Ayanokouji always wants me to confess

Ayanokoji Kiyotaka

My wife and I have known each other for ten years and eight months. Now we have a son, who is currently three years old. He was born in France. It's Leo, Leo means lion, but when it comes to the Japanese name, my wife said it's called Ayanokoji Kotoru, it's pronounced Lion, and it's written as tiger, wouldn't it be interesting?

Even children are not spared when playing.

"When he gets to the point where he understands the meaning of his name, you're done."

I actually don't care because it's not my name.

The wife laughed and said, "At that time, I will say that it is a name full of love. He will definitely be moved to tears and regard it as a treasure."

"wish you success."

Seeing that I didn't cooperate, my wife had no choice but to compromise and said: "Okay."

After returning to Japan, the child’s name was registered as "Seiji". I didn't know that the name was written in Chinese characters. There was a "Qing" character like mine. At first, I heard the pronunciation and thought it would be Masaji, Names like Seiji, Hoshizhi, and Shengshi.

"I like this word." She clicked on the word "Qing", "Is it okay? Both father and son have the same word, do you suddenly feel like brothers?"

My heart was shaken by the words at first, but after hearing it, I was brought back to the feeling of being speechless.

In fact, Kiyoshi is still very subtle to me.

I was set on the track of my life very early on.I can have a beautiful wife and lovely children, and I can have those characters around me if I need it for the future.Just like when I entered high school, I also created the role of having friends in my life for my choice, but I was not ready to give too much emotion.

I thought my wife was a variable. Now that I have an extra child, it feels inexplicable to me.

I am not a person who likes children. This kind of liking refers to the innate love and pity for young and cute creatures, but for me, they are an ornament with self-consciousness.

In addition, I was born in a failed family environment, and I have no idea of ​​being a father. I don't think I can do a good job as a father.I don't know what kind of love a father should give his children to be called a real father.I have no experience with this.

In discussing the matter of this child, I raised my doubts a little.

My wife told me that if I had been a father, she would have considered returning it.

She can really give me crooked floor anytime and anywhere.

After struggling for half a year, seeing that I didn't let go, she stopped going home and lived in her sister's house every day.The daily activities are to tease her little nephew, invite former friends to play together, and report to me every day who she goes to hang out with. In addition to high school classmates, there are also junior high school classmates, and many of them are people who used to have feelings for her.

Quite a few of those people are messy, especially that Huan, who even touches the married lady and confuses the public with French etiquette.

That day, I waited for her to get out of the taxi at the door of her sister and brother-in-law's house.

"Can I go home?"

"Then can I have a baby?"

In fact, it is not uncommon for me to see children born but not raised.

My biggest concern is my wife's health.In fact, she was born with a bad foundation, and she is prone to illness, which is also an important aspect that affects her mental health. Fortunately, she was born into a good family and slowly raised her up during the growth process.However, the doctor said that if she had children, it would not be so easy to take time to restore her body, and she was prone to depression.

I haven't seen her depressed, but I know that although she is always laughing and joking, she has more time to show off.

It's like saying that one year I picked an event that fans wanted to experience, and I accidentally got surfing. She actually didn't want to go, because she was afraid of water.For this reason, she prepared a bunch of things that she might be interested in. After falling into the water, she was also flustered, but after seeing my nervous expression, she pretended to be deliberately scaring me just now.

……

I just think the cost of having a baby is too high for her to be hurt.

And, it is true.

On the day Qing Si was born, his wife suffered a dystocia and collapsed. The doctor even asked a very TV-speaking question, that if necessary, she had to choose between the child and the mother. She chose the child without any hesitation.I was also in the delivery room at the time, and she forced me to choose a child, so that from that time until the child was two years old and almost three years old, I still didn't like Kiyoshi.

But I made a promise with her to take good care of that child.

There are many problems with children, not ordinary parenting problems.

The child was born with a congenital heart defect.When the doctor conveyed it to me, I directly asked when is the minimum age for surgery?Afterwards, when the doctor mentioned it to his wife, he said that he had never seen a family member of a patient who was calmer than himself, and that his knowledge reserve in this area was at least at the level of a university professor. Many papers asked him so much that he wanted to hand him the scalpel , let him do it.

"The doctor said, when you said that it was too late to take the French doctor's license exam, he was completely stupid." The wife laughed over there. "Do you like Leo?"

"I do not know."

If I said hateful words, I guess she would fight with me.

I don't understand how she likes this kid so much.But I knew that if the child died, she would be very sad and cry until her heart broke, so I felt that I had to save the child.

