So the pond will drown

A boy is a gift from God to monsters,

Monsters are the cruelest torture given to teenagers by God.

……

When Su Pingchuan came down from upstairs, his complexion was not very good, and he could be seen distracted by the naked eye.

Jiang Yu looked at him, his heart tightened, his intuition was not very good, he stood up from the sofa, but saw that he did not speak, he was afraid that he would not hear the desired result.

Su Pingchuan glanced at him, sighed, and stopped talking.

"What's the matter?" Seeing him hesitating, Jiang Yu was inexplicably anxious.

The two were silent for a while, Su Pingchuan shook his head extremely slightly, and wanted to reach out to pat Jiang Yu's shoulder, but after thinking about it, he took his hand back and said in a low voice, "He hasn't slept well recently, you... ...Let's pay more attention to him."

"What do you mean?" Jiang Yu didn't quite understand.

Su Pingchuan twitched the corner of his mouth, and said with a smile: "It's nothing, it's just that he's not in a good condition, and he may commit suicide, anyway... You still have to pay more attention, and then, don't force him on some things. "

Jiang Yu was stunned, and lowered his eyes.

Except for letting him go, up to now, he can promise him anything else, and he can do whatever he wants.

"Okay, Young Master Jiang, although you didn't do this well, the situation outside is really not suitable for letting him go. When I find a suitable time, I will let Fu Dong come over and have a talk with him." Su Ping Chuan said, "But the premise is that he is still there."

Su Pingchuan left after finishing speaking, but Jiang Yu was stunned for a long time, he didn't understand what his last sentence meant and didn't dare to think deeply.

Jiang Yu knew that he had to control his emotions, Gu Chi already hated him enough, he couldn't let him hate him any more.

But thinking about it, he was really not reconciled.

Gu Chi is really like this... Do you want to leave him?

Jiang Yu smiled wryly, fell down on the sofa, raised his head and closed his eyes, exhaled a breath of cool air, only felt a pain in his heart, like a knife stirring inside, the pain made him suffocate.

He sometimes thought, if Ye Xiuqing had killed him with a knife, it would have been great if he hadn't lived because of Lu Shenyan.

Will Gu Chi become different then, or is he that sunny and warm boy who is full of kindness to everyone?He will have a bright future, he will walk in the bustling streets, and the most dazzling neon lights in the world will fall on him.

If Gu Chi does not meet Jiang Yu, he is still Gu Chi, a better Gu Chi; if Jiang Yu does not meet Gu Chi, he is still Jiang Yu, the dirtiest Jiang Yu in every corner.

He used to think that Gu Chi was a gift from heaven to him, so he was complacent and happy, but he never thought that he would be his punishment, the cruelest torture God gave Gu Chi.

Jiang You thought that as long as he treated him better, Gu Chi would like him, but he forgot that he had spent years trying to please his mother, who was still blaming his birth and existence when he was dying, and cursing him for a bad death.

Relatives who are connected by blood hate him so much, let alone Gu Chi.

In the year he returned to Jiang's house, he spent almost every day chasing and being hunted. The most serious time was that he was shot twice and almost failed to get off the operating table. It was Fu Dong who desperately pulled him back. The moment he came, he was thinking, what is the point of all this?Is there any other use for his existence besides staining the land with more blood?

Why didn't he die?

Until he met Gu Chi, he thought, maybe he didn't die so soon just to let him meet him.

So he thought that Gu Chi was his salvation, that such a good person as Gu Chi would definitely save him, but he forgot that Gu Chi was kind, but not a saint, he had no obligation to save him, and no one stipulated that he must love him.

In his life, all those who want to stay will eventually leave him.

……

During dinner, Gu Chi was hungry very quickly, and went down without waiting for Jiang Yu to come down, but he didn't expect to bump into Zhang Shen who was coming to meet him.

Zhang Shen really doesn't look like a chef, he is still the same as the last time we met, wearing a thin windbreaker and baggy casual clothes, with an unlit cigarette in his mouth, he has a ruffian face, The gangster is angry, it doesn't look like they are here to cook, but they are here to fight.

Seeing Gu Chi coming down, his eyes lit up, he smiled in surprise, and said, "Oh, it's really rare that Young Master Gu has finally come out again, I thought I would only see you that way in my life."

Gu Chi twitched the corners of his mouth, didn't speak, and glanced around casually, but he didn't see Jiang Yu.

"He's not at home, so he called me and asked me to come in and cook for you. I don't know what he was doing." Zhang Shen saw through Gu Chi's thoughts at a glance.

Gu Chi was stunned for a moment, and gave a faint "oh", but didn't respond, since it doesn't matter if he is there or not.

"Your complexion is much uglier than last time." Zhang Shen was rather rough, and said whatever came to mind.

Gu Chi didn't speak, stood up and took the bowls and chopsticks in silence, and asked very politely and friendly by the way: "Do you want to eat together?"

He thought that Zhang Shen would refuse, but who knew that this person really didn't see anyone at all, so he immediately sat down at the dining table with a smile on his face: "If Young Master Gu invited me, how could I have the nerve to refuse."

"..."

Fine.

