So the pond will drown

Monsters are always the most devout believers of teenagers.

Even if time goes by and you and I return to our hometown, no one can stop me from loving you.

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Gu Chi's whole body was stiff, and the cold gun body stimulated his drowsy brain. As if he was shocked, he slammed Jiang Yu's hand away, but Jiang Yu's strength was very strong, and he had no strength at all. In vain, his heart went cold in an instant.

"Jiang Yu, I don't want blood on my hands, or do you think I won't kill you?" Gu Chi stared at him, clenching his teeth tightly.

Hearing his words, Jiang You was neither angry nor violent, but smiled after watching him for a long time: "Gu Chi, otherwise we can discuss, I'll die, you live, I commit suicide, I promise not to let the blood splash You won't let you see, I'll give you everything I have, okay?"

If his death can keep Gu Chi alive, then he still has something to miss, but...

"Xiao Chi, you have to learn to protect yourself, otherwise what will you do if you meet someone like me in the future?" Jiang Yu said softly.

Gu Chi couldn't tell what it was like in his heart at that moment, countless complicated things were churning inside, making him uncomfortable and restless.He didn't even dare to think about the taste in it, he obviously hated Jiang Yu so much, why did he hesitate until now?Is it the sympathy and pity for hearing Zhang Shen talk about Jiang Yu's past?Or something else, he doesn't know, but at least he can be sure now that he doesn't want to kill Jiang Yu anymore, maybe it's because he's tired, maybe he doesn't have enough hatred and he wants Jiang Yu to die.

He didn't want Jiang Yu to see it, and he didn't want him to catch his weakness.

Gu Chi tilted his head and gritted his teeth: "So what if you're dead? Can you give me back what I lost? You buried all the good things in the ground, why don't you allow me to get them back? Are you very proud to see me in pain? After all, you are not me, and you will never be able to experience all the suffering here..."

As he spoke, he choked up for some reason, and at that moment, it seemed that all the pain was revealed, and everything he escaped hit him head-on and caught him off guard.

Mother's death...a hopeless future...

Jiang Yu was silent for a long time, and Gu Chi didn't speak any more. For a moment in the room, the drop of a needle could be heard, and each other's shallow breathing could be heard. The beating heart in the chest cavity was probably their clearest voice, so frenzied and painful. , tangled and complicated.

The gains and losses of the entanglement between the two people probably will not be clear for a lifetime.

I don't know how long it has passed, it was so long that Gu Chi even started to lose his mind before he felt Jiang Yu let go of his hand, the black breasts glowed an unsuitable warm yellow under the dim light in the room , fell straight to the ground, leaving behind a muffled sound, which brought Gu Chi back to his senses. He turned his head to look at Jiang Yu, and he was so shocked that he couldn't move at just one glance, let alone hold him in his palm. hands away.

The young master of the Jiang family, who ruled the whole Nanyang lawlessly, is so arrogant and flamboyant that he seems to be careless in everything. In people's eyes, he is probably invincible, like a cold machine without joy, anger, sorrow or joy.But it was him who was so frivolous and arrogant, holding his hand at this moment, lowering his head, pressing his cold forehead against the back of his hand... crying.

He could even feel a slight tremor in his body.

A long time ago, Gu Chi, like everyone else, thought that Jiang Yu was a ruthless and unjust monster. He was lazy on the surface, but in fact he was arrogant and sick.

The harm he caused to Gu Chi was innumerable. He drove away everyone around him just to keep him by his side.So Gu Chi used to think that Jiang Yu's liking for him was just a whim, not the real liking, but the owner's love for pets, because only pets will fall into the hands of people and be manipulated by others. So Gu Chi hated him, hated him, hated him, and always hoped that Jiang Yu would get rid of him as soon as possible.

But slowly he realized that he had misunderstood him. Jiang Yu was not attracted to him on a whim, but really liked him. It was a kind of extremely paranoid and sickly liking, so sick that he would do anything to keep him by his side and eliminate all possible harm to him. Unfavorable obstacles made him rely on him for the rest of his life, but this was more terrifying than the former.

He would rather Jiang Yan play with him than be bound by this kind of love, torture in the name of love is the most debilitating.

But gradually he discovered that Jiang Yu didn't seem so bad.

The memory of his drunkenness that night gradually came back, and it was precisely because he remembered something that Gu Chi was surprised. The patience of a lifetime followed him blindly, and he bought him everything he wanted, reasonable or unreasonable, including children's clothes and toys, and the small car that is still in the utility room. He called him "crazy" and he also followed He said "I'm sorry" to himself, and he accompanied him to fool around and act with him, but he didn't take advantage of others.