"you will like it."

Hope.

I gently hugged her thin shoulders.

The child had heart surgery done very early, and we have no shortage of high costs for heart surgery to be done.The daily massage work after the operation should have been done by the nurse. The wife wanted to do it by herself, but she didn't recover well. How to do these things.So basically, I take care of the children until they are about two years old. This is why the children are close to me.

Sixteen months later, the child had new problems.

Because his ability to respond to the outside world is too low, he basically has an empty expression towards acquaintances and strangers, often avoids people's gaze, and is unwilling to speak, unwilling to respond, often in a daze by himself, and when he is sent to the hospital for examination, he finds out have autism.

My wife and I spent a lot of time and experience designing the game to arouse his ideas, patiently accompany him to practice every movement, expression, and language, and let him imitate his own movements.My wife spent a lot of patience on this. Sometimes her temper is a bit impatient, but she repeats it many times very patiently.What impressed me the most was that in order for the child to look at people, his wife designed a mirror game to let him get used to his existence in the mirror.Every time Leo can meet her eyes for more than ten seconds, she will give him a kiss.

Once when I went home, the little guy leaned on the wall and walked to the porch to see me.The big eyes didn't blink, and when I started to think that this was some kind of punishment game where you were not allowed to close your eyes, I lowered my head and asked him what was wrong.He kissed me on the face, and called out "Dad, Dad" in a childish voice.

I was stunned on the spot.

The wife who was peeking at the side was still there secretly taking pictures with her mobile phone.

"Qing Si called Dad for the first time. Where did you feel moved? If you are like this, I will teach him to call you old man next time."

The child's hand couldn't reach mine, so it rested on my trouser leg.I picked him up habitually, and this was the first time that my dislike for him was lessened.

Now the child's speaking ability is slower than that of ordinary children.But the basic reaction ability is similar to that of ordinary children.Because my wife is too miscellaneous, the child also learned a lot at a young age, such as painting, musical instruments, handmade chess and so on.In fact, I don't expect him to be so smart, just don't let her worry too much, so when I am alone in private, I start to teach him what I learned when I was a child, such as Adam Smith's "The Wealth of Nations" ", Carnegie's "The Weakness of Human Nature", these are all well-understood storybooks.

After the child is mature, he will feel a bit like his wife, especially the eyes, and he also prefers physical contact, and will like to be hugged.

Today is my birthday, and Kiyoshi sat in my arms and sang the 0.5x speed version of the happy birthday song, and also drew a picture for me.After I took the gift, he started staring at me, so I kissed him on the face as is the norm.He turned around and hugged my waist, which reminded me of the moment when I felt his heart beating many times when I hugged him to sleep.

Holding his side face in the palm of his hand, his wife said with a smile on her face, "Qinglong, how do you feel?"

"Huh?" I didn't know what she was referring to.

"That is, in this world, the feeling that there is one more person who loves you wholeheartedly? Even I can't love you like Kiyoshi unreservedly and throughout my life. Do you think it's great? Sure enough, the child is fine, right?" .”

"..."

"Every time I think of this, I feel very happy and feel very happy."

Only then did I understand why she insisted on having this child and would rather sacrifice herself, and the first sentence she taught her was dad.

There are too many first times in my life that Aya Ye brought to me. I was counted into the trap but never thought of revenge. I was always choked, ridiculed and made fun of. I was also brought to feel a lot of memorable life Things, like summer fireworks, like busy trams, like brisk pure music and the fragrance of girls, soft earlobes, the youthful time is filled by Ayaya.Not to mention, being a loving husband for the first time and a loving father for the first time is something I never imagined.

When she said in the movie theater that day that she was willing to be with her even if she had nothing in the future, I was thinking, I want to spend my whole life with this person.

I don't know what I should say, too many words, too many emotions, finally I hold her hand and kiss her fingers lightly.

Ayanokoji Kiyoshi

I am currently a first-year middle school student. When I chose to go directly to a British university course or finish junior high school and high school step by step, I received an admission letter from the school my parents attended in high school.They have now expanded the middle section and are recruiting the sixth batch of middle section students.That's where my parents met, and I've always been curious about their stories.

Unfortunately, my mother was a pain in the ass and loved to play tricks on people.I feel that if I ask them how they met, my father's dull personality will not open his mouth, but my mother will definitely add embellishments and talk nonsense.Why do you say that?Because I was deceived by her to grow up since I was a child, there are simply too many black history.