It's like lifting a rock and shooting yourself in the foot.

Gu Chi was a little speechless, and the people around Jiang Yu were quite speechless.

But this kind of feeling is really strange. Serving someone a meal is a behavior that only the host is a guest at home. He is neither the host nor the guest, but Zhang Shen is too self-conscious.

The two eat their own food and don't bother anyone.

Halfway through the meal, Zhang Shen held a piece of meat, admired it, and asked him with a smile, "Hey, what do you think of my fried food?"

Gu Chi glanced at him, and said perfunctorily, "It's okay."

In fact, it is very delicious, and five-star restaurants can't make this kind of taste.

Zhang Shen was very clear about his own strength, inexplicably confident, and said with a smile: "Hey, don't think I will be humble, I know it's delicious, otherwise how could Jiang Yu let me come to his house to serve three meals a day."

"..." Gu Chi didn't want to talk to him anymore.

Quite baffling.

"Hey Gu Chi, do you know the relationship between me and Jiang Yu?" Zhang Shen suddenly said mysteriously.

Gu Chi's hands that were making trouble paused, and said in a deep voice, "I don't want to know."

Zhang Shen didn't care whether he wanted to know or not, he poked a chopstick in the rice with each hand, and said to himself: "I used to hang out with him. He is really powerful. He dared to fight people desperately at a young age." , but at that time it wasn't me hanging out with him, it was I who wanted to lead him, but later on he became more and more powerful, and I abdicated when I got old."

Gu Chi thought to himself, you seem to be out to mess around now.

"Hey, but I'm not as miserable as him." Zhang Shen said, "I was kicked out of my family because I didn't do my job at most. I still have money to spend, and my parents are not the kind of hard-hearted people. Jiang Yu just His mother seemed to be dead during those days when he was out, and then the Ye family and the Jiang family didn’t want him, so they threw him aside, and they really threw him away, anyway, there is no relationship between the two sides.”

Gu Chi paused his hand and lowered his eyes.

"I heard an insider say that Jiang Yu killed his mother himself and was kicked out, so I fucked him, Jiang You was such a good kid at the time, how could he kill his mother, he loves his mother the most " Zhang Shen was full of resentment, "What about his mother... It's really hard to say, but whoever dares to say that his mother is too talkative, Jiang Yu will go up and fight people desperately."

Gu Chi listened quietly, but he didn't have time to realize that what Zhang Shen was talking about was about Jiang Yu's childhood.

Zhang Shen glanced at him quietly, hooked the corners of his lips imperceptibly, and continued: "His mother died early, and... well, she doesn't really love him, she just uses him as a bargaining chip to marry into the Gu family." At that time, Jiang Yu wanted to protect her wholeheartedly and prevent her from being hurt by Jiang's family. Who knew that he would become the murderer his mother said in the end, and he still couldn't keep her in the end..."

"Speaking of which, Jiang Yu had a younger sister before. She was a cute girl. I met her. She even joked about making the little girl grow up and marry me. She was almost kicked to death by Jiang Yu. Others don't know about it, but I think It can be seen that Jiang Yu valued this younger sister very much, and was impatient with her on the surface, but in fact, he was obedient. At that time, Jiang Zihang... oh, it was Jiang Yu's dead brother, he didn't dare to do anything to Jiang Yu, After all, there is a Ye family behind Jiang Yu, and he has a bad temper, so he likes to oppress his sister and her biological mother."

When Zhang Shen thought of that bitch Jiang Zihang, his teeth itch with hatred, and he thought it would be easy to kill him.

Gu Chi didn't know when he hadn't eaten, his fingertips turned white when he held the chopsticks with his fingers, and he was a little absent-minded.

"It's a pity that the little sister didn't wait until she grows up to marry me, and Jiang Yu still didn't protect her." Zhang Shen had a little sadness in his eyes, and his expression was bitter.

"What's wrong with her?" Gu Chi suddenly looked up at him and asked, his voice hoarse.

Zhang Shen was taken aback, looked at him with a forced smile, and said, "Dead."

Gu Chi lowered his eyes.

"Her mother was raped by Jiang Yang. She was a college student or a belle from a famous school. The family was quite feudal. When she heard that her daughter was raped, she didn't want to report it. She took her to find Jiang Yang and asked Jiang Yang to give it to her. A title..." Zhang Shen gritted his teeth, and when he frowned, he looked even more like a ruffian, "I can't give you a title, but Jiang Yang didn't want to let such an excellent girl go, so she became Jiang Yang's foster daughter. The lover outside was forced to give birth to Jiang Yu's younger sister, Jiang Ke, who had a nervous breakdown not long after."

Gu Chi listened quietly, without saying a word, thinking in his heart that Jiang Yu and Jiang Yang are worthy of being father and son, but after thinking about it, it is not like this, and he can't tell what is different, anyway, there is something wrong.

"Jiang Ke couldn't get a mother's love, and he didn't get much favor from Jiang's family. Later, he met Jiang Yu and heard that he was also an illegitimate child, so he felt a little bit of sympathy for him, and kept clinging to him, chasing after him and calling him brother. It's so annoying, that kid...it's the first time I've seen him look helpless." Zhang Shen smiled as he thought about it.

