Stand at forty

Another month has passed, and this is not a warm and bright April day in the world. The high temperature of summer suddenly descended on this small island. Although their food sources suddenly became much richer, Yu Jinhuan was very troubled by new problems. irritable.

Li Wei'an and Yu Jinhuan's words suddenly increased during this period, perhaps because they had no other choice but each other.

Dai Ansi and Yuan Tianyi went to the secret place to talk as usual, Li Wei'an looked at Yu Jinhuan who was full of boredom, and asked nonchalantly: "You said it's so early in the morning, why can't the two of them come back early? "

Yu Jinhuan pouted, "I don't know, if I want to know, I won't ask myself."

"I'll return this sentence to you. Don't mess with me if you want to vent your anger." Li Wei'an turned into a sharp-mouthed young man again, squinting at Yu Jinhuan, and slowly elongated his tone, "Oh, I I almost forgot, you agreed not to ask about their treatment, I feel a little sympathetic to you, you don't even have the right to ask your lover."

Yu Jinhuan shuddered all over, this sentence was so familiar yet unfamiliar, he pushed away the dust from the depths of his memory, and the picture finally became clear.

"Xiao Huan, it's not fair. You decided on a major without discussing it with me, don't you want to be with me?" Yuan Tianyi frowned, pulled his arm, and argued with him in the empty playground.

"Ayi, this is what Jiashu and I agreed a long time ago. Besides, we have been together all the time. We are both in Linda University. We can meet whenever we want, and studies are also very important..."

I raised my face and looked at Yuan Tianyi puzzled, and seemed to have said a long list of reasons to convince the other party, but Yuan Tianyi's eyes gradually dimmed, and he became angry at the end, and even said to break up.

"Ayi, we all have our own lives, you shouldn't interfere with my affairs too much."

He only remembered that his words were firm and cold, and Yuan Tianyi stood in front of him for a long time without making a sound. Later, their conversation became blurred, and in the end, neither of them compromised, but he himself could not recall it Know Yuan Tianyi's last expression before leaving.

But he remembered a sentence, as if he knew the existence of this sentence for the first time.

Yuan Tianyi lowered his head, and said in bitter words, "Xiao Huan, shouldn't I have the right to ask my lover?"

This sentence traveled through the river of time, and it was only remembered by him today after the two went around for so many years.

He trembled even more, and Li Wei'an's worried cry was close to his ears, and he said numbly: "I'm fine, let me be alone."

Every step under his feet seemed extraordinarily difficult. He hated himself for saying that, hated himself for not giving Yuan Tianyi more responses. The picture had stabbed Yuan Tianyi's heart, and he was even more afraid of Yuan Tianyi who would be able to face up to these injuries after treatment. How would he choose?

God, this really looks like a joke.

Yu Jinhuan is soberly aware that he and Yuan Tianyi have lived abnormally for so many years. The responsibility is not only Yuan Tianyi, but he himself is also one of the culprits who indulged in life and maliciously played with them.

It's just that Yu Jinhuan didn't realize at this time that since Yuan Tianyi rescued him from injury and coma, he never recalled all the bad things Yuan Tianyi did to him. When he found out and admitted that he couldn't do without Yuan Tianyi, those past His hatred was wiped out from the bottom of his heart.

He trapped himself in the arms of Yuan Tianyi's love, and then imposed a cage called remorse on himself. He regarded Yuan Tianyi as a fragile treasure, and he was terrified day and night, fearing that he would do something wrong again and say something wrong. In a word, it made the other party sad.

It’s just that I didn’t expect that sometimes memory is the most lethal sword, because there is no way to change the past, because time is too long to repair, and the scars on the heart can’t be erased with more love.

Yu Jinhuan was so sad that he was at a loss, and he couldn't tell others about his feelings on this isolated island. His mind was in a mess and he was thinking wildly, and then he remembered what Yuan Tianyi had said in an instant.

"You are who you are, good and bad mean nothing to me."

It turned out to be like this, Yu Jinhuan squatted down and smiled wryly, he finally understood why Yuan Tianyi looked at him like this, and he even planned to look at him like this in the unknown future, who cares, Yuan Tianyi is Yuan Tianyi, What he likes is such a person, not the illusory and beautiful image in love.

Who says lover is the best one?

In the eyes of Yuan Tianyi in the past, lovers are just lovers, neither good nor bad, they are always there, if you choose to love, you have to accept it.

The appearance of your lover is not portrayed by you, but by the gradually increasing age and every day you spend. A lover is not an image, but a complex life that is accumulated and enriched every minute and every second .

You will be willing to be influenced by him, because it will become your master, making you think of heaven and hell again.

Such a practice of love will eventually make you let go of all extravagant desires, and what Yuan Tianyi did was just let go on the surface, but the obsession with pain in his heart is increasing day by day.

How can you ask a person to love you and let you go at the same time?This kind of practice, but you can't get good things, you can only settle for the next best thing and accept it completely.

Yu Jinhuan thought about it a lot, he had caught a beam of light from Yuan Tianyi's mind in the past, and he would be able to fully understand his lover immediately, but, but at this time, Yuan Tianyi had already begun to prepare to become another people.

That person may no longer allow him to behave like this, and he will no longer indulge himself as the one who is loved. He can't tell whether he is happy or sad, and he entangles himself into a ball amidst the noisy birdsong. Ash mushrooms that want to burrow into the grass.

"Xiao Huan, what are you doing hiding here?"

Hearing Yuan Tianyi's gentle voice suddenly, Yu Jinhuan stopped pawing the bushes and didn't dare to look back.

