So the pond will drown

The young man lost all hope in an instant,

The monster almost lost his mind.

……

No one expected that Lin Yuan's illness would come so suddenly.

When Jiang Yu rushed to the rescue room, Gu Chi and Gao Xuan were already there.

Gu Chi sat on the bench with a blank expression, his expression was flat, without any trace of eagerness or anxiety.

Before Jiang Yu came here, he had thought that he might go crazy, collapse and be at a loss, but he didn't expect that he would be so calm, as if the person inside was not his mother, but an irrelevant person.

But the more this happened, the more scared Jiang Yu became. He probably put all the worries and fears in his life on Gu Chi.

How calm the surface is, how turbulent the heart is.

He knows what it's like.

Ye Xiuqing was like this when he died, this is the precursor of the boy turning into a monster.

He was the chief culprit who pushed the boy into the abyss, he didn't dare to get close, he only dared to watch from a distance, observing Gu Chi's every move, he was really afraid that he would collapse suddenly.

This corridor of the hospital is silent and deserted.

The ground is white and translucent, with a coolness, reflecting the figures of the monster and the boy, with a chill above everything else.

Even if the warm sun is overflowing at this time, it cannot save the frost and snow at this moment.

Quiet, it's really too quiet, quiet people tremble in their hearts, so quiet that they can even hear their weak breathing clearly, as if everything in the world has disappeared, and there is a penetrating cold white everywhere, the lights on in the emergency room are probably like this The only hot thing at the moment.

It's just that this silent scene is unavoidably chilling.

Lin Yuan is such a kind-hearted woman, but God did not show her any mercy. He took away her favorite husband, broke her healthy body, and shattered her hope and happiness. Several people can't wait for her rebirth.

So the so-called reincarnation of heaven is nothing but wishful thinking of the world.

Jiang Yu stood not far away, and Gu Chi sat at the door of the emergency room.

The two of them just remained silent.

They are like two people isolated from the world, and they are also people from two worlds.

Both jade and stone were burned, liver and gallbladder collided, and ashes were wiped out.

Two hours later, the lights went out, and the doctor came out with a slumped face.

They probably already know the outcome.

"Patient's relatives... let's go in and meet for the last time, sorry, we have tried our best..."

This extremely powerless and helpless sentence has caused many people to despair and fall into the bottomless abyss and endless darkness.

As if all his strength had been exhausted, Gu Chi stood up staggeringly, nodded, said "thank you" lightly, and even pulled the corner of his lips very slightly, maintaining his politeness.

He took a deep breath and walked in slowly.

He can only comfort himself by deluding himself, that his mother's life has been hard enough, and only when she sees him well, will she feel at ease and join hands with her father to go to a better place, instead of staying in the world to suffer.

He should be happy for her.

Also unload everything, and there is Jiang Yu not far away.

Jiang You didn't say a word, just stood not far away and watched Gu Chi's slender and thin figure gradually disappear until it disappeared completely, as if being obliterated by darkness, Jiang You looked at him, and started to be afraid of Gu Chi's slender figure. If you go in, you won't come back.

Worrying about gains and losses, how sad.

After losing Ye Xiuqing, Jiang Yan finally felt the feeling of panic and fear once again.

Suddenly the sea is dry and the rocks are rotten, the sky is falling and the earth is cracking, and the footsteps are staggering, and I don't know why.

The lights in the emergency room were very dim, only the area where Lin Yuan was lying cast a faint white light. Gu Chi walked over slowly with heavy steps and stayed by her side.

She was still the same as before, her brows were gentle, her kindness was like a sunset, and even her hair was extremely gentle, but her face was a little pale, her eyes were closed, and she seemed to have been silent for many years.

"mom……"

Gu Chi heard his own voice that was so hoarse that he could hardly hear it. The word came out, and he didn't know how many emotions were affected in his heart.

He seemed to be saying goodbye all his life, his father, his friends, and finally his mother, how sad.

