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The Japanese grocery store was closed, and the neon sign was like a well-dressed dancer on Yoshihara Street. Jiang Mingyun wore a coat on his arm, slightly drunk, unbuttoned the first button of his collar, and stood by the roadside waiting for the driver to come.

A car ran over fallen leaves and stopped in front of him. Jiang Mingyun brought his sight of the distant sky closer, and the rear window slowly lowered.Light and dark were separated in the car, the lower half of his face was immersed in the neon light, and the delicate tip of his nose turned towards Jiang Mingyun.

"How's the sushi?" he asked.

Jiang Mingyun shook his head, "I don't know."

"boarding."

Jiang Mingyun didn't move as if he hadn't heard of it.Deng Luoyi leaned over, neon light enveloped his entire face, and those lazy and unruly eyes began to emit the magic power of bewitching people again.

"Didn't you wait for me when you waited so late?" He moved the corner of his mouth to show a smile, but his eyes didn't smile, "Get in the car."

You will feel warm when you are close to the fire, but you will be burned when you touch the fire. For Jiang Mingyun, Deng Luoyi is undoubtedly a ball of fire.He became a moth and got into Deng Luoyi's car.

Both of them were silent, and the driver was even more silent like a dummy.The light from the street lamp outside the car window flowed on the dark suit, flickering on and off, and Deng Luoyi's sapphire cufflinks flashed like needlepoints.

Jiang Mingyun asked, "Where are you going?"

"Haicheng."

The car drove to the airport, and the airport building could already be seen in front of it.A passenger plane has just taken off, and the red, green and white navigation lights are shining in the dark night. The huge body of the plane skims the low altitude and climbs rapidly.

"No, my cat is still at home." Jiang Mingyun drank too much wine on an empty stomach and felt dizzy at the moment.

"I'll send someone to take care of it and tell me your home password."

Jiang Mingyun told Deng Luoyi the password of the door, and Deng Luoyi called Eve and asked her to take care of Jiang Mingyun's cat.

"Are you going to Haicheng without your assistant?" He raised his hand close to the car door and pressed his right temple, feeling dizzy and unable to figure out what's going on now, everything suddenly seemed like a dream.It was difficult for him to predict whether it was a dream or a nightmare.

Deng Luoyi said: "I only take you with me."

More like a dream.

The car drove unimpeded into the parking area for private jets, drove onto the airport runway, and stopped in front of the boarding stairs of a plane.

Deng Luoyi got on the plane and went straight to the restaurant. He didn't eat either. The meal they made tonight was destined to be settled on the plane.

When the plane took off, the air pressure changed, and the eardrums felt slightly uncomfortable. Jiang Mingyun sat quietly at the dining table, watching Deng Luoyi, who was opposite, bury his head in eating.He looked very hungry, chewed the food a few times, swallowed it whole, and continued to stuff it into his mouth.

"Roy, stop eating."

Deng Luoyi was not eating at all, but venting.

He finished eating everything on the plate, wiped his mouth with a napkin, and said to Jiang Mingyun, "Are you sleepy? If you are sleepy, go to sleep."

"Tell me first why you went to Haicheng and why you took me with you."

"I want to know who I am." Deng Luoyi leaned back, leaned on the back of the chair sleepily, with his eyes bent, and smiled, "...I think I should need you."

Jiang Mingxuan didn't blink for a long time, stared at him blankly, then looked away, lost in thought.

Until Deng Luoyi's mother's grave, Jiang Mingyun hadn't finished digesting Deng Luoyi's words.

Deng Luoyi's real identity is Luo Xuan?

A huge mystery entrenched behind Deng Luoyi, extending to the summer more than ten years ago, was born in this city.

Today is not a festival, the cemetery is deserted and deserted, Deng Luoyi came empty-handed, without bringing anything, the bouquet Luo Xuan brought two years ago has already returned to dust.He knelt down and brushed the dust off the photo of the tombstone with his hand. The woman in the photo was obviously related to him by blood, and there was an inescapable resemblance between her eyebrows and eyes.

