I really want to die

Afterwards, Su Chen asked Xun Xiu why he fell into a coma, but Xun Xiu said he didn't know. He also felt puzzled, thinking that he was just sleeping.However, he vaguely remembered that he had a dream. Su Chen asked him what the dream was, but he said he couldn't remember it clearly.

"It seems that I have been looking for something, and I always feel that it will be very bad if I can't find it." When Xun Xiu said this, he smiled, hugged Su Chen into his arms, rubbed him, and kissed him on the face before smiling. Continued, "It must be because you ran away and I couldn't find you. I think about it every day and dream all night."

Is that right?

Su Chen frowned slightly, a trace of doubt flashed in his heart.

It is said that Xiaobie is better than a newlywed. To Xunxiu, he hadn't seen Su Chen for two whole months, and it was when he had just established a relationship and made substantial progress. it's time.

But for Su Chen, it was much simpler.He was frightened, so he became obedient to Xun Xiu unconsciously.Being bullied and crying on the bed, I just grabbed the sheet and bit my lip to bear it, my eyes were red, and my lips turned white from the biting.Seeing Su Chen like this, Xun Xiu's eyes were extremely gentle, but he became even more ruthless when he bullied him.It's just that he was extremely warm and considerate afterwards, and considering Su Chen's body, he didn't do it too often.

In general, after Su Chen came back, the two of them lived happily ever after. It was sweet and sticky, so sticky that other people wanted to poke their eyes every minute.

Not long after, Su Chen and Xun Xiu collaborated to film a suspenseful detective drama. In this drama, Su Chen played the leading role and Xun Xiu became the male number two.

In this play, Su Chen plays a genius psychologist who suffers from mental illness and helps the police solve many serious criminal cases.And Xun Xiu plays the captain of the criminal police who cooperates with Su Chen in the play.

The difference between this drama and the general suspense detective drama is not only that the protagonist suffers from a serious mental illness and no one knows, but also that every time a case is solved, the protagonist’s condition will become deeper-but there is no such thing as this. people know.

Well, except for the audience watching the drama.

The protagonist hides his illness very well, and looks no different from ordinary people on weekdays.When encountering a case, he can quickly and effectively decipher the clues and find the murderer in a very short time. The criminal policemen celebrate happily.But no one knows that when the protagonist is alone, he will improve the murderer's modus operandi, over and over again, until it is almost perfect.

But at the same time, he fell into a kind of extreme pain and despair.He will transfer the crime committed by the murderer to the victim to himself, and at the same time transfer the pain of the victim's family to himself. This double mental torture makes his mental state worse and worse.And only by cracking a case and catching the murderer can the guilt and pain in his heart be relieved a little bit, but new cases often aggravate this guilt and pain.

This is a paradox and a vicious circle.

Later, the captain of the criminal police finally discovered the clue, and after a period of careful observation, he finally learned of the protagonist's condition.

Afterwards, the two started a fierce conflict—accurately speaking, it was only the unilateral fierceness of the criminal police captain. The image shown by the protagonist to outsiders is always calm and rational.The captain of the criminal police does not allow the protagonist to participate in any case, but the protagonist does not accept his kindness.When the case happened, the captain of the criminal police deliberately did not take him with him, but the protagonist investigated the case in his own way, and the case was still solved by him.

"You're committing suicide! It's chronic suicide! Are you so overwhelmed?!" Excited, the captain of the criminal police yelled this sentence at the protagonist.

After a long silence, the protagonist said very calmly:

"If you don't let me solve the case, then you are killing me now."

Not long after, a serious case occurred that shocked the whole country. The relevant department set up a task force, but they had no clue. A few days passed without any progress.At this time, someone mentioned the protagonist, but the captain of the criminal police still didn't want him to get involved.

The number of injured people is increasing day by day, and the case still has no progress. The protagonist finds the captain of the criminal police with the clues he analyzed and drew, and the captain of the criminal police can no longer refuse.

With the help of the protagonist, the case became clear little by little. The murderer's viciousness and superb modus operandi shocked the task force.And the protagonist, after trying to figure it out, discovered that the murderer's modus operandi was actually an improved method that he had written down.

The protagonist almost collapsed, and with his last bit of persistence, he fought wits and courage with the murderer.From the very beginning, they were always one step behind the murderer, and found the injured but turned into a corpse. Later, they were finally one step ahead of the murderer and successfully rescued the hostages.

The arrival of the plot.The murderer kidnapped students in an elementary school class and divided them into two teams.One team has only one elementary school student, who is tied to the abandoned train track; the other team is the remaining 23 elementary school students, who are tied to the track that the train is about to pass by.

"Let's play a game to see whether the support rate for the law that does not blame the public is high, or the support rate for 'the right thing' is high."

After the murderer left this sentence, he cut off the communication with the protagonist.