Lin Yuan's eyelids trembled slightly, and it took a long time before he slowly raised his eyes, looking at Gu Chi with a distracted gaze.

It's like a long dream. After waking up, my mother is still healthy. She will take the place of my father to watch his bright future and see him move forward step by step until he gets married, has children, and has a family of his own. .

But these are all impossible, no matter whether the mother is there or not, she will never appear again, Gu Chi has no future, and no courage to fall in love, he is doomed not to end well, so he will end this miserable life depressedly.

"Xiao Chi, come here." Lin Yuan looked at him weakly, with the usual gentle smile on his lips.

Gu Chi twitched the corners of his mouth, his eyes were flushed, he tried not to shed tears, stepped forward and held his mother's thin and old hand in his warm palm, trying to warm her with the heat of his body.

Lin Yuan looked at him for a while, her eyelids drooped feebly, and it was difficult to breathe, but she knew that she had to say something to make Gu Chi feel at ease, and she was also at ease.

"Xiaochi, mom had a dream just now," she said with a smile, "I dreamed that the clouds opened."

Gu Yunkai is Gu Chi's father, the person he and his mother will never forget for the rest of their lives. Every time they mention it, it's like tearing apart flesh and blood to remove dusty old seals. He is like an indelible brand, deeply imprinted on Gu Chi Chi and his mother felt pain and nostalgia.

Lin Yuan's eyes were full of weak smiles, his consciousness gradually lost consciousness, and his voice gradually lowered. He was clearly talking to Gu Chi, but it seemed like he was talking to himself: "He said he wants me to go with him and stop dragging you down. gone."

Gu Chi clenched his teeth tightly, resisting the pain caused by his throbbing heart, his body trembled slightly, his stomach convulsed like never before, but he lowered his eyes and did not speak.

"Xiao Chi, you've been too tired these years," Lin Yuan sighed, seemingly helpless and distressed, "Mom can't give you anything, this disease has tied you down too deeply, and mother doesn't want to be your burden. We... ...just by your side in another way, but no matter which path you take or what you decide to do in the future, as long as you feel happy, mom and dad...in the future...can't walk with you in the future, you can only rely on You... yourself, actually... actually regret it..."

Lin Yuan's voice lowered, her eyelids slowly closed, and the temperature of her body gradually disappeared, but she seemed not aware of it, and she still murmured: "...but as long as our Xiaochi...as long as Xiaochi is happy... ...Mom loves you...Mom and Dad...love you forever..."

The hand that Gu Chi was holding finally lost the last bit of strength, and it collapsed powerlessly in his palm.

The mother's eyes, which were always full of warmth and softness, would never open again.

The two people who grew up with him completely disappeared from his life. In the next few decades, they were just a handful of loess, and they would never say in surprise to his little growth: "Xiaochi has grown up!"

Of the two people who loved him the most, one died for no apparent reason, and the other died for no apparent reason.

He was left alone to face the suffering in this world.

What was rare was that at this moment he was calm like never before. He was stunned for a long time looking at his mother's calm and serene face, and then he smiled sourly after a while, and whispered: "Mom, I love you too."

Jiang Yu watched Gu Chi slowly come out of the emergency room. There were no tears on his pale face, and he showed no expression at all. He lowered his eyes and walked out slowly. His lips were the same color as his face, so his eyelashes were extra thick Black, black and white cannot be blended after all, but they are not abrupt.

Jiang Yu looked at the dead and lifeless Gu Chi, dense throbbing pain invaded his body and mind, he couldn't see it anymore... he could no longer see the ray of light on the boy's body, the stars finally lost their brilliance and fell straight down, Never flicker.

Gu Chi is like a skin that has lost its soul, the clear and bright boy has become a mechanical, cold-blooded walking dead.

He really wanted to go forward and say something to him, but when he opened his mouth, he found that he was afraid to speak, how dare he... He is the chief culprit, he is the root of all evil, he is the one who pushed the boy down, he is guilty .

