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Zuo Ge unknowingly let go of You Xu's hand, and the first thought in Zuo Ge's mind was that Li Maomao really couldn't stand You Xu's investigation, and finally handed over those mails to You Xu.Then Zuo Ge thought about what he should say.What are you talking about?Nothing seems right to say.

In the email exchange between myself and Lin Yan, there was a deep discussion about You Xu's decision to keep Xiaobing.The conclusion drawn is just as You Xu said.Back then, it was indeed because of You Xu's entangled psychology that the matter was further complicated.In the situation back then, Zuo Ge was ignorant, Lin Yan was at a loss, and You Xu was strong, so the matter was temporarily resolved in a rather deviant way.Looking back now, it is really easy to see that You Xu made those tangled decisions that were wrong, but these were all "afterthoughts", and none of the three of them could think of them back then.

There is no need to judge whether the decision You Xu made back then was right or wrong.Lin Yan and herself never thought of blaming You Xu.You Xu insisted on keeping Xiaobing, which made things more complicated. For this point, Lin Yan and her own understanding were unprecedentedly consistent, and they both thought it would be better not to expose it to You Xu.Once You Xu finds out that he has to bear the responsibility, all the faults are indeed You Xu's fault, and You Xu will go on this road more firmly.

But what could You Xu do at that time?You Xu wants to be nice to everyone, to protect Lin Yan's reputation, and to save Xiaobing's life. To Zuo Ge, you have to say it negatively. If You Xu didn't do this back then, Zuo Ge would always be that muddleheaded Zuo Ge.If You Xu wants to be good to everyone, he is destined to make such a tangled decision.

Now, You Xu said it himself. "I'm sorry." You Xu looked at Zuo Ge, and said the words of apology seriously.

"Xiao Xu, you don't need to apologize. You are not to blame for this matter. It doesn't mean that the person who made the decision should bear full responsibility... We also acquiesced in this decision, and the responsibility should be shared." Zuo Ge also looked at You Xu seriously stated his thoughts.

"Us?!" You Xu repeated Zuo Ge's words softly, with a wry smile on his face, "You two really know me better than I thought." You Xu turned his gaze to the floor, and gave another wry smile , "Zuo Ge, take some time to go and see Lin Yan together."

As soon as You Xu finished speaking, Zuo Ge scolded himself in his heart, and he guessed cleverly that You Xu read the email, but he accidentally revealed his words.

"Some things, I should tell you two. You have said so much behind my back, you should listen to me." You Xu looked from the floor to the wall, and then to the window. No longer looking at Zuo Ge, "Maomao gave me the email, I don't have the guts to read it."

"I don't want you to watch it. Lin Yan doesn't want you to watch it either." Zuo Ge looked at You Xu's profile, and a wry smile appeared on his face, "But you already guessed what we said, you already know what we think of you Do."

"Yeah." You Xu nodded, and said with a wry smile, "You two have worked hard to let me live in the brilliance and martial arts that I think I am."

"It's not like that." Zuo Ge immediately denied.

"Zuo Lianlian, don't worry, I haven't finished talking yet." You Xu looked at Zuo Ge's anxious expression and smiled, "The inside story of the two of you falling out over the color of the cake is also good, it exposed my stubbornness back then. Whether it was a stupid decision to keep Xiaobing, or your ambition to heal my heart disease step by step, I should have guessed it all. Is there any more?"

"Yes. We hope that you will 'let go' and hope that your heart will be 'at ease'." Zuo Ge walked straight into You Xu's gaze, looked up at him, and told him the words word by word.

"I'm sorry, I may not be able to do it now." You Xu pursed his lips after speaking.

"It doesn't matter if we can't do it now, Xiao Xu, we have plenty of time, just take it slowly and take this matter to heart." Zuo Ge said and raised his hand, wanting to touch You Xu's face.

You Xu saw Zuo Ge's hand approaching, and slowly backed away half a step, "Go wash up, you have to get up early to cook tomorrow."

You Xu obviously changed the subject, Zuo Ge had no choice but to take back his awkwardly hanging hand and nodded.Almost at the same time, the two turned around, one went to the bedroom, and the other went to the bathroom to wash up.

