So the pond will drown

Sometimes the tide ebbs and flows,

There are countless fates.

love or not

……

"Pleasant personality?" Gu Chi was stunned.

He didn't know what it was, but he always felt an indescribable feeling when he heard these five words.

Bitter and dull.

"Blindly pleasing others, but ignoring his own feelings. Of course, Jiang Yu is special and specific, that is, he only cares about the people he cares about...for example, his mother or...you, others are still the same, but No matter who it is to, it will be extremely detrimental to Jiang Yu." Fu Dong smiled bitterly and looked at Gu Chi, "It's hard to imagine, right? Someone like Jiang Yu would actually try to curry favor with someone."

Gu Chi pursed his lips tightly and lowered his eyes without saying a word.

He suddenly remembered Jiang Yu's unique tenderness and patience towards him, and the image of him holding his hand and sobbing softly yesterday flashed in his mind.

Jiang Yu can cry...he is human, so in fact he can also be in pain.

Not to mention that Gu Chi is unbelievable now, but Fu Dong was not at that time, but at that time, like Gu Chi now, he didn't understand this kind of personality problem, except for surprise, he was surprised, so surprised that he was beaten that day. Yes, and the next day he was still clinging to Jiang Yu.

At that time, Jiang Yan would always go to a fixed place before returning home at night, it was a very dilapidated alley, as long as Fu Dong went there, he would definitely see him sitting in the corner watching the cat.

Yes, at that time there was a black kitten lying on the wall of the alley, it was all dirty, it was only close to Jiang Yu, and anyone who touched it would explode and bite, but later that cat was caught by a little gangster wandering here Playing to death, Jiang Yu was still young at that time, he could fight one person with brute force, but he couldn't deal with a group of people.

Even if the group of gangsters were either disabled or squatted, how could the bloody corpse of the kitten prevent the little Jiang Yu from casting a lifetime of shadows.

He's even been showing uncharacteristic remorse for something that doesn't concern him.

"Actually, Jiang Yu likes small animals very much." Fu Dong suddenly smiled, "I used to raise a puppy, although he was cold to me, but unexpectedly got close to it, if I go to Jiang Yu alone, He will definitely be scolded by him, and maybe he will give him a kick, but as long as he takes the puppy there, Jiang Yan will definitely have a good face, and he will smile when he is happy."

Recalling the scene at that time, Fu Dong thought it was funny.

At that time he became interested in Jiang Yu, and it happened that during the summer vacation he was too busy at home, so he would go to the alley to look for him every three days, and he would kick him away at first, but Fu Dong knew that since they met Jiang Yu for the first time After being ruthless once, no matter how much he annoyed Fu Dong afterwards, he never slapped him hard when chasing him down.

"So I often think now, in fact, he also needs friends. He definitely needs them. He is just afraid that others will hurt him, and he is also afraid that he will hurt others, so he draws a safe range for himself. Anyone who crosses the line will be let He panicked."

Fu Dong sighed: "He was different from us when he was a child. What he faced was not only the abandonment and abuse of his parents, but also the pursuit and killing of the enemies on both sides of the Ye family and the Jiang family. The Ye family is fine, after all, the two elders of the Ye family are very kind. Ye Xiuqing is the only one who is qualified to inherit the Ye family, so there is no need to worry too much about the successor. The Jiang family is different. Jiang Yang was a playboy when he was young , has a very violent temper and offended many people. The Jiang family has a great career, and the power behind it is unimaginable. What's more, it is the heir of the Jiang family. Drowning an illegitimate child, and other things were either killed by Jiang Zihang, or killed by his wife in the stomach."

"So one can imagine what Jiang Yan is facing..."

The enemies of the Jiang family couldn't take revenge on Jiang Yang, so of course the blame would turn on Jiang Yu, and no matter how powerful the Jiang family was, they didn't have time to take care of an illegitimate child living outside. Jiang Ke was fine, her mother was being hidden by Jiang Yang at the time. Outside, she got a certain protection because of this, and Jiang Zihang was not good enough to do something to her like this, so all the dangers fell on Jiang Yu. For Jiang Zihang, Jiang Yu was the biggest threat. No matter how long Jiang Ke stays in Jiang's house, he will not get anything from son to daughter, but if Jiang Yan returns to Jiang's house one day by relying on Ye family, it will be very bad for him.

Gu Chi frowned tightly, he couldn't empathize with Jiang Yu, but just listening to Fu Dong's words, he could imagine the desperate situation Jiang Yu was in at that time.

"Man is not as good as God. Jiang Yu later...really returned to the Jiang family by relying on the power of the Ye family." Fu Dong smiled shyly.

