Gu Nianruochu

The sky in the early morning was gloomy and cloudy, and then it began to drizzle. The rain did not stop until noon, but it became more and more torrential. The feeling of spring was damp and lazy. Can feel the touch and smell of the wet and cold air in the rain curtain.

The medicine Wei Siyuan took had some sleep-inducing side effects. Coupled with the hypnotic weather, he still felt tired after sleeping for more than ten hours in a row. After getting up, he ate a large bowl of porridge and then took the medicine. He simply made salad dressing Mixed canned tuna and made a sandwich for Yin Xu, and then was embraced by Yin Xu who was sleeping, and was ready to sleep again.

Yin Xu loved to sleep and only wore shorts since a long time ago. Now that he is sleeping with Wei Siyuan in his arms, he dislikes his pajamas getting in the way, so he took off his pajamas as well, "Can you take off your pants too?"

Wei Siyuan quickly grabbed his trousers defensively, "It doesn't feel safe to sleep without pants."

Yin Xu glanced at him very cautiously, and suddenly couldn't help laughing and fell on the bed, "Don't worry, just sleep, I won't have sex with you until you tell me it's okay, your man is so handsome and so principled, come here Bar."

So Wei Siyuan also lay down, Yin Xu looked at him quietly for 30 seconds, he turned his face away stubbornly, Yin Xu looked at him for another 30 seconds, he lowered his eyes and shrank his neck under the quilt, Yin Xu still didn't mind Looking at him with vigor, he bit his lips with a heroic expression, kicked off his pants under the quilt, and bumped Yin Xu's leg with his knee, "I'm so annoying."

"Why do I feel that you actually like it in your heart? Wouldn't it be nice to be closer to me?" Yin Xu looked at him and smiled teasingly, only hooking one corner of his lips, revealing a trace of lazy evil, and tightened his legs towards Wei Siyuan To the slender and well-proportioned legs, "Didn't you like me to hug you the most before?"

Wei Siyuan's body temperature was rather cold. In the past, he would often be woken up at night by himself when he slept in winter, so he sneezed as soon as he took off his clothes and trousers. Feel extra solid and warm.

"So what, it doesn't matter a long time ago. You never hugged me to sleep before," Wei Siyuan thought about it for a while, and emphasized his tone with certainty, "Not once."

"Well, baby is starting to hold grudges, hurry up and show me your little book, and see how I can treat you better." Yin Xu looked at Wei Siyuan, so close that he could see the fluff on his face , there was a kind of dizzy and charming drunkenness in a trance, "My self-control was not as good as it is now. You used to like to stick to me and tease me at every turn. If I hug you, I want to take off your clothes and smell yours." Won't I be exposed if the smell bites on you?"

Wei Siyuan quietly put his hands on Yin Xu's abdominal muscles to feel refreshed, and then laughed, "Is it revealing that your body is actually a big dog?"

"Look at what I just said, you little pervert who pretends to be innocent." Yin Xu put a sticky kiss on his lips, then suddenly changed the subject and asked, "Are you nervous? It's going to be this Saturday After the performance, whether you continue your studies or go on stage, you will be an official conductor.”

"I'm not nervous. Every time I stand on the conductor's seat, I feel very calm, because I don't have to think about any extra things except music. But I can't tell what it feels like. I watched "The Story of the Second Wife" last year. I saw a sentence from time to time, 'When people face great happiness, they will become very timid, and it takes more courage to seize happiness than to endure pain', I think that's it."

Yin Xu gradually felt that his eyelids were getting heavy, so he closed his eyes and rubbed his face against Wei Siyuan, repeating his words in a whisper, "Seizing happiness actually requires more courage than enduring pain... I will give you all my courage, don't be afraid , go grab it."

On Saturday morning, the two arrived at the performance venue ahead of time to prepare. Yin Xu wore a tailored suit with a white shirt and black tie as usual, while Wei Siyuan, as the conductor of the orchestra, was more solemn and wore a suit A pure black tuxedo, with slits at the back that reaches to the knees, making the whole person extraordinarily slender. The short, wide and neatly cut front makes the person have broad shoulders and a thin waist. The white shirt has a stiff lining and a white bow tie. It expresses a noble and solemn handsome elegance.

In the dressing room backstage, there were staffs constantly walking back and forth between the stage and the backstage to adjust the equipment. Wei Siyuan sat in front of the mirror radiantly, his calm expression could not conceal the excitement in his eyes.

Yin Xu specially brought over the pomade that he used when performing, and while talking to Wei Siyuan in a low voice, he rubbed some pomade with his hands and combed back the broken hair in front of his forehead, revealing his plump and clean forehead, and brushed back the short hair on the back of his head. Grab a natural and layered sense of mess.

So Wei Siyuan's usual youthful feeling was completely suppressed by a mature aura at this time, Yin Xu's heartbeat began to run uncontrollably, and he couldn't even imagine that Wei Siyuan would show a new look when he stood on the stage. What a scene.

Yin Xu's appearance was ahead of Wei Siyuan, so the two of them won't have time to meet again from the beginning to the end of the concert, but Wei Siyuan is very eager for Yin Xu to witness this performance with his own eyes, so he couldn't help turning around and asking, " After you step down, will you watch me in the background?"

"I've bought a ticket, and I'll watch you from the audience, watching you as a spectator."

Yin Xu was standing in an inconspicuous corner in the backstage where people were coming and going, as if he had already stood in the center of the world. He solemnly held Wei Siyuan's hand, bowed his head and kissed the back of his hand reverently.

"Wei Siyuan, you are standing here because of the music you love. No matter whether it attracts worldwide attention, whether you become famous or not, no matter whether I appear or not, it will not change your love for it. So don't worry about me. Wherever you are, no matter where you are, I will definitely watch you and regard you as the greatest glory in my life."