That kind of sex, Jiang Yu only used force on him twice, and the other time he was drugged as a last resort, and the other was eating Xiaohan's vinegar that night. After his back was injured, he blamed himself for not daring to see him, but never No such outrageous thing was done to him.

Gu Chi doesn't deny his disgust and hatred for him, but he can't ignore his kindness either.

When Jiang Yu's warm tears fell on the back of his hand, Gu Chi's nose instantly became sore.

At that moment, all the grievances and pains rushed over like a tide, and the emotions he had tried to suppress for many days actually collapsed faintly under the influence of Jiang Yu, Gu Chi could only try his best to endure.

He didn't understand why Jiang Yu was crying, the most painful thing was why did he use tears to win his sympathy?

It's just that Gu Chi likes this one the most.

"Xiaochi... I, I can't live without you..." Jiang Yu choked up, buried his face in his palm like a child begging for candy, more tears fell on his hands, but dripped into his heart .

Gu Chi gritted his teeth and said nothing.

"I can't lose you...I can't do anything well, do what I want to do, love the person I want to love, and I can't keep you..." Jiang Yu's voice was hoarse, his shoulders slightly trembling.

This was the first time Gu Chi saw him cry. The high-ranking nobleman and the fearful Nanyang Satan would have tears and endless grievances.

Thinking about it again, what is so special about Jiang Yu, he is obviously only a high school student, even younger than him, why does it become so that people forget his identity as a teenager?Instead, is it the monster that grinds its teeth and drinks blood in everyone's heart?

Gu Chi was completely speechless, he was afraid that if he opened his mouth, the flood-like emotions would throw him into a mess, and instead let Jiang Yu see his cowardice.

"Xiaochi, sometimes I feel that life is very boring. Before I met you, I had more than one...thought of begging for death, and even hoped that one day someone would shoot me and make me disappear from this ridiculous and filthy person. In the world, after I met you, I suddenly didn't hate this world so much. If all the hardships I experienced before were for me to meet you, then why not..." Jiang Yu said, "I have thought about sinking Falling into the abyss for a lifetime, it was your appearance that made me look forward to immortality, wishing that you and I would stay together like this forever, anyway, there is still such a long time, you will always like me, right? Even if you don’t like it, at least It won't be so annoying..."

Jiang You closed his eyes, let go of Gu Chi's hand almost resignedly, lowered his eyes, and said in a deep voice, "Xiao Chi, I really want to not let go of your hand for the rest of my life, but Fu Dong said let me respect you, So I just want to ask you about kissing you, holding you and hugging you in the future, and I will implement it after getting your consent, but I am probably used to being a hooligan in my bones, and I want to do this if I like... Xiaochi, I delayed you, I can't do it To be so polite and gentle, to advance and retreat with you."

If it weren't for him, Gu Chi would probably find a wife who respected him as a guest in the future, just like Chen Ran. The two could respect and trust each other, and the child they would give birth to would definitely be the happiest in the world. , Gu Chi has no expectations for anything now, he broke off his wings with his own hands, and let the bird be trapped to death in this barren old forest.

"But...Xiaochi, I beg you not to let me lose you again, okay? I will learn all the politeness and respect you want. You can do whatever you want me to do, and I will try my best to become what you like." Jiang Yu said in a muffled voice, with a pious tone like a believer in God, "When the crisis outside is over, if you still want to leave, I promise not to stop you, so now... can you not leave me?"

He is a lunatic and a monster, and the people around him will not end well, yet he pulls down such a good Gu Chi without hesitation.

He's guilty, he's dirty and dirty, he can't live well and love others badly.

His liking brought disaster to Gu Chi, and his existence was a nightmare for his whole life.

So he can only be humble, even if he buries himself in the dust, he still begs Gu Chi not to leave him, even if he leaves him, don't leave this world, it's good to have Gu Chi in this world, he doesn't want Gu Chi to miss him because of him It is not necessary or worthwhile to buy better things in this world.

Gu Chi was stunned for a long time, only feeling that his head was blank, something was beating his heart one after another, the pain was so painful that he finally vented out the pain that he had endured for a long time.

He didn't know what to do anymore, he was so tired, so tired that he wanted to give up everything, so tired that he wanted to disappear, so tired that he couldn't live.

He neither has the ability to find the murderer who killed his father, nor is he qualified to forcefully keep his mother behind, so he lost everything, and he would rather die than live.

"But Jiang Yu...I don't have a mother anymore."

Jiang You was taken aback for a long time.

This is a dead end.

He didn't know what to do, he did everything he had to do, he almost used all his strength to find the best medical resources for Lin Yuan, but he still failed, he failed to keep his life for Gu Chi Mother.

