Stand at forty

Yu Jinhuan didn't even think about it. Seeing that the Chinese New Year was coming, he and Yuan Tianyi would have such a cold war that wasn't a cold war.

Going home with Yuan Tianyi, after the other party washed up, it was still dark.

Yu Jinhuan and Yuan Tianyi were sitting on a double sofa chair with half a body distance between them. The previous intimacy slipped away all of a sudden, and there was an anxious and uncomfortable atmosphere between them.

"Ayi, let's have a good chat." He was used to addressing the other party Tianyi before, but now he has returned to the most intimate address.

"What do you mean I let go again? I didn't let go." Yu Jinhuan didn't look at Yuan Tianyi, and said something leisurely to the front, trying to minimize bad emotions.

After waiting for a while, Yuan Tianyi said: "You have it. You no longer take the initiative to live with me, and you have returned to the old days. Being together reluctantly like this is not good for anyone. I just want you to be honest. .”

"I've been mad, don't you see that?"

"You're not angry, but you want to give up," Yuan Tianyi retorted, "There is no relationship that can withstand the consumption of time. You are repeating the old tricks, and you didn't promise me..."

Yu Jinhuan couldn't hear the last words clearly, "What didn't I promise you?"

"Forget it." Yuan Tianyi obviously didn't want to continue talking about this topic, "What do you want to talk to me now?"

Yu Jinhuan only felt that he was about to be overwhelmed by the indifference in front of him, so what were they talking about, wasn't it about the future relationship between the two of them?

"I want to live a good life with you, so let's talk about how to live a good life together." Yu Jinhuan tried to calm his tone.

"Live well," Yuan Tianyi was silent for a while, "What kind of life does Xiao Huan want to live well?"

Yu Jinhuan didn't know what to say all of a sudden, and always felt that he seemed to never hear the true thoughts of the person in front of him again.Even if he doesn't know what Yuan Tianyi wants, he still knows what kind of life they both like.

"After returning to China, until Christmas, the life I want to live with you is the life we ​​lived at that time."

Yuan Tianyi turned around and looked at Yu Jinhuan, with a hint of doubt and incomprehension in his eyes.

"Then why—" After speaking halfway, Yuan Tianyi's eyes were very tangled, but he turned around, "Does Xiao Huan really like it?"

Yu Jinhuan nodded vigorously, and smiled slightly, "Otherwise, do you think that you are the only one suffering during this time? I also have a hard time every day, but you didn't do anything."

"Why are you angry with me and suddenly changed your attitude?" Yuan Tianyi asked.

"You really don't know? You didn't believe me on Christmas Eve, you wronged me, I..." Yu Jinhuan suddenly lost his voice, he looked at Yuan Tianyi, feeling more and more wronged, his throat tightened, and his eyes turned red.

Yuan Tianyi seemed to understand something, quickly moved over, hugged him, and gently hit him on the back with his hand.

"Xiao Huan, I'm sorry. I... I don't know. I told myself that I should believe that you didn't do that, but I couldn't help it. I didn't blame you. What you do is right in my opinion. I don't I don't care. I'm sorry, I always think of the worst, I just think, maybe I accept the worst and there will be no problem. Xiaohuan, I don't know how to say it, I..."

Yuan Tianyi's emotions became more and more agitated, and his words became incoherent, Yu Jinhuan interrupted his words, and said in a soft voice as much as possible: "Ayi, stop, take it easy, I forgive you, I I don't really blame you, I'm just hypocritical, don't blame yourself, let's talk slowly, take your time, okay?"

Yuan Tianyi's body relaxed a little, and turned into a posture of hugging him. He leaned back slightly, and leaned his upper body against the other's arms.

"You don't want to know if I did what happened to Huang Junjie, do you?"

Yuan Tianyi nodded, "It doesn't matter if you did it or not, I will take care of it."

Yu Jinhuan asked: "Even if I did it, will you still treat me as before?"