The annual leave of the sick and injured You Xu was quickly approved.You Xu, who is recuperating at home, sends You Xiaobing to school in the morning, picks You up from school on time in the afternoon, plays with You Xiaobing at night, and reads storybooks to You Xiaobing while sleeping.This kind of You Xu was highly praised by You Xiaobing. While kissing him, he said that he liked the father who picked her up on time the most, and the father who accompanied her every day.

Zuo Ge saw that he was envious and jealous, so he went up to her and asked her, do you like Uncle Zuo who cooks so hard every day?You Xiaobing pouted and said, "If your food tastes as good as Dad's, I'll like you too." Zuo Ge was stabbed hard, but his heart was beautiful.

It seems to be like this these past few days. When I came out after finishing my work and saw the two of them being intimate together, I was envious and helpless, as if being stabbed by their two fathers, and then no matter who among the two fathers called him or called him How about him, he seems to have eaten honey again.Zuo Ge almost couldn't bear it several times, and couldn't help but want to reach out and hug the two of them into his arms.

By Friday night, the weather forecast said that it would be a fine day with light clouds and breezy weather.You Xu told You Xiaobing to pack her own small bag and said that she would go to see her mother tomorrow.You Xiaobing got excited all of a sudden, and stuffed all her beautiful photos and paintings into her bag, and wanted to show her to her mother.Before You Xu ordered to go to Zuo Ge, Zuo Ge took the initiative to say that he would go to the car wash, refuel and get the car ready.

You Xiaobing was coaxed by You Xuxian to go to bed early.The wound on You Xu's hand began to scab, itching and disturbing.You Xu resisted the urge to scratch, flipping through TV channels quickly, waiting for Zuo Ge to come back.I don't know how long it took, but when the sound of a key opening the door sounded, You Xu quickly got up and went to the bedroom.

Zuo Ge opened the door and entered the room, walked to the door of You Xu's bedroom, knocked on the door and said, "Xiao Xu, I'm back."

"Oh." You Xu gently replied to him.

"Have you washed? Do you want me to help you apply the medicine?" Zuo Ge looked at the light coming from the crack in the bedroom door and asked You Xu.

"No, I fixed it myself. I'm already asleep, so you should go to bed early too." You Xu's voice sounded lazy.

Zuo Ge thought not to delay his rest, so he hurried to wash up too.He took the quilt and pillows, put them on the sofa and made them up. After lying down, Zuo Ge looked at the door of You Xu's bedroom and thought: Well, the next goal is to put the floor bed into You Xu's room.

It was at least [-] kilometers to the Xiulinjian Cemetery. The three of them walked not too early. The road in the city was slightly blocked, but it became much smoother after leaving the city.The mountain road is built along the water, and the sound of water flow can be heard along the way.After driving for about two hours, I finally arrived at the cemetery that looks like terraced fields next to the beautiful mountain stream.

The well-planned path can only accommodate one person. You Xiaobing leads the way, You Xu walks in the middle, and Zuo Ge follows behind with a bouquet of flowers.The mountain wind blows along the valley, bringing the fresh taste of the mountain forest.

Zuo Ge looked at You Xu's back, and suddenly felt a little uneasy.

Since the annual leave, or since You Xu apologized to Zuo Ge, You Xu's whole state is a little different from before.Zuo Ge couldn't say exactly what kind of state he was in.At home, when I look back occasionally, I always miss You Xu's gaze.It should have been missed, You Xu has been unwilling to have too much eye contact with Zuo Ge, Zuo Ge understands in his heart.But every time it is "just missed", which has to be said to be interesting.Zuo Ge found out about this matter, and didn't think much about it. After coming here, Zuo Ge suddenly thought about it, and connected those "just missed" with the grave-sweeping incident.He said before that there are some things to say together.You Xu must have thought a lot these days, and today he will talk with himself and Lin Yan.