She died of stomach cancer in the second year after that summer. In the last days of her life, she vomited blood and couldn't eat anything.Even though she was so miserable, Deng Luoyi still couldn't forgive her.If she had been able to withstand the temptation and hadn't cheated, what happened later would not have happened.

The old building that Luo Xiaoyuan and Luo Xuan rented back then has been demolished and rebuilt. The wide and flat streets and the sycamore trees covering the sky at the entrance of the alley have been replaced by late cherry blossoms. In winter, the slender and bare branches of the cherry blossom trees cannot bloom. Guard the quiet neighborhood.

Deng Luoyi glanced at the area through the car window, then turned to Jiang Mingyun and said, "I can't remember anything."

He wanted to use hypnosis to wake up the memory hidden in his mind, so he found Du Chengchun.

"It's Deng Luoyi this time." Dr. Du gestured for him to sit down.

Deng Luoyi sat down and went straight to the point, explaining why he came.

"Hypnosis is not suitable for patients like you. External psychological hints will make you more confused."

Deng Luoyi insisted, "I want to know what happened in the past."

Du Chengchun cast his eyes on Jiang Mingyun who was standing aside, hoping that he could stop Deng Luoyi.Jiang Mingyun's face was calm, he understood that Deng Luoyi's mind had been made up, he couldn't stop him, all he could do was accompany him.

"Call me if you have anything to do." Jiang Mingyun glanced at Deng Luoyi, and after hesitating for a moment, he walked out and closed the door gently.

Deng Luoyi was lying on the treatment bed, the light was suitable, and the environment was quiet. Dr. Du's gentle voice came from his ear, guiding him to relax.

He was falling, falling into the depths of memory, and time began to flow backwards crazily.

Before the concert started, he found a seat and sat down, and inadvertently found that Dr. Jiang was sitting in front of him on the left.He leaned over to say hello to him, all the lights in the hall suddenly went out, the low voice of the cello pierced the darkness, and there was a faint light in front of him.

He tidied up his bachelor's uniform, walked to the rostrum, took the degree certificate from the principal, Roy Deng, a law degree, smiled and shook hands.

The scene changes to the swimming pool, swimming from the shallow water area to the deep water area, the buoyancy of the water is getting bigger and bigger, the blue in front of you is gradually getting darker, and the bottom of the pool is covered with sparkling waves.

Looking up, he squinted his eyes and stared at the setting sun. He was sitting in the stands of the high school stadium.His companion handed him a lighted cigarette. He held the cigarette between his fingers and brought it close to his mouth. He took a sip. The smoke carried the burnt smell and pierced his throat. He coughed out the smoke and threw it at his feet.

His fingers were covered with foul-smelling mucus. He touched a fluffy and cold object, surrounded by darkness, and couldn't see anything. He groped to find the phone, and the screen gave off a faint light.

"Don't call me mom! You are not my son! Do you understand?!" She was angry, and he looked up at her hysterical appearance without saying a word.

At the airport, Luo Xiaoyuan squatted down and hugged him for the last time, "You have to be obedient, you have met your father's wife before, you have to call her mother... Be good... Be good and I will take you back... ..."

First, first memory.

Luo Xiaoyuan took him from the big house to the small house, and he couldn't remember what the big house looked like, only the impression of being big, which was much bigger than the later house.The taxi couldn't get into the congested alley, Luo Xiaoyuan dragged the suitcase and bag, and had to pay attention to see if he was with him.

When passing by a luxuriant sycamore tree, the men playing cards with a table propped up under the tree stopped loudly and looked at them.

The children in the neighborhood don't play with him.

"My mother said, your mother has the face of a vixen, she must be a mistress, she was kicked out, and she also brought a bottle of oil."

"My mother said the same thing."

