old love still

From the dawn to the bright sun, the room full of hormones gradually brightened up, and the delicate atmosphere in the air had long since disappeared.

The breeze sometimes lifts the curtains, and the sun shines on Kong Daixue's eyes from time to time.The recent exhaustion combined with last night's indulgence made her wake up barely because of the strong light. She moved her eyelids, reached out to touch the place beside her, and when there was nothing there, she bounced off the bed with a thud, and lost all sleepiness for a moment.

The messy bed sheets reminded the person that the lingering last night was not a dream. She reached out to touch it again, and what she touched was a piece of ice cold, as if the damp heat of her fingertips last night was an illusion, and sex was just a dream of her own.

Kong Daixue threw herself on the bed, feeling the soreness in her waist, her mind was full of everything about that person, her tears, her twisting waist, her initiative to courtship was obviously a happy thing, but she never She saw a bit of sadness in her blurred eyes, how could a person who is usually so reserved and gentle, be so violent, as if she wanted to release everything she suppressed, with such determination as a moth to a flame...

Would she think it was just an accidental one-night stand?

Thinking of this, Kong Daixue became irritable. She knew that once she got infected with love, she would either die or be hurt. Before she knew Lin Zhongyue's true attitude, she had already started thinking wildly, which is the proof!

right!see her!

Jumping up from the bed again, washing and dressing with sore hands and feet, she stared at herself in the mirror in a daze, and suddenly had the illusion of a dream.In the previous years, those people and those things seemed to be blown away by the wind.Along with it, there is the one who was hurt by others, lonely and helpless when abandoned, cynical and even self-defeating...Kong Daixue.

Everything is strange, everything is new.

wait for me!Thinking so, Kong Daixue changed her usual style and put on her sneakers and ran to Lin Zhongyue's cafe.

"H-Hello, who are you?" The clerk asked politely.

Kong Daixue was out of breath from running. She supported her knees, her face flushed from lack of oxygen, and she straightened her back after a while. "Where are you... your boss?"

"Our boss is not here today." The clerk looked vigilant and spoke in a bad tone.

"Where is she?!" Kong Daixue looked around, but there was no sign of that person anywhere.

"I... don't know."

When Kong Daixue saw the other person's face, she realized that her actions were a little abrupt. She explained, "I'm sorry, I'm your boss's... er... friend, I have something very important to tell her."

The little clerk was dubious, but he replied, "Oh, then you can make a call, our boss's phone is never turned off."

"Then give me your boss's phone number." She was so focused on Lin Zhongyue that she didn't notice that the clerk looked weird.

"Okay...you wait a moment."

Kong Daixue rushed to the street with the phone number she just got, looked around, and listened to the beeping sound on the phone, she couldn't help but get nervous, the other party didn't answer, she played it twice in a row, and when she was about to give up, The other party finally accepted.

"Hey! Lin Zhongyue! Where are you? I have something very important to tell you! I..."

"who are you?"

"..." Kong Daixue was taken aback, picked up the phone, looked at the number and asked, "Who are you?"

"Hehe! I'm Lin Zhongyue's good friend. You guessed right...Kong Daixue, right?"

"I'm sorry! I just asked the clerk for the phone number, but I don't know how to call you..." Kong Daixue looked back at the door of the store very depressed at this moment, and said with a sigh, "You...if it's convenient..."

"I'm sorry! It's very inconvenient for me!" An Xuelu folded her arms on the other side and said through gritted teeth, "Kong Daixue, don't think that I don't know your virtues if I haven't met you! If your conscience is not eaten by dogs If so, I hope you can generously share a little bit with Lin Zhongyue!"

Kong Daixue had never been so angry before, and the other party's rude words immediately made her furious, she sneered and said, "Oh! What do you know!"

"I know a lot!" An Xuelu snorted disdainfully, and seized the opportunity to choke, "I still want to ask you a question? What do you know about Lin Zhongyue?"

"I! I...I..." Kong Daixue was at a loss for words, scratching her hair irritably, she really didn't know anything.

