Married after losing memory

After Yuan Anrui asked the question, Liu Yichen fell silent.

Shi Yan vaguely guessed that Liu Yichen should have something to say, since Liu Yichen received an inexplicable message the night before yesterday, something was wrong all the time.

At that time, Liu Yichen said that the message was sent by an illegitimate fan.

Thinking about it now, the more Shi Yan thought about it, the more he felt something was wrong.

If it was really an illegitimate child, Liu Yichen could call the police, or at least say hello to the assistants around him, but Liu Yichen seemed to have made up his mind from the beginning to the end to suppress the illegitimate meal.

That person may not be an illegitimate child, but someone who knows Liu Yichen's past.

Frightened by his own conjecture, Shi Yan couldn't help being a little nervous: "Chenchen...it doesn't matter what you encounter, or what someone said to you..."

Liu Yichen shook his head: "No, nothing, just want to talk about the past, don't worry too much."

He is willing to reveal to Shi Yan the misery of the past, but now that they are together, if he tells Shi Yan, Shi Yan will definitely solve it for himself.

The reason for choosing honesty is to get closer to Shi Yan.

If in the end, it was Shi Yan who solved everything for himself, then his frankness would become a joke——

He will always be unequal to Shi Yan.

Not just status, but also certain corners deep in my heart.

So Liu Yichen chose not to say anything.

The privacy of the winery is indeed very good. The three of them stood in a stalemate in the yard like this and no one passed by.

On the small pond, the Japanese-style bamboo stream flows endlessly.

Shi Yan pulled Liu Yichen's tightly clenched hands, and slowly ironed the whitened knuckles: "If there is anything you don't want to say, then don't say it. It's not up to outsiders to talk about the two of us."

If Liu Yichen had something he couldn't say, he was willing to wait until Liu Yichen wanted to say it, and even if he didn't say it, then he wouldn't say it.

Boom. "On the pond, the bamboo tube was filled with water and poured over.

Liu Yichen said slowly, as if a switch had been turned on suddenly: "There's nothing we can't say, it's all happened a long time ago."

He sounded calm, extremely calm.

However, Shi Yan lowered his eyes and found that Liu Yichen's hand that had just been loosened was clenched again.

Liu Yichen is not afraid that confession will lead to Shi Yan's departure.

But I am even more afraid that if I don't try to be a frank person, I will never be able to become a person who can stand by Shi Yan's side.

This is not a matter of how others see it, or how Shi Yan sees it.

It's a question of how he himself will peer inside.

If he doesn't try, Liu Yichen feels that he may never be worthy of Shi Yan.

Another moment of silence.

Yuan Anrui waited unhurriedly for Liu Yichen to speak, his eyes were red|naked|naked provocation——

He knew Liu Yichen no less than Liu Yichen himself.

He even knew Liu Yichen's lost memories of the past two years.

Yuan Anrui felt that Liu Yichen was just showing off his tongue right now.

Liu Yichen didn't dare to say.

Even if you dare, you must not dare to tell everything.

After a while, as long as Liu Yichen opened his mouth and said less than he knew, he could tell everything he knew.

At that time, Liu Yichen will only be more embarrassed than now.

"Boom." Another bamboo tube was full of water.

With a bang, the water fell into the pond, and the empty bamboo tube dangled twice, and then picked up the water again, and it was never empty.

Liu Yichen stood by the steps, staring numbly at the dangling bamboo tube, feeling a little tired.

What can't he say?

As early as the year I left home at the age of 17, many things were doomed.

At that time, he should have bid farewell to this world.

If he hadn't met Shi Yan.

Even today, 12 years have passed, he still can't escape from that memory.

Even though he already has countless fans and received countless praises, he still can't face the self in his memory.

Like the bamboo tube that is filled with water and poured back and forth.

I can never get rid of that heavy memory.

But Shi Yan appeared.

Like hot magma, it evaporated all the water vapor.

As long as Shi Yan is there, those memories will be gone before they can emerge from the depths of his mind.

Compared to Shi Yan, he seems to have nothing.

He doesn't have the money that Shi Yan has, nor does he have the social status that Shi Yan has, and he doesn't have the warmth that Shi Yan has that shines in his eyes.

Even his name is not as nice as Shi Yan's.

Shi Yan is a firm and brave rock, while he is a crushed dust, a speck of dust.

