lost to yellow ball

"The reason why I learn tennis has already been told to you. Since the goal has not been achieved, I will naturally not play tennis again."

Although just a few months ago, I went to the street tennis court to play a few rounds on a whim.

Kili Kushima rejected the orange offered by Echizen Ryuya, and the score on the court had reached 3:4, and Hyodi was slightly weaker.

"'I want to throw Kego Atobe's face on the ground and step on it'... Well, I thought you could experience a little bit of the fun of tennis." Echizen Ryuya also focused on the court, but more He was not watching the content of the game, but stared at the players' seats on the side with the blue and white uniforms.

He tilted his head towards Ji Li, seeing that she was dressed completely differently from three years ago, and the smile on the corner of his mouth deepened.

"After all, you used to feel annoyed because you couldn't catch the ball, and you got up early every day to practice with the automatic server."

Perhaps it is because of the unyielding gene in his nature. When he found that he could not even catch the ball, Kushima Jiri went to the club to practice serving and catching the ball very early every day in order to take care of school and training.A few times he was lazy and didn't go, and even went directly to the hotel.As a result, he had to change places to live frequently, just to get more sleep in the morning.

"Besides, you're very happy when you win." Echizen Ryuya always liked to grin when he smiled at Ji Li, showing a cheerful look.

Kushima Jiri: "...but that's not true."

It was to trick her into losing on purpose.

However, after Atobu took over to teach her later, she occasionally hit a few shots that Atobu couldn't catch, and that would indeed be a great sense of accomplishment.

Echizen Ryuya waved his hand: "It's not important, what matters is the mood at that time."

There was endless cheering and cheering on the field, because the audience on the Bingdi side was basically occupied by the cheerleaders, so they chose to sit in the middle, so that they would not be blocked by the people standing up in front of them watching the game.In terms of momentum alone, the Qingxue Tennis Club is completely inferior to Byodi, but the score on the court is tight.

After switching venues to now, it has been 4:5.

"The Ice Emperor will lose." Echizen Ryuya said suddenly.

Not long after his flower note fell, the referee blew his whistle.

"Ice Emperor VS Qingxue, 4:6, Qingxue wins!"

Kili Kushima looked at Kohidake, watched his reaction after losing the game, watched him still shake hands with his opponent.

"When Yue Ren was young, he was often bullied by boys because of his effeminate looks." She recalled some things in elementary school. Get up, no one will bully him in the future."

"He did it, and those who bullied him were scared away by his strength."

But just by arrogance alone, it is impossible for everyone to stop bullying him. Kili Kushima later found those people and taught them a lesson. From the next day, the boys never bullied Xiang Hiyue again. up.But the child's likes and dislikes are too clear, no one will play with Xiang Hiyake anymore, Kudao Jiri let him follow him.

"Even though he is one grade higher than me, he still looks like a coward." Jiri Kushima commented without emotion: "He joined the tennis club after he entered high school, and when I saw him again after I entered high school, he no longer has that cowardly look. And on the matter of the Independent Disciplinary Committee, he chose to side with Atobe.”

"But unlike Feng, I'm not angry with him."

On the one hand, it is because of the different relationship with Hocho Taro since he was a childhood sweetheart, and on the other hand, the change brought to him by Keigo Atobe is something Jiri Kushima will never be able to do.

She can protect Riyueren because she has shown an aura she approves of, but she can't make him stronger from himself.

"At that time, I knew that I couldn't compare with Atobe in this point and lost to him. So I was not reconciled and wanted to beat him in other places. No matter in any aspect, including tennis."

"The result was a complete failure."

This was the first time she admitted in front of people that she was not as good as Atobe, and Kushima Jiri showed an extremely refreshing smile, with a little relief inside.

"I told you a lot of strange things. Although you were not a participant in those things at that time, you knew me at that time, so you said it unconsciously."

These days, she has digested a lot of things herself, and her mentality has also undergone some changes.

"I will never be the Kudao Jiri you imagined. No matter what purpose you have for Echizen Ryoma to give me a message, I am sorry that I can neither receive your kindness nor achieve your wish. desire."

Kudao Jili made a gesture towards him, and separated his thumb and index finger: "Kijima Jili, I only want to see this little thing."

She now realizes why she likes Yukimura Seichi.

Because only he told her that you are fine like this, you don't need to change, just do what you want, and he will support you unconditionally.

Echizen Ryuya: "Even if the ending is not good, you only want to pursue happiness in the process?"

He has always felt that Ji Li's nature is very good, but he was affected by some irrelevant things, so he subconsciously closed his heart, and once the people living inside showed signs of stepping out, he would immediately drive them out and Permanent denial of access.

So in return for not letting him sleep on the streets and gamble for money, he did what he could before leaving.

Judging from now, he may have succeeded at that time.

But the current self is a complete failure.