An Xuelu sneered, "Hehe! Don't you also know nothing?"

Kong Daixue laughed at herself and clenched her fists, "Indeed, I know very little about her, maybe that's why I'm looking for her."

"Yo~ what? Listening to this means that you want to turn back?!" An Xuelu panted heavily, wishing to get out of the phone and swallow the other party alive to relieve her hatred, and finally asked angrily "" Kong Daixue, I hope you are serious!"

Kong Daixue lowered her head, knowing she was wrong, and said in a low tone, "I'm serious. So, please..."

Fortunately, An Xuelu did not continue to make things difficult, and said seriously, "I don't know what happened to the two of you. In fact, I am also a little worried. I didn't call her today. However, according to this situation...she may go to a place…"

After hearing this, Kong Daixue hurried to the side of the road, waved her hand, called a taxi, and disappeared down the street.

The cemetery is solemn and solemn, and it seems to be a different world from the noisy and bustling outside. Few people come here to stay. Those who come hurry, put down their bouquets, and leave after saying a few words. Kong Daixue hurriedly passed by a few people , looking into the distance, constantly searching carefully, I am afraid I missed that familiar figure.

Finally, she saw a thin figure staggering forward, as if she was walking towards the exit, she hurriedly ran towards that figure, when passing by a tombstone, she accidentally glanced at it, somewhat similar to Lin Zhongyue, she He bowed respectfully and followed.

She quietly followed behind Lin Zhongyue, following his slow footsteps, keeping a distance not too close or too far from her.

Whenever she stretched out her hand and wanted to rush up to grab her hand, she felt timid looking at her thin back.She didn't know what to say, she wanted to talk about the indescribable loss she felt after waking up alone, the crazily urge to find her, and the dull pain in her heart...like.

It's hard to say, but that's all.

I followed that figure and walked along the street. I don't know how long I walked. I only know that that figure is so stubborn, so stubborn that it makes people feel ashamed and distressed. I only know that from dawn to night, the road ahead is boundless.Kong Daixue felt that the time she spent thinking along the way was comparable to the past 20 years. She not only looked back on herself, but also thought about the person in front of her...

How much pain has this person been in?

How much of the pain is because of me?

Last night...why was she crying?

Fortunately, both of them had their own thoughts, and Lin Zhongyue just walked with her head down, so that Kong Daixue could follow carefully without being noticed.The two of them didn't stop along the way, passing by several bus stops, occasionally someone would talk to her back.The neon lights are flickering, and the two shadows are retrograde in the opposite flow of people until they stop at a movie theater closest to home...

Kong Daixue, who was staring at the back, went in, raised her head and glanced, and followed in. She didn't dare to get too close, so she had to wait for her to buy the ticket before running to the counter to secretly ask the waiter.

"Excuse me, may I ask which one did the lady buy just now?"

"Oh, that lady bought a single ticket for "A Chinese Journey to the West" just now."

"Then please give me one too! Thank you!"

"Okay. The movie will start soon, please go to Hall [-] and wait."

"Thank you!"

Kong Daixue took the ticket and hurriedly searched for her, afraid of meeting her face to face, she entered the hall under cover, the movie had already started, and there were fewer people in the small hall, so she could sit wherever she wanted. He sat down on a seat near the corner of the screen, curled up in the chair and looked back secretly through the gap for Lin Zhongyue. Coincidentally, the two sat on the diagonal.The distance is a bit far, and the vision is not good. Relying on the weak light, Lin Zhongyue can be vaguely seen, but she just stares at the screen blankly.

She spread out on the seat, staring at the screen that was close at hand, the sound effect made her ears hurt, the classic plots can still make people laugh, and the lines are so familiar that people can recite them backwards. Changed positions, like a pile of puppets sitting there, only the light of the screen reflected in the empty eyes.She suddenly lost her courage, and her impulsiveness disappeared, so she could only nestle in this seat and look forward with the same expression as her...