To be loved by Shi Yan like this, Liu Yichen felt that he should at least do something, such as being honest.

"Boom."

After the water in the bamboo tube was filled for the third time, Liu Yichen spoke again.

"I don't know where Mr. Yuan learned about my past, and why he thinks I dare not tell it."

Yuan Anrui didn't hide anything, and answered him very directly: "I drank with director Zhuo before, and when he was drunk, he said that Liu Yichen had suffered enough when he was a child. Later, I found a relationship to check some files."

"Well, it seems that you know a lot."

Liu Yichen's voice was exceptionally calm, even a little homely.

In these years, Liu Yichen has rarely met anyone who knows his past, except for Zhuo Yang who picked him up and gave him a chance to pull him out of the quagmire with his own hands, Yuan Anrui has become a rare one.

Listening to the conversation between the two, Shi Yan had a bad feeling, but Liu Yichen didn't give him a chance to interject.

"I told you I was adopted."

Liu Yichen's opening was unremarkable, but Shi Yan fell into panic.

He always knew that Liu Yichen was not someone who dared to face the past.

Liu Yichen did it for himself.

But in fact, he didn't need Liu Yichen to do this.

"My adoptive father is a very good man. His name is Liu Jingshan. He adopted me when he was six years old."

Liu Yichen spoke very slowly, completely unaware of when Shi Yan invited Yuan Anrui away, and when he hugged himself into his arms.

Before the age of six, Liu Yichen always thought that he had no future.

Compared to the talking, lively and cheerful child, Liu Yichen was not very likable in the orphanage.

More importantly, it is said that he is "the child of the third child".

No one wants a child like that, especially a six-year-old who doesn't naturally feel close to other people.

So until he was six years old, Liu Jingshan took him away.

From the age of six to 12, Liu Yichen was the happiest six years. Liu Jingshan taught him how to get along with nature, and also taught him how to get along with himself.

Liu Yichen's adoptive mother, Zhou Hui, is illiterate and taciturn. She doesn't have much in common with Liu Yichen, but she also gives Liu Yichen enough love.

Until the age of 12, Liu Jingshan died of cancer.

After three years of treatment, the family has already been destitute.

In order for Liu Yichen to continue studying, Zhou Hui remarried to a middle school teacher in the county.

That person was Ren Zheng, and he was Liu Yichen's stepfather.

Ren Zheng was working as a language teacher in the county. He had a wife and a daughter, but they divorced his wife when his daughter was ten years old, and the child was given to his wife.

Zhou Hui was illiterate, and after meeting Ren Zheng on a blind date, she felt that she had taken advantage of her. Liu Yichen's middle school was about to start again, so she married Ren Zheng soon.

Ren Zheng was very kind to Liu Yichen at first.

He would hold Liu Yichen's hand and teach him to write with a brush, and he would also deliberately transfer Liu Yichen to his class.

Ren Zheng is the grade director and has his own office. During lunch break, he will call Liu Yichen to his office for lunch break.

He thought, what was lost came back.

Abandoned by his biological father, abandoned by his adoptive father, and now he has another father, which is great.

Things quickly changed.

It didn't even wait for Liu Yichen to finish his first semester.

That winter afternoon, Liu Yichen took a nap in Ren Zheng's office.

He was well heated, and he was only wearing a school uniform jacket.

When it was hazy, someone got into the clothes.

In Liu Yichen's perception, Ren Zheng is a serious and conscientious teacher, and also a steady father.

Although he found it strange, Ren Zheng explained that he saw Liu Yichen's clothes rolled up, so he pulled them for him in case he caught cold.

So Liu Yichen also forgot about it.

But soon, Ren Zheng's actions went from probing to going one step further.

Middle schools in small counties do not have sex education classes.

Even if there were, no one would explain to a 12-year-old boy what it means to have a 50-year-old stepfather put his hand in his clothes.

What happened later, Liu Yichen's memory became even more blurred.

Out of self-protection, too many parts of the brain were shielded, but just the remaining sporadic fragments were enough to make Liu Yichen shudder when recalling.

Liu Yichen found out that it was the spring of the second year.

That year, a girl in the county committed suicide.

Same experience as him.

Liu Yichen finally understood that not everyone's father would express kindness in this way.

He never liked Ren Zheng treating him like that.

So he expressed his protest to Ren Zheng.