They chattered and squeaked, he ran home crying, Luo Xiaoyuan hugged him on his lap, and comforted him that his brother would come in a few days, and he could play with him.

However, a few days is an imaginary number, not an exact number. It is the end of spring, and it will be a long time before midsummer.

Luo Xiaoyuan found a job and locked him at home when she went to work during the day.During the day, he would watch TV, and would lie on the window to peek at the children playing. There was food on the table, and he would eat a few bites when he was hungry or bored.An old lady who lived alone across the street asked Luo Xiaoyuan why she didn't send her child to school. She said she would send him to the United States, and she would not send him to kindergarten during the two days in China.

In fact, there was no money, so Luo Xiaoyuan spread the brochures of several kindergartens on the table, compared them for a long time, and finally supported the table with her elbows, raised her hands to her forehead, and hid her irritable face.

Luo Xiaoyuan always complied with Deng Luoyi's request. Her brother pointed to the airplane model in the window. She took out her wallet, counted the money carefully, and exchanged for a box of model parts.

Deng Luoyi sat on the bed, read the manual for a while, and began to put together the model.He leaned over and reached out to touch the wing. Deng Luoyi gathered the parts together and pushed them away from him.

"mine."

Although they are twins, they live the life of only children. They are loved by thousands of families and have a strong sense of exclusivity.

"My mother bought it."

"Whatever is bought for me is mine."

He felt that his mother liked his brother more.

The two started fighting, and Luo Xiaoyuan pulled them away, promising to buy him an identical toy in the future.Children don't hold grudges, one second they were fighting hard, and the next second they can reconcile as before.

In the end, she didn't buy him a toy that was exactly the same, but he had long forgotten about it and happily became Deng Luoyi's little follower.

With Deng Luoyi around, he wouldn't always play alone.

"Hey, why don't you play with them?" Deng Luoyi was also attracted by the noise outside the window.

He thought about it, and said nonchalantly, "They? They're a bunch of childish ghosts."

Deng Luoyi supported himself, climbed up the window sill neatly, flipped out of the window, jumped down, and called him out after landing.

He lay on the window sill looking at Deng Luoyi, shaking his head, not daring.

"Idiot, I'm pulling you." He stepped on a stone and reached out to him.

The leading boy said, "So there are two oil bottles, they still look the same."

The children are all laughing.

A girl pointed at Deng Luoyi's cheek, "It's not the same, he has a small black spot here, look carefully."

Deng Luoyi asked, "What are you laughing at?"

"You don't care what we laugh about, your mother is a vixen!" The leading boy made a face and stuck out his tongue at them.

Deng Luoyi walked forward aggressively, he was afraid, and held Deng Luoyi's hand tightly.Deng Luoyi leaned over to pick up a small stone, aimed at the head of the leading boy, and threw it out, hitting the boy's forehead.

There were many people on the other side, Deng Luoyi dragged him to run, and the children chased them from behind.The wind is blowing through the ears, everything is receding, and the heartbeat is beating powerfully on the drum.There were too many alleys, and they ran to a wasteland with overgrown grass that could grow as high as an adult's knee.

"Brother, I can't run anymore." As soon as he finished speaking, he stepped on a rock and sprained his foot. The pain made him burst into tears.

Deng Luoyi asked him to sit down, the surrounding grass was taller than him, "Hide here, don't come out, I'll come back and find you."

He had been waiting for Deng Luoyi to come back to look for him. His ankle was no longer hurting, and he had many red and swollen bumps from mosquito bites on his arms and legs.It was about to start raining on a gloomy day, and Luo Xiaoyuan found him in the grass.

For a long time, he thought that because he lost his brother, his mother would pay him to his brother's mother.

"...Mom...I was wrong...Mom...don't send me away..." He grabbed Luo Xiaoyuan's clothes and cried out of breath in front of the crowd at the airport.

Since he was born, he has never left her.

