Excessive

Yorkshire, England.

On the first floor of an apartment, Du Zhengyang was lazily lying on the sofa watching TV, but he couldn't understand it at all, because it was all in English, he could only hear the people on the TV talking non-stop.

He was covered with a thin quilt, and the fire was burning in the fireplace, so warm that he almost fell asleep.

Such a boring TV family drama couldn't attract his attention at all. Du Zhengyang felt aggrieved, and he didn't want to watch it. The culprit was still that annoying person.

"You slept quite comfortably." Sheng Jiang came over and lifted his quilt and wrapped it around himself.

"It's so boring, can I stop watching it?" Du Zhengyang begged, and Sheng Jiang asked him to watch two TV episodes a day to improve his English, but now he couldn't open his eyes when he heard English.

"Have you finished learning today's sentences?" Sheng Jiang asked.The dialogue in this TV series is basically common, which is very helpful for learning spoken English. Du Zhengyang's English level is really... I can't bear to look directly at it.

"It's almost..." Du Zhengyang felt a little guilty. His life was not easy without Sheng Jiang, and his life was even more difficult when Sheng Jiang was with him.When Sheng Jiang was away, Du Zhengyang had to go out to eat every day. You must know that the consumption in Europe is frighteningly high.When Sheng Jiang was there, he still couldn't escape the clutches of the devil, and was forced to watch English serials every day.

"Say a few words." Sheng Jiang was really embarrassed to expose him.

"Hmm...um...uh..." After holding back for a long time, Du Zhengyang didn't hold back a word.

Sheng Jiang looked at him helplessly and turned off the TV.

"I'm going back to China next month."

Du Zhengyang suddenly became sober, "What about me?"

"Of course you will continue to study here." Sheng Jiang replied as a matter of course.

"But I..." I still don't understand anything!

Weng buzzing.

Du Zhengyang's phone rang. He changed his mobile phone number after he came to the UK. Not many people knew his number.Du Zhengyang glanced at the incoming call, it was Lu Zhenqing.

"Hey, Big Brother Lu." When he left, Lu Zhenqing didn't come to see him off, and Du Zhengyang still felt a little regretful.

"Zhengyang," Lu Zhenqing felt a little strange when he said this name, "I haven't contacted you for a long time, how are you doing?"

Lu Zhenqing didn't ask Du Zhengyang directly. If Du Shuyao didn't go to him, he would make Du Zhengyang worry.

"I'm pretty good, but I'm just not used to it." He is fine except that he can't understand in class. There are many Chinese students in the class, and they can communicate with classmates.

"By the way, how is my brother doing recently? He hasn't even called me..." Du Zhengyang was a little worried at this point. He clearly promised to keep in touch with his brother, but he couldn't get through to his brother.

"Has he not contacted you?"

"No."

Lu Zhenqing chatted with Du Zhengyang for a few more words, and hung up the phone in a hurry. Du Zhengyang didn't need to lie. It seemed that Du Shuyao didn't look for him, so where else could he go?Could it be that he really returned to Du's house?

Lu Zhenqing went downstairs and returned to the car.

Suddenly he had a flash of inspiration and remembered a person, Chen Han.

"Hello, Mr. Lu." Chen Han didn't seem surprised when he received his call.

"Has Du Shuyao been to the company recently?" Lu Zhenqing didn't have much time to detour, so he went straight to the point.

"Shuyao? He has already terminated the contract." Chen Han was a little surprised at this moment, Lu Zhenqing didn't know about such a big thing?

What was even more surprising was Lu Zhenqing, what happened in the past month or so?

"Mr. Lu, please wait a moment." Chen Han is currently taking care of newcomers, and is very busy every day. Now she is rehearsing at the event site, and the background is noisy. She changed to a quiet place. "Are you still listening?"

"Well, when did he terminate the contract?"

"One month ago, he paid a liquidated damages of 300 million and sold the house. The original contract expired in half a year, and he still hadn't received the remuneration for two TV dramas, but he insisted on terminating the contract."

"Did he contact you later?" Lu Zhenqing asked.

"No..." Chen Han thought for a while to answer, her sensitivity quickly made her realize something, "Shuyao...what's wrong?"

Lu Zhenqing couldn't make a conclusion yet, so he didn't reply to Chen Han.After hanging up the phone, he leaned on the car seat and looked at the window of Du Shuyao's house through the car window. He really ignored this person for too long, especially he didn't expect that Du Shuyao had always... liked him, Otherwise, with his character, he wouldn't be willing to sacrifice because of his family.

But what I did to him...

Lu Zhenqing rubbed his temples with a headache, just when he had no idea, his cell phone rang, it was an unfamiliar number, and it was from abroad.

"Hey?"

"I'm Sheng Jiang." Sheng Jiang's voice was very low. He heard the conversation between Lu Zhenqing and Du Zhengyang just now, but it was inconvenient for Du Zhengyang to say something. Now, while Du Zhengyang was on a lunch break, Sheng Jiang took his mobile phone I found Lu Zhenqing's number and made this call.

Lu Zhenqing obviously didn't expect that Sheng Jiang would take the initiative to call him, maybe he would know something.

"Is Shuyao not at home?" Sheng Jiang asked.

