took over her homework, "Okay."

She has thought a lot these days, not only Han Ye'an, but also her sexuality itself.

Maybe she was born with rough nerves. After realizing that she liked Han Ye'an, she was full of thoughts on how to arrange this heart, but left the most important point behind.

Gay.This term was originally far away from her life, and she did not reject it, for the same reason as Han Ye'an, because it was someone else's life.

But now the matter fell on her own head, the momentary fever passed, and only after she calmed down did she realize what she was going to face in the future.

How would your parents react if you came out?Although they have always pursued free education, the two of them are still very traditional in their bones. They insist on many old rules, and Tong Qiu himself feels cruel to ask them to break the stereotypes they have held for decades to accept this matter.

I thought about it a lot, and the more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable I felt. She obviously just fell in love with someone, but suddenly found that the whole world was different. While opening the door to a new world to welcome the novelty, it also meant that she had to bear more.Prejudice, blame, and even abuse, she has never really understood this group, but she is not ignorant, at least she has frowned more than once when she heard the words "gays are disgusting".

At that time, she simply felt that she shouldn't look at other people's lives with her own eyes, but now those long-awaited words are like rusty knives, piercing through her memory and piercing her heart.

After making the decision, she must be forced to bear those too.

"Sister, what's the matter?" Seeing her frowning, the cousin pouted, "Do you also think this question is very difficult, I have been doing it for a long time and I can't do it."

Tong Qiu nodded: "Yes, it's really difficult."

On Chinese New Year's Day, there were many guests at home, Tong Qiu finally found an opportunity to nest in the room, while her cousin was playing mini games, she sent a message to Han Ye'an with the sound effect of "unbelievable".

Tong Qiu: Do you and grandma just spend Chinese New Year together?

Han Ye'an: At Wang Xiao's house, his parents came back and it was very lively.

Knowing that Han Ye'an was not alone, she felt much better.

Tong Qiu: I will come to pay New Year's greetings tomorrow!

Han Ye'an: Good.

When Han Ye'an sent messages, she would mark them in a strict manner, just like her.Can such a well-behaved person accept such a self? He does not discriminate against homosexuals, but it is also because there is no one around him. Knowing that she is, I really don’t feel a sense of shock in my heart?

This year has been really sad.Now every day when she faces her parents, she feels guilty in her heart.I don't know if they will be so angry that they will sever ties with him if they come out in the future.

Thinking about Han Ye'an again made me even more worried.She hadn't seen her for a few days, but she just wanted to hear her talking, to see her taking pictures, to hear the familiar shutter sound, to tell jokes to make her laugh, to be held by her and walk in the snow, I want to talk to her some nonsense...

Miss her so much...

Tong Qiu lay in big characters on the bed, looking at the white ceiling, if one day Han Ye'an doesn't want her, then she probably won't survive.How did this happen.

On the first day of the Lunar New Year, Tong Qiu insisted on spending the afternoon away from his parents and went to Qiushui Street.

Qiushui Street has a strong flavor of the New Year. When migrant workers come back, the doors that are usually vacant are now wide open. People are talking and laughing loudly. The smell of wine and vegetables is mixed and floating on the street. It is a bit greasy, but it is also a long-lost human fireworks Angry, not annoying.

Wang Xiao's family also had constant socializing with relatives, and he was annoyed, so he hid himself in the courtyard of Han Ye'an's house.

"Sister Xiaoqiu?" Seeing Tong Qiu push the door in, he was a little surprised, "It's the first day of the new year, why did you come here?"

"Brother Xiao, Happy New Year!" Tong Qiu greeted him with a smile, and flinched guiltily when he caught sight of Han Ye'an who came out behind him with the curtain lifted.

"Happy New Year!" Wang Xiao put down his phone and answered her loudly.

"Is it cold?" Han Ye'an walked over, as if he didn't notice the gaze she was avoiding just now.

"It's not cold." Tong Qiuren held her hand in the palm of her hand, her fingertips were wrapped in the warm palm, and her heart was full.

"It's so boring." Wang Xiao looked at them both like monkeys, squinting his eyes and smiling, "When An'er saw Sister Xiaoqiu, she seemed to be a different person. You almost kicked me when I opened the door and came in. Go across the street."

His vivid description of Han Ye'an's double standards made Tong Qiu's heart tremble slightly, and he tasted a sour sweet taste.It's like suddenly picking out sugar cp powder from a knife, and the secret little thoughts can gain a little satisfaction.

"Go back to your own house and play." Han Ye'an raised his eyes at him, and Wang Xiao bowed his head cowardly.

"I'm not going back. There are a bunch of bastards in the family. They are not annoying enough. They pester me to give lectures. They are all crazy. I have been out of school for many years..."

"A high school student?" Tong Qiu asked while following Han Ye'an into the house, this is too bullying, it's clearly provocative.

"Primary school students, one in third grade and two in fourth grade." Han Ye'an answered for him.

"..." Tong Qiu looked back at Wang Xiao, and stopped talking.Brother Xiao, what do you want, you are a high school dropout...

"Cough...I'm not, I have business."

The sound effect of "double kill" came from the mobile phone, Wang Xiao ignored them and went to his own business.

Old Madam Han dozed off while sitting by the stove, she was woken up by the voices outside, so she didn't sleep at all, sat up straight and waited for Tong Qiu to come in.

"Happy New Year, grandma!" Tong Qiu entered the room with a bright smile.

