Stand at forty

Through a transparent glass wall, Yu Jinhuan finally saw Yuan Tianyi.

Yuan Tianyi also seemed to have lost a lot of weight. He approached step by step without haste, his eyes were dark and gloomy. Yu Jinhuan used to like these eyes that covered all emotions, but now he doesn't like them because he can't see them. Clearing the light in his head, because he was also excluded from Yuan Tianyi's heart.

Yu Jinhuan sat quietly, and when Yuan Tianyi picked up the phone, he picked up the phone himself.His hand trembled and he couldn't hold it firmly. Yu Jinhuan bit his lip, paused, and picked up the phone steadily again.

"Ayi." Yu Jinhuan called out, staring at Yuan Tianyi's face, he didn't notice any emotional fluctuations.

"Jinhuan," Yuan Tianyi called him like this, it seemed that he had endured for a long time before he said lightly, "You shouldn't have come here."

The hand under the table was tightly clenched into a fist, Yu Jinhuan smiled slightly and said, "God, you plan to never see me again, right?"

Yuan Tianyi's deep eyes moved, and he said in an indifferent tone: "Why? When I think of Xiao Huan, I will still go to see you."

Yu Jinhuan's heart stabbed fiercely, he was silent for a while, and asked: "I want to know, in the past so many years, has there ever been a time when you really only liked me?"

"I have always liked you, you are exactly like him, you can be with me all the time, and you can do many things that he can't do, moreover," Yuan Tianyi paused, his eyes suddenly became hollow, and the corners of his mouth curled up Said, "You failed to save him, but it was also a continuation of his life. I have always liked you."

Like a unique and cruel confession in the world, Yu Jinhuan is grateful that he did not see hatred in Yuan Tianyi's eyes, but also sad that in Yuan Tianyi's world, there is only one Yu Jinhuan, not him.

Yuan Tianyi looked past him, as if looking far away.Yu Jinhuan tried his best to calm himself down. He already understood that what he missed was not what Yuan Tianyi missed.

"I just realized that the love I thought was a conspiracy, and after the conspiracy failed, it turned into a joke." Yu Jinhuan said slowly, gradually increasing his tone, "If he really came back to life because of me, you Are you ecstatic at this moment? You ruined my life, and I ruined your dream, so we owe nothing to each other."

Before Yu Jinhuan hung up the phone, he added another sentence: "If you miss him, don't bother me. If I can choose, I would rather change my body. I hate having anything related to him on my body. "

"Okay." Hearing Yuan Tianyi's gentle voice, Yu Jinhuan put down the phone, turned around, and didn't look back until he left the small meeting room, and the tears that filled his eyes fell down. The hot tears only made him tremble The heart in the body became colder and colder.

He was squeezed into the crowded isolation room, leaning against the wall alone, silent and expressionless.

Yuan Tianyi returned home in a daze, everything he saw made him feel restless, but he also had an inexplicable thought, he didn't want to give up every little thing in the villa, and at the same time he didn't want to leave.

Since his youth left, he felt exhausted more than once, as if his life had come to an end, and he was a dying old man who had lost all enthusiasm for everything, and didn't even feel heartache.

He stared at the photo of Yu Jinhuan and himself on the wall, and inappropriately remembered a cold joke the other party had said.The general idea is that the people who are most likely to kill themselves in this world are those who suffer from analgesia. They will lose their lives because they want to surprise their friends and perform performances falling from the sky.

Yuan Tianyi actually didn't have the idea of ​​committing suicide, but he felt that his condition was not very good, and he would probably passively make some mistakes and suffer minor injuries.

In fact, before seeing Yu Jinhuan, he didn't have such a feeling of despair. It was Yu Jinhuan's appearance that made him understand once again that his sick and weak boy really didn't exist anymore, and the light in his life would never appear again. .

Yuan Tianyi stayed in the quiet house for a while, didn't think much, the sky darkened, and his figure was slowly submerged in the darkness.The bell rang, and the lit screen illuminated the world unwillingly. Yuan Tianyi glanced at the phone, but didn't answer it, but the phone kept ringing non-stop, so he had to connect it.

"Xiaoyi, why didn't you answer Mom's call? She is very worried about you." Yuan Tianqing's voice came from the phone.

"Tell mom that I'm fine, and I'll go see her tomorrow." Yuan Tianyi replied with a good attitude.

"It's only a few steps away, can't you go home tonight?" Yuan Tianqing suggested.

"I went to see him today, I want to be alone." Yuan Tianyi immediately found an excuse for himself.

Sure enough, Yuan Tianqing stopped persuading him to go home, but talked about his relationship with Yu Jinhuan: "Xiaoyi, you really don't have any real feelings for him? Is it possible for you and him to be together?"

Yuan Tianyi's expression could not be seen clearly in the dark, but his tone was a little sarcasm, "Why? Even a dog, after so many years, will have some affection, but he and I want to continue to be together, Absolutely impossible."

Yuan Tianqing sighed over the phone, "Even if you want to get a divorce and divide the property, why don't you come forward yourself, but let me do it."

"Brother thinks it will be less harmful for me to face him in person? Although I don't mind, but I think you and Mom definitely want to treat him better, and I don't want to see him for the time being. As long as he is a normal person, You don't even want to see me."

Yuan Tianqing wanted to say something else, but Yuan Tianyi interrupted him roughly.

"Brother! This is my life, how I live it is up to me. Also, you are all elderly, so stop holding those beautiful fantasies."

