I'm still so majestic

It was very cold this year, and it was snowing as soon as it entered November. There was several feet of snow outside the door, and it was freezing cold.

Yan Ji's body also completely collapsed after the heavy snowfall.

The doors and windows of the Xuanjing Hall were covered tightly, and the earth dragons were heating them up. There were warm basins on all four corners. Ordinary people would not be cold in them wearing only single clothes, but Yanji was covered with three layers of thick quilts, still I was shivering from the cold.

The kind of coldness that seems to seep from the bones melts into the blood, no matter how warm it is outside, it's useless.

Yan Ji wrapped the cloak around her body tightly and looked at Shao He: "Where's Tangtang?"

"According to your wishes, His Royal Highness was sent to Mrs. Su's mansion last night."

"...Mmm." Yanji fell silent, and it took a long time to speak again, "I'm thirsty."

Shao He hurriedly turned around and poured water and handed it to him. Yan Ji took a sip and saw his own reflection in the clear water in the cup. His face was pale, his lips were purple, his eyes were deeply sunken, and his eyes were dull and dull.

... With such an appearance, it is better not to let the children see it.

He closed his eyes, put the cup on the side, and breathed in his whole body for a moment like a late old man.Shao He's eyes were slightly red, but he still tried his best to smile when Yan Ji looked over: "Your Majesty, the Taifu has gone to make medicine half an hour ago, and I think he will be back soon. The medicine prescribed by Zheng Taiyi has always worked. , you'll be fine soon."

"I know." Yan Ji smiled, "Then you go and see if the master is back, and call Er Gouzi to me by the way, so that you can hold him warmly."

"Yes."

Shao He responded, turned around and walked out.Watching his figure disappear, Yan Ji couldn't bear it any longer, took out a handkerchief from under the pillow, covered his lips and coughed violently, just now he had been holding back in front of Shao He, but now he no longer restrained, the pear-white handkerchief was instantly stained Red, soaked and dripped on the bedding, the red is dazzling.

The voices of Shao He and Xie Wenzhuo talking could be faintly heard outside.

Yan Ji paused, quickly stuffed the handkerchief under the bed, and took the blanket to cover the blood-stained bedding.

After doing this, Xie Wenzhuo just came in with the medicine, and smiled gently at Yan Ji: "Your Majesty, take the medicine."

Yan Ji nodded, brought the medicine bowl over and drank it down. His body was getting weaker and weaker, and now his sense of taste had completely disappeared, and he could not taste any bitterness.

Shao He walked out with the medicine bowl in his hand, Yan Ji hugged Er Gouzi tightly, raised his head and smiled at Xie Wenzhuo, who half-kneeled on the edge and reached out to hold his hand: "Do you feel better today?"

"It's much better, and it's not so cold."

But the temperature felt by Xie Wenzhuo's palm was as cold as ice.

He lowered his eyes, trying to hide the sourness and sadness in his eyes, and said: "Then remember to rest well, Your Majesty, so that you can recover faster, don't worry about Tangtang, Mrs. Su will teach him very well. "

"it is good."

Yan Ji just lay down, and the blanket covering his body accidentally slipped down when he moved, his heart skipped a beat, and he wanted to pull it up to cover the bloodstain, but it was too late.

Xie Wenzhuo's face turned pale in an instant, and he clenched his fingers violently.Seeing him like this, Yan Ji couldn't help tightening Er Gouzi's hand, Er Gouzi subconsciously flinched from the pain, accidentally fell down, moved his nose on his stomach, and stretched out his paw to grab the piece of paper from under the bed. The blood-soaked handkerchief was pulled out.

If you want to hide it, you can't hide it anymore.

Yan Ji's eyes were also red: "Wen Qing."

Xie Wenzhuo didn't want to make him uncomfortable: "It's okay."

His voice was still gentle, as if nothing had happened, he changed the blood-stained bedding and covered Yan Ji again: "You have a good rest, don't be afraid, I will be here, and you will see me when you wake up."

Yan Ji hummed, retracted into the quilt, and closed her eyes.