But the Ye family obtained in that way has become Jiang Yu's psychological shadow for the rest of his life, and it has also become the unspeakable distress that Fu Dong always feels when he thinks of Jiang Yu.

No one else could forget him, and sometimes when he dreamed back at midnight, he would see Ye Xiuqing lying in a pool of blood and staring at him with wide eyes.

What about Jiang Yu?How did he take the time to adjust himself when he was young?

"What... did you see?" Gu Chi asked suddenly, his voice a little low.

Fu Dong's whole body was stiff, his shoulders and back were stretched for a long time, and he was more tense than ever before. After a long time, he raised his head and took a deep breath. He turned his head, his face was slumped, and his tone was bleak:

"Ye Xiuqing... held Jiang Yu's hand and committed suicide."

"what?"

Gu Chi's heart was suddenly clenched by something, and the whole heart began to beat violently.

"If I hadn't seen it with my own eyes, I would have suspected that Jiang drowned her."

At that time, Fu Dong and Jiang Yu were already friends with the help of the puppy, at least from Fu Dong's point of view, their Fu family's family business was not small, and they also had business contacts with the Ye family. He knew what time Jiang Yu was every day. He would go back, so that day, while his father was discussing business with Chairman Ye, he wanted to sneak over to see Jiang Yu, wanting to give him a surprise, and then saw that scene in such a grandiose manner.

He was actually quite far away, and couldn't hear what Ye Xiuqing was saying to Jiang Yu, but Jiang Yu's face no longer had the deliberately flattering smile he usually had when facing his mother, it was as numb as a machine operated by others, He just stood there quietly, Fu Dong was inexplicably scared, didn't dare to approach him, wanted to stand there and wait for him, just watched what Ye Xiuqing was saying to him, Jiang Yu didn't say a word from beginning to end, Fu Dong's heart He began to tense unconsciously, until Ye Xiuqing took out a fruit knife out of nowhere, he thought he was going to kill Jiang Yu, and suddenly became anxious, and wanted to rush over in an instant, but the next second, he saw the woman holding Jiang Yu's hand Pointing the tip of the knife at himself, he stabbed hard towards the heart...

"At that time... I couldn't say a word, my head was blank, I watched Ye Xiuqing stab the knife from his chest, blood sprayed Jiang Yu all over his body, she laughed ferociously, and then slowly fell to the ground, watching There was no expression on Jiang Yu's pale face, looking at the little Jiang Yu standing there calmly and calmly..." Fu Dong's face was already pale, and his tone trembled slightly, "I don't remember very clearly what happened afterwards... "

But later he also heard from others, he heard that after Jiang Yu killed Ye Xiuqing, he said a word in front of everyone:

"I hope you have a happier life over there."

You can imagine what happened after that.

The Ye family's parents couldn't bear to kill Jiang Yu. After all, this was their daughter's only blood, so they could only drive him out, so he was wandering outside at that time. No one would have thought that a ten-year-old child would have No skills, wandering outside, not starving to death is the grace of God.

"I don't know how he lived in those few years, but it must have been not very good. When I saw him again, he was no longer the original Jiang Yu. He couldn't laugh at all. His temper was getting worse and worse. people are getting colder."

Fu Dong laughed, but he didn't know what it was like.

"His mother... really doesn't love him?" Gu Chi asked suddenly, as if a thin needle was pricking his heart densely, causing inexplicable chest tightness.

In his opinion, no mother would not love her child, maybe it's just... the way is not right?

Fu Dong looked at Gu Chi for a while, smiled, and shook his head firmly after a long time: "It's absolutely impossible."

Gu Chi was speechless.

"Do you think there will be a mother who will let her son become a mother-killing white-eyed wolf? Will there be a mother who will use her son as a tool to please someone? There will be a mother who will feed you a lot of sleeping pills and send you to the hospital for stomach lavage in order to torture you Will there be a mother who will ruthlessly burn you with a cigarette butt against her son and make you kneel in the snow all night in winter?"

Fu Dongyue said that his eyes were getting redder.

These are all things he knows and sees.

At that time, Jiang Yu was only a ten-year-old child.

There was only one Ye Xiuqing who could hurt Jiang Yu at that time, and now there is only one Gu Chi.

By the time Fu Dong finished talking, the blood on Gu Chi's lips had all faded away, and he felt something stuck in his throat for a long time, making him unable to speak. He didn't know how much time had passed, so he tried to speak. , but even he himself didn't notice the tremor in his voice: "Why... at that time... Jiang... he would go out of his way to please his mother? Isn't his mother..."

"Ye Xiuqing doesn't love him, but he loves his mother." Fu Dong said calmly.