The protagonist did not play this game with the murderer. He untied the section of the railway where the elementary school students were bound in the last 10 minutes of the train's arrival.Then notify the nearby police and station staff to rescue all 25 children as quickly as possible.As soon as the children were lifted off the track, the train passed by at high speed, rolling over the rails where the 23 children had been tied, and rumbling away.

When the murderer was surrounded, he told a story. The protagonist in the story was the younger brother of the child who was left alone on the abandoned track 20 years ago and was finally abandoned.

"Do you know what the parents taught the other children after they went back? They said, don't play by yourself like the child who was crushed to death. Be a group and be with everyone, or you will be punished." The train is crushing." The murderer laughed while talking, but his face was covered with tears.

"Wrong things, if not corrected at the time, will continue to be wrong, so I just corrected a mistake made 20 years ago."

After finishing speaking, the murderer took out a remote control - it turned out that he had planted a bomb in this abandoned factory in advance, and when the bomb went off, all the policemen here would die.

The protagonist stops the murderer, and finally convinces the murderer to let the others go and stay by himself.

"It is the 'right thing' for the police to catch criminals. If they all die here today, how many people will be able to persist in doing this 'right thing' in the future?"

The captain of the criminal police is unwilling to leave, saying that unless the protagonist goes with him.Before the murderer pressed the button impatiently, the protagonist turned his head to look at the captain of the criminal police, and gently said his last words in his life.

"Go, I can't go anymore."

The captain of the criminal police heard the meaning behind his words, and his eyes turned red instantly.

Just as the captain of the criminal police walked out of the factory gate, a red light flashed, an explosion sounded, and the strong air current knocked him to the ground.The captain of the criminal police didn't get up, and he didn't care whether he was injured. He lay on the ground, crying like a child.

This TV series called "Atonement" not only set off a wave of suspense and detective style, but also caused great social repercussions.

Some people focused on which track the train driver should choose, and more people reflected on the revenge behavior of the victim's family who became the murderer 20 years later.

This drama is not a criticism of the driver's choice back then - the murderer's final statement shows that what he resented was not the driver's choice at the time, but the attitude of the parents of the survivors' children afterwards.

This also triggered a wider discussion, so that the public's attention is not on the driver's choice, but on the education before the incident, the correct education, this kind of incident can be avoided; and the guidance and reflection afterwards , The loss has already been caused, how to stop this loss and stop it from continuing is a question worthy of everyone's deep thinking.

In addition, the mentally ill genius played by Su Chen has a super high IQ and severe mental illness. He has been fighting against the illness alone and strongly, but he is still dying in the end.

This tragic ending made the audience full of sympathy for him, and also sparked heated discussions on how to care for the mentally ill.

A drama can trigger so many social discussions. In addition to the excellent script itself, Su Chen's acting skills are also indispensable.So, beyond reproach, Su Chen won the best actor trophy for the drama "Atonement".

Su Chen later made a few more dramas, including three films, all of which he cooperated with Xun Xiu, and won two titles of best actor.

At this time, Su Chen has become a film king who can stand shoulder to shoulder with Xun Xiu, and Xun Xiu has not made any other movies except for co-starring with Su Chen these years.The relationship between the two was slowly dug out, which caused a storm.This time, Xun Xiu did not control the public opinion any more, regardless of good or bad, let those people say it on the Internet.

Su Chen is not a person who cares about public opinion, but he just feels that his life is being spied on and discussed like this, and he doesn't like it very much.In the end, he and Xun Xiu starred in a same-sex movie and announced his withdrawal from the entertainment circle.

No matter how much true love fans cry, Su Chen will quit the circle when he says he will quit.And his work of resting shadows not only won the box office champion of the year, but also won many international awards, which made those who said that he ran away like a bereaved dog under pressure be severely slapped in the face.

Su Chen and Xun Xiu had registered their marriage abroad a few years ago, and when Mother Su knew that her son was going to marry a man, she accepted it in a daze for three seconds, and even arranged a grand feast for the two of them. Stopped by Su Chen.

In this life, Su Chen has love, family affection, and even friendship.Although when he just woke up, his own character should be emotionally deficient, and he doesn't understand emotions.But Su Chen still opened his heart a little, trying to accept some people other than that person.

If he was alone, Su Chen would not have such courage, but with that person by his side, he would have such courage.

He no longer thinks about the future, and acts as a person who lives in the present.Just like the character he played in "Atonement", when there is still strength, then keep going until the day when you can't walk.

"What do you think?"

Someone came up from behind and wrapped him in his arms.

Su Chen habitually leaned back, resting his head on the shoulder of the person behind him, smiling, turning his head to look at the person's face.

"Miss you."

Xun Xiu was taken aback for a moment, then smiled softly, and pecked him on the lips.

"I've been by your side all the time, why don't you think about it?"

"I just want you to be here all the time."

The last words were as soft as a whisper, disappearing between the lips and tongue.

The warm breeze is slightly smoked, gentle and lingering.