accompany me

"Okay, why did I come here to smoke with you?" Chi Yang leaned on the railing of the roof, raised his eyebrows, "This day, this place... I don't even share one."

His coat was draped over He Yi's body, and he had only a pullover sweater left. Standing in the cold wind of late autumn in the north, he looked too cold.

He Yi stood next to him, bowed his head to light his cigarette, and said "Mmm", "It's the last one."

"What about the clothes?"

"Back to you?"

"No." Chi Yang was afraid that he would do what he said, so he quickly waved his hands, "You don't feel cold when you look like that, just wear it."

He just said that, He Yi didn't need to mention it this time, when the cold wind blew when he walked up to the roof, he had already spontaneously and consciously took off his coat and put it on someone else.

It doesn't necessarily mean that he cares about He Yi, it's more like satisfying the shady selfish desires in his heart, wanting to occupy this thin young man in school uniform in front of him, wrapping him in a coat that still retains his body temperature, Get his taste.

Like an enclosure wolf.

It's just that the method is more civilized, and it didn't cause He Yi any discomfort.

He Yi was wearing his coat, inside was a neat shirt and school uniform from the neckline to the hem, standing there upright, with downcast eyes lighting a cigarette skillfully, his slender and beautiful fingers close to his mouth like handicrafts, It covered his expression, and together with the loose and simple black coat that was casually worn, there was a strange contrast, revealing a little cold and ruffian.

Chi Yang looked at him, playing with the empty cigarette case casually, making a slight movement of the paper shell popping open.

"What are you looking at me for?" He Yi finished lighting his cigarette, raised his head to take a puff, and slowly exhaled the smoke, asking casually.

"You look good."

"Really?" He Yi was noncommittal, narrowed his eyes slightly, looked at the gloomy sky in the distance, seemed to remember something far away, and said softly, "It's not a good thing to look good."

Chi Yang looked at his well-shaped lips, and lazily said "um", "Why?"

"If your appearance is too outstanding, you may have the idea of ​​relying on your appearance in exchange for the protection of others, stop improving yourself, and blindly please others..." When he said this, his tone was very light, and there was a little sadness in his eyes, "But no one is Those who can stay young forever, even if they are lucky enough to find someone they can rely on, will be abandoned because of their old appearance one day, and they will not even have the ability to escape."

Because I don't have the skills to make a living, and I don't have the courage to live alone.

"Do you usually talk like this?" Chi Yang listened to him very patiently, then raised his eyebrows and asked, "or have you thought about these words many times, just to say them to someone one day?" Anyone else listen?"

He Yi glanced at him, held a cigarette in his mouth, and didn't speak.

"That person probably isn't me either." Chi Yang raised his hand and carelessly rubbed He Yi's hair, "After all, if it's me, even though I'm good-looking, even if someone points a gun at him, I won't Do things like selling yourself for glory..."

He walked over, took the cigarette from He Yi's mouth casually, pressed it out and threw it on the ground, propped up his arms, trapped He Yi between him and the wall in a very impolite posture, and said in a low voice: " But if you sell it to you, you can consider it."

He Yi raised his chin slightly, as if he wanted to avoid his sudden approaching breath, but exposed his fragile neck to the opponent's eyes.He raised his head and stared at Chi Yang, his black eyes were calm as usual, unable to see his emotions clearly.

"What do you want?" he asked.

Chi Yang lowered his head and brushed the corner of his mouth in a low breath: "I want to kiss you."

It was an aggressive, forceful and relentless kiss, more like a bite than a kiss, the sharp canines grabbed the soft lips, and the fingers pinching his chin were like iron, forcing him to open his mouth to accept.

No matter how young and mature He Yi was, he had never been treated so rudely, let alone in such an ambiguous way.He snorted almost subconsciously, and raised the hand hanging by his side in a panic, trying to push Chi Yang away.

Chi Yang paused, and unexpectedly relaxed his movements as he wished, let go of the hand that clamped his chin, and looped behind his back as if to comfort him, stroking his back.

