lost to yellow ball

Kushima Jiri had a big fight with his mother.

Accused her of never caring about her own feelings, arranging her life at will, and even doing things like inviting her ex-boyfriend to be a guest at home!

—— "Do you think you have taken care of other people's feelings? Ji Li, never ask others to be considerate to you if you can't do it yourself."

Although she had already run away from home, this sentence had been lingering in Ji Li's mind. She thought over and over again, and finally found something that terrified her.No matter how much she hated her parents, she eventually grew up to look like them.The bad parts of personality have been inherited completely.

This fact made her feel even disgusted with herself.

It was raining heavily, Kudao Jiri stood at the door of Kudo's house, looking up at the villa with no lights behind it without a single window.

This place without Uncle Yusaku, sister Yukiko and Shinichi left her with a large void.

If only...if she was really Shinichi's younger sister.

She probably won't have the things that make her sad.

Seiichi Yukimura came out of Dr. Ali's house next door. It rained suddenly just now and he was unsuspectingly drenched. Dr. Ali, who happened to be out to throw garbage, saw him and invited him to change clothes at home. He was also considerate. Gave him an umbrella.At this time, after confirming that Ji Li is fine from Mrs. Jiudao, he also bid farewell to Dr. A Li.

The direction of the station was on the other side, but he subconsciously glanced at the location of Kudo's house.

"Jili...?"

The moment his eyes met, he walked over without any hesitation, and put his umbrella over to cover Ji Li who was standing in the rain.

Ji Li turned his head sideways.

"Jingshi..."

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The rain outside the window was tinkling, and the room was peaceful.

"I'll just blow it myself..." Ji Lixiang wanted to refuse, but just as she picked up the hair dryer and raised her hand, it was involved in the bruise on her back.

Yukimura Seichi stretched out his hand to take it, and said lightly: "The wound on your back is still not healed, and there are still scratches on the palm of your hand...Let me do it."

Unable to immediately refuse, Kushima Kuri was pushed on the sofa wearing a long-sleeved skirt after taking a shower, and Yukimura began to blow her hair.The hot air blew away the coolness from the neck, and as the wet hair became fluffy bit by bit, Ji Li narrowed his eyes slightly, and relaxed his body bit by bit.

"Sorry, I came here without authorization." Yukimura Seichi turned off the hair dryer, picked up the comb that was just prepared and combed Ji Li's hair a little bit: "I'm a little worried about you."

——'Do you think you have taken care of other people's feelings?Ji Li, never ask others to be considerate to you if you can't do it yourself. '

- 'You can't tell me you can't without trying. '

The words spoken by two different people rang in her ears at the same time, which made Ji Li pause for a while.

"It's okay, I...was in a bad mood before, so I didn't answer the phone." These words were said by Kushima Jiri after trying to let himself into Yukimura Seichi's feelings.

There is less than half a year left... Xinyi hopes that she can try it, so she will try it.

Ji Li's hair is of good quality, and it has been smoothed without much combing. Yukimura Seichi let go of it without too much nostalgia, went around and sat on the other side of the sofa.After all, he is not Ji Li's boyfriend now, such behavior is inappropriate.

"Would you mind telling me what's the reason?" Yukimura Seiichi's profile is very good-looking, or there is nothing unsightly about him, which is why Kushima Jiri was willing to approach him at first.

Prefer not to say.

Kili Kushima pushed back the hair on the side of the ear: "Well, because my father, who doesn't go home all the year round, suddenly took me back forcefully, and there was a little quarrel."

she said.

Yukimura Seiichi cast his eyes on Ji Li's face, "Mr. Kushima seems to have been abroad?"

I don't want to talk about that man.

Kili Kushima bent her lips: "Yes, it's a company in Germany all the time....But maybe it has expanded its business in other countries in the past two years. I don't know much about it." She stood up and walked to the side bar In the refrigerator, I poured a glass of milk for Yukimura: "It's ice, can I?"

She remembered that athletes seemed to have many things they could and could not drink, but she didn't know much about the details, so she asked such a sentence.

Yukimura Seiichi shook his head: "It's all right."

When Ji Li sat back on the sofa again, the rain outside the window became heavier. She glanced at the appearance outside the floor-to-ceiling window, and the roses planted in the garden had already been watered and drooped their heads.

"The rain won't stop for a while. There are still many vacant rooms at home. Let's choose one to rest later."

The tram will be out of service in an hour, and the rain is so heavy, Ji Li didn't say anything to drive away the passengers.

She poured herself a cup of coffee, the strong bitterness and aroma of coffee cleared her mind a lot.

"Ji Li."

Yukimura Seiichi called her softly.

Kili Kushima turned his head to look at him with a smile: "What's wrong?"

"When you don't want to laugh, you don't need to smile at me." Yukimura said softly, looking at Ji Li with eyes full of tolerance, "I told you, Ji Li just needs to think about it. up,"

He likes Ji Li, and he likes Ji Li's way of never wronging himself, and no matter what he does, he always obeys his own wishes.