Luo Xiaoyuan squatted down and hugged him, "You have to be obedient, you have met your father's wife before, you have to call her mother... be good... Be good and I will take you back..."

The tall caucasian man picked him up and walked towards the boarding gate. His hands went over the man's shoulders, trying to grab something, "Mom!"

Luo Xiaoyuan took two steps forward, but was blocked outside the boarding gate, her face was soaked with tears.

He couldn't understand everyone's speech, and others couldn't understand what he was saying. He became a fool and dumb, and he could only stare and show a confused expression.Even so, he could sense that Deng Luoyi's mother didn't like him. She was very busy and was often away from home, and sometimes she couldn't be seen for several days in a row.She found a Chinese nanny to take care of him. However, the nanny spoke a dialect with a strange pronunciation, which he could not understand.

He didn't want to eat the boiled broccoli, and the nurse put the spoon in his mouth.

At first, he was obedient and would call Diana Mama when he met Diana. The pronunciation of the word Mama is very similar in Chinese and foreign countries.

"Don't call me mom! You're not my son! Do you understand?!" she yelled excitedly, her eyes red.

He couldn't understand what she said, but was too frightened by her body language to move.

No one likes him here. At night, he sleeps in Deng Luoyi's room, huddled under Deng Luoyi's quilt, unconsciously imagining how Deng Luoyi will live.

He wants to go home.

"...I want to go home...I don't want to be here...go home...mom...mom..."

He was crying again, "Mom" refers to Luo Xiaoyuan.

Diana had just returned to the villa when she took off her coat and glanced at him, and the nanny translated his words into English.She approached him, the smell of perfume on her body was cold, "Don't cry, she doesn't want you anymore."

The nanny repeated this sentence in a strangely pronounced dialect. After a period of time, he could already understand some of the Chinese she spoke.

"You're talking nonsense...you're a bad person...Mom..."

Diana didn't care about him anymore and let him cry, anyway, the villa was big enough to make his cries quieter.

When he was able to speak English stutteringly, the driver took him to the school. He used the identity of Deng Luoyi, and the school was not the school Deng Luoyi had attended.

The introverted student is the least popular in school, and he's not white.As soon as he arrived at school, he put his bag in the locker, and he heard someone imitating him behind him, stuttering and stiff.

They told him on purpose, laughed at him, and he bowed his head and walked away quickly, not talking to anyone.

Others isolated him, and he also closed himself in a small world, turning into a veritable freak.

At summer camp, no one wanted to sleep in the same tent as him.He went to bed early, and when he was half asleep and half awake, he felt itchy on the back of his neck, and he scratched it with his hands in a daze. His hands were sticky, like the juice from rotten berries, and had a fishy smell.He found his phone and turned on the screen.

He screamed and climbed out of the tent as fast as he could.The people outside the tent waited to see how panicked he was, and shoved the beam of the flashlight into his face. He cried in fright, and the boys who teased him laughed.

Someone threw a dead cat into his tent while he was sleeping.In his panic, he only saw a general description. The cat was rotten, its stomach sunken, and its mouth and eyes were covered with pus and blood.His body was also stained with pus and blood.

He knelt on the ground and cried, with his head bowed, making no sound, tears falling on his hands drop by drop.

"Who did it?" He looked up suddenly.

"Who did it?!"

No one paid attention to him, they were all laughing, laughing at him crying like a little girl.

He got up from the ground, went to the river without saying a word and picked up a stone, which was too heavy to hold.By the time he walked back to the camp, the gang that had teased him had dispersed, and he walked up to one of them, and he remembered his face as he shone a flashlight into his eyes.

"I don't know who threw the cat into my tent. It doesn't matter. You just need to remember that I hit you."

After finishing speaking, he grabbed the stone and smashed the opponent's head quickly and fiercely.

"I, Roy Deng."

He threw the bloody stone.

As if experiencing life all over again, Deng Luoyi opened his eyes, unable to recover for a long time.