Liu Yichen thought that Ren Zheng would reason with him in the same gentle and slow manner as before.

However, since that day, Ren Zheng seemed to have completely changed himself.

He took Liu Yichen to the chess and card room in the county seat.

Too many people gathered there.

People said things that Liu Yichen had never thought of.

"A good girl, she was raised so big that she died and she didn't stay until she got married. She really doesn't know how to think about the family at all."

"Her father is an official in the county. This girl is really ignorant. In this way, her father's future is gone, and her mother can still have a good life? If she doesn't cause such a scandal, who will know?"

"Isn't there a lot of things like this in the village? The one in my front yard. Later, my mother and father left and let their daughter marry. The three of them still live together. The days are beautiful, but the child is still not sensible."

Liu Yichen seemed to understand but not understand.

But he understood that Ren Zheng came to show him off.

From that day on, Ren Zheng no longer made any excuses.

He said that it was all because Liu Yichen was so good-looking, like a little girl.

The only good news is that Ren Zheng understands the law.

He dared not do more.

But that's enough.

For a whole year, Liu Yichen tried to escape, he even thought about playing truant and running away from home.

However, whenever he reacted, Ren Zheng would inflict violence on Zhou Hui.

Zhou Hui always felt that she was not worthy of Ren Zheng when she married Ren Zheng, and that she owed Ren Zheng, so she endured it silently.

Even, Zhou Hui felt that Liu Yichen was not sensible enough to get along well with his stepfather, so he educated Liu Yichen many times.

Liu Yichen thought about it many times, and wanted to tell everything.

But in the end, the only thing lingering in my mind is "this child is not sensible".

So, everything was silently swallowed back.

until the age of 14.

Liu Yichen began to grow taller, becoming more and more youthful, and Ren Zheng gradually stopped touching him.

Just as he was about to breathe a sigh of relief, Liu Yichen caught a glimpse of Ren Zheng starting to attack the junior girls who were in the first grade.

That day, he suddenly figured out something.

He asked Ren Zheng how he and his ex-wife divorced.

Why have you never visited your daughter.

It was rare for Ren Zheng to change his face, and angrily scolded him: "Get lost."

So Liu Yichen understood.

He finally punched Ren Zheng.

He was then sent to the police station.

By the time it was all said and done, it was completely dark.

Liu Yichen was in Shi Yan's arms, staring at the bamboo tube that was filled with water, emptied, and filled again and again.

"You met me that day, but I didn't actually run away from home, nor did I run away." Liu Yichen pretended to smile relaxedly, "That day, I beat my stepfather, who had just finished his education and was released from the police station Come out and plan to die."

"Yuan Anrui was able to find out about my past because of these things, there are files for everything, including adoption, mother's remarriage, and everything about Ren Zheng." Everything can lie, except files.

He was already fourteen years old that year, beat Ren Zheng to the bone, and the injury was appraised.

There is a case.

"You see, things like memory are just like that bamboo tube. Even if I try to drive them out of my mind countless times, they will always refill the entire memory." Liu Yichen couldn't sense his tone, just I can feel some dampness in my neck.

—— Shi Yan buried behind him, tears fell into his neck.

Liu Yichen wanted to comfort him, but found that he seemed to be crying too.

So in the end, he could only say: "You know, my adoptive father gave me this name. He said, our family is poor, so let's give it a name that is easy to support. Liu Yichen can be seen everywhere like dust, insignificant, and good. feed."

"So, I am as expected as dust, worthless."

Shi Yan let go of Liu Yichen's arms.

Feeling the temperature behind him leaving, Liu Yichen choked up and asked, "If you want to leave, then go."

He is not clean.

He still has a case.

However, Shi Yan just stood up, walked towards the pool of water, and the hard-working bamboo tube, and kicked off the power supply.

"Okay, he's not moving."

The water in the bamboo tube was poured out.

Without the power supply, there will be no water flow, and the bamboo tube will be empty, so there will be no more busy work.

Liu Yichen was stunned for a moment, not understanding what Shi Yan meant.

"If those memories keep coming back, then don't be afraid, I'm here." Shi Yan returned to Liu Yichen, squatted down and looked at Liu Yichen, gently wiped away the tears on Liu Yichen's face, and kissed the eyelashes. Tears, whispered:

"You are not worthless dust."

"Liu Yichen's Yichen is spotless, you are clean, mine."

The author has something to say: cry for me.