"Yes. No matter what you do, in my eyes, you are the best and my favorite person. Whether it is Junjie or others, it will not affect you in my heart."

Yu Jinhuan was a little puzzled, "Then what kind of person am I in your heart?"

Yuan Tianyi shook his head, "I can't say anything specific, but you are you and have always been you, your appearance, your voice, your smell, what you have said and done to me, is you. "

"What about others, you don't have any idea of ​​what I have said or done to others?"

"Yes. I don't like it. I don't like what you say or do with them."

Yu Jinhuan got a little clue, and asked tentatively: "Do you think so about my matter, as long as I can handle it in the shortest time, let me not go deep into the matter and not have more relationships with others?" Communication and entanglement, this is the best."

"Yeah." Yuan Tianyi nodded seriously, "It would be better if you could just turn around and forget about those things."

My God, Yu Jinhuan felt that Yuan Tianyi's three views seemed a little abnormal, but there was a feeling of secret joy in his heart, why?

"What would you think of me if I did something bad, hurt someone, or worse?"

"You are you," Yuan Tianyi became a little impatient, "You are not something that can be replaced by an adjective or a noun, let alone something that can be changed by those words. Those are fake things that have no meaning. Good and bad are both to me. It doesn't make sense, you're always you."

Yu Jinhuan twisted his neck and kissed Yuan Tianyi's chin to relieve the other party's discomfort with this kind of inquiry.

"If I ask you this way, are you a little unhappy?"

"It would be better if you kissed me."

Yu Jinhuan couldn't help but gave the other party another kiss, "The one just now was an encouragement, and this one is a reward. If you are more honest, there will be more."

Yuan Tianyi looked straight at Yu Jinhuan, smiled slightly, and replied solemnly: "I see."

Yu Jinhuan felt a little weird, wondering if Yuan Tianyi misunderstood what he meant, it was just such a simple sentence, there should be no misunderstanding.

Yu Jinhuan thought about it, and felt that he had to explain Huang Junjie's matter clearly, otherwise he would be angry in the future.

"About Huang Junjie's matter, I still have to make it clear. I care about your comments that don't matter. I only admit what I have done, and I don't want others to push the responsibility for what I didn't do on me. Dirty framed, I hate this feeling, and I don't want others to misunderstand me because of it."

Yu Jinhuan looked up at Yuan Tianyi, who was still relatively calm, and continued: "I hope I am innocent, I hope that most people, especially those around me, see me as the real me, instead of being arbitrarily smeared by others. I passed, do you understand?"

Yuan Tianyi nodded, "I see, I will investigate this matter thoroughly, and I will also explain the real situation to them. But, you are not allowed to have too much contact with them."

Yu Jinhuan wanted to raise his forehead, what was the meaning of Yuan Tianyi's last sentence: "The last sentence, please be more specific."

"Be good to them in front of them and in your heart, and they will get closer and closer to you, and the time that belongs to me will become less and less."

Shouldn't the normal thinking be to hope that all the friends around him will recognize and accept their lover? Yu Jinhuan wants to pry Yuan Tianyi's brain open to see what the brain circuit inside looks like.

Yu Jinhuan still felt that something was wrong, but the thought was fleeting, and he couldn't capture him, so he had to ask a new question: "Ayi, have you ever thought about what the person you like should be like?"

Yuan Tianyi shook his head, "I never thought about it. When I meet you, I know what the person I like is like."

"Then you think about it now?"

"You are in my arms, what do you think?"

"What I said should be, even if he is a lover, there will be something about him that you don't like, right?"

Yuan Tianyi shook his head first, then nodded, and said: "You should be like this, I know it all. It's just that I don't like you and don't want to be with me."

Yu Jinhuan was about to continue asking, but Yuan Tianyi continued:

"I like you. You are a complex living body. Everything that happened in the past has made you what you are now. There is nothing you don't like."

