[Comprehensive] How to kill a rabid dog gently

Could this be a kiss?Cheng couldn't make a definitive judgment.

All she could confirm was that the box she didn't want to open had finally been opened.

Therefore, although she knew that some words would hurt the youthful heart, but now was about the moment she tried to avoid and had to say.

"Pinghe Island, I..."

"teacher."

Her words were interrupted by the other party.

"I know this is an exaggerated request..." Heiwajima Shizuo said to her, "But please pretend nothing happened."

Shizuo Heiwajima is not a person who can turn a blind eye to other people's feelings.

As long as his heart is still so soft, he can't become a cold and powerful monster at all. The process of continuous grinding of his body and soul often brings him deep pain, even if this is the fact that Orihara Rin has always tried his best to deny.

Shizuo had already caught clues from the other party's attitude, and there was a flash of pain in his eyes as he watched Cheng.

Even so, he is still thinking about...

If only it didn't bother her.

Cheng also discovered this, and suddenly, those words became difficult to say to him again.

Maybe it was the wrong time and the wrong place, the unfinished kiss.

You can say no to the mountain mist that comes with its snowflakes, but how can you say no to the breeze that slips by like the sigh of a spring day.

You can't even tell when it came and when it left.

Such thinking made Cheng miss the best time.

"So, teacher, at least for now..."

At that time, Shizuo softly begged.

"At least for now, don't say anything."

Things seemed to be back on track, but it was clear to everyone involved that something was different.

And the fermentation is still going on, all the more disturbing because of the inaudible.

After that day, Cheng hadn't seen Lin Ye for a while, and when he met him again, it was on a slightly unexpected occasion.

At that time, Cheng was in the library, absent-mindedly trying to take a book from the shelf, but just before she touched the spine of the book, the book happened to be taken from the other side of the shelf.

The infirmary was undergoing equipment maintenance, so she took advantage of the time to come to the library. It was class time, and there was almost no one here except the administrator at the entrance.

She raised her head in surprise, and met Shang Lin's eyes that also showed unexpected emotions.

The two stared at each other silently for a while.

"Good day, teacher."

In this short moment, countless thoughts flashed through his mind, but in the end Lin also sank everything into the torrent, at least the words he spoke were still calm.

"Orihara..."

"Do you want to borrow this book?" Lin Ye glanced at the cover, "I didn't intend to borrow it at first, if you are not in a hurry, just wait for me for a while."

Cheng didn't object, so they sat down together in the empty reading room.

Lin also lowered his head, as if he didn't want to talk anymore. In the reading room where only two of them were alone, the silence became extremely heavy.

Therefore, Cheng also quickly realized that the young man in front of him was ignoring him.

That being the case, they haven't seen each other recently, probably because they were deliberately avoided.

... But, why is this?

Although she was slightly confused by this, Cheng still did not question the other party because of this, but accepted the indifferent treatment from the other party who seemed a little uncertain.

Just like she's always been used to.

"You can ask me why I'm here during school hours, teacher."

Lin also abruptly broke the calm.

"Or, ask me why I have to read this book now... If your silence is because of my attitude, it doesn't matter."

Sadly, however, neither is the case.

"Although I didn't realize it until now... But, teacher, you are really a very cunning person."

Lin Ye pushed the book aside and said.

"Like right now, no matter how much your passivity looks like a show of weakness."

He even smiled.

"The fact is quite the opposite. I think you are used to being the passive side because you think you can handle any situation... This is a discovery that surprised me. Your self-awareness seems to be far more stable than ordinary people. Teacher—— —You never doubted your own strength."

Lin also paused.

"Is that so, teacher? In your eyes, other people are no different from immature children, so you can tolerate them as much as you can. Anyway, it's just a little willfulness."

"Orihara." Cheng's tone was so soft that it was almost impossible to hear that he was defending himself, "I don't think I am superior to others..."

Is it?

Lin also remembered that, the question he hadn't been able to ask in the past.

why are you so lonely

He suddenly turned to another topic.

"The teacher mentioned it to me last time, about marriage."

He talked about it as if it was just a whim, and then he didn't speak again.

But Cheng already understood the meaning in his eyes.

She suddenly became a little flustered.

