On the Collapse of a Fantasy Writer's World View

Ever since Tang Xiaochuan and Tao Huai'an got CP fans for no reason, this group of CP fans has grown stronger day by day. As a popular young writer with tens of millions of fans, Tao Huai'an is quite low-key in his love life, let alone a scandal object Well, there are not even many friends who interact with each other often. They are quite high-altitude flowers, but fans are heartbroken. Now there are some signs of ambiguity. Of course, fans are very excited, and naturally they have CP fans. plant something.

After the photos of Tao Huaian and other men feeding each other in the restaurant came out, many CP fans were very disappointed. A group of people lost their fans, and the CP circle gradually fell into a downturn. It was not until the official release of the list of participating members in "If You Are the One" that the CP circle finally recovered.

Of course, there are also some people who wildly speculate that the previous plagiarism reversal incident between Tang Xiaochuan and Zhanjian Tianya, which was caused by Tao Huaian, was just to promote this show, but it still can't stop the big wave of CP fans. Shouting "they must have an affair" and jumping back into the pit.

Tang Xiaochuan scrolled through Weibo silently for a while, and then he couldn't help but sigh in his heart, these people have so much imagination, it would be a pity not to write novels!

At this moment, the little hamster who had been lying on Tang Xiaochuan's lap suddenly said softly: "... Tomorrow, I want to go back to see my mother for the last time, and then I will be cut off from the last trace of contact with this world." , I can do what I want to do with peace of mind."

Tang Xiaochuan paused for a moment, then nodded with a heavy heart.

"Why is your expression so heavy? I'm going to cultivate immortality, not reincarnation. It's a good thing. Maybe I'm very talented, and I'll reach the pinnacle of life from then on, just like the protagonist in your novel."

"Come on, it's not bad to be the protagonist, not to be cannon fodder."

"Aren't the protagonists in the novel all just ordinary people like me?"

"Grassroots and waste wood have long been out of fashion."

"Maybe I'm special! I'm a boy chosen by God!"

……

Early the next morning, Tang Xiaochuan put the hamster possessed by Shi Youjia into his pocket, and set off towards Shi Youjia's house again with Tao Huaian.

Tao Huai'an used an invisibility spell, and made another trick, and the two of them, a hamster, quietly broke into Shi Youjia's house.

Shi Youjia's house is very big, and there are many rooms. They turned left and right for a long time, and finally came to Shi's mother's room.

The doors and windows of Mama Shi's room were closed, and it was pitch black, and a black figure curled up in a ball rose up on the luxurious big bed.

Shi Youjia lay in Tang Xiaochuan's pocket, stared at the black figure for a long time, and then scratched Tang Xiaochuan with his little paw, indicating that they could leave.

After Tang Xiaochuan and Tao Huaian left Mama Shi's room, they immediately signaled Tao Huaian to open a barrier to block the sound, and then he asked Shi Youjia in disbelief, "That's it? You really just looked at your mother and left? "If you say you only look at one side, do you really only look at one side?

Shi Youjia was silent for a while, and then said with a wry smile: "Otherwise? With my current state, even if I told her that I was back, she would not believe it, right? And even if I could meet her again in human form, what would I do?" Explain the ins and outs of all this? Why don't you take a quiet look and leave after reading it, and let her think that I am really missing... It's just that disappearance is not death, so let her keep it in mind."

Tang Xiaochuan was right when he thought about it, Shi Youjia has already turned into a hamster, how can Mother Shi believe that this hamster is her son?Even if Mother Shi is eager to have a child and really believes that this hamster is her son, how will Shi Youjia explain why he turned into a hamster?The twists and turns in the middle are also very complicated and cannot be explained clearly.

He subconsciously cast a small look at Tao Huai'an for help and asked, "Is there any way to temporarily change him back to human form without making his mother suspicious?"

Tao Huaian paused, and said, "I can give him a trick to make him appear human in the eyes of others, but the trick is just an illusion, and he still has no substance when touched by someone."

Tang Xiaochuan nodded: "This should be fine."

Shi Youjia paused, a little embarrassed: "Thank you."

"Why are you polite between us! And this is already your last time..." Tang Xiaochuan sighed, "Have you really made up your mind?"

Shi Youjia looked calm: "I have made up my mind."

Tang Xiaochuan touched the little hamster's head reassuringly, but said nothing.

After Tao Huaian cast a blind eye on Shi Youjia, he and Tang Xiaochuan watched Shi Youjia enter Shi's mother's room, and then they turned back to the corridor, leaving a private space for the mother and son.