But this time it was Gu Chi who walked towards him. Gu Chi even just glanced at him indifferently, his eyes were pale, as pale as dead ashes, and his face was exactly the same as the cold white lights in the corridor of the rescue room. In an instant, I felt that my heart was tightly clenched by an invisible hand, and that hand was still kneading|kneading|squeezing|pressing, and he couldn't stop the pain all over his body. He couldn't even tell, this was the first time he felt panicked and helpless because of Gu Chi's initiative, and only then did he realize his frustration.

What he gives him is always pain, so that he forgets to ask him to be happy

"Cremate my mother and bury it with my father," Gu Chi said with all his strength, "There is no need for a funeral..."

My mother said before that she has no relatives in this world other than him. If there is a funeral, it will be deserted, which is a joke. The ceremony, for her, is probably the best destination.

The world is noisy, and Gu Chi doesn't want to disturb her.

"Thank you."

When these two words came out, Jiang Yu's heart and breathing seemed to stop, as if the river had reached its shore, gradually submerging the mountains and rivers of the world, soaking his cold viscera, he thought that the heart was as invincible as ice, but he forgot that icebergs can also melt, and warm water patronizes him Caught off guard and cold, people are unprepared.Jiang Yu was so uncomfortable that he couldn't speak, as if countless fine needles were pricking his wound closely. Compared with the storm-like blow, this kind of torture like wind and rain was the most fatal.

This was the first time Gu Chi said "thank you" to him, and it was also the last time Jiang Yu wanted him to say this word.

He didn't even dare to look him directly.

"Ok, I……"

Gu Chi suddenly fell down.

"Gu Chi!"

……

Jiang Yu quietly took care of Lin Yuan's funeral. He found Gu Yunkai's cemetery and followed Gu Chi's instructions to bury Lin Yuan's ashes with Gu Yunkai.

The wind was very cold and the weather was not good. There were yellowed trees around the cemetery, and there was a scent of green grass, but it was inexplicably bitter.

Jiang Yu asked Zhang He to wait outside the cemetery, and stood alone in front of Gu Chi's parents' tombstone for a long time. After a long time, he slowly bent down, knelt down, and looked at a man he had never met and a man who met by chance. The woman kowtowed three times.

He has always been dignified and indifferent, cold-blooded and undisciplined, he has never kneeled before anyone, and he doesn't think that anyone has such value that he should put down his body and kneel before him.

But this time he had to kneel, even if he knelt for a whole day until his head bleeds, it wasn't enough, none of these could atone for his sins.

He ruined the treasure held in the palms of the two respected elders, completely eclipsing the stars.

He pleaded guilty and was sentenced to death by Gu Chi, but he also pleaded that they would bless the boy he likes in heaven to be safe and happy, and happy every year.

At the beginning, he tied Gu Chi by his side by all means and hoped that he would stay here forever. Later, he used all his clumsy love to hope that Gu Chi would accept him slowly, but now he only begged Gu Chi to be happy. I think the world is worth it.

That day when Gu Chi collapsed in the hospital, for a moment Jiang You even felt his heart stop beating suddenly, as if he followed Gu Chi and turned off all functions. When he woke up, he was empty-handed and Gu Chi was no longer there. He was in his arms, at that moment he was suddenly terrified, and suddenly figured it out inexplicably, even if Gu Chi didn't love him for the rest of his life, it didn't matter if he didn't like him, as long as he was happy, he could do whatever he wanted.

The world only likes the shining moon. If the bright moon loses its brilliance, only the mottled and ugly surface remains.

In the past, Jiang Yu also thought that what he liked was only the young man who seemed to be covered with a layer of golden light. It was not until he kept Gu Chi by his side, bit by bit cruelly extinguishing his light, that he realized that what he liked was only It's just Gu Chi, even if he is depraved, he is still Gu Chi, the Gu Chi that Jiang Yu likes.

Jiang Yu didn't stay here any longer, he stood up and patted the dust on his knees, then turned and left.