When Jiang Yu raised his eyes to look at Gu Chi again, Gu Chi's tears had flowed all over his face, and his heart throbbed violently, his eyes were red again.

Gu Chi didn't cry when he saw his mother die with his own eyes, and he didn't cry when his mother was cremated and buried. The next few days were even more peaceful as if nothing happened, so Jiang Yu was even more worried. It will become a lifetime of nightmares and a stagnation that can never be eliminated. He is very aware of that feeling, and he doesn't want Gu Chi to experience it again, so he tries to get Su Pingchuan and Fu Dong to come over.

Jiang Yu didn't expect that Gu Chi's emotions, which he had endured for so long, would break out at this moment, and in front of him, he broke his strength so defenselessly, Jiang Yu gritted his teeth, his heart ached terribly, The pain was so painful that he couldn't breathe, and the vigorous young man was no match for the tears of his beloved.

He tried his best to carefully wrap him into his arms with the lightest movements. Gu Chi's whole body was sore and weak, and his consciousness was lax, so he didn't have the consciousness to think about who was hugging him.

"Xiaochi... I am here, I will always be here, and I will always be by your side." Jiang You whispered in his ear with a hoarse voice, and he lightly rested his eyes on Gu Chi's shoulder, but he didn't realize that A small piece has been soaked with his devotion.

Gu Chi twitched his eyelashes extremely slightly, and with the remaining willpower, he figured out who the person in front of him was: "But I don't like you...I don't want you."

Jiang You choked up for a moment, and after a moment of silence, he hugged him even tighter, as if he wanted to wrap him in his arms forever, and connect his flesh and blood closely with his.

"It doesn't matter Xiaochi, whether it's your lover or enemy or... a stranger, I will stay by your side. I will be there wherever you are. From now on, no one will dare to hurt you again," Jiang Yu said. Said in a loud voice, "Gu Chi is not Jiang Yu's now, but Jiang Yu will always be Gu Chi's."

Gu Chi is the god of all people, God loves the world but will not pity monsters, but it doesn't matter, monsters will always be his believers, guarding him or accompanying him or loving him, until death.

Gu Chi's venting this time not only untied the knots accumulated in his heart for a long time, but also made him relax completely. Those things of evasion and self-deception were revealed at once, and he let go of everything in an instant, so This sleep was extraordinarily long.

Jiang Yu didn't know whether it was good or not, after all, Gu Chi would have to face his mother's death as soon as he woke up, although he would have to deal with it sooner or later, but he really didn't want to see Gu Chi's painful and helpless appearance again , so I consulted Su Pingchuan and Fu Dong.

The former congratulated the latter with a bag and came to inquire about the situation.

"What are you doing here?" Jiang Yan looked at the leisurely Fu Dong, frowned, showing obvious displeasure and impatience. After all, in his heart, Fu Dong still had the suspicion of liking Gu Chi, and came so frequently. Those who knew that Gu Chi belonged to him, those who didn't know probably thought that Fu Dong raised his little lover in his home.

But Fu Dong turned a deaf ear to Jiang Yu's childish behavior. After all, he was a doctor, and he could be considered an elder according to his age.

"I can't come? Besides, you put Gu Xingmian's tormenting thing here and I haven't said anything yet. Why are you so defensive when you visit?" Fu Dong sighed as soon as he mentioned that kid.

It was only some time ago that Song Han officially changed his name to Gu Xingmian.

After all, Fu Dong is a single dog, and he has never been in love many times, let alone with a kid. Although he doesn't cry and doesn't make a lot of trouble, he doesn't like toys and new clothes, but he is a child after all, and he had a fever not long ago An attack that almost scared him out of his wits as a proud student who came out of the Higher Medical College. After all, this little thing had a fever and he was unconscious. His methods of reducing fever didn't work, so he drove him away overnight. In the emergency room, you can only get better after getting an injection. Almost all the doctors and nurses there know him. Seeing his panicked look, he almost broke his face from laughing. The little boy is very obedient, so he has no place to vent his anger, and now he has to be misunderstood by the culprit.

"Do you know psychology? Do you understand psychology? Do you know how to talk to Gu Chi so that he can accept and relax the most? He is sleeping now. When he wakes up and thinks about those things, how do you tell him how to make him feel better? Tell you the truth and get rid of this knot?" Fu Dong pointed out Jiang Yu's weakness in one breath.

Jiang Yu was really discouraged instantly, but his eyes were still cold.

"come in."

There is no way, the monster doesn't like the boy well, so there is really no other way but to ask others for help.

The author has something to say:

I too have wasted time,

Even so reckless as to regard death as home,

But because I fell in love with you, I longed for a long life.

——Lin Xi's "Physical Health"

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