rogue flower

This was the first time he cried since Shen Jianan left.

The last time he cried was when he was kicked out of the house by his father. He knelt in the pouring rain for hours, and in the end he couldn't even tell whether it was rain or tears on his face.

Bai Zizheng listened quietly, he didn't know about the past between Chi Lang and that person, and he couldn't even say words of comfort at this moment, but it was precisely because of this that the almost obsessive possessive desire deep in his heart slowed down again. Breed out.Chi Lang cried in a very dishonest manner, very depressed and forbearing, like the wailing of a wild beast when it licks its wound alone in a state surrounded by powerful enemies. People were stabbed severely in the heart.At this moment, Bai Zizheng suddenly understood the so-called empathy in the old man's love books - you will be happy when she is happy, you will feel sad when she is sad, and you will feel sorry for her hundreds of times when she is sad. It's not enough.At that time, I still thought it was a fairy tale, and I thought how to fall in love would be as responsive as putting a sensor on it. Now it seems that it is a true insight, and I wish I could fly back to Jinnan immediately to give Chi Lang a loving hug.

Bai Zizheng also started to fall in love when he didn't realize it. Unfortunately, the experience value of sweet talk is still zero. Fortunately, Chi Lang's mood has gradually stabilized. It sounds like he didn't cry much. When he was silent, only Bai Zizheng could ask him without any scruples, "Are you okay?"Chi Lang let out a "hmm", and he didn't feel so aggrieved when he really cried out. Bai Zizheng didn't feel ashamed in front of him. He gave up on himself and laughed at himself, and said out of nowhere: "Xiaobai, he There is a saying that is true, I really hate him." It was just an excuse he made for himself when he didn't want to face it, and he really couldn't help Shen Jianan at that time.

His voice was a little hoarse and tired, as if he had been thrown into a circle of sharp knives and rolled around, and it wasn't the kind of way of saying that he had already broken through and looked very bright.In normal times, his appearance would definitely be able to get a sentence of "Are you hypocritical", but at this time, Bai Zizheng really can't scold him. His ex-boyfriend was already bad enough, but now it's even the turn of the ex-boyfriend to be killed. If you recite it by yourself, you will be pissed off, not to mention that the section chief of Chi University, who has always been evaluated as incomprehensible, doesn't know what kind of love-hate relationship he had with this ex-boyfriend.Bai Zizheng moved his lips, and was about to say something more, when he heard Chi Lang's voice from the other end of the receiver, saying, "Forget it... Xiaobai, come back, I miss you."

This low and earnest tone was like being coquettish, and it was a one-hit kill for the current Bai Zizheng.

Bai Zizheng raised his wrist and glanced at his watch, and said quickly, "I'll buy the nearest high-speed rail ticket to go back."

Chi Lang said: "...to make an idea with the teacher before coming back."

Bai Zizheng said: "I know." Waiting for Chi Lang to hang up the phone first, he went back to the classroom to talk to Kang Zhenying.

Kang Zhenying was collecting the papers and preparing to comment on the simulation training just now. Seeing Bai Zizheng coming in with a heavy heart, he seemed to have something to say to himself. He already had a kind of selfish preferential treatment for his apprentice and daughter-in-law. At this time, he naturally signaled that he had something to do But it's okay to say.Bai Zizheng leaned into his ear and briefly explained the situation, and Kang Zhenying's complexion also sank.He thought for a while, and then said: "Xiao Bai, let's go out and discuss this matter in detail." Then he called the teaching assistant to arrange the class, and then led Bai Zizheng to find a room next door to sit down.

Kang Zhenying was very clear about Shen Jianan's affairs, but he did not expect that Shen Jianan would appear in Jinnan one day.Both he and Bai Zizheng had only a half-knowledge of the current case. No matter how clever Kang Zhenying was, it would be difficult to deduce who the murderer of Shen Jianan was in the provincial capital hundreds of miles away from Gu Xiaohui's vague description.Bai Zizheng thought more about it. Fu Yunsheng didn't want Gu Xiaohui to tell him that he probably already knew about their relationship. At this time, he might even be suspected of murder.Although Kang Zhenying's status is high enough, but he and Chi Lang's master-student relationship is there, it is always inappropriate to intervene rashly.Kang Zhenying heard him talk about his current considerations, picked up his cup and took a sip of the half-warm tea: "You don't have to worry about this, why don't you avoid suspicion? It's stuck on my apprentice, and as a teacher, I can still sit and stare blankly, that's a joke for someone who wants to see us, master and apprentice." After he finished speaking, he pondered for a while, and then asked Bai Zizheng, "I Do you remember that Han Yi is with you?"

Bai Zizheng said: "Han Yi is the forensic doctor in our team."