Yuan Tianyi brushed aside the grass in twos and hugged Yu Jinhuan out. When he wanted to let go of him, Yu Jinhuan hugged Yuan Tianyi tightly, his legs were wrapped tightly around Yuan Tianyi's body, and he just kept his head down. Say nothing.

Yuan Tianyi had no choice but to continue hugging him.

It wasn't until he felt the scalding temperature in his chest, and Yu Jinhuan's body was also a little uncomfortable, that he said sullenly: "Ayi, do you really not mind the messy account between us?"

"No," Yuan Tianyi replied without any hesitation.

"Can you guarantee that you won't mind in the future?" Yu Jinhuan raised his head and asked cautiously and flatteringly.

"I don't know," Yan Tianyi disappointed Yu Jinhuan this time, and Yu Jinhuan lowered his eyes silently, staring at Yuan Tianyi's chest, not knowing what to say.

"I can guarantee it now, but recently I am a little different. In the future, I am not sure." Yuan Tianyi explained again, Yu Jinhuan felt a little better, but he was not at ease, but he couldn't what to do.

"I was thinking too much." Yu Jinhuan could only comfort himself in this way.

"Xiao Huan." Yuan Tianyi called out, as if he wanted to say something, but finally there was no sound.

The days continued to live in such a calm manner, except that no one came to pick them up to return to the civilized world, and life passed smoothly every day.

Yu Jinhuan has discovered more and more changes in Yuan Tianyi.

For example, Yuan Tianyi hesitated to speak to him more than once, and there were always a few times when he found Yuan Tianyi looked at him with suspicious eyes, but the eyes were far away, as if he was looking at something else through him.

Another example is that Yuan Tianyi actually broke the topic with Li Wei'an, and said that he would not like each other in a very serious manner, with a very gentle tone and a very sincere attitude, and Li Wei'an only accepted it after being silent for two days.

There was another change that made him wonder whether he should be happy or regretful, that is, Yuan Tianyi did not stare at him as closely as before.

Dai Ansi always said that he was attached to Yuan Tianyi, and he also admitted this, but his original intention of doing so was only to satisfy Yuan Tianyi's desire to be with him all the time, but he did not expect that in the end, he was even more addicted to it However, Yuan Tianyi has learned to leave a separate space for his lover for the first time.

It was the first time that he felt Yuan Tianyi's eyes not cast on him for a long time, and Yu Jinhuan was flustered all of a sudden, and hurriedly searched for the familiar figure, only to find that the other person was just taking a nap with his eyes closed.

But Yu Jinhuan could tell from the man's expression that Yuan Tianyi was not asleep, and the answer he got at night was "I don't want to disturb you."

If it was my former self, I'm afraid I would be ecstatic, because my lover finally learned to respect each other, but Yu Jinhuan was upset that night, feeling uncomfortable and unable to adapt.

In the past so many days, it is still difficult for him to get used to Yuan Tianyi's loosening of trust in him. He is used to doing everything with the other party, and in this place, it is difficult for him to devote himself to other things, and even think about it every day. Think, everything you do has the shadow of Yuan Tianyi.

He discussed this matter with Yuan Tianyi, and raised his desire, "Ayi, here, I have nothing to do except you. I don't like the time when you are not disturbed, it's hard to bear."

Yuan Tianyi just comforted him with light kisses, but did not agree to his request. For the first time, he rejected him.

"Xiao Huan, I have to get used to it."

Yu Jinhuan wanted to say that you don't need to get used to it, but then thought that if you leave this place, there will always be a situation where Yuan Tianyi has to get used to it. He felt sour, and said rascally: "This is obviously my benefit, you just deprive it of it like this." gone."

Yuan Tianyi smiled happily, and then confessed affectionately: "I have always had you in my heart."

"I know that." Yu Jinhuan felt embarrassed, but he didn't want to miss Yuan Tianyi's gaze, so he pretended not to care and said something, and in the end he and Yuan Tianyi looked at each other and kissed each other, feeling unhappy and at the same time happy.

Li Wei'an liked talking to Yu Jinhuan more and more. From Yu Jinhuan's point of view, it was clearly teasing and teasing, as if he had recently become a monkey in a zoo, and the other party would tease him when he got the chance.

"Jinhuan, do you think people are born with low bones, they don't care when they have it, and miss it when they lose it."

Yu Jinhuan has already lost his temper by Li Wei'an's words, because the other party's words will always stab him in the heart, so it's better to follow Li Wei'an's wishes.

"Yeah, I used to think that there were all kinds of hustle and bustle in the city, and I didn't like this or that. Now that I'm back before liberation, I really feel that the civilized world is so good."

Li Wei'an didn't mind that he deliberately misinterpreted the meaning of his words, anyway, they knew each other well.

"Hey, have you noticed that Dai Ansi's words are much less now, and he is out of his mind all day long, and you really feel relieved to hand over Yuan Tianyi to the other party?" Li Wei'an started a new topic.

Speaking of Dai Ansi, Yu Jinhuan also couldn't understand this person, especially recently, he found that Dai Ansi would always secretly stare at his back for a long time, which made him get goosebumps one after another, but when he turned his head, the other party would pretend again. Acting like he didn't do anything.

Could it be that Yuan Tianyi told him something that he didn't know? Yu Jinhuan guessed in his heart, but he couldn't ask the words. Now that Li Wei'an mentioned it, he immediately expressed his doubts.

Li Wei'an also raised his eyebrows, rubbed the calluses on the palm of the other hand with one hand, and Yu Jinhuan couldn't figure out what he said: "I guess, the two of them reached some kind of agreement about you. "

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Happy reading, dear ones!Every morning at 10:00, the update will resume tomorrow.I really hope that I can count my words when I disagree with each other, but...