At that time, Jiang Yu was still immature, with a cold surface, but in fact he was trying to protect his only sister in his own way.

"But... because of some accident, Jiang Ke's mother suddenly lost control of her emotions and took Jiang Ke to jump into the river. It happened to be raining heavily that day, and the water was rushing, and the body was not even found..." Zhang Shen pinched his palms red .

Gu Chi's expression moved slightly, and a little inexplicable feeling suddenly filled his heart.

Gu Chi himself understood the feeling of losing a close relative, so he felt the same for no reason.

Zhang Shen took a big sip of the water beside him, the smile disappeared from his face just now, he fixedly looked at him and said, "Gu Chi, I was entrusted by Dr. Su to tell you these things today."

He had nothing to hide, he just said it.

Gu Chi frowned. In fact, he could vaguely guess when Zhang Shen started talking about Jiang Yu, but he didn't know why, but he didn't interrupt.

Probably he wanted to hear what kind of things made Jiang Yu ruthlessly vent these pains on him.

"Jiang Yu... may not be a good person, but as a friend who has been with him for so many years, I know what kind of person he is. Maybe he did use inappropriate ways to make you stay when it comes to loving you I made some bad memories and hurt you, but I say this not to want you to forgive him, but just to let you know that you are unique to him, and he once wanted to protect it with all his strength Both of them have left him, I hope you...can give him a little patience. He only has you in this world, if you leave him, there is no point in his life." Zhang Shen's tone was calm, and there was no meaning for him. The joy of meeting him for the first time is not like the teasing when I talked to him just now, but it seems to be serious about something extremely important.

"Gu Chi, if there are no cute people in this life, why don't you try Jiang Yu?"

Gu Chi was taken aback for a moment, his mind went blank for a moment.

He really...has no cute people anymore, but can he be Jiang Yu's turn?

He is the culprit, why should the victim fall in love with the suspect

Gu Chi paused for a long time, then looked at him blankly, and said coldly: "Will you fall in love with someone who ruins your life?"

Zhang Shen looked at him for a while, then smiled: "Gu Chi, think about the bright side, maybe...Jiang Yu is also the one who saved you."

Gu Chi didn't realize what it meant, and Zhang Shen didn't give him a chance to react, and said softly, "Gu Chi, if you really feel that there is no hope, we will never stop you after taking the sleeping pills given by Dr. Su. Jiang Yu's life is quite meaningless. It's fine to die with you. Sometimes we get tired watching him. Of course, if you still want to continue living, you can call Fu Dong at any time. He knows. Everything about Jiang Yu is more comprehensive than ours, and may be able to answer some doubts for you."

Until Zhang Shen left, Gu Chi was still in a daze.

Jiang Yu's past...

Why should he care about Jiang Yu's past?Does Jiang Yu have anything to do with him?

No matter how unfortunate it is, it is not an excuse to hurt someone at will.

He is also very unfortunate, so what should he do?So I can only hurt myself. There is nothing wrong with the world, but he is the one who is wrong. After all, there are people who are happy.

Gu Chi went upstairs weakly. He closed the book that was blown open by the pillow. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw the sleeping pills on the bedside table and remembered what Su Pingchuan had said to him.

——"Gu Chi, I really can't persuade you to accept Jiang Yu from my own point of view. As a doctor, it's remiss of me to prescribe so many sleeping pills to you without permission, but now, from the point of view of a friend, I sincerely hope You can escape, if death is your escape, it doesn’t matter how Jiang Yu blames me afterwards, maybe your departure will make him understand the meaninglessness of his life; but the way of escape I hope you can accept is to try To get to know him, I didn't have much friendship with him. In fact, I only met four or five times this time. He did have psychological trauma. He never admitted it before. In his opinion, apart from He himself, everything in this world is wrong, but in order to love you better, he not only received treatment, but also made great concessions in many things. He is imprisoning you now, indeed to protect you You just used a not-so-good way to express your love for you."

Gu Chi closed his eyes and sighed softly, his ears buzzing, he couldn't understand these words for a while, maybe he understood, but he just didn't want to do it.

Jiang Yu is pitiful, but he is so innocent.

Gu Chi picked up the bottle of sleeping pills on the bedside table, poured it out, put it in his palm and admired it for a while, then smiled wryly:

"Who can't live without it?"

They all advised him to understand Jiang Yu, to try to like him, to love him, but if he really accepted Jiang Yu regardless of the past, it would be unfair to Chen Ran, Chu Yang and Zhou Hong. They left because of him, and also because of him. Unlucky.

So he dared not try.

Years later, when Gu Chi thought about this again, he suddenly understood that if he really loves someone deeply, no matter how much he hurts you and pushes you away, you can't stop the raging love in your heart.

That is something no one can control.

So some people are crazy about love and crazy about love.

And when you go through all the sufferings in this world until despair, and suddenly meet someone worthy of your love and dependence, you will feel that everything is not so bad. He is all your hope and the driving force for you to live. If he left, what's the point of keeping him alive?

So some people really can't live without one person.

If you are not a player in the game, how can you know what is going on in the game?

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