"Okay, okay." With a loving face, the old lady took out a red envelope from her pocket and handed it to her.

The red envelope is not thick, Tong Qiu cheerfully accepts it, the New Year's tradition is also the old man's wish, it's not good to refuse.

"It's such a cold day, it's hard for you to come here." The old lady grabbed her hand and patted it, "Your hand must be frozen, let's bake it."

"It's not cold, and the road is not far away. Besides, my family is the same as Brother Xiao's. There are many relatives and children. It's very annoying to pester me. I also come to hide."

The old lady knew that she was here specially for New Year's greetings, and she prepared such a set of words, her eyes were even more loving, she raised her hand and touched her head, "This child."

Tong Qiu was still not able to look at Han Ye'an naturally, so he devoted himself to making the old lady happy all the time, doing all the tricks in a fun way.

Tong Qiu got up at almost three o'clock, "My mother gave me a whole noon vacation, I have to go back, goodbye, grandma!"

Han Ye'an took the coat, "I'll give it to you."

"it is good."

From time to time, there were two firecrackers on the street, and it was those naughty children who were throwing the cannons.Han Ye'an held his own and Tong Qiu's hands in his right pocket, but felt a little uneasy.

In the past few days, Tong Qiu's absent-mindedness has been clearly felt. Although the text has no emotion, after understanding a person's habits, she can still clearly perceive the difference. Tong Qiu's eyes dodged at noon today, which made her firm. idea.Tong Qiu seemed to be avoiding her.

"Xiaoqiu." It snowed yesterday, and the snow on the road was swept away and piled up on the side of the road. When the two walked by, there was a creaking sound from the soles of their feet.

"En." Tong Qiu agreed, "What's wrong?"

"What happened?" Han Ye'an asked a little anxiously. She had carefully recalled her words and deeds these days before, and she really didn't find anything she had done that might make her angry, so she decided to ask out.

Asking this question made Tong Qiu's body stiff, and the dream of that day suddenly appeared in his mind.

She lowered her head even more, her eyes fixed on her toes, and she was so guilty: "...No, why do you ask such a question?"

"You've been hiding from me these days, why?"

"No." Tong Qiu denied, she just didn't think clearly about some things, she definitely didn't intend to cold-hearted Han Ye'an.

At the end of Qiushui Street is a small abandoned square, which is usually a gathering place for unhealthy youths. Now that the parents of the youths have returned during the Chinese New Year, they are all forced to stay at home and pretend to be good boys, so the place has become deserted.

Han Ye'an stopped in his tracks, and even held Tong Qiu back.

She stepped forward and stood in front of Tong Qiu, bowed her head, "If I did anything wrong, please tell me."

The tone of these words was too gentle, as if showing weakness and apologizing, Tong Qiu felt more and more guilty, it was obviously her fault, how could Han Ye'an apologize.

As if the fuse was finally ignited, the grievances of the past days suddenly burst out, squeezing the heart from all directions, and the suppressed soreness filled the chest cavity, forcing her eye sockets to heat up.

"Han Ye'an... I'm sorry..." She lowered her head, grabbed the hem of her clothes with her hands, and a bean-sized teardrop hit the snow covered with plaster, pattering.

Han Ye'an panicked for a moment, trying to comfort her at a loss, "Don't...don't cry, I don't mean to blame you. I just..."

"I know, I know." Tong Qiu sobbed.She knew that Han Ye'an was just worried about her, just afraid that she would be unhappy, and because she knew it, she was even more sad.

She felt ashamed and uneasy about her thoughts. She wanted Han Ye'an to belong to her alone, but she knew it was impossible.

She likes Han Ye'an very much, but it's impossible.This love is like a shady love poem, which has been engraved on her heart unconsciously, penetrating to the wood, but she will never be able to read it to the person in front of her.

"What's the matter?" Han Ye'an helped her wipe away tears, holding her face and asked.

Crying is embarrassing enough, and it is really shameful to be watched, but she couldn't stop, so Tong Qiu leaned forward, and Han Ye'an raised his hand to wrap her arms around her back, wrapping her in his arms, and patted her. back comforting.

"Han Ye'an..."

"Ah."

"You didn't do anything wrong, it's my fault..." She wanted to say, she wanted to tell Han Ye'an everything, but she couldn't, otherwise she didn't know if this hug could still belong to her, "I haven't been studying well recently, It's not that you did something wrong." She sobbed twice: "That question is too difficult, I haven't been able to do it for a long time..."

Han Ye'an relaxed in a breath, and smiled, "That's it."

"Well, I have competitions at the beginning of school, and there are training camps before the competitions. I... I won't see you for a month..." This is true, the training camps were set up early, but she almost forgot, Suddenly remembered, and realized that he really hadn't seen Han Ye'an for a month, and cried even more fiercely in an instant. "I'm so miserable..."

Han Ye'an patted her on the back again and again, the truth made her a little dumbfounded and distressed. "Don't worry, take your time, the college entrance examination is still more than a year away..."

"I've been here too, I'll wait for you to come back from training camp."

Tong Qiu hugged her, and was crying seriously at first, but after feeling her body temperature a little higher than his own for a while, his mind felt as if it was covered with paste and he couldn't think clearly. "okay……"

The author has something to say: Tong Qiu: I was crying seriously, but I blushed when I cried...

The recent plot will have a turning point, and it is a bit difficult to write. I always feel that my plot arrangement is not good, and I get up early in the morning to change it, so sometimes it may be a little late, my friends forgive me