accompany me

"Mommy mommy--"

"Xiao Yang, you are obedient, obedient," the woman said, but he couldn't see her face clearly. He only knew that it was raining heavily, and the surrounding was pitch black. It was a humid rainy night that was about to collapse—someone He was holding his hand, pulling his arm to take him away, but the familiar female voice was still not far away, hoarse, "Xiao Yang, you are obedient, mother is sorry for you, it is mother who is sorry for you—"

From the beginning to the end, there was no promise that he would come to pick him up, nor any comfort to a young child.Only the order to obey was miserable, forcing him to walk into that hellish orphanage on earth, to be obedient, and to be obedient forever.

The soil in the yard is damp, exuding a disgusting earthy smell, as well as the rusty smell that often fills the nostrils and almost becomes hallucinatory.The summer is so humid, but he can never drink enough drinking water, even the rusty tap water has too much porridge, the rice is rotten, there are always snatching and unreasonable beatings before meals, seven or eight little hands Pushing and shoving him, calling him a thief who came to steal.

That's how it was, the latecomer, too sharp and unwilling to resist—he really thought that as long as he was more obedient, his parents would come to pick him up one day, just like other people's parents pick up other children.

This idea has existed for a long time.

Until the moment he clenched his fists and fought back for the first time, he was probably full of despair.

Chi Yang woke up suddenly from the damp rust smell in his imagination, stared fixedly at the diffused light of the bedside lamp, did not look away until his eyes hurt from seeing, and let out a breath slowly——then he Realizing that the smell of rust was real, he bit the tip of his tongue in his dream.

It turned out to be a dream.

——This is actually absurd. He is different from He Yi. After leaving the orphanage, he almost cut off that memory forcefully, not allowing himself to recall it. It was caused by instinct in the first few years, even in his dreams. Sadly alert and sober.

What's more, he never had the impression that anyone personally sent him to the orphanage, or was taken away by someone, and reluctantly said goodbye. Before this meeting, he didn't even know the appearance and voice of his mother—this dream was so absurd. People startled.

Maybe nightmares are all so absurd, mixed with reality and fiction, crawling out from the depths of memory that you least want to touch, bit by bit, bit by bit, making people breathless.

It turned out that in the past ten years, He Yi woke up from such nightmares every day.

He Yi's name is like a clear lamp, slowly rising from the depths of the nightmare, the light is soft, making people quiet unconsciously.Chi Yang sat up slowly, leaning against the hard head of the bed, feeling that he was really crazy, dare to dream of such an inexplicable thing.

The first day of the winter vacation officially started, it was approaching 05:30 in the morning, and the sky was still dark.He hesitated for two seconds, choosing the former between disturbing He Yi for a nap and letting himself die in the nightmare.

Don't make a sound, don't bother him, just want to stay with him for a while, or quit addiction.

Apart from staying up all night, Chi Yang hasn't seen the sky at this point awake for a long time - and his house at this point, it's pitch black, it doesn't look like a place where people live.

After leaving the orphanage, he got used to sleeping with the light on every night. Subconsciously, he was wary of someone who would come to trouble him while he was asleep. Even though the security of the community was good, there was no enemy who would grab breakfast with him now, but this sense of security was not caused by the outside world. What he could give, he had no other choice but to maintain his own high vigilance.

——Now I still have to go to He Yi to recharge my battery.

He didn't knock on the door, he pushed the door lightly and went in, looking inside by the light from the room behind him.He Yi seemed to be still asleep, and his sleeping appearance was as obedient as he imagined, lying on his back in an orderly manner, occupying only half of the bed.

Very good, the remaining half will naturally belong to him.

He gently closed the door, walked over, and sat down beside He Yi's bed. The mattress seemed to be softer than that in his room. It was pitch black and he couldn't see clearly. He could only hear the young man's steady breathing, the faint fragrance of grass and trees, It's irritating for no reason.

Charging is still a crime, who has nothing to do and enters the partner's room early in the morning... Chi Yang shook his head, feeling that he is in a good mood now, and he will not have to die or live for the nightmare anymore, and if he stays here, he will probably do something else dream, it is better to go back to sleep.

But he forgot He Yi's biological clock to get up early and go to bed late.

The biological clock is more than that, there is also a good temper that wakes up quickly when you open your eyes, and has no urge to get up.He Yi seemed to be taken aback when he saw him: "... Chi Yang?"

"Um, woke you up?"

He Yi shook his head, stretched out his hand to turn on the bedside lamp, and sat up: "Why are you here..."

Before he could finish speaking, he felt a weight on his shoulders, and when he came back to his senses, Chi Yang pulled him into his arms.The other party was only wearing a thin sweater, the material of which was soft, and his body temperature was slightly higher than his own, wrapping him tightly - Chi Yang hugged him harder than before, as if he really wanted to rub him into his arms, and then reluctant.