"What kind of ending is bad?"

The field has gone to the second game, and it is Hiruoji playing against Takeshi Momoshiro.

Jiri Jiudao paid close attention to Hiruoyoshi. She watched the ball on the court and said to Long Ya: "Sometimes, the ending is not definite. You may think it is a bad ending. For me Say it's good?"

"If you haven't participated in my past, why should you decide my future?"

Echizen Ryuya's expression flashed.

Kushima Jiri, she can now calmly discuss anything about herself.She stretched out her hand to Echizen Ryuya: "What did you see?"

"This is my hand," Ji Li continued without giving Longya a chance to answer, "I am the only one who can decide what it does."

"You don't need to worry about me. It is correct to say that you should put on gloves, that you should say how to do the movements, and that you should say what to do."

"Even if I use these hands to do bad things, it's still my decision."

Echizen Longya restrained the smile on his face, a trace of surprise flashed in his dark green pupils.

"You know what you want better than I thought."

The appearance of Jili Kushima learning tennis for the first time actually inspired some of his thoughts that had been scattered at that time.At that time, he began to feel that tennis was boring and boring, just a simple sport of hitting the ball.

Gradually, I began to forget the reasons I had insisted on. Coupled with the fact that I ran away from home, my source of income disappeared, and I relied on idle gambling to earn living expenses.

The energy in Kuri Kushima made him interested again.

Although now it seems that it was probably a misunderstanding at the beginning.

But Ji Li at that time really helped him redefine his goal.

"I can't feel your love for tennis. I will be happy because of the victory in the tour piano competition, I will also be happy because of the victory in fencing, and I will be happy because I suppressed Keigo Atobe in a certain way."

"But it doesn't mean that I love these things, I can only say... I have a desire for victory." Kushima Jiri waved to Hirukichi when he looked over, regardless of whether the other party really saw it : "I know you saw my quarrel with my parents at that time, maybe you felt strange sympathy in your heart, but...you don't need it."

At that time, Echizen Ryuya's attitude towards her changed, and it happened that her father was blaming her for what happened to Himei and Atobe.

Immediately afterwards, her mother said that it was all the fault of the nanny at the time for bringing her up badly, and if she had been kept, she might not know how she would be brought up.

As long as she refuted, she would use her failure as an example, and she was clearly in her own home, but she was alone and helpless.After hearing these words, Echizen Ryuya scratched his hair and smiled.

"Well, I apologize for what I did earlier."

——"So the 20 can be waived?"

Jiri Kushima: "..."

She didn't even want to come back.

"Okay, but tell me honestly, am I not at the level to win from you in the end?" Kushima Jiri looked at him sideways, wanting to know the answer to this question very seriously.

This matter has always been a stalk in her mind.

Echizen Longya spread his hands: "I said you are talented, and I wasn't joking. I didn't release the water in the first game you got points from me."

Kushima Jiri nodded.

"I see."

Her eyes returned to the field, and Ri Ruoji won.

It was a tough game to win, but a beautiful one.

"Ice Emperor!...Ice Emperor!...Ice Emperor!"

The deafening cheers on the field were not only the cheerleaders, but also the unqualified players from the Ice Emperor Tennis Club, the people from the Ice Emperor School, and the audience who supported Ice Emperor.

Kuri Kushima looked up at the blue color of the sky.

It was really a complete failure from beginning to end.

What she cannot accept is not failure, but the fear that failure will be caught by her parents and become an irrefutable argument.

The more you hate your parents, the more you care about them.

Uncle Yusaku and elder sister Yukiko, no matter how good they are, they are also Shinichi's father and mother.

not hers.

Her parents had no communication with her other than blaming her for her failures.From childhood to adulthood, the most gentle words I have ever heard may be the phrase 'Ji Li, be obedient'.

Since she was a child, she has lived under such a psychological shadow.

Unwilling to accept that others don't care about you, unwilling to admit that you are a failure.

The gloom lingering in her chest these days has gradually dissipated, maybe it's time to give up these insistences.She is not as good as Atobe, and she cannot be the most important existence in the hearts of those close to her.

"Thank you, Echizen Ryuya." Kushima Kili smiled at him.

Echizen Ryuya was stunned for a moment.

After a while, he said, "Is there anything else I want to say thank you to Master?" He habitually put his hand on Ji Li's hair, but there was no angry protest from the bad-tempered Kudao Ji Li.

Kudao Jiri, who has matured a lot, just quietly accepted this affirmation.

After a while, I gently brushed it away with my hands.

——I really grew up.

Echizen Ryuya withdrew his hand in disappointment. He looked at Ji Li's long hair hanging down his back, the light gauze dress with mint leaves suspenders on his body, and a pair of white high-heeled sandals on his feet.

Except that the eyes are still the same color as before, I can't find the same place in other places.