The Third Rose

Chen Xingze and You Xiaolin were sent to different junior high schools according to their school districts.

Chen Xingze has worked hard for this, trying hard to get his father to find someone to transfer him to You Xiaolin's junior high school.

"Yutian Middle School is far away from home, and it's not particularly good. Why did you go there?"

It's not at all a question of whether the school is good or not.Chen Xingze didn't care about the school at all, but unfortunately his parents did. No matter how much they doted on Chen Xingze, they still insisted on handling key issues.

Chen Xingze had no choice but to separate from You Xiaolin just like that.

It really feels like years.

Because of this jerky love affair, Chen Xingze matured more precociously than children of the same age, and experienced emotional entanglement at a young age.He understood what it means to be sad and mediocre earlier than the girl.

As soon as he entered junior high school, his parents bought Chen Xingze a mobile phone, and many students in the class envied him.It's a pity that Chen Xingze is different from other children in this point, he is not very interested in these things, because he knows that You Xiaolin definitely does not have a mobile phone, even if he did, he would not waste time on the phone.

After getting acquainted with You Xiaolin, Chen Xingze developed the habit of keeping a diary. When he couldn't hold back his thoughts, he would turn to his old diary and read, reviewing the past bit by bit, sometimes like reading other people's stories. I can't stop crying and laughing.

Although he went to different schools, Chen Xingze's affection for You Xiaolin did not diminish in the slightest.On the day they graduated, Chen Xingze asked You Xiaolin for a promise - they would contact each other once a week.

Therefore, the phone time on Saturday became Chen Xingze's emotional sustenance. Every time he waited in front of the phone, he read the number he had memorized silently while looking at the clock, and when he felt that it was about the same, he dialed the phone.

Even though his heart was beating like a drum, he still had to chat with the most ordinary voice.

Chen Xingze has long been used to this.

The topics they talked about were very common, mainly around studies. In fact, Chen Xingze was not interested in it at all, but he wanted to hear You Xiaolin's voice, and this topic was the easiest for him to talk about.

After chatting for more than ten minutes, You Xiaolin's mother will come to remind her.Chen Xingze hung up the phone reluctantly, and immediately began to look forward to the next Saturday.

Life would be better if there was a fast forward button.

Sometimes Chen Xingze would secretly go to Yutian Middle School, but he didn't tell You Xiaolin.He just stood in the corner and peered towards the campus.Perhaps because of someone he likes, he is very kind to Yutian Middle School, and thinks that the flowers and plants on the roadside are more beautiful than those in his own school.

One day, Chen Xingze came to Yutian Middle School and waited at the gate for a while, when a boy ran out from the campus.

"Hey!"

"Zhang Yao." Chen Xingze greeted him, and the two walked outside together.It was lunch break time, Chen Xingze came to find Zhang Yao for dinner.The reason he gave Zhang Yao was that he didn't go to school on sick leave today, and passed by here after seeing his illness.

The real reason is that he misses You Xiaolin.

Zhang Yao was carefully selected by Chen Xingze.When he first entered junior high school, he used his perfect popularity to find out several friends who went to Yutian Middle School.Chen Xingze selected Zhang Yao from among them, a kind-hearted but a little silly guy who was in the same class as You Xiaolin.

"Let me treat you, what do you want to eat?"

"So good?! Then I want a burger!"

Chen Xingze entertained him at the KFC opposite the school. He asked a lot about You Xiaolin, and Zhang Yao knew everything.

"You really pay attention to him. But yes, he has always been number one, and the teacher also pays attention to him. Unexpectedly, he is so famous that he went to other schools."

Chen Xingze likes people who have no brains.

"Why don't you eat? Are you sick and have no appetite?"

It is enough for him to have food for thought.

After dinner, Zhang Yao went back to school, and did not forget to thank him when he was done. Chen Xingze waved goodbye to him maintaining a kind expression.

"Ah, my face is about to freeze from laughing..."

Chen Xingze stretched and returned.

It was a windless and lazy afternoon, the birds didn't fly, the bugs didn't chirp, and everything went according to plan.

But life won't be peaceful forever.

The day of breaking the peace is coming soon.