In Ji Li's memory, Yukimura did say such a thing.At that time, the two of them had just dated, and she was a little angry because of some things, but she didn't want Yukimura to feel that she was a stingy person, so she kept holding back and didn't say anything.At that time, Yukimura saw some clues and told her so.

Ji Li doesn't have to hold back, he can do whatever he wants, even if he is angry at me or anything else. '

Jiri Jiudao lowered her eyes slightly, and said in a soft voice, "But that will cause trouble to others." Unknowingly, she became like her mother. When she accused the other party of not considering her mood, she Have you considered other people's feelings?Today's quarrel really made her discover something terrifying.

No wonder Atobe said that about her, no wonder Shinichi forced her to change.

"In addition to arguing with my father, I also had a quarrel with my mother just before running out." She looked up and smiled at Yukimura, "Seiichi's mother is a very gentle person, she must not have imagined me The relationship with my parents is so bad."

Yukimura Seiichi said, "No."

Kushima Jiri looked up suspiciously.

"I don't think that Ji Li will cause trouble to others." Yukimura Seiichi looked at Ji Li, "Although you have said a lot of bad things about yourself to me, I don't think so." He always seemed to be so gentle when he spoke The speed of speech gives people a serious and calm feeling, without any perfunctory emotions.

"That's because you haven't really known me. If you had known me earlier, you wouldn't have liked me."

Yukimura Seichi asked her back: "Is there really such a thing as going back in time in this world?" He held out his hand to Ji Li, "No matter what kind of you you are, you are the real yourself. The Ji Li I know , is definitely not a prop that can completely change cognition when flipped over."

"Could it be that since you transferred to the elementary school of Lihai University, you have been disguising your true face, hiding your true thoughts, and wronging yourself to do things you don't like?"

Ji Li shook his head hesitantly.

Except for the second half year of cohabitation with Yukimura Seiichi, she didn't actually change herself on purpose, but she lost her previous motivation and learned to live an ordinary life.

"Then why do you say that I don't know the real you?" Yukimura Seiichi never felt that the current Jiri and the past Jiri were two separate people, quiet, gentle, and unreasonable , all of them are Jiri Kushima.

Ji Li Jiudao couldn't refute anything for a while, she opened her mouth.

"—But, the me I used to be..."

"Hush." ​​Yukimura Seichi interrupted her gently. He was wearing Dr. Ali's loose white shirt, which looked baggy but not sloppy. He looked more like a quiet nobleman at the moment: " The first time I met you was at the end of the first semester of the third grade in junior high school."

"The first official meeting was during the summer vacation of the first year of high school."

"The first official date was at the end of the second semester of the first year of high school."

You don’t need to deliberately look at the calendar for all the time, Yukimura Seiichi can tell it slowly, and even talk about the scene in detail, his iris purple eyes revealed a little hurt color: "Can we After breaking up, you are going to tell me that none of these are real Ji Li?"

"No... I don't."

Kili Kushima felt that in the past 17 years, all her tears had been concentrated on this year, and her eyes were a little hot: "But I will feel unhappy because you value tennis more than me,...you like tennis so much, as a girlfriend I should forgive you. But I broke up with you because I was unhappy. "

"It's my fault to make you unhappy, Ji Li is not wrong." Seiichi Yukimura walked in front of Ji Li, slowly knelt down and looked up at her, "Don't deny yourself, doubt yourself."

Seeing Ji Li's stunned look, he pursed his lips and smiled embarrassedly: "Maybe it's a bit cheeky from me now. But..."

Ji Li looked at Yukimura very intently.

Wondering what he would say.

"If possible, I hope that Ji Li can give me another chance to make up for all the regrets I have had. I like Ji Li and want Ji Li to be happy, so...you don't have to worry about any unhappy things. You can not sentence me to death immediately, but give me a chance to reform."

"Maybe because I put too much energy on the club some time ago, and ignored your feelings."

Yukimura Seiichi's eyes are full of Jiri's reflection.

"I've always believed in love at first sight. I used to think I was like this for you. But then I found out that it's more like a long-term love after a spur of the moment." Yukimura Seichi's voice was very nice, and he didn't have Kanagawa's unique That kind of accent is shallow and warm.

"I don't want to miss you, and I don't want you to be unhappy."

"Ji Li."

The closed glass windows well separated the sound of the rain outside from the inside. The inside was eerily quiet, and the sound of each other's breathing was clearly audible.

"Will you be unhappy if I come to pursue you as an ex-boyfriend who was once unqualified?"

He was really asking seriously if this matter would make Ji Li unhappy.

"...If I say yes, will you give up?"

Ji Dao imagined that she would leave Japan in five months, and her heart that had just warmed up became cold again.

Yukimura Seiichi shook his head.

"will not."

"Then what's the point of this question?"

"You are unhappy, it means I did something wrong." Yukimura Seiichi chuckled, "I will change my way." He clearly knew that Ji Li still had a good impression of him, otherwise he would not be because of his actions And feel painful, "National competition, can you come and see my game?"

Kushima Jiri looked at Yukimura without blinking.

After a while, I heard my own answer.

"it is good."