The Third Rose

Putting down the phone, Chen Xingze was at a loss at the street corner.

Mi Sheng asked him: "Do you want to go home?"

Chen Xingze shook his head.

It was late, Mi Sheng took Chen Xingze, walked two streets, and found a hotel to stay.

Chen Xingze seemed to have lost his soul.

"Cry if you want." Mi Sheng said.

Chen Xingze still shook his head.

Mi Sheng asked the front desk to deliver a box of beer, and said to Chen Xingze: "Would you like some drink? I drink when I'm sad, and I forget everything when I'm drunk. It's a day to last."

Chen Xingze wasn't a character who used alcohol to drown his sorrows, but today was an exception. He urgently needed something that could numb himself.

Chen Xingze drank one bottle after another. The wine was cold. He drank too fast and irritated his stomach. He ran to the bathroom and vomited after a while.Mi Sheng patted him on the back and said, "Slow down, go to bed and sleep after vomiting."

Chen Xingze was so drunk that he couldn't tell the difference between you and me, so he vomited back and continued to drink, and pushed the wine to Mi Sheng for him to drink together.

"My injuries are not healed yet." Mi Sheng whispered, "I can't drink now."

Chen Xingze suddenly lost his temper and put the wine on the table.Mi Sheng sighed and said in a low voice, "Okay, okay, I'll drink with you, don't be angry."

Under the influence of alcohol, Mi Sheng's medicated wound began to itch.He didn't dare to touch it, and the itching gradually turned into pain, burning hot like being stung.

A case of wine was quickly finished, Mi Sheng endured the pain, and helped Chen Xingze lie on the bed.He patted Chen Xingze's shoulder and coaxed him to sleep.After being quiet for a while, he thought Chen Xingze had fallen asleep, but just as he let go of his hand, he heard soft sobbing.

Mi Sheng lay beside him, Chen Xingze closed his eyes, tears formed a puddle on the bridge of his nose.

"Stop crying, aren't you tired from crying for so long?" Mi Sheng asked.

Chen Xingze whispered in a drunken dream: "I thought about... [-] ways to separate, and this is the only way. I never, never..."

Mi Sheng stroked Chen Xingze's cheek with his slender fingers.

Chen Xingze murmured: "Before I was with him, I felt that I could accept anything. He doesn't love me anymore...he regrets it, he likes girls...no matter what, let nature take its course, break up peacefully, what? It's fine, but why do you have to..."

Mi Sheng has been struggling for more than ten years, and his heart has long been icy cold. Only when facing Chen Xingze, did he retain a trace of sensibility.

"Don't cry, no matter how difficult the day is, it will pass by gritting your teeth."

Chen Xingze was so drunk that he couldn't tell what night it was. He couldn't recognize Mi Sheng's voice, but he still reacted to the words that came into his ears.He clutched his chest and curled up like a patient suffering from a heart attack.

"It's so uncomfortable... Am I going to die too..."

Mi Sheng's mood was very complicated, he felt pain for Chen Xingze who was dying to die, but he also knew that the boy's tears had nothing to do with him at all.He leaned close to Chen Xingze, and said, "Then you will gain your wisdom through the pitfalls. Listen to me, and don't follow the old path again. See how uncomfortable you are now, and regret it."

Chen Xingze didn't seem to listen to this sentence, he instinctively searched for a way to help him resist the pain in his mind, and finally muttered: "Book, there is a book..."

Mi Sheng leaned over beside him, "What?"

Chen Xingze recited intermittently: "...it's okay to be alone, as long as... as long as you can love someone from the bottom of your heart, life will be saved." He opened his eyes, his eyes were out of focus, and he repeated the sentence again, Like asking for proof. "This is what Haruki Murakami said. This kind of master should not lie."

Mi Sheng was stunned.Chen Xingze hugged his body, "I don't regret it, it's okay if the result is not good, I don't regret it... I hope Lu Hao doesn't regret it either, I don't want him to regret it..." His voice became softer, like a deep sleep.

In order to let Chen Xingze fall asleep quickly, Mi Sheng turned off the lights early, and now only the moonlight shines on him, Mi Sheng looked at the young boy curled up like a baby bird, and remained silent for a while, showing a complicated expression.

"You can accept that he likes women, but you can't accept that he is sad. How naive do you need to be?"

It seems that apart from Lu Hao, there was someone called Lin before, and he heard Chen Xingze share those things with a stupid face.

He seems to be perpetually dealing with unequal affections.

Mi Sheng counted Chen Xingze's stupidity over and over again in his heart, and then asked himself.

If you call him stupid, do you want him to change?

Do you really want him to change?

Mi Sheng, who was still indifferent after seeing so many tragic scenes all day, finally fell in love at this moment.