Tang Xiaochuan sighed, and asked Tao Huaian with a troubled face: "That guy can obviously return to his original life. Although Ji Ge may be a bit troublesome, it is not impossible. Is it really okay now? Let He abandoned everything, even his loved ones..."

Tao Huaian glanced at Tang Xiaochuan, and said calmly, "This is his own choice."

"I know," Tang Xiaochuan paused, "I'm afraid he's just acting impulsively, after all, it's impossible for anyone to accept his mother for a while... cheating on marriage, being someone else's mistress, and wearing a cuckold for his father, No one can easily accept that the father who has been called since he was a child is not his own father, and that the person his mother cheated on is his own father... I am afraid that he just made this choice impulsively."

Tao Huaian said: "He is an adult and should be responsible for his choice."

Tang Xiaochuan struggled for a while, and then dragged Tao Huaian back: "Let's take a look, just quietly."

Tao Huaian shook his head helplessly, and followed Tang Xiaochuan back to Mama Shi's room.

At this moment, Shi Youjia, who stood at the foot of Mama Shi's bed and hesitated for a long time, finally made up his mind, walked to Mama Shi's bedside lightly, and called out softly: "Mom..."

His voice was very soft, but Mama Shi seemed to have a feeling in the dark, opened her eyes all of a sudden, and sat up from the bed.

The moment she saw Shi Youjia standing at the head of the bed, mother Shi burst into tears: "Youjia...youjia...you are finally back..."

Seeing this, Shi Youjia, who was still hesitant to move forward, immediately took a step forward and knelt down on Mama Shi's bedside: "Mom, I'm back."

"Youjia!" Mother Shi stretched out her hand excitedly to touch Shi Youjia's face, but Shi Youjia hid for a while, and her hand froze in mid-air, "What's wrong? Why doesn't Youjia let mom touch it? Let mom touch it Touch you, mom hasn't seen you for a long time, I miss you so much..."

Shi Youjia pursed her lips, and changed the subject: "Mom, you have to take good care of yourself in the future, don't stay up late, go to bed early, don't patronize work, work and rest, eat more fruits and vegetables, and exercise more..."

"Youjia, what do you mean?" Shi's mother listened, and suddenly felt that something was wrong. She reached out to touch Shi Youjia again, but Shi Youjia avoided it again, "Youjia, what are you doing?" What's wrong?"

Shi Youjia was silent for a long time, and then said: "I'm going to a far away place, and I probably won't be able to accompany you in the future."

"Where are you going? Why are you going?" Mother Shi showed pain on her face, she had obviously noticed something, "Why can't you stay?"

"Go to a place far, far away," Shi Youjia sighed, "I won't be by your side in the future, you have to take care of yourself."

"Is this a dream..." Mother Shi looked dazed, "This must be a dream, are you entrusting it to me?"

"Yes, this is a dream," Shi Youjia sighed again, "I'm leaving soon... immediately."

"Can't you stay?" Mama Shi pleaded.

Shi Youjia looked at Mama Shi on the bed with a very complicated expression. It was only a few days since he disappeared, but Mama Shi was haggard as if she had become another person. Daquan seemed to have changed from the always radiant beauty to an ordinary middle-aged woman.

However, these changes are all because of him.

He felt a pain in his heart, and almost nodded and agreed to stay, but thinking of the mess of Ji's family, he couldn't nod easily, even if he could pretend to know nothing and return to Ji's house, how could Ji Ge easily Let him go?What's more, he couldn't accept his true identity and his biological father at all.

When he thought that the reason why the stepfather he had always admired was so kind to him was because of guilt towards him or mixed with some more complicated and subtle emotions, he felt disappointed like falling into an ice cellar. What his mother had done...he felt endless disappointment.

He has no way to hate his mother, so he can only run away.

But seeing his mother's haggard look at this moment, he couldn't abandon everything as easily as he imagined.

"mom……"

Shi Youjia was silent for a while, and suddenly his brain became hot, and he blurted out: "Do you want to go with me?"

Mother Shi, who was bursting into tears, was taken aback for a moment: "...Where...where are you going?"

"Go to a place far away, far away from here," Shi Youjia became impulsive, and continued, "We can leave everything here and go to a place that has nothing to do with this place at all. No matter what the Ji family, the Zhang family and the Li family, we..."

Mother Shi stared blankly at Shi Youjia, she fell into silence.

"Mom, let's go together..." Shi Youjia continued to persuade, "We can go to a place where there is no dispute with the world and leave everything here..."

Mama Shi was silent for a long time before she spoke with difficulty: "Youjia, what are you talking about?"

"Mom?" Shi Youjia was puzzled, "Let's get out of here! Let's get out of Ji's house!"

"Why do you want to leave?" Mother Shi shook her head, "This place is very good... Here we can live comfortably and don't have to worry about life. Why should we leave?"