At this moment, time disappeared, and all distracting thoughts in Wei Siyuan's mind disappeared. The real and spiritual worlds seemed to be reversed suddenly. The noisy real world became nothingness and silence, while the isolated spiritual world seemed like a vast sea of ​​stars. As vast as boundless.

At two o'clock in the afternoon, the Saturday concert officially began. After the violin and piano concerto by Yin Xu and Lin Feien, there was an intermission of the concert. After the chief violinist got up and corrected the pitch, the audience fell silent. The host came to the stage to announce the curtain, and the audience started applauding to welcome the conductor.

Wei Siyuan stood on the conductor's seat facing the overwhelming applause and cheers from the backstage, opened his conductor's score on the music stand, and his eyes slowly fell on the page filled with notes, every measure and every note He has already memorized it in his heart.

While the audience held their breath, he raised his head, held the baton in his right hand, made a gesture of preparation, scanned each musician from left to right, stopped at the principal violin, nodded slightly, and finally looked squarely at the musicians. Looking forward, the corners of his mouth raised a slight arc.

At the same time as the baton was drawn down, the cheerful and passionate melody collided with the most direct strength and speed, and the beautiful first theme broke out from the silence, breaking into the hearts of the audience unstoppably all the way.

Under Wei Siyuan's control, every subtle note is precisely grasped in the most beautiful way of expression, as if it has been rigorously calculated and converted into a poem that can be interpreted beyond the boundaries of language.

The treble is bright, the bass is steady, the crescendo, the sudden strength and the sudden weakness, there are exciting suspense, and there are also powerful lyricism.

The Eighth Symphony is not the most famous among Beethoven's nine widely circulated symphonies, and it is even misread as the low point of creation. However, Wei Siyuan feels that its no theme just means that it is unique personality.

In this chapter, Beethoven's well-known motives of fate, hysteria, and tragic heroic elements, all these routines that can be considered by people have been abandoned, and what runs through the movements is unpredictable but still strictly controlled. surprise.

People can feel his confident smile in the blending rhythm, experience his free and unexpected comic effects in the music chapters, and the violin and double bass seem to be in dialogue in the vigorous allegro.

Wei Siyuan's emotions are also changing with the emotional rendering of the rhythm. Although his back is always facing the audience, the moment he swings the baton, an incomparable chemical reaction is produced in the vibrating air. The movements and expressions of the musicians lead the musicians, and their music is conveyed to the audience behind them.

The light from the concert hall shone above him, reflecting his clear and deep eyes brightly, the smile was still on his lips, and his freely retractable gestures steadily took care of each branch and controlled the overall rhythm.

He seemed to reveal to everyone present the other side of this serious, proud, sharp and profound musician in the impression of the world. It is not about fighting against fate, not about grand historical themes, but about the original freedom and passion for music. love.

Freedom and love are the purest life force, and they are pursuits that will not be diminished no matter whether a person is in a situation of loneliness, poverty, frustration, or illness.

Regardless of whether the effort can bear fruit or not, you are willing to work hard for it, but please have no regrets.

It turns out that this is the courage to seize happiness.

Following Wei Siyuan's habitual closing action, the final movement came to an end straight away, and the audience burst into shrill shouts and thunderous applause. Everyone stood up from their seats in unison and shouted "Bravo" one after another towards the stage. !"

Sitting in the auditorium, Yin Xu watched Wei Siyuan's more mature and steady performance than any previous conductor, his eyes were moist unconsciously, and he was deeply impressed by this shocking power to break through himself.

Liu Yi, who was sitting next to him, glanced at him quietly, saw the tears in the corner of his eyes, and asked in surprise, "...Yin Xu, what's wrong with you?"

Yin Xu looked up at the people on the stage, couldn't take his eyes off his back, and his throat was tight with excitement, "I seem to have suddenly realized that he can walk independently on the road of music, and doesn't need me anymore."

Liu Yi thought something was wrong with him, so she breathed a sigh of relief and comforted him, "Then don't be too sad."

"No, it's not sad." Yin Xu and Liu Yi stood up and applauded together with the audience, and sighed softly, "I'm so happy."

"To be honest, Wei Siyuan is much more powerful than I could have imagined. He didn't speak too loudly before, so I didn't expect him to have such a powerful power." Liu Yi said thoughtfully, "Now I finally fully understand why you have to find him. He is simply a little swan that got in with the baby duck."

Any ridicule and exclusion from others can't stop him yearning for the vast world, and any self-doubt and denial are not enough to make him give up his ideal of flying to the sky.

It's also written in that Danish fairy tale, "It doesn't matter if you were born on a duck farm as long as you were once in a swan's egg."

I have never underestimated you, I knew that one day you would spread your wings and fly freely, that you would become the most dazzling light in the starry night sky, I just didn't know that you could be better than I expected It's so much better.

Yin Xu raised the corners of his lips and smiled, "He is a swan, I am only worthy of being the lake where he landed."

Wei Siyuan seemed to return to the real world the moment the music stopped, his steady and powerful heartbeat revived in his heart, the sweat from his forehead dripped down to his temples along the contours of his face, his chest rose and fell with his breathing, feeling relieved He closed his eyes as if to feel the cheers behind him.

He gestured for the musicians to stand up, turned around and bowed to the audience, and after receiving the bouquet from the organizer, he still stood on the conductor's seat, looking for Yin Xu in the dark auditorium, and finally their eyes separated from each other A distance meets in the air.

Wei Siyuan paused for a second, then smiled towards Yin Xu, and tears suddenly filled his eyes, like stars under the lamp, I can finally look at you from this angle.