He approached Chen Xingze, and asked in a soft voice: "...Little ghost, have you ever thought about finding someone of the same kind to be with you?"

In this quiet moment of the night, the long-lost traveler, instigated by the innocent emotion of the young man, finally confessed his heart.

"If... I mean, if I say I like you, and I have liked you for a long time, are you willing to accept it?"

Chen Xingze groaned in his dream, and Mi Sheng blushed from nervousness.

"I promise you, if you accept me, I will never mess around again. I will find an ordinary job, and it doesn't matter if I don't earn much. I will serve you very well, and I will never let you do this cry."

It's been too long since he said such a thing, and the more he said it, the more excited he became, Mi Sheng leaned over, held Chen Xingze's cheek, and kissed him delicately.

"Is it alright, kid, is it alright... Please, promise me."

Chen Xingze didn't sleep well. He felt that someone was disturbing his dreams, but that person was very gentle, like a velvet quilt, he couldn't help reaching out to hug and caress him.

Those dreaming hands covered his back, and as soon as he walked casually, Mi Sheng's back trembled.There was a blush in his face.The hand ran along his back, all the way to his tailbone.Mi Sheng felt his body warm up.He straddled Chen Xingze, leaned down against the moonlight, and kissed Chen Xingze. "...Kiss me, kid, don't think about them, kiss me."

There was a strong smell of alcohol in their kiss, which made everything dreamy.

Chen Xingze responded instinctively, Mi Sheng couldn't bear it anymore, he got up, and lifted the silver thread around his lips, his lips were moist and red.He unbuttoned his shirt, his thin body was covered with scars.His hands rested lightly on Chen Xingze's shoulders, like cats lying on their master's body, gently and slowly rubbing against each other.

Chen Xingze's breathing became heavier, Mi Sheng put his hand under him, and only touched around, Chen Xingze became fully erect, and he hugged Mi Sheng even harder, as if he wanted to pray for more.

"Have you ever used it here?" Mi Sheng untied Chen Xingze's belt, with his hand through the underwear, he began to stroke up and down from the soft pouch, with neither light nor heavy force.He looked at Chen Xingze with blurred eyes, "It's the first time, please give it to me, I will make you very comfortable." As he spoke, he leaned down, with the tip of his nose sticking to Chen Xingze's underwear.He stretched out the tip of his soft tongue, licking along the roots over and over again.

"Ah..." Chen Xingze was so stimulated that he moaned again, his voice was hoarse than usual.The hand instinctively goes down, trying to relieve the desire, but is suppressed by Mi Sheng halfway.

"Leave it to me, you just lie down."

The inside and outside of the panties were already unbearably wet, Mi Sheng gently pulled them off, looked at Chen Xingze's genitals, and kissed obsessively again.The lips were lubricated to the touch, and his sucking made a viscous sound.He pulled his pants down as he kissed, and his own cock stood up.

The smell of lust is in the air.

Mi Sheng knelt on Chen Xingze's body, wiped his semen, and extended it to his acupoint.Because of the emptiness, Chen Xingze moved in dissatisfaction.Mi Sheng comforted him and said: "Wait a minute, just wait for another minute..." He speeded up and directly stretched three fingers in.

The unhealed wound yelled again, and cold sweat broke out on Mi Sheng's back.

When he felt that the pain had the upper hand, Mi Sheng would use his other hand to caress the dense bush under Chen Xingze's crotch.Chen Xingze blushed from being touched, as if impatient.

"Okay, don't worry, it will be fine soon."

Mi Sheng supported Chen Xingze's penis, took a deep breath, and slowly inserted it into his acupuncture point.

"Little devil, you are so big..."

Mi Sheng looked at the ceiling with his mouth slightly open.

"Don't move, it hurts a little, let me get used to it..."

It's a pity that Chen Xingze couldn't hear his words at all, and entered the narrow and warm passage, as if opening a taboo door, Chen Xingze's waist straightened up by itself.

Just like spiders are born to make webs, like moths always tend to the light, many things, even for the first time, do not need to be taught skills.

Chen Xingze quickly mastered the trick and found the most comfortable rhythm.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhss

Because it was the first time, the amount Chen Xingze accumulated was more exaggerated than Mi Sheng thought.The young man's physical strength was not limited either, he kept twitching, and Mi Sheng's body kept making the sound of splashing water.Because it was in a sitting position, the viscous liquid soon flowed out from Mi Sheng's anus, making the folded legs wet and slippery.

Mi Sheng's eyes were messy, and while crazily matching Chen Xingze's frequency, he kept pumping his penis in front of him with his hand. "Quick... hurry up...yes, that's right..." he yelled as if no one else was there, the wound on his back was hurting all the time, the pain mixed with pleasure, under several stimulations, his soul seemed to leave his body.

