we are not friends anymore

Ji Yan's old email: Hello, let's get to know each other, right?I am Qiao Mingxi who was thrown away by him just like you.

Ji Yan's old mailbox: I'm home, it's Qiao's.That small house is no longer Ji Yan and I's home, maybe in Ji Yan's heart, it was never our home either.

Ji Yan's old mailbox: I seem to be losing sleep gradually.I used to never want to wake up, but now I can't sleep.

Ji Yan's old email address: I have to start working. Although I don't seem to be a qualified artist, it's better not to do things like breach of contract.

Ji Yan's old mailbox: Did you know that the heroine of this drama is Xu Xixi, I think she is a bit different from the Internet... Sorry, I shouldn't talk about others behind their backs.

Ji Yan's old mailbox: Xu Xixi is not feeling well today, and the crew is on vacation.I spent a day at the hotel reading scripts, and after leaving him, I finally started reading scripts myself.Ah... Thinking about my previous self, I was really unqualified.

Ji Yan's old e-mail: That bald investor was really disgusting when he made a move on me... Tell me, was Ji Yan also disgusting when he looked at me before?

Ji Yan's old email: The bald head has withdrawn its capital, but the producer said it doesn't matter, and new funds will come in.

Ji Yan's old email: That woman called me, and I don't think she's crazy at all.She asked me to meet her, and asked me to leave my sister and Qiao's house; she also said that my sister and I are not a family... Strange, then who is my family?her?If that's the case, I'm probably the one who's crazy.

Ji Yan's old mailbox: I got a fever in the rain today... I really want to drink a glass of milk that he warmed for me. I was also thinking for a moment just now, if I stopped him at that time and wouldn't let him go, would I actually be worse than Be happier now?

Ji Yan's old mailbox: I thought about it, people who live in dreams will wake up one day.

Ji Yan's old email: Finished, so tired.If possible, I never want to cooperate with Xu Xixi again.

Ji Yan's old email: I lost my temper with Jia En today, I don't want to celebrate my birthday, and I don't have any birthday wishes at all.All my wishes have not been fulfilled... But it is wrong to blame Jiaen, I want to apologize to him, I hate myself for being like this.

Ji Yan's old email: I seem to have said something wrong, but it's wrong to lie.

Ji Yan's old mailbox: I did something bad again, I stole Lin Zining's role.If Ji Yan knew, would he hate me even more?Well...it's okay, I hate myself too.

Ji Yan's old email: Jia En said that he failed the audition last week. He said that he had always had a hunch, but he didn't realize until the day he received the notification that he had always been lucky.I understand how he feels, but when I think about it now, I felt like "ah... this day has really come".

Ji Yan's old email: I don't really hate Lin Zining, I just hate myself.

Ji Yan's old mailbox: Will caring about people become a habit?

Ji Yan's old email: Sometimes I feel very sorry for my fans, idols should be shining, right?It seems like an excessive thing for them to endure me like this for so long.

Ji Yan's old email: If one day I leave you too, will you feel lonely too?

Ji Yan's old email address:

Bye now.

When c.air held the farewell concert, Ji Yan had already completed half of the formalities in Dongxing, and after singing this one, he was no longer the captain of the sky troupe that once rode the sky.

In the team, Shen Jiaen and Qiao Mingxi had the best relationship. During that time, the blame for Ji Yan was completely written on his face; even Yi Huan was quietly thinking about saying something to Ji Yan in the dressing room before going on the court.

Ji Yan just patted him on the shoulder: "Go on stage first."

He is not a talkative person, he doesn't think he needs to cut his heart out for others to see, nor does he need anyone's understanding.

The stadium was full of fans, and the cheer-colored fluorescent sticks lit up the night sky.Fans in the audience cried into a ball, but c.air did not have a scene where members hugged and cried together from the beginning to the end.

It was only the gentle Yi Huan who stood in the middle and spoke, comforting the fans who were shouting slogans in unison with a gentle smile.

"Although... we will never get together like today, but... ah, to put it mildly, we will always be friends; not only me and my brothers, but us and you--you Everyone."

Captain Ji Yan used to say such words, but today he was only standing on the right side of Yi Huan, and Qiao Mingxi was standing far away on the far side of Yi Huan's left. communicated.

Shen Jiaen cried while singing, but the high note didn't rise; Lin Zining forgot to move several times and collided with his teammates several times; even Yi Huan was speechless several times during the MC session.

Qiao Mingxi, on the other hand, performed almost supernormally. He never forgot the dance steps and lyrics that he could never remember before. Even without Ji Yan teaching him the rhythm and urging him to memorize the lyrics, he could have done so well.

Yi Huan said that even if c.air disbanded, they are still friends.But Ji Yan knew that such words did not apply to him and Qiao Mingxi.