Yuan Tianqing was choked, and his voice was full of helplessness: "This is not just our idea, we both think that you and he still want to be with each other, but you don't know it yet."

Yuan Tianqing's earnest words did not change Yuan Tianyi's mind, and even made him a little angry. He said in a low voice: "Brother, you don't understand my pain at all, and you don't know what I have lost. In the future, I will never forget it." I won’t live with anyone, not anyone, not even him.”

There was a long silence on the phone.

In the end, Yuan Tianqing said something to remind him to pay attention to his body and take a good rest, and the two ended the call.

The moment the phone screen was about to go dark, Yuan Tianyi swiped open the screen again, found a person's number, and dialed it.

Two days later, Yu Jinhuan was deported back to China.

Returning to Lincheng again, everything here is both familiar and strange to him. The happy life he thought was just a cage built by others. He raised his head and let the cold wind blow into his neck. wide awake.

Yu Jinhuan spotted a suspicious figure from the corner of his eye, curled his lips, called Fan Hao, and walked into a restaurant beside the street.

Fan Hao came very quickly, and said with a smile: "Didn't you say that someone is following you? Why are you eating here carelessly?"

"It doesn't matter, they have already relaxed their vigilance against me. After all these years, I have never been out of order, and I have never acted like I noticed them."

"Yes, how many people have been deceived by you." Fan Hao turned sideways, looked at the street outside, and said with some wistfulness, "Only under the sun can you hide everything. Yu Jinhuan, no one is smarter than you gone."

"Smart?" Yu Jinhuan pouted, "If I were smart, I wouldn't find out that I was fighting alone in the end."

"What are we going to do next?" Fan Hao asked seriously.

"This is not something you should care about." Yu Jinhuan suddenly replied seriously.

"I see." Fan Hao took a sip of tea and said with some regret, "If you have any fun in the future, remember to call me."

Yu Jinhuan looked into his eyes full of interest, and nodded without hesitation.

"You are different from me, you still have Zhao Liangliang." Yu Jin said leisurely.

"That's right, then, I wish you good luck." After Fan Hao finished speaking, he strode away chicly.

In front of the villa, Yu Jinhuan met an unexpected person. It was Lin Tianyuan who he was not ready to face, and Lin Tianyuan seemed a little reserved. The two who met for a while were relatively speechless.

"Go in." Yu Jinhuan said, walking in front, Lin Tianyuan followed behind.

Fang Bo served hot tea for the two of them, Yu Jinhuan didn't look up at Lin Tianyuan, and didn't take the initiative to speak.

"Xiao Huan," Lin Tianyuan said cautiously, glanced at Yu Jinhuan who was still unwilling to meet him, and continued in a low voice, "I know you blame me, I think I've gone crazy, so I'm only thinking about it I want to do research like that."

Yu Jinhuan turned his head and looked straight into Lin Tianyuan's beautiful eyes, "Just tell me, when did you know my identity? Did you get involved in this?"

The light in Lin Tianyuan's eyes dimmed instantly, and he remained silent without speaking.

Yu Jinhuan suddenly lost the strength to speak. He was obviously very angry and wanted to blame the other party loudly, but there was no emotion on his face, which was unpredictable.

The quiet space caused Lin Tianyuan to move his body uncomfortably. He changed his sitting position and shrunk back into the sofa, which was a posture of defense and escape.

"Xiao Huan, I made a mistake, maybe I shouldn't come here to ask for your forgiveness." Lin Tianyuan said in a low tone, "But since the matter is over and we are all well, I still hope to be friends with you, that kind of A friend who can talk once in a while is fine."

Is Lin Tianyuan naive, or does Lin Tianyuan think he is still that naive fool?

Yu Jinhuan raised his head, wrinkled his nose in disgust, and said disdainfully: "I don't want to, Lin Tianyuan, I'm not a good person, I can repay evil with kindness, I can associate with people who once wanted my life, and more importantly, I will never be friends with liars to talk to."

Yu Jinhuan looked at Lin Tianyuan's graying eyes, turned the topic around, and said, "However, there are no permanent enemies in this world, only permanent interests. Our future relationship will also depend on whether there will be exchange of interests or conflicts." that day."

Lin Tianyuan was surprised at first, but he quickly recovered his calm, and still said gently: "I can still be Xiao Huan's friend."

Yu Jinhuan curled his lips and said frivolously, "Then tell me something about Shi Jiaming."

Lin Tianyuan didn't know why he was interested in Shi Jiaming, but he also told some news he knew.

"Shi Jiaming is actually his English name. His Chinese name is Yu Bohuan. He is that person's elder brother. He is 12 years older than him. He is the eldest in the family and has no other younger siblings."

"His parents are still alive, and it is said that they don't know that the man has passed away."

For the rest, Yu Jinhuan didn't listen carefully. When he heard that Shi Jiaming's parents were still there, he made some adjustments to his plan, thought to himself, and thought of something more interesting. He couldn't help it. Laughed out loud.

"Xiao Huan, what are you?" Lin Tianyuan stopped, not quite understanding what he meant.

"It's nothing, just keep talking." Yu Jinhuan put away his smile, leaned his ears, and listened with interest and seriousness.

The author has something to say:

I don’t know what to say. In fact, there are countless versions of the scene where they meet in my mind. They are all too cruel. I still have the picture of the scene that I have planned, but in the end I chose a simple version with little plot. .I wish you will not be sad to read the text! ! !