I remember when I first came into contact with the game, I always won No.1 among my peers. Gradually, everyone stopped playing with me, or I thought they played too slowly, so I started to play by myself instead. .I always thought my mother was just an ordinary housewife whose only job was to take care of my father’s pocket money. She didn’t even do housework, just thinking about playing like a child all day long.My father, by contrast, had always been the object of my aspirations, strong, calm, and knowledgeable.

When she sees me playing video games by myself, she asks if I can teach her.My mother was a real sucker and always held me back, but I had to teach her.

I was told by my father that I was short-tempered.

I do get impatient.

That day, when my mother was having a hard time playing with me, I wanted to lose my temper with her, but my father found out and threw me out of the door, demanding to understand why I was punished before going home.In winter, I was punished to stand all night wearing a thin shirt.I just found out that my little friends are not playing so badly, and I shouldn't lose my temper with my mother. I really don't want to lose my temper with her, but my relationship with my mother is too good, so I have a temper When I came up, I didn't care about the face of the elders.

From that day on, I got rid of my bad habit of bad temper.

When I had more and more friends, a friend once said that he had seen my mother, and even turned on the video to show me her record. The hand speed was almost invisible, and it was evenly matched with the legendary e-sports master Blank.It was only through this incident that I found out that my parents had teamed up to make a bad face and asked me to get rid of my temper.

After this incident, I found out that my mother was a video blogger when she was young. Although all of them were deleted later, according to rumors, she is a person who can do almost everything, but every time she is in front of me, she will pretend to be A novice, Xiaobai, occasionally makes a fool of himself, and even exaggerates how he did it?Thinking of my father's subtle expression every time I said my mother was lucky, I should have found something wrong.

I asked her why she lied to me and pretended she didn't know anything?

She said unscrupulously, it was fun to watch me pretend to be reserved even though I was triumphant.

"..."

I really can't do anything with her, even my father can't do anything with her.

…………

I said I wanted to go to that school to study, but if I went, I would be imprisoned for six years and could not communicate with the outside world. I don't know what they think.In fact, I am not a family lover myself, so for me, six years is not difficult. The most important thing is that I can understand my parents.

My father didn't object, but my mother hesitated for a long time.

It took me a long time to convince her that I could stand on my own and not be bullied enough to drop out of school.I was in poor health when I was a child, although I don't know why, but my mother spent a lot of time taking care of me, so I can understand her dismay for me.

But I really want to visit their school.

By the way, I know how my father managed to catch up with my mother.

My mother said that it was probably when I was still unfamiliar with him, he took a fancy to her (the technology), locked her in a closed dark place and forced her to do ulterior things with him (the gymnasium talks about black technology cooperate).Later, he even attracted her attention without morality (tied up the underachievers in the class and turned off the electricity in the whole dormitory on the grounds of seeing girls’ pajamas), and even violated discipline, and was arrested by the head teacher to write a review (the two fought in the middle of the night) .

My father choked after hearing this.

It was the first time I saw my father so imageless.

"This must not be true..."

No matter how you say it, my father is a personable and gentle person, how could he do something that looks like a pervert.

"What did I lie to you for?"

"For fun." I've seen it through, Roo read.

With my persistence, I went to the middle division of the country's leading high-level education school as I wished.

When I first entered school, I was assigned to class A. In the first month, I successfully pushed the score of class A to the highest level in the history of the middle school. I have it.But before that, I actually missed my parents a lot.

As much as I believed that my father should be fine, my mother always felt that it was just a little bit reassuring.She is a bit weak, and she likes to play too much, and her father is busy with work, without me to take care of her, nothing will happen to her.

In fact, to be honest, I hope that I can find someone like my mother in the future. I really like the way my parents are friends, confidants, and husband and wife. There is always an unspeakable tacit understanding.They have never quarreled, and their relationship has lasted for more than ten years.

But I find it difficult to find such an object.

Because although I actually play the role of a people-friendly leader in the crowd, and I am deeply loved and trusted by others, it is difficult for me to maintain a high degree of enthusiasm and interest in a person. If it is useless to me, or as long as Once my goal has been achieved, their mission is complete, and they can completely exit in front of me.

For example, when I left two students in class A who were lagging behind, they did not forget to be grateful to me when they left, and thanked me for fighting for the opportunity for them to stay in school.But they don't know it's all my doing.

I'm testing the school's rules and regulations.

If you want to play a game well, you must know the rules, and I don't care about sacrifices.

I had this problem once when playing games with my mother.

If there are only five resources, but ten people, how to solve it?

Should we choose to kill people until there are five people, so that there will be no unnecessary disputes, and those who survive will have resources; The five lamented their own lack of strength.