Orihara Lin also silently watched her.

"...Sorry, Orihara."

"I understand, teacher, why you choose to do this," he said, "You want to use this excuse to seal the box forever before anything happens."

"Then, at best, this matter is just a flower that is too late to bloom, and will soon wither in the next rainy season, and soon I will forget you...or at most, I can only think of a back."

"That way, no one is hurt, you think."

--"But."

Lin also said.

"Teacher, I am living in this moment."

"I'm obviously going to wait until the day when I can stop calling you 'teacher'."

He stood up and pushed the book in front of Cheng.

"I'm sorry, I read your inbox and address book, so I know that the person you said does not exist... But even if I don't do this, I will probably discover your lie sooner or later."

"It's not because you're not good at lying, it's all because of me..."

He stopped suddenly.

But the answer has been extremely clear, in the mind.

—Because I love you.

He didn't say.

He thought, maybe it would be better to say it out, after all, while he wanted her to be shaken, he also wanted her to suffer.

But he didn't say it in the end.

Orihara Lin also suddenly discovered at this time that he could no longer use such feelings as props available, and the relationship between them was no longer one of observer and observed object, or predator and prey...

Ah, yes, because I love you, I have become able to see through your lies.

——They are just two ordinary human beings who are similar but completely different in their own prisons.

Orihara Lin also left soon.

And Cheng stayed alone for a long time.She didn't look at the book she was planning to borrow, as if she was just sitting there.

When students entered the library one after another, she suddenly realized that get out of class was over, so Cheng Cheng got up and walked outside.

Probably because she was always a little distracted, when she was going down the stairs, Cheng accidentally missed a step, and when her body lost her balance and was about to fall forward, someone grabbed her arm from behind.

That person seemed to be overly nervous, and couldn't control his strength for a while, and Cheng was pulled and hit the opponent's chest, but thanks to this moderate impact, she was shocked back to the real world, and then she was relieved. Slowly understand the current situation.

But being caught so tightly, Cheng really couldn't feel any more fear. She was about to thank him, but when she looked up, she saw a familiar face.

"Ah, Heping Island..."

"Are you all right, teacher?"

"It's okay, no injuries at all."

Cheng smiled at him.

"It's because I'm too inattentive when I walk."

Shizuo breathed a sigh of relief, and then remembered to let go of the other party. He slowly realized that his strength should not be light in his desperation, and he might accidentally injure Cheng... Just as he stretched out his hand to try to touch When Cheng hid his arm under the sleeve, Cheng casually walked down a level.

Subtly out of range of what he could touch.

"Are you planning to go back, Heping Island?"

It may be that looking back at him, Cheng's expression and attitude are very normal, and Shizuo almost forgot the strangeness he just noticed.

"Ah."

"Then let's go together."

After finishing speaking, Cheng walked down first, and Jingxiong paused for a moment before following her back.

There doesn't seem to be anything unusual about their getting along, and things seem to have been gently uncovered just like that.

Shizuo didn't know whether he should be happy or not.

He looked at Cheng's side face and was distracted for a while, so when Cheng talked to him, his reaction was half a beat slow.

He vaguely heard that it was a topic related to "brother".

"... Quiet?"

"Well, he is the younger brother of Heihe Island, and he seems to come to the school to wait for you occasionally." Cheng said, "It can be seen that your relationship is very good."

"Well, that's right." Jingxiong thought for a while, "Anyway, if you were picked on by someone, I'd probably be very angry..."

Cheng showed a faint smile.

"Pinghe Island, you are a good brother."

...Or rather, he is a troublesome brother.

Shizuo couldn't help thinking.

Although he has lived like this so far, he is deeply aware of his differences from ordinary people, so he has always felt guilty and grateful to his family... As for people outside the family, they are not afraid of him. That's quite a few.

Among them, Cheng is the most special person.

It seems that everything will become better in her eyes, and everyone will become gentle and harmless... Even Shizuo Heiwajima, in her eyes, is just an ordinary, honest and innocent male high school student.

So she got along with Jingxiong at her own pace, she didn't think he was particularly scary or tough, and she never spared her care and love.