……

Ten days later, there was another snow.

Yan Ji became weaker and less and less awake every day, Xie Wenzhuo stayed by his side day and night, with sad eyes.

The life of the person he cared about and wanted to spend the rest of his life with was passing by little by little, but he could only watch, unable to do anything, not even able to bear a little pain for him.

This day Yanji woke up at dusk.

He opened his eyes, and saw Xie Wenzhuo half-kneeling on the side and staring at him obsessively, the emotion in his eyes couldn't be retracted in time, it was so sad that it made people want to cry.

He was suffocated: "How long have I been asleep?"

Xie Wenzhuo didn't speak, Shao He opened his mouth with red eyes: "Your Majesty... It's been eight hours."

Eight hours, sixteen hours.

Yan Ji lowered his head, today is November [-]th, his last time is only the day after tomorrow.

He bit his lip, and soon tasted the bitter and bloody smell in his mouth, Yanji closed his eyes: "Wen Qing, take Tangtang back in a few days."

Xie Wenzhuo's gaze sank.

"Tangtang is still young, so it's not appropriate to stay with Mrs. Su all the time. When you bring him back, you must teach him well. Don't get used to it. You must not be as self-willed as I was when I was a child and always make others angry. I'm afraid you have to worry about the Daqi court affairs, but you are so smart, you definitely don't need me to say anything..."

"Also, you must take good care of Er Gouzi Goudan and the mimosa on the window sill. Goudan should be raised well. If Er Gouzi is picky eater, just give him a good meal. Mimosa can't be watered all the time. There shouldn't be too much water, and you should also be careful not to be chewed by Er Gouzi, who has been coveting people for a long time."

"..."

Yan Ji spoke softly, the more he talked, the more sore his nose became, and the mist in his eyes could hardly be restrained.

He gritted his teeth, and continued: "Wen Qing, I remember that you told me about the scenery of Nanzhou many times before, and I have longed for it for a long time, and I really want to see the place where you were born, so please take me there ,OK?"

"Not good." Xie Wenzhuo's eyes were reddish, but his eyes were as black as an abyss. For the first time, he directly called Yan Ji's name, "Yan Ji, you have to remember that Daqi is not my responsibility. If you don't care, I won't care about it either."

"Tangtang was brought back by you. You can't say that if you don't keep it, you can't keep it. It's not like you. There are Ergouzi and Goudandan. I don't like animals. I only care about them to make you happy. , if you don’t even want them, what am I going to do with them? The same goes for mimosa.”

"As for Nanzhou." Xie Wenzhuo held his hand, "When you recover from illness, we will go together."

Yan Ji's throat moved: "I..."

"So that's it, Your Majesty must get better as soon as possible." Xie Wenzhuo said, "When you are well, the plum blossoms are at their best. Pick some plum blossoms to make plum cakes. Your Majesty will definitely like it. Then wait until the weather gets warmer When I was in Nanzhou, I went to Nanzhou, where peach blossoms were in full bloom at the beginning of spring, and the spring river was green and the peach blossoms were scorching, it was the most beautiful scenery in a year."

He smiled: "It's just that I think that when His Majesty goes there, the best scenery in my eyes will not be the peach blossom."

Yan Ji hummed, looked up at Xie Wenzhuo's eyebrows, his eyes traced, and he didn't want to stop for a moment.Perhaps it was because the farewell in his eyes was too heavy, Xie Wenzhuo's eyes dimmed a bit, and he reached out and took out a book of ghosts from the side: "Your Majesty, what is the meaning of this book, do you want to listen to it? "

"need."

Yan Ji buried herself in the quilt again, only showing a pair of eyes to look at Xie Wenzhuo, Xie Wenzhuo smiled softly, and described the contents of the book softly.

Yan Ji didn't pay much attention to listening, and looked at Xie Wenzhuo without blinking his eyes. After watching for a long time, his eyes gradually became blurred. Completely turned into darkness.

He opened his eyes wide: "Wen Qing...is it dark?"