Shi Youjia froze for a moment: "Mom? What are you talking about?"

"I'm telling the truth," Shi's mother clenched her fists, "over the years, if it wasn't for Ji's family, I, a single woman with one child, wouldn't be able to survive... Now we can finally enter Ji's family in a legitimate way , how can we go? We can't go!"

Shi Youjia blinked, as if he couldn't believe his ears.

"What's wrong with being here? We can have no worries about food and clothing, enjoy endless glory and wealth, and you don't have to work hard to earn money. We can live well..." Mama Shi continued to mutter .

"Even if it's for me," Shi Youjia pursed her lips, and looked at Mama Shi pleadingly, "Even if it's for me, leave here with me, okay?"

Mama Shi's eyes flickered: "Youjia, what are you talking about?"

Shi Youjia lowered his eyes, and after a while, he sighed: "...I understand, I won't force you."

He was silent for a long time, and finally took a deep look at Mama Shi on the bed, and finally managed to squeeze out a sentence: "Take care of yourself."

"Youjia? Where are you going?" Mother Shi noticed that Shi Youjia seemed to have left, and immediately panicked, "Where are you going to leave mother? Don't leave! Stay!"

Shi Youjia shook his head, turned around, and turned his back to Mother Shi.

Mother Shi reached out to pull Shi Youjia, this time Shi Youjia did not hide, but her hand still did not touch Shi Youjia's body, but directly passed through Shi Youjia's body.

"Youjia?"

Mama Shi looked down at her hands in disbelief.

"As I said just now, this is just a dream..."

Shi Youjia sighed.

Mother Shi raised her head and looked at Shi Youjia pleadingly: "Youjia, don't go, stay with mother."

Shi Youjia sighed, turned and left without looking at Mama Shi again.

Mother Shi hurriedly got out of bed to chase Shi Youjia, but when she chased out the door with bare feet, she found that there was nothing outside the door, not even a shadow in the long corridor.

She suddenly fell to the door, perhaps realizing something, she finally burst into tears.

Shi Youjia didn't go far away, he stood in Tao Huaian's enchantment, silently watched Mama Shi who was sitting at the door of the room crying bitterly, and slowly clenched his fists.

Tang Xiaochuan and Tao Huai'an looked at each other, neither of them said anything, they just stood quietly and watched Shi Youjia see Shi's mother crying bitterly.

Shi's mother didn't know how long she had been crying, Shi Youjia kept clenching her teeth, just when he couldn't help but took a step forward as if he wanted to get out of the barrier, there was a sudden sound of footsteps at the end of the corridor.

"Auntie, what are you doing sitting here? It's cold, be careful of catching a cold."

Ji Ge's voice sounded.

Mother Shi glanced at Ji Ge with red eyes, and asked in a hoarse voice: "...Is there still no news about Youjia?"

Ji Ge lowered his eyes and said in a gentle voice, "...not yet."

Mother Shi lowered her head and couldn't help muttering: "Why haven't you...why haven't you..."

"Auntie, don't worry, we will find him."

Ji Ge comforted Mama Shi with a gentle voice.

"It's been so long... still no news of him..."

Mother Shi didn't seem to hear Ji Ge's words, she was still muttering to herself: "There is still no news about him..."

"Auntie, go back to your room and rest first, in case he hasn't come back, your body will collapse..."

"I saw Youjia just now!" Mother Shi's emotions suddenly became agitated. She looked up at Ji Ge and said excitedly, "I saw him just now! He's back! I won't admit it! Then It is my son! The son I have raised for more than twenty years!"

Ji Ge asked calmly: "He came back? Just now?"

"Yes! He's back! He asked me to take good care of myself, and asked me if I want to go with him..." Mother Shi cried bitterly, "I have nothing but this son! If he is gone, I have nothing left!"

Ji Ge's complexion finally changed a little, but those emotions were very short-lived, almost fleeting, and it was hard for ordinary people to notice, let alone Mother Shi who was too sad.

"Auntie, you may have hallucinations, or you may have had a dream. Don't worry, Yujia will be fine."

"Dream? That's right, it was just a dream! Youjia will be fine!" Mama Shi looked dazed.

"Go back to your room and rest first," Ji Ge said gently, "If there is any news about Youjia, I will definitely let you know as soon as possible."

Mother Shi was silent for a long time before she nodded with a dazed expression, and then staggered back into the room with bare feet.

After Mama Shi lay back on the bed, Ji Ge gently closed the door for Mama Shi.

After closing the door, Ji Ge stood at the door of Mama Shi's room for a while, and after a while, he turned and left.