Jiang Mingyun appeared in front of him, anxiously trying to see from his eyes whether he was all right.

After the hypnosis ended, Deng Luoyi fell asleep for nearly two hours. During the period of his coma, Jiang Mingyun stood by the bed and watched over him, waiting for him to wake up.

"Why, why are you looking at me like this?" Deng Luoyi sat up and smiled, a rare light smile.

Jiang Mingyun tried his best to conceal his emotions, so his face was a little dazed, "What eyes?"

He frowned and thought, "Hmm... as if he was afraid that I would collapse when I woke up."

"Do you remember it?"

"I remember." Deng Luoyi stood up, took his coat and put it on, "I'm Luo Xuan."

Jiang Mingyun said calmly: "It doesn't matter who you think you are, even if there are cognitive biases, you are yourself."

"Right."

Whether he is Deng Luoyi or Luo Xuan, he is him.

There was sleet in the afternoon, pedestrians wrapped in down jackets and held umbrellas, hurried across the zebra crossing, Jiang Mingyun asked him about his next plan while driving.

"I'm going to be here for a few days." He surveyed the city.

"Where do you live?" Jiang Mingyun asked.

Deng Luoyi's eyes fell on Jiang Mingyun's profile, "Has your house in Haicheng been sold?"

"No."

They planted the flowers and plants in the backyard together, so how could they be willing to sell them.

"That's good." He said something unclear, and people couldn't guess what he meant. Whether he would live in that house or not, there was no certainty.

Jiang Mingyun drove him for a stroll on the road. After a long time, he asked, "Going?"

Deng Luoyi said: "Go, how long will it be?"

"Don't force yourself." Jiang Mingyun said solemnly, and parked the car on the side of the road, "Luo Xuan."

Deng Luoyi interrupted him, and slowly approached him, "Are you afraid that I will deceive your feelings?"

Jiang Mingyun turned to look directly at him, then snapped off his seat belt, grabbed the back of his neck, and pushed him towards him.

Deng Luoyi's chin hit his shoulder, and it hurt.As a counterattack, he bit Jiang Mingyun on the side of the neck, and hugged Jiang Mingyun after the bite, "I won't force myself."

"It is known that he loves you, I am him, the conclusion is... I love you." It was the first time Deng Luoyi said such nasty words to someone, and he couldn't stand it, so he pushed Jiang Mingyun away awkwardly, and returned to the high cold state.

"You change too fast, I'm really scared." I'm afraid this is an illusion of love.

He smiled and lowered his eyes, "I'm really insensitive to feelings, or I'm cold-blooded... Diana is still in the ICU ward, I don't feel any pain at all, and I don't feel much pain at my mother's grave either. I have never loved anyone before, and I don’t know what love is. My feelings, all my delicate and soft things are probably placed with Luo Xuan. You don’t have to be afraid, I can’t do without you. As long as the real When I wake up, I just want to see you."

"Instead of worrying about whether I love you or not, it's better to worry about Luo Xuan. As I said before, he is very possessive. If I'm with you, he will definitely make trouble. If you two break up, it's really It killed me laughing."

Deng Luoyi pinched Jiang Mingyun's face, showing a gloating smile, with piercing eyes.

"Why did he do this?" He held Deng Luoyi's wrist.

"Because he was abandoned before, so you should hold the person you care about in the palm of your hand, and don't let anyone have a chance to steal it." Deng Luoyi changed the subject, "Don't worry, for you, he is easy to coax." .”

Jiang Mingyun started the car and said, "Let's go home."

"I'm not leaving, I want to stay in Haicheng." He popped out such a sentence.

Jiang Mingyun stepped on the accelerator and almost ran into the rear end.

"Lo!"

The author says:

I wanted to end it, but I always feel that something is missing... I'd better write some more...

Seamlessly connecting the new article "Never Peaceful ABO", I hope everyone can go and have a look, love you all.