The pain of being bitten and attacked was replaced by another indescribable feeling, like a fire that ignited suddenly and spread slowly, making people's minds turn white.He Yi was still at a loss, his breathing was unusually out of rhythm, but he didn't refuse again.

It seemed that it was only the pain that caused him discomfort, rather than this vague kiss that could already be counted as aggression.

"Brother," Chi Yang straightened up, stretched out his hand to caress the bitten lower lip in front of him like he couldn't help himself, his eyes showed undisguised affection, but the other party couldn't understand, "You know that my kissing you means what?"

He Yi raised his head and looked directly at him, but his eyes were a little blank: "... Courtship."

"So smart," Chi Yang seemed to smile, "Then you agree?"

This is a meaningless question.

Both fell silent, leaving only each other's chaotic, slightly rapid breathing, indicating the absurd kiss a few minutes ago.

He Yi didn't answer, his gaze went over his shoulder to the distant sky.

I don't know how long it took, until Chi Yang finally lost his patience and straightened up as if giving up on himself, he replied in a low voice: "I don't know."

This is already a very good answer - at least compared to what Chi Yang had imagined before he bowed his head and kissed, it was already a very face-saving and even hopeful answer.

But he didn't seem to be happy about it at all, he just stepped back from the polite social distance, looked at the cigarette on the ground that he extinguished before taking two puffs, and said jokingly: "You're kidding."

He found another excuse for each other that was logical in theory but incomprehensible in emotion.

Fortunately, He Yi only cares about logic, not and cannot detect those absurd contradictions in emotion.

"Just now you said that being good-looking is not a good thing," he heard himself say, "at least it's a plus for someone like you, you see, being a person with good conditions like me, I'm often praised for my kissing skills After a kiss, you didn't promise me to sell yourself for glory like you said just now."

He Yi frowned slightly, looked at him, and seemed to want to refute something: "It's not..."

"Not what?"

"You..." He Yi thought for a moment, then said, "Your kissing skills are indeed not bad..."

"Okay," Chi Yang smiled, feeling that what he said was more inexplicable than his nonsense, "don't comfort me, I'm not bad for you..."

"Very comfortable."

He Yi raised his hand and gathered the coat that was draped over his body. His thin white fingers rested on the dark fabric. Obviously it was only a brief gathering, but it seemed that more things that attracted people's imagination were involved.Chi Yang looked at his hands, a little startled: "What?"

"It's nothing." He Yi withdrew his gaze, bent down to pick up the cigarette case that Chi Yang dropped, and put it into the trash can a few steps away, along with the cigarette that Chi Yang had robbed him of, his voice was still calm, " Let's go, get out of class is almost over."

His concept of time was very precise. As soon as he finished speaking, the get out of class bell rang one after another.He walked a few steps, seeing that Chi Yang didn't follow, he looked back strangely.

Chi Yang was also looking at him—with a vague and dangerous look full of complicated emotions.

"He Yi," he said, "sometimes I really want to..."

I really want to go further and do something vulgar and unreasonable, so that you can't cry-see if you can still be as calm as you are now, and if you still have the strength to say these words.

His voice was very low, He Yi couldn't hear clearly, and stood there looking at him suspiciously.

But Chi Yang didn't explain what he meant, he tugged at the collar of the sweater casually, and walked straight towards him: "Go."

It was a cloudy and windy day, when He Yi walked up the corridor, He Yi paused subconsciously, and noticed something moving in the corner of his vision, and it was Chi Yang who took half a step forward, seemingly unintentionally blocking the wind for him.

The other party's deep, self-talking voice was sent into his ears along the cold wind like this——Chi Yang said, it's the last time, if it doesn't work, forget it.

"I can only let you go."

——What should I do, I like you so much, I have been looking up to you secretly for more than ten years, and I am even reluctant to use those violent and rude methods to bully you, but the temptation is obvious enough, and the methods that conform to social norms have been exhausted, if I still can’t impress you , then I had no choice but to give up.

I can't really keep you in captivity.Even if you won't resist, you will stay by my side for the rest of your life...

But how can that be called loving you?

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