Kang Zhenying said: "That's fine. Han Yi, I'm still at ease. I'll think of a way to deal with this matter. It won't be difficult for a while, but don't keep procrastinating. There is only one thing, no matter what the result is, the case will be clear." On the surface, you must not be allowed to investigate, and it is best for Chi Lang not to intervene, you can grasp this speed yourself."

Bai Zizheng nodded. He was very satisfied that Kang Zhenying could say that. After all, he didn't want outsiders to interrogate Chi Lang as a prisoner. He hesitated for a while, but he still didn't ask Kang Zhenying about Shen Jianan's ins and outs.For a while Bai Zizheng rushed to the station to buy a ticket, Kang Zhenying went to contact Fu Yunsheng without mentioning it, Jia Chensong came back from class, waited and waited but Bai Zizheng did not come back, and his phone was still turned off when he called him, vaguely feeling that something must have happened, and then I didn't think about it deeply, and the things I was entitled to know were completely kept in the dark.

There are always a lot of high-speed trains in Jinnan, the provincial capital, so Bai Zizheng bought a passing station ticket in a hurry. After nearly three hours of driving, it was already dark when he returned to Jinnan.His mobile phone was out of battery on the way, and he forgot to bring the charger in the hotel room. At this time, no one could be contacted, but his intuition knew whether Chi Lang should be waiting for him at home. After a little weighing, he took a taxi directly to the black box bar.Ninety o'clock in the evening was the busiest time for the Black Box Bar. When Bai Zizheng got out of the car, he saw Mr. Bodyguard waiting at the door.He had only met the twins next to Long Jiu once, so naturally he couldn't tell whether it was his elder brother Awei or his younger brother Awu standing in front of him.However, Awei seemed to have expected that Bai Zizheng would come, and he didn't know whether it was Chi Lang's order or their own speculation. He walked up to Bai Zizheng, nodded slightly, and said in a low voice: "Mr. Bai, please." follow me."

The two bypassed the still noisy crowd, and finally stood at the door of Chi Lang's room.Awei handed over the key of the room to Bai Zizheng, and then dodged into the darkness beside him as if he had completed a mysterious joint task.

The thick fabric curtains still blocked all light sources from the outside, only the player's screen was still flickering with faint light. The smell of wine was not strong, but the smell of nicotine almost filled the entire dark space.Bai Zizheng discerned the red light spots jumping between his fingers, and confirmed that Chi Lang should be sitting on the carpet beside the bed in the bedroom. Lang stretched out his hands and hugged silently.

Chi Lang's strength was very light, but there was a low and hoarse stubbornness in his voice: "Don't move, just hug for a while." Then he buried his face on the side of his neck, breathing greedily that always fascinated him breath.Bai Zizheng sighed, maintained this half-kneeling posture, and patted his back twice with his hand, feeling that Chi Lang at this moment was like a child who desperately needed to be comforted.He said softly: "Okay, I'm back." As he spoke, he pushed his shoulder, lowered his head, and kissed him earnestly and intently.

Chi Lang almost completely lost the ability to resist him.The tip of Bai Zizheng's tongue swept over his teeth that had become a little stiff, but the kiss that was supposed to be soft and sweet had an unspeakable bitterness due to the fermentation of the environment.After a while, Bai Zizheng took the initiative to put his arms around his shoulders, his eyes gradually adapted to the surrounding light, and he saw dozens of cigarette butts scattered around the ashtray.Bai Zizheng knew that he liked to smoke when he was thinking about things or when he was upset. Although he was a little bit mentally prepared to drink away his worries, the current situation still made him couldn't help but scolded: "Smoking so much, don't kill me!" gone?"

Chi Lang smiled wryly and said: "...I would have chewed gum if I knew it earlier." He didn't want to defend himself, "My heart is in turmoil, I can't figure out many things... You can tell him, I thought he was dead early in the morning Now, he appeared so suddenly, and died so inexplicably... This is actually quite ironic, I can't explain it clearly."

Bai Zizheng said: "...Shen Jianan, right? Is he worth it?"

The answer is of course "not worth it". To him, Shen Jianan is a hurdle in his heart, like that kind of tumor that looks smooth but still has a stubborn root. No one was willing to dig out this piece of rotten flesh from the bottom of his heart, but Shen Jianan's death forced him to face this fact that had been buried for a long time.He didn't answer Bai Zizheng's question, but instead asked, "Xiaobai, are you angry?"