Until the end of the film, when Zhou Xingchi and Athena Chu were standing on the tower, Kong Daixue looked back at Lin Zhongyue in astonishment, tears kept falling from her empty eyes, her teeth were hard Biting her lip, she seemed to bite her arm in order not to cry out. The more she cried, the harder she bit, the snot flowed from her nose, and tears had already covered her cheeks and arms.

She cried so sadly.

"The Love of My Life" sounded in my ears, and two young couples left early. Before leaving, they both glanced at Lin Zhongyue tacitly, then looked at each other and smiled, whispering to each other, not knowing what happy things to say …

"I will never leave in my life, I love you!"

"What are you looking at?"

"That man looks so weird!"

"I saw it too.", "He looks like a dog!"

Lin Zhongyue was sobbing, biting herself fiercely, her teeth were deeply embedded in the flesh, and she could even feel the tearing sound of the flesh on her arm being bitten apart, she knew that if she bit it harder, it would bleed, She just wanted to cry, but instinct made her suppress it.For a long, long time, she thought that she could not feel the pain, and the long waiting and patience had already made her numb.Just like a hibernating animal wakes up in spring, it feels the coldness of winter and knows how to fear the cold.Lin Zhongyue thought that after a narrow escape, she would be invincible, and even if she faced Kong Daixue again, she would still be able to take it easy and face it calmly.

It is said that time cures all diseases, but she did not expect that she was so wrong.

"Why are you crying?"

A familiar voice sounded above her head, Lin Zhongyue raised her head in surprise, her face was in a mess, she wiped her eyes helplessly and said, "You! Why are you here? This...is out. I have to go.", Lin Zhongyue secretly hated herself for not noticing her walking towards her.She gently pushed Kong Daixue away, and fled in front of her with her numb legs.

Kong Daixue grabbed her arm when she fled in a hurry.With the faint light, she saw a deep tooth mark embedded in the arm that was originally a scar, glowing with blood.Some angry, some distressed, more self-blame, she sighed, gently stroked the dent with trembling fingertips and asked, "Does it hurt?"

"I...I'm leaving." Lin Zhongyue withdrew her hand and turned around. Unexpectedly, the man suddenly hugged her from behind, "What are you doing! Let me go!"

"I won't let you go! If I let you go, you will run away!" Kong Daixue stubbornly refused to let go.

Several passing couples and the cleaning aunt cast strange eyes here, Lin Zhongyue lowered her head and bit her lips helplessly and said in a low voice, "Let's leave here first."

"You promise you won't run away?"

"Ah."

"You promise you and I have a good chat? Okay?"

"Ah."

Kong Daixue quickly let go of her arms obediently, and led Lin Zhongyue out of the cinema, holding her hand tightly all the way for fear that she would run away.

On the way, Lin Zhongyue tried to break free several times but failed. Looking at Kong Daixue who was pulling her to walk in a hurry, she laughed at herself. She might have seen her appearance just now. That ugly appearance, last night Not long ago... all revealed!

"Kong...Kong Daixue!" Lin Zhongyue shook off Kong Daixue's hold on her feet, stretched her wrist and lowered her head, saying, "If you have anything to say, just say it."

"Why are you crying?" Kong Daixue asked Lin Zhongyue behind her back, without turning around.

"The movie is very good." Lin Zhongyue's throat slipped, and her voice was still slightly hoarse after crying.

"Then why did you cry last night?"

"Last night...I don't remember what happened."

"Oh... I don't remember!" Kong Daixue turned around suddenly, looked straight at Lin Zhongyue with red eyes and said, "It doesn't matter if you remember, Lin Zhongyue, seeing you cry... I feel so sad..."

"What are you talking about!" Lin Zhongyue interrupted her and shouted.

"I think... I should have fallen in love with you." Kong Daixue pointed to her heart and said, "You make my heart feel so uncomfortable, as if being pinched by you."

Lin Zhongyue's heart ached, she laughed with tears in her eyes and finally laughed and said, "Stop joking, Kong Daixue."

