[Comprehensive] How to kill a rabid dog gently

At this time, someone should make a sound or do something to break the silence, after all, this is such a dangerous and urgent moment.

Usually Osamu Dazai would be the one who controls the situation, but now he seems to be a statue, staring at Cheng in silence, suddenly losing the order of time as if he was weightless in space.

How long has passed, Osamu Dazai does not know, it is probably as long as another journey of the stars, this journey may be long enough to make the universe go from prosperity to extinction, or it may be so short that even the dust has no time to take a nap-this Everything is not worthy of Dazai Osamu's concern, and it is the things that exist beyond all of these that occupy his heart.

The only one who exists outside of all this.

Osamu Dazai shook the hand that was caressing his cheek.

After he felt the other person's body temperature, time seemed to find its track again.

The person held by him paused slightly, and held his hand instead.

Then Osamu Dazai heard her voice.

"gentlemen……"

An explosion sounded from behind.

At a very close distance, Osamu Dazai still read her lips.

He froze slightly, his eyes widened in bewilderment, but the loud noise caused by the serial explosions was approaching the two of them, and when he looked back at the dazzling flames, his heart was almost more chaotic and frightened than the collapsing building.

But now he can only pull her and run.

——Cheng said to Osamu Dazai.

who are you?

# # #

Cheng had never seen this man before today, this is the result of her repeated thinking, she can be sure of this...

As it should be.

However, whenever she was about to come to such a conclusion, she couldn't help but overthrow all her previous thinking, start over, and then come to the same conclusion again.

She kept thinking about such things, so that when she came to her senses, she was already sitting in the car, briefly escaping from Valya's pursuit.

"..."

Cheng raised his head and looked out of the car window, what he saw was the embankment and the peaceful street.

This is already the fringe area of ​​Bingsheng, and it seems that it is still heading towards the border.

Following Cheng's movements, the coat draped over her shoulders slipped slightly, and Cheng realized that she didn't even notice when the other party put the coat on her. She folded the front and looked at the young man who was driving.

He is a handsome young man who looks even thinner when he is only wearing a shirt, but when he is silent and his eyes are dimmed by the shadow cast by his slightly curled forehead, people can't help but fall into melancholy .

He should be impressive.

Cheng pondered and spoke again.

"Excuse me, are you..."

"Osamu Dazai."

This time, the other party quickly answered her question.

Dazai turned to her and smiled.

"I'm Osamu Dazai."

"Are you ... Oda-san's friend?"

Cheng found the name from memory.

"Mr. Oda and I mentioned you."

"Is that so..." Dazai continued the topic calmly, "Have you known Oda Saku for a long time?"

"No, we met for the first time when Oda-san moved to Bingsheng."

Cheng replied.

"Actually, I haven't lived in Japan very long."

"You grew up in Italy."

Dazai said suddenly.

"Before you came to Bingsheng, you had been living in Sicily—is this information true?"

Cheng looked at him and nodded slowly.

"Really." The young man smiled, "In this way, you will not be able to appear in Yokohama a few years ago, meet someone, and live there."

Cheng felt something different from the other person's self-talking words, which immediately caught her attention, and Cheng became a little nervous.

"Have you ever been to Yokohama?"

Osamu Dazai lowered his eyes and asked her in a soft voice.

"I……"

The current "Cheng" should undoubtedly give a negative answer. For her, this is the truth.

Not so for Cheng.

Even so, she has no reason to reveal her secrets to strangers whom she meets for the first time.

Dazai was still waiting for her answer, but Chung was silent for a long time.

"I do not know."

Finally, Cheng said to him.

"Sorry, I don't know how to answer you."

Dazai laughed.

He stepped on the brakes and stopped on the edge of the embankment.

Osamu Dazai opened the car door and reached out to Cheng, who grabbed him.

After Cheng got off the car, Dazai didn't let go of her hand, he took Cheng and walked together slowly to the embankment, then Dazai let go of her lightly and turned to face her.

It is already dusk.

The sea breeze brushed Dazai Osamu's black hair, and then raised the windbreaker that was draped over Cheng's body.

Behind Dazai, the rays of the sun fell into the sea from the fiery gilt sky, breaking into tidal waves, just like the flames splashed by the setting sun when it sinks.

The seemingly warm light from the sky and the sea embraces Osamu Dazai's thin shadow, but it is still the most desolate and cold corner in the picture, but despite this, Osamu Dazai is still smiling.

"Any kind of answer is fine." He said softly, "No matter what answer you give me, it won't change my answer."

"It doesn't matter how many of them are unreasonable, how many secrets and truths I can't explore now."

Osamu Dazai said.

"For me now, whether it is the happiest or the most painful moment, I can no longer judge, it's just..."

He opened his arms.

— "My feelings tell me only one thing."

As if to hug her, Osamu Dazai fell backwards, falling towards the sun, the sky and the sea.

- "You are the one I've been looking for."

My Cheng.

There is no better time to die than now.

Dazai thought.

In his heart at this moment, the extreme joy and pain are like the sea and sky surrounding him, but far from such a clear boundary, they are entangled together, almost tearing his heart apart.

This may be the moment when he can experience "life" the most, and it is also the most suitable moment for "death".

just.

just last.

If his broken soul unfortunately did not melt at the moment of death, he still wanted to remember her name deeply.

Dazai, who had such thoughts, wanted to see the eyes of his beloved lover clearly at the moment of farewell, but saw an unexpected scene.