"What about the future me? Have you ever thought about what it will be like?" Yu Jinhuan seized the opportunity to ask.

"The future is not tomorrow, but every tomorrow is actually similar to today. What can we think about? If there is any accident, it cannot be predicted."

Yu Jinhuan was defeated again, so he could only follow the other person's words and ask: "Then what do you expect me to be like tomorrow? Or, those things that make you happy, what do you want me to do tomorrow?"

"Stay with me all day, hold hands, get up, wash, eat, work, sleep, smile at me, talk to me more, let me hug and kiss more and do shameful and happy things."

Yu Jinhuan blushed shamefully, his ears warmed up, and his heartbeat quickened. To him, it sounded like a love story, and his offensive power was beyond the limit, which made his mind fly away, and he no longer had the heart to sort out Yuan Tianyi's various thoughts.

He turned around, put his arms around Yuan Tianyi's neck, kissed her on the chin, and then leaned into Yuan Tianyi's ear and said, "Ah Yi, I just want you to do shameful and happy things by kissing and hugging me."

Yuan Tianyi kissed him deeply on the lips as kindly as possible, and after intertwining his lips and teeth, he held his hips in both hands and picked him up and walked towards the stairs.

Yu Jinhuan's legs were wrapped tightly around Yuan Tianyi's body. The other's fiery body and breath made him unable to help himself. He buried his head on Yuan Tianyi's neck, sticking out his tongue to lick and kiss that small piece of skin, feeling Yuan Tianyi's hot body and breath. After a pause, Tianyi quickened her pace and curled the corners of her mouth.

After the hearty exercise, Yu Jinhuan was physically exhausted, but mentally satisfied. After a simple cleaning, the two leaned together and continued the previous topic.

"So I don't want to be misunderstood. You have to protect my reputation in the future, understand?" Yu Jinhuan finally concluded.

Yuan Tianyi nodded, but was still a little reluctant, "It's very troublesome...I understand."

Yu Jinhuan suddenly thought of one thing, so he asked, "Does Ah Yi care about his reputation? Wouldn't he feel uncomfortable if he was misunderstood?"

Yuan Tianyi looked at him with strange eyes, and his reply was a bit puzzled: "Why do you care? There will be no misunderstandings, people's opinions are inherently subjective, and the truth of the facts is not important, as long as you get the desired result Just fine."

Yu Jinhuan asked with some incomprehension: "If I misunderstood Ah Yi, then I might not smile at you again, is that okay?"

Yuan Tianyi pursed her lips, "That only shows that I didn't do well. The misunderstanding is also a thing of the past. Don't take it to heart. You have to start over every now and then."

Yu Jinhuan suddenly noticed a point in Yuan Tianyi's heart. From his lover's point of view, every day was like a new beginning, which had nothing to do with the past. He was a little startled and a little dazed.

"Will you be sad if I wake up tomorrow morning and don't want to talk to you? Do you still like me? What are you going to do?"

"Yes, but I was not who I am now. I should still like you, and I will do my best to make you happy, do what you want, and cooperate with you. If you don't get what you want today, There will also be a tomorrow, if one second is not successful, the next second can continue.”

Yu Jinhuan tried his best to let his mind follow Yuan Tianyi's thoughts, and said: "So, as long as it happens, accept it completely, and then work hard again next moment?"

"Well. As long as you know what you want, nothing is static. It is changing every minute and every second. I liked you in the past, and you in the present are just the you in front of me. .”

Yu Jinhuan didn't speak after listening, his heart was full of waves, but he didn't know where to start and how to tell the people behind him.He blinked his eyes, feeling a little tired, so he nestled in Yuan Tianyi's arms and muttered: "I'm a bit sleepy, let's sleep."

The author has something to say:

I cut my finger while cutting potato shreds. I didn’t expect to hurt myself on the tail before the Chinese New Year. I didn’t hurt myself the whole year before. I hope this is a good sign.Happy reading!