Chen Xingze ate the forbidden fruit for the first time, and soon after ejaculating, he became erect again.Mi Sheng was dripping with sweat, and his body was slightly pink due to the intense sexual intercourse. "What's the matter?" He lay down in front of Chen Xingze's upright penis, and kissed it tremblingly, it became harder immediately, Mi Sheng said softly, "You can."

It took three full rounds before Chen Xingze slowly turned off the fire.Mi Sheng seemed to be fished out of the water, the wound was soaked in sweat and semen, and it hurt like needles.There was a lewd smell in the room, Mi Sheng hugged Chen Xingze, and it took a long time for his lust to ebb.He dragged his sore legs to the bathroom to wash off a clean towel, and came back to help Chen Xingze wipe his body. He acted carefully, treating the boy's body as a treasure.

Chen Xingze felt comfortable for a while, and fell into a deep sleep. Mi Sheng stroked the corner of his brow with unprecedented tenderness.

He jokingly said to Chen Xingze: "Well, it feels good, isn't my technique good? Do you want to be comfortable like this all the time, as long as you are with me, simple. I won't bully you, I will take good care of you You. Promise me, if you are willing to love me, I don't need anything else..."

The room was quiet, only Mi Sheng talking to himself.

The lust is gone, the moonlight shines.

After the ultimate happiness, it becomes the ultimate loneliness.

Clutching the towel tightly in his hand, Mi Sheng's heart was filled with an indescribable emptiness, and big tears flowed out. He clings to the sleeping boy's chest, sobbing softly, with an unprecedented fragility.

The author has something to say: Although this story has been edited in the style of a novel, [-]% of the events happened in reality.I didn't feel much when I wrote it, and I felt that was the case when I was in it, but it seems that many people can't accept it in the novel.

The reality is indeed not so romantic. Among the three people "Chen Xingze" liked back then, only the last "Mi Sheng" was really gay. "You Xiaolin" is Chen's first love. He has been in love for eight years and followed him all the way. Unfortunately, he was from the beginning to the end.

"Lu Hao" bent over for a while, and finally went straight back.The year he went abroad, his relatives passed away. At first, everyone didn't believe it, but the world was impermanent. The death of "Zhao Shan" shocked both children.I don't know if this was the direct cause of their separation, but since then, Chen never dared to mention any emotional matters with Lu, and he could feel that Lu blamed himself for doing whatever he wanted as a child.At that time, Chen's own life was also in chaos. He failed the college entrance examination, and his family knew about his sexual orientation.They haven't been in touch for about three or four years, and both of them have the psychology of escapism.It wasn't until much later that Chen was able to calmly bring up the matter again, when everything was back on track.He said that he stole the days of dating from "Lu Hao"'s life, taking advantage of his young age and ignorance, taking up his best years.About Chen and Lu, a line in a lesbian movie "Carol" can probably explain it-Forawhile.Andthenitchanged.Itchanges.Nobody'sfault.

As for Lao Mi, Lao Mi fell in love with Chen from the very beginning, which can be called a deep love, but at that time Chen could only see You and Lu, and Lao Mi waited for a long time.How should I put it, first of all, Chen was too young and too confident, he didn't think about finding a gay date at all, it seemed that only being with the straight man he liked was enough to be soul-stirring and worthy of youth.Second, Lao Mi's family is too chaotic, which is an example of a real failure to come out of the closet.Chen was still young, subconsciously he didn't want to be exposed to those negative things, and it was only after he matured that he realized that the fate of the group is closely related.I made a little modification to Lao Mi's occupation, but his life experience is similar.Chen is also 27-[-] this year, and he is still with Lao Mi. Lao Mi is older than him (although not as much as ten years old), and he is very good at taking care of others.And You was married, and Lu also had a girlfriend, and Lu ordered flowers for Chen on his birthday.

Some things are cruel in themselves, but as long as the core is good, it will always become more mellow and thicker after time fermentation. This is amazing, and it is also the reason that prompted me to write down this story.Chen is a very grateful person. Each of the three people in his mouth is too good to be good. With the author adding fuel and vinegar, it is normal for everyone to like anyone.But as the poem says, "Most good things are not firm, and colorful clouds are easy to disperse and glass is brittle." The feelings in life rarely have a beginning and an end, and most of the endings are calm and nothing happens.But sincere feelings are powerful even if they have no results, which can be seen from them now.

I will say a lot, and finally, I am not God in this story, I am also a reader. Fortunately, the story is short, and if you like it or not, it will be over after more than a week.Ordinary things for ordinary people have long been a foregone conclusion.There is really no need for everyone to hurt their own peace because of other people's past.