She seemed so fragile, but while he had a strong desire to protect Cheng, she came to him and naturally positioned herself as a "protector". Shizuo Heiwajima had a very strange feeling because of this——

No matter how complicated and wonderful these experiences are, in the end they transform into emotions that Shizuo can understand...that is heartbeat.

He couldn't take his eyes off her.

Like this moment.

When Cheng's gaze was attracted by something, Shizuo also subconsciously looked at it.

It was a new signboard of a cake shop, and Cheng was probably looking at the new spring limited products on the signboard.

Shizuo recalled this shop, where they shared the same cheesecake last winter, but before he could say anything, Cheng had already looked back and walked forward without hesitation.

When he was about to reach a fork in the road, Cheng slowed down and stopped.

"what happened?"

Shizuo asked.

"It seems that we have always walked to a farther intersection together before saying goodbye." She said, "But in fact, we are separated here, and we are closer to our home on Pinghe Island."

Cheng raised his face, his expression was very calm.

"I didn't notice it. I'm not good. From today on, let's say goodbye here."

The moment her words fell, Shizuo seemed to hear something cracking.

Is the picture in front of me that I think has not changed gradually shattering, or is the ground where the two of them stand slowly cracking into two pieces that cannot be connected?

"Pinghe Island, I'm leaving soon."

She continued.

"So, do you understand..."

Her tone was very gentle, like whispering to a crying child.

"Some things, it's better not to let it develop rashly..."

"teacher."

Shizuo Heiwajima interrupted her.

"I know what you're trying to say."

His eyes are very clean, so Cheng can clearly see the sadness and confusion in his heart.

"I just don't understand...is this really the wrong thing to do?"

he asked softly.

"Teacher, can't I like you?"

Cheng was stunned.

Shizuo Heiwajima did not force her to give an answer immediately.

He even accepted Cheng's request to say goodbye here, and even when he left, he didn't forget to say goodbye.

Cheng watched his back disappear before continuing to walk towards home.She was almost out of her wits, so that she didn't notice Celty who was parked beside her for the first time.

Celti had no choice but to pat her on the shoulder, and Cheng's body shook slightly before leaving his own world.

"Selty?"

—Well, it's me.

Searle asked.

--What happened?

Cheng tried hard to smile, to make himself look better.

"It's a little... troublesome."

——Is the student naughty?Or is your boss bullying you?

Celty typed the next line grimly.

—I can beat them up for you.

"No, no, please don't worry." Cheng finally laughed, "Speaking of which, why are you here?"

——Ah, yes.

Searle pulled out an unopened box.

——I went to buy the CD that was just released, which is the latest issue.

"Ah, it seems that the release date is indeed today."

— Fortunately, I met you today.

Celty said.

——You don't look very reassuring today... Then, Cheng, let's take you home first.

Cheng prepared dinner, and when she took out two sets of utensils, she remembered that she had forgotten that Celty didn't need to eat.

In the end, she had to eat alone, and she couldn't help feeling disappointed when she saw that Celty could only sit on the sidelines.

"I obviously invited you specially, but I couldn't entertain you well..."

——Cheng.

However, Celty, who stared at her for a long time, said to her.

——You are such a good woman.

"Hey?"

——Can cook and is pretty and gentle. If I were a male dullahan, I might propose to you.

"Selty..."

Cheng smiled, and then asked very seriously.

"Speaking of which, I'm really curious. Are the Dull Horsemen's mate selection criteria similar to that of ordinary people? Will they consider appearance? Will the bigger the scythe be, the more popular it will be?"

— Uh...about this...

Celty thought quickly.

In fact, not to mention the other Headless Horsemen, she lost her memory and didn't even remember what she was like in the past. She really couldn't provide relevant knowledge about the dullahan blind date market...but the other party's eyes are so serious!I always feel guilty for answering "don't know" easily.

So she answered based on herself.

——Well, roughly like this!By the way, even without a scythe, someone like Cheng would be very popular!

"is it?"

--it is true.

Celty shifted the subject guiltily.

—By the way, do you want to watch the new DVD together?

Cheng readily agrees.

"Okay."

The stories in this issue are quite scary. At the beginning, Celti, who could still sit upright, moved towards Cheng without knowing it. When a ghost suddenly appeared on the screen, Celti was frightened He hugged Cheng's arm.