So half a year later, when Qiao Mingxi's phrase "Ji Yan and I are no longer friends" became a trending search, Ji Yan was not surprised.

However, Ji Yan is not an indifferent person, he is actually very persistent.

He has always wanted to accomplish something, keeps moving forward, and will never stop.

He was actually criticized for leaving Dongxing. Shen Jiaen once blocked him in the company corridor.This round-faced boy is usually recognized by fans as a little sun, but when he is angry, he is completely a firecracker.

Ji Yan actually thinks that a personality like him is also very good.He himself is a person who is used to hiding his emotions, but he never made any comments on Shen Jiaen's personality.

"Any group will disband one day when the time comes." At that time, he said to Shen Jiaen like this, "You can't think it's my original sin just because I walked one step faster."

This is the most important sentence he has ever said to Shen Jiaen. In the past, Ji Yan would never make others feel unhappy.

"Would you say this to Ming Xi again?" Shen Jiaen asked him coldly.

He didn't answer, and he didn't think about it.

Qiao Mingxi met when Ji Yan was 20 years old.

At that time, Qiao Mingxi was a real teenager, quiet, clear, and innocent.

True innocence.

In fact, Qiao Mingxi in Ji Yan's heart has always been lovely, and he has kept him in his heart for a long time.No one would take good care of someone he didn't like for eight years; he also thought that the dumb Qiao Mingxi was really pretty when he smiled.

Qiao Mingxi lacked a sense of security, and Ji Yan used to not care about it. He spent a lot of time by Qiao Mingxi's side to eliminate his anxiety.He also thought about walking forward with him, and even occasionally thought about it, no one else could do it, only Qiao Mingxi could patiently hold him and pull him forward.

But in fact, they have never been from the same world.

When Qiao Mingxi ignored Lin Zining from the beginning to the end of the show; when Qiao Mingxi turned down his audition without telling Ji Yan for the first time; Even in the later stage, Qiao Mingxi intensified and began to affect Lin Zining and others.

Ji Yan is unwilling to compromise any more.

They really quarreled once, and Qiao Mingxi never spoke loudly, but just looked at him stubbornly, unwilling to take a step back.

"You think about your future every day." Qiao Mingxi said, "but you never think about my future."

Ji Yan was almost laughed out of anger.

He has never been a good-tempered person, but he has hardly shown any bad emotions towards Qiao Mingxi.It's just that although Qiao Mingxi is introverted and quiet, he still has the temper of a young master cultivated by the background of the Qiao family.

That was also the first time that Qiao Mingxi spoke seriously.

"I have been working hard to realize your wish. Back then...it was me...it was me who gave you the opportunity to make your debut and fulfill your dream."

Ji Yan just looked at him quietly: "What about you?"

Qiao Mingxi, what is your ideal?

He didn't want to hear the answer "I don't know" anymore, and Qiao Mingxi also had a heart-to-heart with him. The boy didn't say anything, but just looked at him with disappointed eyes.

Disappointed?But that's who I am.

I also thought about your future and mine, but I set my goal at the end of the road, but I couldn't know the direction of your road.

You let me, how to plan our common road?

Two silver rings, one large and one small, snuggle together quietly.

Back then when Qiao Mingxi took Ji Yan to choose a ring, c.air was still only popular in China.They flew to Country A without telling Luna, and Qiao Mingxi was a little excited. Although it was not very obvious on the face, her eyes were bright.

But back in China, c.air has announced every day that they cannot wear rings on their hands.Qiao Mingxi once huddled beside Ji Yan and looked at him quietly, with a look of disappointment beyond words.Ji Yan just patted his head and told him it was okay.

Maybe in Qiao Mingxi's heart, Ji Yan doesn't cherish this pair of rings as much as he does.

But in fact, he also treasured them well.

After they exchanged rings, Qiao Mingxi hung the necklace around his neck on tiptoe, and looked at him brightly with his head tilted.

"My ring is on your heart."

The young man frowned, and told him earnestly: "You must keep it in your heart."

Later, Ji Yan kept an answer in his heart, and he never said it to Qiao Mingxi.

He said, good.

Ji Yan held his own ring in his hand, quietly rubbing the fine engravings on it.

That was Qiao Mingxi's name. At this time, Ji Yan would think of his face, as if that familiar face was looking at him quietly as usual.

The computer screen was still on the page of the mailbox, densely packed with dozens of emails, and he read them from beginning to end, half a year after he left.

Ji Yan sat quietly for a long time, then suddenly smiled.

It wasn't a happy smile, nor was it a sad smile. Ji Yan may have been an actor for too long, and there are too few people who can discern his true emotions.

Lin Zining once said, Brother Yan, your acting skills are really good.

Ji Yan never refuted this, even at this moment when his heart was hurting, he could still laugh out loud.