In the first semester of the second year of junior high school, Chen Xingze was dragged by Wu Xingzhi to participate in the piano competition, and accidentally won the first prize.Chen He was very happy and bought him a DVD player as a reward.

Chen He also bought a bunch of Discovery documentaries for Chen Xingze, and Wu Xingzhi also gave him CDs of many foreign performers.But Chen Xingze was too lazy to look at these things, and the player has been kept unpacked since he bought it.

Later, the school was cleaned up one day and half a day off.After Chen Xingze finished his work, he went to eat in the shopping mall opposite, and when he was wandering after dinner, he came across a small stall selling pirated CDs.He remembered the DVD player at home that he hadn't used a few times, and decided to buy a disc and try it out.

He took a collection of recommendations in his hand.

No one was at home, so Chen Xingze went to the refrigerator to get a can of juice, then went back to the room and dug out the DVD player.

The sound of the machine starting made him a little drowsy, he yawned, and turned over the wrapping paper in the space where the machine was reading the disk, and the instructions on the back were clearly printed——

The first part: Ang Lee's "Brokeback Mountain".

Probably every critical intersection in life is arranged by gods.

Chen Xingze didn't know when he was immersed in the movie, it was dusk when he recovered, and he cried like a tear.

Chen Xingze couldn't describe his feelings. He used to have difficulty expressing his love for You Xiaolin, but now it's completely different from that time. This movie seems to show him a different new world for him who has been groping peacefully.

He buried his head in the pillow and cried for two full hours. The machine had finished playing the next video, and he didn't react.He cried till the end and trembled all over, and when he got off the ground, he couldn't even stand on his feet.

Before his parents came back, Chen Xingze left home and secretly went to a nearby Internet cafe.

Because it was the first time he came to this kind of place, Chen Xingze didn't even understand the basic process of surfing the Internet, but at this moment his inner desire was greater than anything else, so he asked the people next to him for help, and quickly learned how to operate it.

He frantically searched for all the news about this movie.

Then, he naturally searched for the word "gay"——

He stared for a long time.

It was the first time he heard this word, which should have been unfamiliar, but it made him feel extremely familiar and friendly.

He decided to buy the DVD of "Brokeback Mountain", not the cheap CD on the roadside, but the genuine one with the best picture quality, so that he could be worthy of such a perfect movie and be worthy of the touch it brought him. and shock.

He wants to buy it and give it to You Xiaolin.

Chen Xingze found out that this movie has not been released in China, but some DVD stores may sell it.So in the next few days, Chen Xingze went to almost all the DVD stores in the city, and finally found this movie in a store opened by a foreigner that specializes in European and American DVDs.

Chen Xingze spent all his food expenses for a week to buy the DVD.He was laughing all the way, holding the DVD like holding a bouquet of flowers.

Chen Xingze sent the DVD to You Xiaolin by courier.

He calculated the time. It should be Friday when You Xiaolin received the video, so that he would not delay his week's study. After watching the movie in the evening, they could just make a phone call on Saturday.

He thought well.

It's a pity that he didn't get a call that Saturday. When he called, You Xiaolin's mother answered and told him that You Xiaolin had gone to school for self-study early in the morning.

Chen Xingze was a little disappointed, he thought it might be because of the bad timing.The next week he lived like a year, and finally made it to Saturday without receiving a call.

You Xiaolin went to school again.

Chen Xingze couldn't wait any longer, he hadn't heard his voice for half a month.Chen Xingze went to Yutian Middle School, he was not a student of Yutian, the guard at the gate didn't let him in, so he waited at the gate.

It was a cloudy day, and it was a little cold. Chen Xingze was afraid of missing You Xiaolin, so he never dared to change places.He waited at the door for four hours, and finally met You Xiaolin.The moment he saw his figure, Chen Xingze was elated.

"You Xiaolin!"

You Xiaolin was walking forward with his schoolbag on his back, but when he heard someone calling him, he was startled, looked up and saw Chen Xingze, frowned, and walked around him.

Chen Xingze pulled him back.

"Why, you don't know me after only a few days?"

You Xiaolin shook his head.

Chen Xingze saw that something was wrong with him. "What's wrong?"