Although he knew that the barrier could isolate all sounds, Tang Xiaochuan, who was standing in the barrier at this time, still dared not vent his anger. There was no way, Ji Ge's aura was too strong.

It wasn't until Ji Ge walked away that he quietly breathed a sigh of relief, and at the same time took a look at Shi Youjia.

Shi Youjia's expression was very complicated. After Ji Ge's back disappeared, his eyes turned back to Mama Shi's closed door.

Tang Xiaochuan hesitated for a moment, but still did not speak, and gave Shi Youjia some time to calm down. He and Tao Huaian also heard the conversation between Shi Youjia and Shi Mama just now. Shi Youjia seemed to want to take Shi Mama with him, but Shi Mama refused and chose to continue. Stay at Ji's house...

Looking at Shi Youjia's expression, Tang Xiaochuan scratched his head and struggled for a long time. He couldn't help turning his head to look at Tao Huaian, and motioned Tao Huaian with his eyes to ask him what to do now.

Tao Huaian received Tang Xiaochuan's gaze, nodded his head, and suddenly asked Shi Youjia: "Do you hate Ji Ge?"

Shi Youjia, who was staring at the door of Mother Shi's room, was taken aback for a moment. He obviously didn't expect Tao Huaian to ask him such a question. After hesitating for a while, he asked back: "I hate him? Why should I hate him?"

"Because he killed you." Tao Huaian said flatly.

"But the one who killed me in the real sense was not him, but that fish..." Shi Youjia lowered his eyes.

"You are avoiding the problem," Tao Huaian pointed out calmly, "Although your death was not directly caused by him, the fish was unintentional, but Ji Ge did it on purpose."

Shi Youjia was speechless for a while, and after a long silence, he sighed: "I don't know."

Should he hate Ji Ge?

Shi Youjia didn't know.

When he first moved into the Ji family's mansion, he thought that Ji Ge, the authentic young master of the Ji family, would make things difficult for him, or he would be indifferent and ignorant, but when Ji Ge really appeared, he overturned all his beliefs. Guess, Ji Ge is a really self-cultivated young master, and he is very polite and considerate in his dealings with others. Even if it is the first time we meet, Ji Ge left a good impression on Shi Youjia when we met for the first time. After getting along for a while, Ji Ge perfectly fits all Shi Youjia's imagination of a good brother.

Shi Youjia could feel that Ji Ge at that time really regarded him as his younger brother, and he also sincerely regarded Ji Ge as his own brother. Unfortunately, there are always so many changes in this world.

He thought of Ji Ge's pain when he strangled his neck fiercely on the cruise ship, and also remembered Ji Ge's painful expression when he strangled his neck... He still didn't know whether he should hate Ji Ge or not.

Tang Xiaochuan looked at Shi Youjia's changing expression, and finally couldn't help but said: "Are you stupid! Although your mother did something sorry for Ji Ge, why should you be blamed for your mother's mistakes? Doing things alone, do you still think that the debts of the mother and the son will not be repaid?"

Shi Youjia smiled wryly: "I don't know..."

Tao Huaian glanced at Shi Youjia, and said: "If you have resentment towards him, it becomes an obsession, and you always hold it in your heart. If things go on like this, it will be detrimental to your practice. If you really want to embark on this path, you must cut off this Obsession, break cause and effect, break the fate of the world."

Shi Youjia froze for a moment: "What do you mean?"

"The literal meaning is to let you take revenge and complain while you have grudges!" Tang Xiaochuan turned his head to look at Tao Huaian, and blinked, "Right?"

Tao Huaian smiled lightly: "It's almost the same."

"You asked me...to kill him?" Shi Youjia gasped suddenly.

"Do you hate him?" Tao Huaian asked without answering.

Shi Youjia smiled wryly: "I don't know if I should hate him...then what should I do?"

"How to do it? You have to ask yourself," Tao Huaian glanced at Shi Youjia, "Do whatever you want."

Shi Youjia looked confused: "If you say that, I don't know what to do."

"You can start thinking now."

"It's okay, you think about it slowly, anyway, we have plenty of time, we can always be here with you to think about it."

While Tang Xiaochuan was talking, he subconsciously wanted to reach out and pat Shi Youjia on the shoulder, but his hand was also missed.

Shi Youjia's eyes were suddenly a little sad, and it wasn't until this moment that he realized again that he was dead.

He was already dead, and his soul was lonely and helpless. He could only temporarily possess a hamster, and finally took on a human form, but it was just an illusion that could not be seen or touched...

And the person who caused all this is Ji Ge.

Shi Youjia stood at the door of Shi's mother's room and did not leave for a long time. He fell into deep thought until night fell.