old cosmic particle

——I never asked God to give me light, just like I never said I love you.

He closed the book with this sentence and looked out the window. A group of geese were flying to the south. He thought he should wrap his thoughts on the feet of the geese, like every Chinese poet who misses his hometown.

01

Mo Shiguang followed his cronies to Tiantianpo, biting a cigarette and looking around at the small village that smelled of cow dung.This was his first visit to Sky Slope, and as a boy who had just entered high school, it was his first step out of society, at least he thought so.

It was September, and the sun was scorching hot and scorching the earth. The scorching sun shone directly on his naked limbs, stimulating the sweat glands.After a while, the back was soaked.

"Hey, why don't you go up? It's so hot." He yelled, and crushed out the cigarette butt.

As soon as he finished speaking, the people in front got into a five-story concrete building.The first floor of this building is for playing billiards and pushing Pai Gow, and there are many shirtless male creatures inside.Hitting the ball with a cue, boom, someone scored one; the small table was surrounded by people, "Fuck!" The dealer paid out.

The second layer is their destination.They chose a small, empty room with a mahjong machine inside.

"Who will fight?" Liu Zhengyou, a tall and slightly darker man, asked among them. There were six of them.

"It's my first time here, so of course I'll call." Mo Shiguang said, while finding a seat that he thought had better Feng Shui.

The dealer was a Mohawk - Su Weiyi. He pressed a button, and the dice spun vigorously.

"It won't be discovered?" Mo Shiguang asked.

"No, no." Liu Zhengyou said, "Music and sports are all about in the afternoon, so I won't be discovered by the head teacher, let alone you, the head of the class, are here, so what are you afraid of?"

"Sports committee member, what a fart!" Mo Shiguang said.

A new round has started again, and Mo Shiguang has won a large sum of money so far.The electric fan in this room was whirling, with very little power, and the steaming air was like a pot of sticky hot porridge, and he was still smoking hard, creating a miasma. Mo Shiguang frowned, and he was a little dizzy—even though he was also creating miasma.

"Which one of you will hit me?" Mo Shiguang stood up and said, "I'm a little dizzy, I'm going out to get some air."

"Want to run after winning? No way no way!"

"It's okay if I go out to catch my breath? Otherwise, it's fine, An Xiuwen, you help me fight. If I lose, it's mine, and if I win, it's yours."

An Xiuwen said, "Really? Don't lie to me." Then he sat down in Mo Shiguang's seat.

Ou Huiye said, "Flowers on the bars."

An Xiuwen said, "Fuck me!"

Mo Shiguang stayed away from the stuffy room, took a big breath of fresh air, and felt much more comfortable.

He was lying on the balcony, smoking a cigarette, scanning the various pedestrians downstairs.Most of them are minors, small, dark skinned, and so thin that the protruding skeleton can be seen through the clothes.They either walked towards the opposite building or came up here.The first floor opposite is also playing billiards. A group of people around the counter are pushing Pai Gow, and some are playing ground dragon.

"Looking for someone to play mahjong?" Someone behind him asked him.

He turned around and said, "No, it's too hot inside, it's better to come out to cool down. Boss, you should put more electric fans inside, otherwise it will be as hot as a steamer."

"I'm not free recently." The boss smiled.

"What does the boss do above?" He asked again.

"Internet cafe."

So he went upstairs.The room is not big, with seven or eight LCD screen computers neatly arranged, and the owner of the Internet cafe sits in a position closest to the exit to play games.There are not many people online, only two or three boys his age playing League of Legends.A dusty ceiling fan whirled overhead.

He asked for the one closest to the window, next to the owner of the Internet cafe.The fee is not expensive and no ID card is required, and there is occasional wind blowing outside the window.This is life, he thought, and it would be nice to have a cold soda.

He clicked on the zombie game, and when he heard the howling of zombies coming from the headset, his blood suddenly became hot.Bang bang, the machine gun penetrated the zombie's chest and head, and blood spattered everywhere.He quickly cleared the level, and suddenly felt a little boring.He thought, it would be more fun to play online with a bunch of people.

"Awesome." The owner of the Internet cafe said leaning over.

"Do you want to play two games online?" he said.

After all, he is an unfamiliar person, and his cooperation with the owner of the Internet cafe is ridiculously low. If he wants to go this way, the owner of the Internet cafe will go there; ;He was about to run out of health, and the owner of the Internet cafe didn't come to treat him, and his first aid kit had been used up.Because the owner of the Internet cafe joined, they have been killed by zombies six or seven times.

Resisting the urge to smash the keyboard, he exited the game angrily.

"Oh? Why don't you play anymore?" The boss looked puzzled.

Mo Shiguang stared at the display screen, and it took him a long time to say, "Go to the toilet."

The owner of the Internet cafe is a young man, not in his twenties.He is very handsome, and girls often come here to surf the Internet, and they always strike up a conversation with him, and he also enjoys it.Occasionally he would invite these girls to supper, but he didn't choose any of them to be his girlfriend, even though some of these girls were pretty good looking.

Mo Shiguang is back.

The boss asked, "Are you still playing a few games?"

"Stop playing, I'll masturbate."

"What's your name? Let's play together next time?" The boss said again, like striking up a conversation.

Playing with your mother, Mo Shiguang choked the last sentence in his throat. "Mo Shiguang."

"My name is Shenzhou Six."

spacecraft?This word suddenly appeared in Mo Shiguang's mind.

