It's not like you can get like in exchange for like

My blind date made my parents very happy. My father who claimed to sever ties with me for the first time let me go home. The father who hadn’t seen him for a long time was even older. The father who used to get angry and chased my legs for two blocks Gradually it became inconvenient, and my broad shoulders began to bend, and my omnipotent father finally became one of the many old people.

That night, my father and I both drank too much.My father started talking about the past, how disobedient I was, how powerful I was, and finally the person my father never mentioned.

"At the beginning, I suspected you and that kid named Bai, then... there is a man who can be like that..."

"The one surnamed Bai is not bad...if it's a girl...it would be nice to be our Chen family's daughter-in-law..."

"It seems that this liking for men...the problem...can be corrected...isn't it changed..."

My dad babbled a lot, and fell asleep while talking, while I opened my eyes, and it was like a movie was playing in my head, all flashing about that surnamed Bai.

I remember when I was with him, I was very wronged. We couldn't hold hands like ordinary couples, and we had to go one after another even when we went on a date.I can only hold his shadow, imagining that I am holding hands with him.Moreover, he has a girlfriend, saying that it is to deceive others.He lied badly, but I wanted to get my shit out of my head then, and I believed it.I broke up with my girlfriend who was so nice to me and I couldn't even give her a reason to break up.I remember that girl crying and wearing makeup that day, yelling at me: "You will regret it!" I didn't believe it at the time, but later I really regretted it, and the regret was a mess.

I lost miserably. I came out to my parents and severed ties with them for him, but when I approached him, I only got news that he was going abroad.Then the next day, the photo of me having sex with Bai Wenbin spread in the school. Of course, I was the only one who was so lewd. The whole school knew that I was gay and pestered Bai Wenbin. Bai Wenbin even tried to avoid me. They all went abroad.In the end, I was persuaded to leave school and home. The whole world betrayed me, my lover, my Bai Wenbin.

Since that day, I have removed the name Bai Wenbin from my heart, leaving no room for blood and flesh.