What my mother thinks is that since there are ten people, we should use the power of ten people to fight for more resources, instead of setting in a dead frame when seeing limited resources.

she asked me what do i think

What I think is, whoever said that the five-person serving must be used by five people, and one person is also fine.

There is nothing fair or unfair about this, as long as there is strength, it is fair.

But I still say that I think her idea is very good.

I also really like the idea of ​​my mother.

I think it is necessary for me to regard myself as a good child in front of my mother, and try my best to be the so-called heart-warming force in front of her.Because she likes such a good boy.

When I thought they must miss me very much, I used the circumvention software I designed to contact my family, but found that I couldn’t get through the phone, and the updated social account was full of photos of my parents going to play.

I feel like I've stepped into a huge trap.

I had a vague feeling that the invitation letter was not that simple. I picked up the letter paper and took a photo with an ultraviolet light. My mother’s words hidden between the papers were clear. It probably meant that they had expected that I would definitely want to go to junior high school to study there. , During these six years of liberation, they will definitely pray for my health.

"..."

Wow--

It's really the first time I've seen parents who design their children like this.

No, I should have gotten used to it by now.

I feel like I can bring out more of my parents' hidden side in this school, and it feels like they won't just be graduating normally.

Shinomiya Ayaya

When I was pregnant with Kiyoshi, Ayanokōji told me, I don't know what will happen to the child in the future?

I think in terms of our personal financial strength, even if we don't have the experience and ability to raise children, we can still hire such talents to help.So I think what Ayanokouji is saying is, what will happen to our children's personalities in the future?

Even if Ayanokouji's personality has the influence of acquired WhiteRoom, his scumbag father's character of not treating children as human beings still affects Ayanokouji's disregard for others.And I'm not a good person myself.The two of us have another child, do you believe that the negative is positive?

After thinking about it a lot, I came to a conclusion - as long as we don't turn into a great devil to torment us in the end, I think we are Safe.

"I don't mean that." Ayanokōji said, "I don't know if he will treat you well?"

Ayanokōji was all too familiar with children rebelling against their parents.

"No, are you here?" I smiled, "You protect me."

……

However, when Kiyoshi was 12 years old and entered junior high school, his physical ability had reached the level of his previous high school under the guidance of Ayanokoji. In addition, his autism had been completely corrected. It seems that there is a conflict, and some people will rush to apologize to him, thinking that he is a good person.

Regarding the latter point, since I am an experienced person, I will temporarily reserve my opinion.

Generally speaking, our family is just a protective family. It is a good thing to protect each other, but our personalities are not very good.

Ayanokōji felt that he was too sharp, so he contacted Arisu Sakayanagi, who is now the principal, and sent Kiyoji to study in the school so that he could sharpen his sharp edges.

I looked at the itinerary he had planned to travel around for six years, and I very much doubted the authenticity of what he said.

Wasn't it because Qingji took the opportunity to take me to play during the long vacations of British universities every year, and left Qinglong at home as a left-behind father, so he was sent to a fully closed school?

However, I am also looking forward to the world of the two.

I still think it’s the most fun when two people are together, and we all need to exercise and take care of ourselves at ordinary times, the energy and physical strength can still be compared with those of the 20th generation.There are many places to go.

……

"It's been a long time since the two of us have time alone."

Qinglong handed me a glass of lemon sparkling water, and put his arms around my waist naturally. Usually, we just stretched our arms at most.

Because there are children present, we don't do too many intimate actions. We always feel that we have to put our parents' status and dignity right, and only when there are only two of us in private, we will restore the intimacy mode of husband and wife.After all, I'm still thin-skinned, and if I got bored with Ayanokouji in front of Kiyoshi, I felt ashamed to see others.

"Because there are three people in our family."

I took a swig.

Also because of having children, I even quit some childish or unnutritious things I like, such as candy and potato chips that I like to eat, and now I have picked up these eating habits again.

"But Qingji has grown up now, so it doesn't matter if you send him to school, that's great."

After sighing, I took another sip of my favorite lemon sparkling water, but I still haven't swallowed it completely.

Ayanokōji asked lightly, "Are you going to do it tonight?"

This question came so unexpectedly that I sprayed it out on the spot.

"Ahem! Tonight?!"

Ling Xiaolu patted my back to help me calm down, and said in a calm and calm manner: "Six years, the future is long, don't worry. If you are in a hurry, I can cooperate at any time."

"Pooh."

He is an old and disrespectful beast in clothes.

——End