The boss said again: "I think you are very good at playing games, what is your LoL rank?"

"Drill one." Mo Shiguang said.

"Oh, game genius."

Mo Shiguang felt that there might be something wrong with this person's head.

"Mo Shiguang, you have been breathing for too long, to make oxygen?" Liu Zhengyou said, finding out the whole thing. "As soon as Mo Shiguang came, I touched the big one, haha, you can't leave."

An Xiuwen looked at Mo Shiguang pitifully and said, "It's over..."

An Xiuwen is only 12 years old this year, but he is in the first year of high school.He studied a few years earlier than his peers, and skipped a grade in elementary school, so at a young age, he was going to fight for the test papers of the college entrance examination with the young people in the fifteenth and sixteenth.

As soon as Mo Shiguang came to the table, he made a big pair of flowers, two of them, and got back more than half of the money with just one move.An Xiuwen laughed so hard that he couldn't close his mouth.

"Fuck!" Liu Zhengyou scolded.

"You must have stepped on dog shit." Su Weiyi said, throwing the money over.

Mo Shiguang stuffed the money into the drawer provided by the mahjong machine, and said quite proudly, "Handsome has preferential treatment."

After fighting all afternoon, Mo Shiguang finally decided to go to evening self-study, and only An Xiuwen went with him.The rest ran to push Pai Gow.He won money, counted it, and probably won three or four hundred.After self-study next night, he invited An Xiuwen to go to the night market to have some skewers, and he also called three girls who had a good time.

They ordered a bunch of BBQ and a dozen beers.An Xiuwen held the roasted pork loin in one hand, and a glass full of wine in the other, wishing Mo Shiguang a long life better than Nanshan and giving birth to a son early, and Mo Shiguang almost burst out laughing.In the end, Mo Shiguang snatched the wine glass from An Xiuwen's hand and told him to eat meat as much as he wanted and not drink.

So Mo Shiguang played one-on-three, fifteen-twenty, dice rolling, gangster punches, whatever.One of the women proposed to play Truth or Dare, but Mo Shiguang said that there were too few people and it would be nothing.

"Isn't this a gaming genius?" Someone said, sitting opposite Mo Shiguang unceremoniously.

Mo Shiguang's head was a little dizzy, "Shenzhou [-]? Come, come, have a drink or two."

"I still have people here." Shenzhou VI said.

Mo Shiguang waved his hand, "Let's go together, ask the boss to set up a table."

The two tables were combined into one, and the number of people changed from five to eight. The three girls were so happy, all the handsome guys came.

"Who are these? Mo Shiguang? Your friend? Huh?" An Xiuwen gnawed on a chicken wing and yelled at Mo Shiguang, afraid that Mo Shiguang could not hear clearly in this noisy place.

Shen Liu laughed loudly, "It's my friend."

"I don't know you." An Xiuwen was drunk.

"I'll meet you later."

"Okay, Brother Guang won't let me drink, drink it yourself, let me eliminate the barbecue for you." When he said this, An Xiuwen still had a piece of chicken butt in his mouth.

When the supper was over, Mo Shiguang's head almost exploded.One of the friends of Shenzhou VI said that beer is not enjoyable, so he insisted on drinking liquor.One and two both went to Mo Shiguang to fight for wine, and even for baijiu.

Mo Shiguang could still walk, but the two friends of Shenzhou VI couldn't. The man clamoring to drink liquor and a young man with beige hair vomited half to death.An Xiuwen supported Mo Shiguang, not forgetting to pack his roasted wings.The three girls went home before eleven o'clock, and before they left, they asked for the phone numbers of Shen Liu and San.An Xiuwen rolled his eyes, showing no restraint, and was kicked a few times as a result.

They drank late, and it was already three o'clock in the morning when Mo Shiguang returned home. Fortunately, his parents often didn't come home, otherwise a lecture would be inevitable.With a terrible headache, he fell asleep on the sofa.

Shenliu insisted on sending him home. Shenliu said that he could not drive when he was drunk, and he had to carry An Xiuwen. He couldn't take responsibility for the two of them going over the ditch together later.Along the way, Mo Shiguang forced out the thought of "Am I familiar with you?" from his aching head.In fact, Mo Shiguang's consciousness is still very clear, he just has a splitting headache, he doesn't quite understand the principle.

"Where is your home?"

"...Jiangbin Garden Unit [-]," Mo Shiguang tugged at his hair, "Ninth floor, left."

When God Six helped him up the stairs, he said he could go up by himself, so God Six let go, and then he fell.Shenzhou VI smiled and helped him again, this time he didn't say anything, his head hurt too much.Life would be better than death, he thought.

Mo Shiguang slept until noon, and when he went to school in the afternoon, he was called to the corridor by the head teacher.

"What's the matter with you?" the class teacher said, with a bad tone, "Where did you go in the morning?"

"over slept."

The class teacher glanced at him with some disgust. "Look at your monthly test scores, counting down. When you entered high school, weren't you in the top [-] in the county? It's only been a month since school started, and you were late every three days, skipping classes, sleeping in class, talking and playing on your phone. Huh? What the hell are you doing? Something? You didn’t do that in junior high school, did you?”

"That's how I was in junior high school." Mo Shiguang muttered, and the head teacher was so angry that he didn't hear a word.

Mo Shiguang was fined to sweep the floor for a week.