Fake doubles and real actors

Qi Ming suffered from insomnia again.

The night before, I was busy with work and was a bit late. If I took medicine, I was worried that I would not be able to get up in the morning, so I just kept my eyes open until dawn.

Maybe it's because he didn't sleep all night, when he arrived at the hospital, Qi Ming only felt that it was blindingly white everywhere, and the light was too bright, which made his eyes sore and wanted to cry.

The operation was so minor that he was the only one waiting outside the operating room.

The doctor also reassured him that the operation would end quickly, and he could even go directly to the ward and wait for Gu Debai to be pushed over.

But he still insisted on staying here, with a persistence that even he couldn't explain clearly.

He didn't know what he wanted to see, even the seats here were cold, the air was too silent, and the red light that was on made him breathless.

Qi Ming hardly remembers the past, and rarely takes the initiative to recall it.

He didn't think that he would be like those stories, because one or two things like this would leave some life-changing shadows. He knew that it was wrong for him to always suppress his emotions like this, to be separated from everything, but it was very difficult to control.

Just like today.

As long as he really pretends not to know, or as long as he goes to the ward to wait instead of staying here... he can avoid the emotional ups and downs that he is not familiar with and cannot be predicted and controlled.

How restless the unplanned was, he could indeed avoid it.

As an old friend, Charlie told him that some people can indeed avoid their real feelings and real needs all their lives.

Qi Ming couldn't remember what was said before and after. He only remembered that when he heard this sentence, he suddenly felt a little unwilling.

A lifetime is too long, he doesn't want to be like this forever, and he doesn't dare to be like this forever.

He delayed for a few days and worried that if Gu Debai was too conniving, he might really be able to do nothing like this until both of them were exhausted.

Until... she found out that Gu Debai was lying to him again.

That subtle anger and dissatisfaction, like a fleeting spark, landed in his heart that was already full of emotions, but was always sealed and suppressed.

Then it ignites everything in an instant.

What should be forgotten, what has not been forgotten, what has been deliberately ignored, what cannot be seen clearly, together with the day when he no longer had the courage to recall, were all brought out by this spark, turned into a raging fire with mixed feelings, making Qi Ming whole The night is inevitable, and the chest is sore and hot.

He sat outside the operating room and slowly closed his eyes. Even the ticking of the second hand on the watch seemed to become clear and magnified several times.

For a few minutes, his head became drowsy, he nodded sleepily, and fell into a boundless dream.

In the dream, it was also the hospital with pale lights. He stood guard outside the operating room, staring at the red light, waiting for his parents to come home.

He didn't know what the adults were saying or thinking, nor could he understand them.

Then the lights went out, the doctor came out, and two strange beds were pushed out. He didn't see his parents, and thought they were still receiving treatment, so he stayed here and continued to wait.

The memory of that period was intermittent, he only remembered that he had waited for a long time.

But still didn't wait.

Qi Ming nodded abruptly, woke up suddenly, opened his eyes, and happened to see the lights in the operating room go out.

He stood up and saw the doctor pushing the bed out.

Just as the doctor was about to say something, he saw Qi Ming's face was pale, his eyes were red, as if he was in a wandering spirit state, he swayed and walked slowly.

"The surgery was a success."

Seeing that he was worried, the doctor explained while pushing the bed towards the ward.

Qi Ming stepped forward and saw Gu Debai who had his eyes closed, his ears were buzzing, it seemed to be tinnitus, and the surrounding sounds were fading away.

Seeing him like this, the doctor suddenly felt that something was wrong, and wanted to comfort him a little more, but it was just an appendix cut, and young people don't have to worry about it when they are in love.

Then a loud snore was heard.

With a long tone, he said, "Hang Chi Hang Chi".

doctor:"……"

Qi Ming: "..."

Doctor: "That's right. At the request of Mr. Gu, we originally performed half-body anesthesia. He said he wanted to wake up earlier."

Qi Ming was stunned, "Huh?"

Doctor: "Then he fell asleep in the middle of the work, and we took care of Mr. Gu who was quite sleepy, so we didn't wake him up."

Qi Ming: "...?"

The presence of the snoring sound was too strong, Qi Ming followed the doctor all the way into the ward, moved him to the bed, and was still beating.

He remembered that Gu Debai didn't snore before, and only when he was extremely tired, coupled with severe lack of sleep, would he snore occasionally.

Thanks to the snoring, Qi Ming felt a lot more awake, as if some invisible membrane had been broken, and he was dragged back to the real world full of fireworks.

He took out his mobile phone, facing Gu Debai's sleepy face with his mouth slightly open, clicked on the video, recorded the long sound, and saved it.

At this time, the doctor came again.

Qi Ming turned his head, put away his phone calmly, met the doctor's hesitant gaze,

"How much did you see?"

The doctor pushed his glasses, "...I didn't see it. I'm here to wake up the patient."

Qi Ming: "...please."

He silently stood on the other side of the bed, and then began to watch the process of the doctor and nurse waking Gu Debai together.

At first, I called Mr. Gu loudly.

No response, snoring.