...Is this too embarrassing.

When he came back to his senses, Celti slowly let go of his hand shyly, but Cheng hugged his shoulders.

"it's alright."

She didn't seem to think there was anything wrong with the Headless Horseman being frightened by ghost stories.

"It might be less scary to lean against me."

...What's the matter with this girl?

If Celti's vocabulary is rich enough, she might think of the word "boyfriend power."

But magically, leaning against her was indeed reassuring.

They snuggled together and watched the rest.

Celti looked at the time, and Shilla, who was thrown at home, was almost at the limit of her patience, so she stood up and planned to say goodbye.

Very briefly, a look of reluctance flashed across Cheng's face.

But she concealed it so quickly that Celti almost suspected that what she saw just now was an illusion.

"Ah, I almost forgot to mention... Celty, I've almost finished watching the DVD you lent me earlier."

--Hey?

Celty was taken aback.

——Is it so fast?

"Must hurry up..." she said. "I haven't told you, Celty, I'm going to move."

—Where are you going?

This was Celti's first reaction, and she quickly asked again.

--why?

"Where to go, I haven't figured it out yet."

There was almost invisible melancholy in her smile.

"As for why, how can I explain..." Cheng said, "Even if I want to stay in one place, I often can't do it, so I often choose to go to other places..."

she said softly.

"I think if you've been traveling all the time, you'll be more used to parting."

Then she stopped talking about it.

"I'll see you today, Celty."

Celti suddenly felt something similar to himself in Cheng.

...she knew it all too well.

This is the feeling of loneliness that is alien to the world.

Celty made a decision immediately.

She quickly texts Shilla.

——Silla, I’m staying at a friend’s house today.

No matter what kind of reaction there was, Celti switched the interface before asking.

——Cheng, can I stay overnight at your place today?

"what……"

Cheng was surprised for a few seconds before nodding his head.

"of course can."

—Well, now you can tell me.

Celty said to her.

- what happened to you today, why you left...or anything else you want another person to listen to.

--I am here.

Where do I start... by the way, my travels.

Ignoring some specific details, Celty, what I can tell you is that I am a person who does not belong anywhere... Should such an existence be called a traveler?

So, I am a traveler.

I have been to many places, but I have to leave those places... Are you sad?Yes, so I tried to live my life in a way that would not leave any regrets, so that when I think of those places again, I can smile without any haze.

Because most of them are good memories.

So, I really love every place I've stayed, and the people there.

Just like I like Ikebukuro - Celty, I like you too.

I'm probably more afraid of loneliness than I imagined... I thought I would stay here a little longer.

But now you can't be willful anymore.

...when I get love from others.

--I don't know.

Celty said.

"Love is different."

Cheng sighed.

"Love, it may be the existence of chaos and disorder in the world."

"Its birth and continuation do not require any conditions...or in other words, it requires some kind of extremely harsh conditions that cannot be found. After the two have gone to extremes, they become similar-in a word, it is It's beautiful and awe-inspiring to burn on its own."

"However, it is extremely difficult for those who give love to obtain happiness."

——"This requires them to get a specific object, an almost equal amount of love."

Cheng looked at Celty.

"When this love is destined to be unrequited, it will become a kind of torture, so I should go where they can't see before things get to this point—"

she says.

"That's what I thought."

"And today I found out that I probably did something really bad."

"I'm trying to pretend there's nothing there, so what's the difference between that and denying their love itself? Is this something that needs to be corrected, something wrong?"

——“But how can love be wrong?”

Cheng closed his eyes.

"So I thought, if there's something really wrong with it, it's probably me..."

--not like this.

At this moment, Celty hugged Cheng.

——I will not regret that I met you just because we are going to part ways... just like a flower will wither, but I will not regret that it once bloomed.

——Cheng, you can never be the wrong person.

"Selty..."

Cheng buried her face in the headless horseman's shoulder.

"Thank you……"

She realized that she couldn't stop the flowers from opening.

— Then let it open.

Not every flower opens to bear fruit.

Even so, Cheng couldn't feel sorry for it at the wrong time of year.

Even if she is not qualified to deny...

From growing to withering, those flowers are a beautiful reincarnation.