Zuo Ge's uneasiness didn't come from the unknown, I don't know why, Zuo Ge just vaguely knew what You Xu was going to say.Zuo Ge's uneasiness was for himself, Zuo Ge didn't know if he could accept it with a calm heart.To accept those words from You Xu's mouth.

"It's clean. Mom is very beautiful." You Xiaobing put away the wipes in her hand and said while touching the photo of Lin Yan inlaid on the marble tombstone.

Zuo Ge sent the flower to You Xu, but You Xu didn't pick it up. He glanced at Zuo Ge and said softly, "You can let it go."

Zuo Ge squatted down on one knee and placed the flowers in front of the tombstone.Looking at Lin Yan's smiling face in the photo of the tombstone, inexplicable sadness welled up in her heart, and she gritted her teeth to maintain the expression on her face.

"I was the first to talk to my mother." You Xiaobing raised her hand in a super standard gesture.

According to the rules of their father and mother, the other is not allowed to be present when talking to mother. "Okay, Uncle Zuo and I will go there." You Xu pointed to the intersection where the paths below meet.

"Yeah. Come over quickly, I'm going to whisper to my mother." You Xiaobing took off the small bag on her back while talking.

You Xu walked first, and Zuo Ge followed him to the small intersection.After standing still, both of them looked at You Xiaobing at the same time, watching her take out one after another small things from her bag to talk to her mother, and after a while she jumped up.

"Let's take her out to play together sometime, how about talking to her when she's happy?" You Xu didn't take his eyes off You Xiaobing, and whispered the words to Zuo Ge, let's discuss together.

"I want to take her to a place where she can play in the snow during the Chinese New Year, or go to the beach next summer." Zuo Ge subconsciously stretched the timeline very long.If this is something that must be done, Zuo Ge hopes to slow down, "Xiao Xu, I can wait."

"Not next summer. She will start elementary school in September. If we don't do well, it will affect her study." You Xu rejected Zuo Ge's second proposal, "Chinese New Year is good."

"Yeah." Zuo Ge then asked You Xu, "Xiao Xu, where do you want to go?"

"I don't care, you can discuss it with Xiaobing." After You Xu finished speaking, he saw You Xiaobing waving to him, and turned around and said to Zuo Ge, "Let's go together."

Zuo Ge felt that his feet were heavy, he paused for a while before he started to walk, and followed You Xu back to Lin Yan's cemetery.On the way, I met You Xiaobing, and You Xiaobing said with a flushed face, "Dad, you can't tell my mother about me."

"Yes." You Xu was unequivocal.

"That one must be sued." You Xiaobing hugged You Xu's leg.

You Xu said: "If you don't let go, you will sue them all."

You Xiaobing quickly let go, and looked back at You Xu step by step, with a worried expression on his face.Zuo Ge also turned his head to look at You Xiaobing step by step, for fear that she, who was absent-minded, would stumble on the steep path.Zuo Ge didn't feel relieved until You Xiaobing stopped where they were standing just now.Turning around, she was already standing in front of Lin Yan's tombstone.

You Xu adjusted his angle so that he could see Lin Yan and Zuo Ge at the same time.

In a trance, it seems to have returned to the past.Whether it's the door of the dormitory, or a corner of the playground, or even in front of a small stall, the three of them will always stand together like this.The two of them were right in front of him, one on the left and one on the right.Once he decided what to do next, You Xu was always the first to step up, holding Lin Yan's hand on the one hand, and pushing Zuo Ge, who was always a little unhappy, on the other hand, saying to go and walk.

He was also standing like this at this moment, but You Xu could no longer hold Lin Yan's hand.

"Lin Yan, I'm here to see you." You Xu shifted his gaze to the tombstone, and said softly, "There's Zuo Ge."

Zuo Ge looked at You Xu, looked at the tombstone, and finally chose to set his sights on Lin Yan's tombstone like You Xu.

"You must not be surprised, right? I know you are looking forward to us being able to stand together and talk like this." You Xu glanced at Zuo Ge after saying this, and continued: "You are all looking forward to it, except Me. I'm the biggest obstacle in this tripartite talks, sorry."