He was afraid that his filth would spoil the two noble elders for nothing.

Zhang He was waiting by the car, and he had just finished answering the phone when Jiang Yu went out.

"what happened?"

"Dr. Fu's phone call said that Gu Chi has woken up, it's just..." Zhang He paused, lowered his eyes, "The condition is not very good."

Jiang Yan's expression darkened: "Understood."

……

Gu Chi didn't cry or make trouble. After waking up, he didn't say a single word except "Is my mother's funeral settled?"

He just sat there quietly, and when Fu Dong brought him food, he also ate quietly, even eating more than usual, eating whatever he liked and disliked, and lay down and closed his mouth after eating His eyes were closed, and his face was ashen, almost blending with the white pillows of the hospital.

Fu Dongxin had a faint feeling of bad premonition.

Neither of them dared to go out, they stayed in front of Gu Chi's bed, he had been in a coma for two days, and he just woke up now, Fu Dong was worried, fearing that there would be some emotional problems with him.

"Can you go out?" Gu Chi suddenly raised his head from under the quilt, looking at them palely and weakly.

Fu Dong's heart shuddered, but he was still not at ease: "But you..."

"I'm fine, you guys go out." Gu Chi's voice was muffled under the quilt.

The two looked at each other in bewilderment, and finally Fu Dong sighed: "Then you... have a good rest, we will stay outside if there is anything to do."

Then he went out lightly, closing the door carefully for fear of disturbing him.

Having lost his only family member in the world, Fu Dong thought that Gu Chi really needed time to recover.

Not long after, Jiang Yan rushed over, and was not surprised to see Fu Dong and Gao Ying outside, and sat opposite them without saying a word.

"How...how is he?" Jiang Yu's voice was hoarse.

Fu Dong glanced at him, seeing his dejected expression, after all he still couldn't bear to say anything radical to him, after all, Jiang Yu was also a patient.

He sighed softly, and said helplessly: "It's very peaceful, but it can be seen that the condition is very bad. I will let Su Pingchuan come over and talk to him."

Jiang Yu nodded lightly and didn't say anything more.

Fu Dong looked at him, hesitated to speak, and thought carefully for a while before saying, "Don't worry too much..."

He was afraid that Jiang Yu would affect him because of Gu Chi's affairs.

He knows Jiang Yu better than anyone else, and he also knows the things Jiang Yu experienced better than anyone else. He doesn't know that what he knows is not comprehensive, but Fu Dong is sure that no one around Jiang Yu knows more than anyone else. There are so many of them, just the tip of the iceberg is enough to make Fu Dong terrified.

Although he would always secretly think of Jiang Yu, this is not okay, that is not right, but sometimes he would feel sorry for him, Jiang Yu's life was very gloomy, if he really liked someone, how bright he could use to keep him By your side?

The four of them sat in silence, the quiet needle drop could be heard in the corridor, and the nurses couldn't bear to hold their breath. This kind of oppressive feeling can penetrate deeply into people's hearts, go straight to the bone marrow, and it is deep-seated.

I don't know how long it took before Jiang Yu raised his eyes slightly, at this time Gu Chi was probably already asleep.

"I'll go in and see him," he said.

No one stopped him.

Jiang Yu stood up, carefully opened the door handle, and walked in quietly.

Gu Chi still hadn't woken up, still closed his eyes quietly, his face was terribly pale, his brows were slightly frowned, he looked a little uncomfortable, Jiang Yu was no better than him.

He took a deep breath, went over and pulled the quilt to cover his exposed shoulders, and was about to sit down with him for a while, when he suddenly saw that the quilt on the other side of Gu Chi was a little red, he thought it was the nurse who took it. The dirty quilt came over, and was frowning to go out and talk to Fu Dong, but when he picked it up to look at it, he found that it wasn't that the quilt hadn't been washed, but that the quilt was soaked in blood, Jiang Yu almost couldn't breathe, and maintained the last With a little consciousness, he lifted the quilt, and instantly lost his mind.

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