The book in Xie Wenzhuo's hand suddenly fell to the ground, hitting the ground with a dull sound, Yan Ji was startled: "What's the matter, is it dark and can't see? Light up the lamp."

There was a moment of silence in front of him, and after a while, he felt a pair of warm hands reaching out and slowly covering his eyes, and at the same time, Xie Wenzhuo's slightly suppressed trembling voice: "Yes, it's getting dark, and it's time to rest , so don’t light the lamp, okay?”

"……it is good."

Yan Ji closed his eyes, he really wanted to think about nothing, but he just felt a chill seeping in from the outside for no reason, penetrating into the internal organs, down to the bottom of his heart.

He was out of sight.

First taste and smell, now sight.

His remaining time is really coming to an end.

……

November twelve.

Yan Ji fell into a coma after vomiting blood last night, and there were still blood clots overflowing from his mouth in a coma, which turned slightly black.Dozens of people from the Imperial Hospital were kneeling in the outer hall, and Yan Ji couldn't wake up after exhausting countless methods. The surroundings were filled with the smell of bitter medicine, and the color was dull, just like everyone's mood.

Everyone knew that Daqi, the most glorious emperor, couldn't survive.

The emperor was seriously ill, and there was no way to hide this matter. The capital was already in chaos, and he was blocked from entering the palace, and there was a lot of chaos outside.Fu Zhihuai and He Ji, who were far away at the border, also got the news and rushed to the capital without thinking about anything. They entered the capital in the early morning, and the moment they saw the bony Yanji on the couch after entering the Xuanjing Hall, their eyes turned red instantly.

In the afternoon, Yan Ji woke up.

He leaned on the couch and smiled, his face was quiet and peaceful: "Mingcheng, Changxin, you are here."

The pair of peach blossom eyes that were once beautiful and reckless, and when the eyebrows were raised, the waves flowed and turned the sentient beings upside down, have now become lifeless, the pupils are gray, and He Ji's lips are drawn into a line. Fu Zhihuai gritted his teeth and looked at Xie Wenzhuo: "Back then you said you would be good Take care of him, Xie Wenzhuo, is this how you take care of him?!"

"I can't blame him for this." Yan Ji shook his head, "I'm glad you're back, Mingcheng, but it's a pity that I can't see you anymore, and I can't drink the peach blossom wine you brewed."

Hearing what he said, Fu Zhihuai almost shed tears and tried his best to hold back.

Yan Ji smiled and tilted her head: "There is also Chang Xin, I have worked hard for you all these years, you should be good, and find someone you like to marry as soon as possible. It is always lonely to be alone... Mingcheng is the same."

"You don't need to worry about these, we all know that you should take care of yourself first." Fu Zhihuai's tone was stiff, but softened in the next second, "Yan Xiaojiu, get well soon, let me tell you, Dongjiaguan In fact, it’s very good, it’s free and vast, if you don’t go and see it for yourself, you’ll regret it, you know?”

"Okay, then I will go to Dongjiaguan to stay for a while, steal a few altars of peach blossom wine you have hidden, and then go to Nanzhou. If you still have free time, I will take a look around. How good it is." Yan Ji stretched out his hand. He touched his face tentatively, "So don't be angry, it's not pretty."

"I am not angry."

"That's good." Yan Ji smiled, "You must be tired from the journey, let Shaohe take you to the back hall to rest for a while, I'm still a little sleepy, I will have dinner with you when I have strength in the evening, Then you can tell me how good Dongjiaguan is, huh?"

Fu Zhihuai's lips moved, but he swallowed back what he wanted to say: "Okay."

Yan Ji still smiled, and ordered Shao He to take them to the apse, looked towards the direction where Xie Wenzhuo was standing based on his feeling, stretched out his hand, and was instantly held by the latter's warm hand.

His brows and eyes were gentle: "Wen Qing, I seem to see that the peach blossoms in Nanzhou you mentioned are indeed much prettier than those in Xuanjing Palace. I really want to go and see for myself."