Bai Zizheng said: "To be honest... I don't like that you care about him so much. But compared to you caring about him, I don't like that you don't tell me anything. If Xiaohui hadn't told me this time, you planned to hide it from me When? When I come back in three days, how are you going to explain it to me? Or let the teacher find another reason to keep me until you settle the matter? "

Chi Lang is silent, it's not that he doesn't want to talk about Shen Jianan, it's more because he can't find a suitable opportunity to speak.He shook his head: "I told him..." He thought, what else is there to say, you can say anything, but there is no need to say anything, "I went to his house last night..." Fingerprints, shoes India... maybe a hair or two, all the evidence against him should have been left at that time.At this time, he almost knew who the murderer was, and the process of thinking gave him an extra headache, and his temples throbbed, as if it was the sequelae left by the brain hemorrhage four years ago. There is an illusion of reverse flow of blood.

He slowly said: "He and I... When I met him, I was just in the sophomore year. We started dating in the third year. At that time, we rented a house outside. At that time, I was already running cases with the teacher. It is more convenient to live outside. When I graduated, it happened to be the bottleneck of the provincial capital case. When I came home, I came out with my dad. First, I wanted to stay and work in the provincial capital, and second, I felt that we had been together for more than two years. , with a stable partner, my dad would not think that I was joking. But you also know the result later, it was very difficult for me to come out of the closet, and I was very scared. I didn’t want him to worry, so I said I was I was beaten up for being righteous, and only Hai Yang knew the truth. When my dad hit me on the head, a blood clot was left in my brain. Until one time I went on a business trip with my teacher, and I hadn’t contacted my family for more than a week. When I came back from the station, I wanted to go back and have a look. By the way, I asked the teacher to sit upstairs and have a cup of tea. I found that there was a lot less stuff in the house, and he left me a letter on the living room table."

He was actually a little dazed when he thought of these things, but he didn’t have any special emotions from the perspective of an outsider. It’s funny to say: “The letter said that he is not too young, and his parents have been urging him to get married quickly. It’s just big, and accused me of being a workaholic this year, often traveling for a few weeks, and when I came back, I was worse than my roommate, saying that I was cold and violent, so I might as well break up, and confessed that I went back to my hometown several times this year It's all for a blind date. Now the marriage partner has been decided, and the parents of both parties are very satisfied. This time, I left without saying goodbye just to go back to get a certificate and set up a drink. Let me see that I don't want to go to him because of my previous love, and let me be kind to myself. Treasure, he won't be able to take care of me in the future. I was tired for several days at the time, and being stimulated by him like this...it was really dark, and I didn't know anything."

He seemed to be sighing but also eloquent: "Later, Haiyang told me that fortunately the teacher was there at the time, and the first aid was timely, and I would have died a few minutes later. I lay in the hospital for more than half a year. The sequelae of cerebral hemorrhage, I was like a waste when I was in a wheelchair all day, and then I gradually got better. At that time, I thought... I might not know him at all, he is different from me, maybe we have never been the same A person in the same world. He is weak in nature and would rather have an underground relationship than to disclose our relationship. He said that I am not as good as a roommate. In fact, I have always been his "roommate" to the outside world. But from my point of view, the teacher and Haiyang and the others knew about my relationship with Shen Jianan, and I never thought of hiding anything, I was still in the provincial department at the time, and there were not a few people who knew that I was gay."

"During the treatment, the doctor talked about the blood clot in my brain, saying that it and being too emotional were the triggers of my cerebral hemorrhage. Only then did Brother Jiu and the teacher know about my coming out with my family. Haiyang was very angry at the time and said I came out because of him, and my dad beat me because of him, if my dad didn't hit me, I wouldn't have that blood clot in my brain, if he didn't 'leave a book and run away', I wouldn't be so mad The extent of blood vessels. I really hated him at that time. If I want to get married, I will get married. If I really want to break up, I won’t stalk him, and I will leave a letter... Don’t you have the courage to say it face to face? What does he think of me? Who have you become?"

The author has something to say:

Hey, I didn't coordinate the time to go to work and write articles_(:зゝ∠)_

I don't dare to draw a line for myself now when I can finish writing this article...

But I still want to seek the opinions of the little angels who are still reading the article...

First of all, let me be honest, the outline of this article was only written about the ex-boyfriend's case orz, so it would be better to directly usher in the HE ending after finishing this case, or write another case to buffer it, and take the ordinary life as the HE What about the ending (I feel that the latter is far away from the end of the full text, lie down)

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But neither of them is responsible for solving the bad ending problem hahaha

——Hey, is it really okay to directly predict the unfinished ending?

——After writing so many articles, I am still a little self-aware_(:зゝ∠)_

Also about this chapter...

Scientifically speaking, most patients with cerebral hemorrhage have sequelae ==, such as speech impairment and movement impairment, but for novels, don’t take it so seriously. Lao Chi is hard enough, so don’t make him speechless or hemiplegia up (hey)

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