His lover, who had cruelly forgotten him, also jumped down after him.

Osamu Dazai saw her long hair blown and saw his coat leave her shoulders in the wind.

Speaking of it, human beings are obviously creatures that live on the ground, so why do they desire to fly.

Osamu Dazai suddenly thought of this.

Or do humans simply want to have wings?

The setting sun and waves made his eyes hurt a little, and everything in his field of vision was covered with a hazy halo. Just in a daze, Osamu Dazai felt as if he saw wings sprouting from behind her.

She approached him like Icarus flew to the sun, her wings melted and disintegrated inch by inch, turning into scattered pure white feathers under the hot fireball, and then she embraced him.

Osamu Dazai realized that the wings he saw were just his hallucinations.

Why do humans want wings?

Probably because, even if you want to go to the end of the sky, you still want to find the person you miss.

And the one he loves has no wings.

In the next second, they fell into the sea together, and the reflection of the sunset glow instantly shattered into countless pieces, and the sea water engulfed the two of them amidst the tumbling and shaking.

However, she still hugged him.

# # #

When the last wave of the tide brought the two of them ashore, Osamu Dazai was already exhausted, their clothes were soaked through. He felt his body was heavy and cold, but he was even more afraid that the other party would feel the same way, so Osamu Dazai could only hold on tightly. Hold each other tightly until the temperature is transmitted from the touching skin to each other, turning into a kind of hotness that can't be too much.

Cheng probably was also very tired, she opened her eyes, quietly stared at Osamu Dazai's face, without saying anything.

"... Cheng."

Dazai tried to call her name.

"Cheng."

"Cheng, are you looking at me?"

he asked.

Osamu Dazai probably didn't realize that when he called her name for the second time, his voice was already choking, just like he didn't realize that he was trembling.

"If you still want to look at me..."

He lost his coat, but fortunately, Dazai has the habit of carrying important things with him, so Dazai took out every important item from his pocket with his cold fingers—complete suicide manual, gun spare parts, spare bullets, and other things of no apparent use.

He put the manual aside, assembled the gun, loaded it, loaded it.

"Strange, isn't it? Even I have one thing I must do before I die."

He gently opened Cheng's fingers one by one, put the gun into it, and wrapped her hand around her, making Cheng hold it tightly.

"However, I am such a hopeless person, and I have experienced such a hopeless life. You know all of this best, but I still have the audacity to make such an exaggerated request to you. Even I I feel like this is a crime—"

"so."

He said.

"I thought, I should first give you everything I have, including the right to shoot myself."

Under the gun, Osamu Dazai finally took out a small box.

It's already looking a bit worn from being carried around all the time.

Osamu Dazai wanted to open it, but it took him several attempts to complete this simple movement with his fingers, which could easily and skillfully assemble weapons.

Inside is a ring.

"Please, accept my life of nothing."

A ring they had missed for so long.

"In the meantime, I beg you..."

"Give your life to me who has nothing."

The next few seconds were infinitely close to the moment of trial for Osamu Dazai, so he closed his eyes.

"Open your eyes."

However, Cheng told him.

"Look at me, Dazai."

Osamu Dazai looks at his lover, no matter how her appearance changes, she will always have a pair of gentle eyes.

"From a long time ago, I have been thinking about whether I am qualified to give something that does not belong to me to others, even if it is just a promise."

she says.

"But now, I know my answer."

# # #

Osamu Dazai came back alone.

"Where is Cheng?"

Reborn asked.

"Valya."

"Why, have you been ambushed?"

"Yes." Osamu Dazai said calmly, "But it's not impossible. Originally, I wanted to tear up the cooperation directly and take her to a place where no one can find her."

Reborn watched his expression, assessing the truth in his words.

"Are you serious?"

Osamu Dazai didn't answer, but his expression already gave the answer.

"However, this is Cheng's decision."

He smiled slightly.

"Then, at least this time, I have to see her earlier this time."

# # #

When Squalo found Cheng, she was standing alone by the seawall, and for some reason, her hair was completely soaked.

Seeing Squalo and the fully armed action force he led, she smiled leisurely and said, "Long time no see."

"..."

Squalo said.

"What's the matter with you, did you try to swim and escape from the sea and failed?"

"No, I can't swim."

Cheng replied.

"I'm only here for a little while, though, so thank you Squalo, it'll be too cold in a while."

Squalo took off his coat wordlessly and tossed it to her not too gently.

After putting on the clothes, Cheng walked to his side, seeing that Squalo was still silent, she asked suspiciously.

"Aren't you going?"

"What about you, won't you run away?"

"Hmm..." Cheng said, "If you have to escape, it seems that you can escape, but I think you need to be more courageous towards yourself and others... I mean, some things should be faced. "

She looked up and smiled.

"If you are unwilling to face the bad things, you will accidentally miss the good ones."

"...I don't understand you."

Squalo looked at her for a moment, then muttered something under his breath.

"gone."

Cheng looked back for the last time, there was only a little residual red in the sky, she rubbed the small ring in her hand, it seemed that there was still a little bit of residual warmth on it.

# # #

"But now, I know my answer."

"Dazai, I still don't know what will happen tomorrow. Even if it wasn't my intention, my promise may still be a lie that cannot be fulfilled..."

"But, I want to give it to you."

Cheng handed her hand to her lover.

——“Take my heart, love and life.”

"Dazai, the ring seems to have arrived a bit too late."

"So hurry up and hurry up."