Xie Wenzhuo's eyes were slightly astringent: "When you are well, let's go together, we can go wherever we want."

Yan Ji's eyes were bent, but he didn't answer. He looked at him quietly for a long time, then suddenly leaned forward and kissed Xie Wenzhuo: "Wen Qing, I love you."

"...Then stay with me forever, okay?"

"..." Yan Ji's tears could no longer be suppressed at this moment, and drops fell on Xie Wenzhuo's hands.

I want it too.

I obviously think more than everyone else, especially especially.

But why, I can't even take a good look at you?

……

After dusk, Yan Ji fell into a coma again.

Xie Wenzhuo drove out all the palace personnel from the Imperial Hospital and Xuanjing Palace, and stayed alone by the bedside to accompany Yan Ji. He held Yan Ji's hand, put his forehead on it, and looked at Yan Ji's pale face in despair. , the spirit that had been tense all this time finally couldn't support it, her voice was hoarse, and her crying was painful.

He has been insisting on showing Yan Ji his most tender side, and only at this time, he dares to show a little bit of the sadness and despair deep in his heart, and only a little bit.

Outside the night was getting darker, and the wind and snow were mixed.

With less than a quarter of the night left, Yan Ji woke up, groggy, his pupils completely turned gray, and called out: "Wen Qing."

It was very quiet all around, and no one answered, but the hands holding her were very warm.

Yan Ji knew that his last sense of hearing was also lost.

He tilted his head, but it took half of his strength to make a slight movement like this. He bent his eyes and smiled: "Wen Qing, I dreamed of you just now, and dreamed of the time when you told me your heart under the sky full of fireworks. Maybe I didn't tell you You, the lamp that day was very beautiful, the best lamp I have ever seen in my life, and you over there are also very beautiful, the most beautiful person I have ever seen in my life."

"..."

"Actually, I really feel very unwilling. You and I still have a lot of things to do, so why didn't we have a chance? I knew it earlier. When I found out that I was attracted to you, I should have told you. It was a waste of time." It’s a shame it’s been so long.”

"..."

"It's even more pity that I haven't been to many places I want to go with you, and I haven't said many things I want to say. You told me before that you should enjoy yourself while you are alive. I should listen to you, really. "

"..."

He couldn't hear anything, so he just talked to himself, and he talked a lot. From the moment they realized it, many things that were cherished in his heart suddenly emerged at this moment, and settled into the warmest thing in his short 20 years. The memory is instantly clear and becomes the most sincere sentence.

"Wen Qing, I really like you very much."

"I love you."

As soon as the last word was written, I felt that my whole body was suddenly hugged into an embrace, that embrace was very warm, and in the warmth, there were cold drops of water falling on Yan Ji's face drop by drop.

Yan Ji felt sad, and raised his head with effort, wanting to say don't cry, his thoughts suddenly became chaotic at this moment, and his eyelids became heavier and heavier, Yan Ji tried his best to open his eyes, and while his eyes were moist, he felt a gentle kiss Falling in the corner of his eyes, he obviously couldn't hear anything, but felt as if he heard Xie Wenzhuo's voice, still so soft, said.

"Don't be afraid, go to sleep, I'm here."

His consciousness became blurred, and he slowly closed his eyes in Xie Wenzhuo's gentle voice. In the haze, he seemed to see the past again. The stars were very bright that night, and the capital was just lit. In front of the lights at home, with gentle eyes, he stretched out his hand to him: "Your Majesty, the road ahead is bitter and cold, I will walk with you, come on."

He struggled with the last bit of strength to raise his hand, wanting to touch Xie Wenzhuo's hand, but the distance was too far, he couldn't reach it, so he could only try his best to reach forward, and when he finally reached it, He was overjoyed, and lowered his hand towards Xie Wenzhuo's palm, but the moment he was about to touch it, the lights in front of him and the gentle smiling person suddenly turned into darkness.

His hand fell on the quilt weakly, and a tear slipped silently from the corner of his eye to his temple.

In an instant outside the window, there was a strong wind and snow.