The doctor yelled again, shouting with the nurse.

Gu Debai still didn't respond.

The doctor frowned slightly, "Sleep so dead? Didn't you wake up once just after the operation?"

The other doctor nodded beside him, "Yeah, I woke up at the time, and fell asleep immediately after saying a few words, director, trust me."

It was useless to call the name, the doctor borrowed the mobile phone, turned on the vibration of the alarm clock and snacks, and posted them next to the pillow.

Gu Debai still didn't wake up, but frowned slightly.

The doctor finally started... Shaking his shoulders, Gu Debai's snoring stopped abruptly.

"Huh? Annoying... let me sleep a little longer..."

Seeing that he didn't even open his eyelids, he patted the doctor and the phone away, and pulled the quilt over his body to cover his neck well.

Qi Ming finally couldn't stand it anymore, and called out, "Gu Debai."

In the next second, Gu Debai suddenly opened his eyes.

Then the round eyes slowly narrowed into a slit under the urging of sleepiness, "Oh my God, I'm starting to dream..."

Qi Ming leaned over angrily and amusedly, bent down and gave Mr. Gu a firm bed, covering him in the shadow, gritted his teeth and smiled,

"Mr. Gu has lied to me so badly, how long do you want to sleep?"

hiss……

Gu Debai took a deep breath and woke up from the fright.

I don’t know if it’s the sequelae of anesthesia (of course it’s not), and I still stutter a little, “Ming, Mingming…Ming…Why are you here…”

Qi Ming looked at him with a smile, and found that he was really awake, so he lowered his head and lightly touched his lips, "I'll talk about it later."

After speaking, he straightened up and moved out of the way, giving space to the doctors.

The doctor acted as if he hadn't seen it, and said a few words to Gu Debai, asked a few questions, and then left after confirming everything was correct.

Qi Ming sat on one side, crossed his legs, leaned back straight on the back of the chair, rested one hand on the armrest of the chair, and tapped it slowly with his fingertips.

"Gu Debai..."

"I was wrong."

Gu Debai struggled to get up, "I was wrong, I didn't do it on purpose, I thought I'd confess to you tomorrow, really Mingming, don't be angry!"

Qi Ming: "Lie back."

Gu Debai lay down obediently.

Qi Ming sighed, his expression suddenly relaxed a lot.

"Why do you think I'm angry?"

"I... I lied to you, and I did the operation without telling you?"

This tone, I am not very sure.

No matter why you are angry, just beg for mercy first!

Qi Ming frowned slightly, "No."

Gu Debai was dumbfounded, "Ah, what is that?"

Qi Ming: "...I don't know either, actually I'm not very angry either."

He got up, pulled the chair closer, sat down against the hospital bed, took Gu Debai's cold hand and held it, then leaned over on the side of the bed,

"I know you are afraid that I will be frightened, so you don't tell me the date of surgery, and you don't let me see it."

"..." Gu Debai clasped his palms, and the temperature gradually spread, making him calm down, "Yeah."

"I wanted to come."

Qi Ming argued for himself,

"I'm not that timid either."

Gu Debai looked at him for a while, then suddenly raised his other hand, went over and touched his head, "It's amazing."

As if praising a child, Qi Ming's face was a little hot, and he patted his hand away, "It's not great."

"Ok?"

"...Not everyone can be so powerful," Qi Ming said in a low voice.

Maybe it's because he seldom confesses his feelings like this, his voice reveals a kind of reluctant awkwardness, which is different from the usual feeling,

"What can I do so that you won't hide this kind of thing from me in the future?"

"This kind...is it my business?"

Gu Debai vaguely heard something, but subconsciously couldn't believe it, "What worries you?"

"Ah."

Qi Ming finally raised his head, but he was still lying on his stomach, as if shy, only the upper half of his face was exposed, and when he looked carefully, he could see that the corners of his eyes were a little red, with dark circles, as if he was exhausted by sleepiness,

"Wouldn't it be okay if we were together?"

"...!"

Gu Debai's breathing stopped suddenly, and his fingertips trembled a little, "What, what..."

"Did I promise to be with you, dating, falling in love... You won't avoid me at this time in the future?"

"Cough cough cough..."

Gu Debai wanted to speak suddenly, but then choked on his own saliva, and his eyes were red after coughing for a long time.

While coughing, he struggled to clenched Qi Ming's hand, and kept repeating, "Yes, of course, yes, Mingming, I am willing..."

The doctors were startled.

After a while, the ward finally returned to quietness, and an extra single bed was placed next to Gu Debai's bed for family members to accompany him.

After the doctor left, Qi Ming slowly pulled the small bed over, and after getting very close to Gu Debai, he lay down on it.

Gu Debai took his hand, not afraid of being seen by anyone, not too tired of crooked, it was placed between the two beds, the palm of his hand was warm.

Listening to the voice in his ears, Qi Ming felt his eyelids getting heavy, and Gu Debai also yawned profusely.

After being separated for many days without knowing it, the two of them who had never had a good rest were finally able to sleep peacefully and have a good night's sleep.