"Xiao Xu, don't say such things." Zuo Geming knew that it would be better if he didn't speak, but he couldn't help it.

You Xu raised his hand to signal him not to speak, and then said: "I didn't take anything on myself, you all listen to me. First of all, thank you, thank you both for protecting You Xu so much, for liking You Xu so much, for making... You Xu can do whatever you want. Shut up, Zuo Ge." Seeing Zuo Ge open his mouth, You Xu immediately stopped him, "After listening to me, you will know that I don't think as much as you worry about."

Zuo Ge was noncommittal to You Xu's words, and finally kept his mouth shut.

"Then I'm sorry. When things were at their worst, I made the final decision. But don't worry, I won't take it all on me. You two are responsible for the stupid things you two did .” You Xu looked at the tombstone and said this, then looked at Zuo Ge.

Seeing Zuo Ge pursing his lips and nodding, You Xu continued: "Okay, the three of us are all idiots. I will take away the responsibility of forcing you to give birth to Xiaobing and being stubborn and conceited for so many years. Lin Yan took the responsibility The responsibility for bullying Zuo Ge and concealing the cause of this matter from me is taken away. Zuo Ge, Zuo Ge, you put your short-sighted revenge on..." You Xu didn't know how to say this sentence, so he paused.

"Aren't you aware of You Xu's obsession for so many years?" Zuo Ge finished speaking for You Xu, and looked at You Xu with a forced smile on his face and sadness in his eyes.Zuo Ge has always known it in his heart, and You Xu will say so.

"Yes." Seeing the sadness in Zuo Ge's eyes, You Xu squeezed his hands and continued, "Take away our respective responsibilities. Everyone has made mistakes, let us lead our own mistakes, reflect on and continue to live, Live every day well. You can run even with heavy loads, and it’s no big deal if you make mistakes. Zuo Ge, Lin Yan, let’s move forward together from today..."

"It's not wrong for Zuo Ge to be obsessed with You Xu for so many years." Zuo Ge took half a step forward, making You Xu unable to avoid his sight, "This is not wrong. Xiao Xu, don't push me away, please ..."

You Xu was forced by Zuo Ge to take a half step back. After hearing Zuo Ge's words, he suddenly reached out and grabbed Zuo Ge's collar, and said quickly: "Zuo Lianlian doesn't ask me, let me beg you, You came here to be red, not to say nothing, to enter my life, carrying the banner of your love for me, so I have to clarify the things between the three of us, I am wrong, I am a bastard, I admit my mistakes, I correct it, I look forward, I have to change my brain all these years suddenly, because you are here, I can't avoid it, I can only face it.

"I'm really hurting, I'm hurting. I just fought my way through it. I realize I'm an idiot, I'm just now a little more comfortable with being an idiot, and I beg you to stop pushing me to accept it You. Do you know that these are two different things? Don't confuse them.

"Zuo Lianlian, I, You Xu, am not made of iron. I look like a brass and iron bone, but you can't always come to me because of this? I beg you, let me take a breath, okay? "You Xu let go of his hand after speaking, patted Zuo Ge's neckline to help him tidy up, trying to restrain his emotions that were about to lose control, "Do you understand?"

Zuo Ge looked at You Xu, this was You Xu he had never seen before.You Xu always teaches Zuo Ge well, You Xu never shows weakness, You Xu never admits defeat... Now You Xu suppresses his voice and says to himself, please let me take a breath, Zuo Ge loves him.Zuo Ge felt that he had indeed acted too hastily.But Zuo Ge came here with all his eggs in one basket, how could he not be in a hurry?Now that I am anxious, I have pushed You Xu to this point...

Zuo Ge said, "Xiao Xu, let me stay by your side."

You Xu sighed softly, as if he had received an amnesty, the emotions that were on the verge of losing control finally began to subside. He glanced at Zuo Ge and said, "Where do you stay? Can I make a decision? It's up to you."

At this time, the sound of You Xiaobing's footsteps running over came clearly, and Zuo Ge and You Xu both turned their heads to look at the past.You Xiaobing asked aggrievedly, "Do I have to sue my mother for my shortcomings?"