"I'm not joking. I'm afraid that kind of feeling is not limited to liking." Kong Daixue took a step forward, forcing Lin Zhongyue to take a step back. She said with a bitter smile, "I'm really serious! Every time I see your back, I feel so distressed like this. Seeing your lonely eyes makes my heart palpitate too."

"Thank you. That's sympathy and pity, not liking or love." Lin Zhongyue rubbed her red and swollen eyes, pretending to be indifferent.

"Yes or no, only I know." Kong Daixue didn't argue, she paused and said, "I just want you to give me a chance. Let's get to know each other again, shall we?"

Lin Zhongyue's heart skipped a beat, and she raised her head to look directly at Kong Daixue, her previously bewitching or rampant face was expressionless now; all the laughter and cursing on weekdays were written in these eyes, which were extremely clear at this moment, but Simply reflecting his own figure.

"We... haven't known each other all along?"

"You understand what I mean." Kong Daixue frowned, looking a little impatient.

"I don't understand. I'm going home..." Lin Zhongyue walked two steps and passed her.

"What are you running away from! You obviously like me too!" Finally, Kong Daixue couldn't hold back, and shouted at her back, attracting the attention of many passers-by.

Lin Zhongyue's figure paused for a moment, tears fell down in disobedient series, she secretly wiped away "Let the past be the past."

Kong Daixue laughed back angrily, "Dare you say...you don't care about me at all? Aren't you waiting for me when you settle down in this place!"

"Yes or no is irrelevant." Lin Zhongyue didn't turn her head, but said softly with her spine straight, "I'm going home."

After a few seconds of silence, the person behind said softly, "I'll accompany you."

Lin Zhongyue did not refuse, and Kong Daixue took it as her acquiescence.The two were still walking in tacit understanding as before, without speaking.The autumn night was cool, and the cold wind blew, and Lin Zhongyue's crying face was slightly hurt. Kong Daixue took the initiative to lean towards Lin Zhongyue. She knew it was a futile move, but she still tried to cover it up a little bit.

The two stood downstairs side by side, and Kong Daixue looked up at the adjacent windows on the fifteenth floor, pretending to be relaxed and asking, "Did I use to be a jerk?"

Lin Zhongyue tucked her hair around her ear, opened her mouth but didn't say a word.

Kong Daixue didn't care about her silence, she shrugged and said, "I admit that I used to be a jerk, but only to you, to those passers-by, I owe nothing, they are careless, and I am ruthless, it is not too much to describe it as a joke. If you have a grudge against this fact, I have no complaints. I just hope that you...give me a chance to change your opinion of me. "

These words are extremely sincere, Lin Zhongyue can feel it naturally, but she dare not respond to her.She can stand the loss, but she can't stand the despair any more.What's more... If she gains and loses again, both of them will be smashed to pieces. All she can do is keep silent.

The worst result is to become a stranger.

"It's getting cold, go home early." Without getting an answer, Kong Daixue was not anxious, but just pushed Lin Zhongyue's back to let her go home quickly.

Lin Zhongyue walked towards the door in a daze, but the key couldn't be inserted into the keyhole no matter what.

"Hey!"

The person behind shouted loudly, and she instinctively looked back at Kong Daixue.

"I'll be waiting for you! I'll be waiting for the day you believe in me!" Kong Daixue said with a smile, "Don't forget to go back and rub some medicine on your arm. I will check tomorrow..."

Lin Zhongyue's mind was muddled, and she hurried into the door, not wanting to hear any more words from her, she was very tired now, and she didn't want to think about anything anymore.Lost her modesty, her self-esteem, and the past, when she made up her mind to wake up from her dream, this man could easily make her previous efforts come to naught.

But when she got home, she subconsciously ran to the balcony and looked down...

Seeing a small figure, he raised his head and kept waving his arms at himself.

"fool…"

For so many years, I have waited for her, hoped for her, longed for her but never dreamed of truly having her heart.I was ready to say "Long time no see" to her, but looking at her so silly, how should I say goodbye?