As soon as the voice fell, the room suddenly fell into an endless and strange silence, as if everything had been submerged in this boundless darkness and silence, and everything had returned to the night, but the skinny and helpless man covered in scars But the small figure suddenly appeared in his mind as if it had been branded.

He imagined, imagining that child named Jiang Yu, with confusion about the future and deep love for his mother, living in despair and hypocrisy, pinning all his pain and loneliness on the little cat on the alley wall. Later, the kitten died, and his sustenance lost its direction. What did he think at that time?

Will you cry?Would you like to talk to your friends?Would he also have thought of his mother softly comforting and soft hands brushing the hair on his forehead?Would he also yearn for someone to redeem him?Then why did he not let Fu Dong save him when Fu Dong appeared?Why...you want him to give him a hand?

Looking at Jiang Yu now, Gu Chi would think again, if Jiang Yu was just an ordinary boy born in an ordinary working family like him, what kind of person would he be?

With his appearance, no matter which path he takes, he is destined to be extraordinary.

Maybe Jiang Yu would wear the school uniform loosely on his body, with a smile on his face, a young man who is willful and arrogant, arrogant and arrogant, with a trace of the unique clarity of a young man, maybe a little bit bad, and will be naughty to the person he likes Laughing, and casually amazed who's time; he will definitely study hard like all high school students, get admitted to a university that is not good but not bad, has his own direction and goals, and the road ahead will be magnanimous and bright, Then I met someone I like, regardless of gender, but Gu Chi is willing to believe that no matter what kind of Jiang Yu he is, he will definitely do his best to love him.

He suddenly felt extremely regretful. What is he regretful about?Gu Chi didn't know either, but at least he knew that he didn't like him, didn't like him before, didn't like him now, and he wouldn't dare to like him in the future.

It would be too unfair to him to use Jiang Yu's scars to cover up the scars Jiang Yu gave him.

Gu Chi is not the Holy Mother, although he has good intentions, but if a person makes an unforgivable mistake, no amount of price can make it up, so some pain is engraved in the heart, not to say that if you don’t care about it, you can’t care about it unless you turn back the time , he lost his memory.

"So...you told me so much because of..."

"To let you understand..." Fu Dong interrupted him, "To let you understand that Jiang Yu is not as bad as you see, all his unknown sides, I don't know, no one else knows, only you know. "

All of Jiang Yu's tenderness, patience, pampering and pampering can be given to Gu Chi without reservation. He is not willing to spare his life. No matter how much Jiang Yu wants to die, he is not a person who spares his life. He is just not afraid of death, but in front of Gu Chi , his own life became a tribute, if Gu Chi wanted it, he just gave it.

That's why Fu Dong and Zhang Shen were once worried about Gu Chi's behavior. With Jiang Yu's behavior, it was not too much for Gu Chi to want his life, so Fu Dong and Zhang Shen were very lucky, lucky that Gu Chi was so good A person who is so good that he can forgive all the suffering and pain in the world, and is so good that even if he can't make it, he is not willing to treat human life like a straw.

Fu Dong paused for a while, his chest vibrated with the words. He looked at the slumped and colorless Gu Chi, and said in a hoarse voice, "Gu Chi, Jiang Yu's life is really meaningless to talk about. Before he met you, he wanted to Protected two people, one is Ye Xiuqing, hated him, passed away; the other was Jiang Ke, liked him, passed away. Whether he hated him or loved him, he never got what he wanted, so his life was very tiring, Until you appeared... I saw him burning with anxiety for you, worrying about you, because you finally tasted the youthful heartbeat like a teenager, I was happy for him, but also sad for you."

He is happy for Jiang Yu, happy that he has found his own hope and salvation, but unfortunately for Jiang Yu and Gu Chi, unfortunately Gu Chi does not love him, all the emotions between them are Jiang Yu's wishful thinking alone, But for Gu Chi who didn't know it, it was a never-ending torture.

"Doctor Fu, I want to ask you..." Gu Chi looked at him calmly.

Fu Dong nodded and smiled: "Say it."

"You said he likes me and loves me..." Gu Chi's voice was a little low, "But can this really be called love?"

Fu Dong closed his eyes and didn't speak. Jiang Yu's feelings for Gu Chi, he really can't make any judgments, and he has no qualifications, let alone rights.

"Have you ever seen this kind of love? Quit your school privately, drive away all the people around you, destroy your future, betray all relatives, and leave you alone, and then lock you by your side, so he becomes your only belonging, you I can only stay by his side forever, relying on him to survive."

"Doctor Fu, Jiang Yu is a victim, and I am also his victim."

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