"The first day of vacation," he heard Chi Yang's muffled voice in his shoulder, a little hoarse, more like a pleading than a glib coquettish, "don't get up early, sleep with me for a while..."

He Yi was stunned for a moment, then raised his hand, hesitantly put it on the other person's back, imitating Chi Yang's previous appearance, and patted lightly as if comforting: "Okay."

He always felt that this situation, as if it shouldn't be like this, and it seems like it should be like this.

There is no ambiguity at all, and there is no desire that concealed tit-for-tat in the past, but it is like a silent request, a sea of ​​fish to the sea.

Chi Yang has a strong desire to possess him, and it can be seen from the posture of embracing and sleeping that he is not so much hugging as he is wrapping him up and locking him in his arms, as if he is afraid that he will escape and wants to hand over him With one hand clasped, the breath fell on his neck, as if he threatened to bite him if he dared to run.

Dare to dare is another matter, he is probably not willing to part with it, even if he really did something unconsciously in his dream, the result of waking up and seeing the tooth marks is probably that He Yi himself is fine, he can blame himself for a day, sticky He pestered the other party to apologize - but for now at least He Yi doesn't mind being locked up to sleep like this, and he is not sleepy, he is already satisfied to be hugged by Chi Yang like this, and he is happy to close his eyes for a while.

I should have asked just now, did Chi Yang have a nightmare.

This sleep was very solid, sound and dreamless.It was already noon when Chi Yang opened his eyes again. The curtains in this room were not as blackout as his own, and the bright sky outside could be seen through the light-colored fabric. He Yi must have been awake for a long time and kept locked in his arms. Li's gesture didn't alarm him, and he calmly swiped his phone.

This scene is really fresh, if he hadn't seen it with his own eyes, it would be difficult for him to connect the act of swiping his phone while lying on the bed with He Yi.

Maybe it's a good thing, his little fairy is getting more and more of the fireworks that normal high school students should have.

Seeing that he was awake, the little god put down the phone, turned to look at him, restrained his eyes, and faintly worried: "You're awake."

"Hmm..." Still sleepy.Chi Yang lowered his head, his action was one step ahead of his thinking, and he kissed the white neck that was protruding from his collar. his appearance.

He was so out of sorts today.

He Yi was tickled by him, but he couldn't stop him, so he had to change the subject, and politely asked the question he cared about the most: "What's wrong with you today?"

"Brother," Chi Yang answered irrelevantly, and answered him sullenly, "Usually at this time, I would comfort you for a while, and ask what's wrong when it comes up..."

He was teasing He Yi, but his tone was too serious, implying real grievances and accusations, but He Yi was stunned for a moment, thinking that he had made a slip of the tongue, and subconsciously wanted to apologize.

"But you are different. You can ask whenever you want. I'll be there for you anytime." Chi Yang didn't give him this chance, and added the second half of the sentence without haste, rubbing the bridge of his nose against a small piece of the junction of the other's shoulder and neck. The skin is delicate, and the breath is hot and humid, "I had a nightmare, I dreamed of my mother, that's all."

When he mentioned the word nightmare in front of He Yi, what he thought was not even what he dreamed about, but whether the word would affect the other party, and whether it would remind him of those bad nights in the past.

But He Yi didn't think about it.

He just froze for a moment, then asked hesitantly, "Is she still looking for you?"

As expected of a top student, he can grasp the key points at a glance and ask his concerns hidden under his words.

"I met by chance at the bakery that day." Chi Yang cleared his throat, trying not to sound so disgusting, "It was really a coincidence, she took her daughter to the shop, and the little girl cried and was so annoying I just went there... She may think that I have pitied them once, and there will be a second and third time, so she always sends me something, you see—"

He said to show He Yi, but his actions were very honest, and he still hugged him to prevent him from getting up.He Yi glanced at his hand, there were not many chat records on the screen, they were all sent by the other party, and there were a few voice messages that lasted more than a minute.

After all, He Yi is not a gossip person, so he looked away after roughly reading it: "What did she say?"

"At first, I asked for a house, but later I asked me to lend her my uncle's contact information...the most recent one said that he wanted to see me."

"Then will you go..."

"I don't want to," Chi Yang smiled inexplicably, "I don't want to bother with another person, I'll give her whatever she wants, anyway, the money is not mine, but she and her daughter... Actually, I just want to know one thing , When she asked me for money and a house for that little girl, what did she think of me, her son?"

He Yi sighed silently, and reached out to hug him.

"Her son died in the orphanage," his tone was actually very calm, "he died long ago."

It was a kind of calmness that had been numb to despair after struggling countless times.

It is difficult for a woman to have no one to rely on, and it is difficult for her to live with an illegitimate child. He knows it and can forgive her—but even if she came to the door one day earlier, as long as she came here for him, no matter whether it was sending him in There has been no news of the suffering of the irregular orphanage since he can remember. For more than ten years of abandonment and escape, he is able to let the past go.

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