He still shook his head.

Chen Xingze thought of something, and asked him: "Did you receive the things I sent you? Why didn't you tell me, you didn't go home for two weeks, what happened?"

You Xiaolin suddenly looked straight at Chen Xingze, and Chen Xingze was stung by something contained in that gaze, as if he had a premonition.

"You ask me what's wrong? I also want to ask what's wrong with you, how can you watch such disgusting things?"

Chen Xingze was stunned.

Life will not be peaceful forever.

The years of ignorance will eventually end, in the way you hope, or in the way you don't want.

That was the first time Chen Xingze quarreled with You Xiaolin, the first time he spoke to him in a stern voice, and the first time he didn't caress, but grabbed his arm with unbreakable strength.

It was also the first time she shed tears in front of him.

"Say it again?" Chen Xingze's voice trembled with anger, "Who are you calling disgusting? Say it again!"

You Xiaolin was not to be outdone, just like when correcting Chen Xingze's wrong questions on weekdays. "Why would you watch this kind of thing? It's so disgusting that I can't eat for a few days. You don't go to school every day to figure out what to do. What should you do if your parents and your teacher see these things?" You Xiaolin was also very excited. Speech is extremely fast. "Don't worry, I've already broken and thrown the disc away, don't mess around with me in the future!"

Chen Xingze was stunned.

He could not shed tears, and turned his head away.When he saw a car passing by on the street, he suddenly remembered the plot in the movie. If he died in an accident like Jack, would You Xiaolin regret it?Would he regret saying such hurtful things to him now?

"Don't watch this kind of stuff anymore, or—"

"Apologize."

"what?"

Chen Xingze looked at the busy traffic on the street, and said in a low voice, "I ask you to apologize to me."

"Chen Xingze?" You Xiaolin didn't seem to understand what he meant, and said worriedly, "Don't do this again, you always go sideways like this, I'm very worried about you."

Chen Xingze felt that he couldn't stay any longer, otherwise he would definitely faint here.

He hailed a taxi to go home.

There were neon lights outside the car window, You Xiaolin was chasing after him, shouting something, Chen Xingze closed his eyes.

Chen Xingze had been ill for a while, with demons added to his body, and a high fever that persisted.Wu Xingzhi was so anxious that he took him around to see doctors, but he never recovered.In the end, the high fever turned into pneumonia, and Chen Xingze was admitted to the hospital.He is sensitive to erythromycin, and he vomits non-stop after each injection, can't eat anything, and loses a lot of weight in a few days.

Later, Wu Xingzhi accidentally told him that someone had been calling home asking for news about him.

"Who?"

"You Xiaolin, your best friend."

Chen Xingze contacted Zhang Yao to inquire about the situation. Zhang Yao said that You Xiaolin was in a bad state recently and failed the important mock exams. The teacher told him many times.

Chen Xingze was lying on the hospital bed, the blue sky and white clouds were outside the window, and the birds were singing and the flowers were fragrant.

In the same beautiful weather, he went to find You Xiaolin again.

"I'm sorry before, I shouldn't have sent you that kind of thing."

He once asked himself how much he could do to You Xiaolin.

"I just looked at it very fresh, so I thought I'd show it to you."

He felt he could die for him.

"I just realized it now. Fortunately, you threw it away. I'm also afraid of being known."

Since death is okay, then it shouldn't be a big deal.

Chen Xingze was heartbroken, and wanted to chat with the most ordinary voice.He's not quite used to it yet, but he believes that one day he will.

"I was scared to death. I really thought you were bewitched. I can't even read the books recently." You Xiaolin said with a smile, "It's fine, don't do this in the future."

"Hey, um."

That day Chen Xingze understood one thing. Faced with the same thing, different people may have completely opposite feelings. No one can easily determine who is right and who is wrong.If he died unexpectedly, You Xiaolin should regret it, but that was not the regret he wanted.He can be Jack, but You Xiaolin can never be Ennis.

Maybe it's because he realized it later, Chen Xingze thought to himself on the way back, when he found out that the movie was not allowed to be released in China in an Internet cafe, when he searched all over the city and couldn't find a store selling this CD Shouldn't you understand something when