"He moved away." Ever since Du Shuyao moved out of Du's house, he has been living here and regarded it as his home, but now he has left.

"No wonder..." Sheng Jiang also called him, but he couldn't get through. At that time, he thought it was because his mobile phone signal was too bad.

"Do you have his whereabouts?" Lu Zhenqing had a glimmer of hope in his heart, otherwise, why would Sheng Jiang call him.

"No." Sheng Jiang on the other end of the phone shook his head.

As soon as he was about to speak, he heard Sheng Jiang on the other side go on to say, "I don't know what happened between you and him, but if you really want to find him, maybe you can find someone, if you just play His feelings, then you don't have to worry so much."

What he said made Lu Zhenqing unable to say anything. It turned out that everyone saw the relationship between the two of them clearly, but he himself was a fan of the authorities.

Sheng Jiang put down the phone and sent him an address.

The address is not far away, Lu Zhenqing will arrive there in a short drive, except for this address and a name, Sheng Jiang didn't tell him anything.

It was an extremely clean studio, and the door was open, but he still knocked politely a few times, and there was a sign under the door that read, Psychological Counseling Room.

After a long time, a woman in a white coat with shoulder-length short hair opened the door and was a little surprised to see him.

"Excuse me, who are you looking for?" Li Meng looked at the man in his 30s. It didn't look like he had gone to the wrong place, but she really didn't know him.

"Doctor Li?"

Lu Zhenqing briefly explained why he came, but Li Meng let him in without saying anything.

"Du Shuyao is indeed my patient, but he has only been here twice. The first time was at the beginning of September. He had just been injured and was discharged from the hospital. My friend Sheng Jiang introduced him. The last time was on November [-]th. It was half a month ago."

Li Meng flipped through the records. She didn't have many patients here. Du Shuyao was introduced by a friend and had a special occupation, so she was more impressed.

"May I ask, what's your surname?" Before Lu Zhenqing could ask her anything, Li Meng suddenly said this out of nowhere.

"Lu, Lu Zhenqing." Although Lu Zhenqing didn't know why, he still answered truthfully.

Hearing what he said, Li Meng smiled, and there was something else in the smile, and said, "I really didn't expect you to come to me."

Lu Zhenqing looked at her suspiciously, but she pretended not to see it.

"This is his medical certificate." Li Meng handed him a piece of paper.

"Severe depression?"

"Yes, he was already like this when he first came here." Li Meng recalled, "Sheng Jiang discovered what was wrong with him. According to him, there was an explosion when they were filming, and Du Shuyao woke up and said he At that time, in order to save a little boy, that's why I didn't run out on time. But Sheng Jiang checked, and there was no child at the scene that day. That is to say, Du Shuyao had already had serious hallucinations at that time. "

"When he first came to me, he didn't say anything, not because he didn't want to say it, and it was too difficult for him to say. Later, with his consent, I hypnotized him and learned a lot. "

Speaking of this, Li Meng stopped suddenly, stared at Lu Zhenqing, and asked him, "Mr. Lu, I don't know how you define your relationship? Lovers? Friends? Playthings? Or nothing at all?"

Lu Zhenqing lowered his head guiltily, he had never thought about this question before.

Li Meng didn't embarrass him, and continued, "He lived a very miserable life. Coupled with family misfortune and the pressure of being a public figure, his condition deteriorated rapidly. Of course, there are also your reasons. He has tried many times I want to sever this relationship with you, but I can't do it."

Lu Zhenqing remembered that Du Shuyao had indeed mentioned it to him, but he ruthlessly rejected it.

If there are thousands of wounds on Shuoyao's body, then the heaviest and deepest one must be left by him.

Maybe more than one.

"No matter what the relationship is, let's share the same bed. I don't know if Mr. Lu has noticed any details?" Li Meng said very cryptically.

Although Lu Zhenqing didn't know what convenience he was referring to, he still thought about it and finally shook his head.

Li Meng smiled, as if confirming something, and said, "He has a slight tendency to self-harm."

Sometimes large and small wounds would appear on Du Shuyao's body, and sometimes bandages would be pasted on him. Lu Zhenqing remembered it now, but he asked, and Du Shuyao only said that it was accidentally done at work.It's normal for an actor to be injured during filming, so Lu Zhenqing didn't take it too seriously, instead he smiled and told him to be careful.

Then Li Meng said something even more unexpected to Lu Zhenqing, "He even committed suicide."

"What?!" Lu Zhenqing stood up suddenly.

"You don't have to be so surprised. It's normal for a person with severe depression. Sometimes they commit suicide without feeling hopeless, and they don't feel hopeless. They feel that life is hopeless and that they have no value in existence. They I don't want to kill myself, I just can't control it."

"When did it happen?" Lu Zhenqing calmed down. He sat back on the chair and asked Li Meng.

"Not long ago." Li Meng didn't tell him the exact time, which would only increase Lu Zhenqing's pain. "The last time he came to see me, I almost didn't recognize him. He lost too much weight in two months. During that time, he was tortured by rumors, hiding at home and not daring to go out, any stranger would make him feel scared. But at the same time, he behaved indifferently in front of his friends, which was no different from usual, but the more he did this, the more it would increase His inner depression."

"He was in pain, so he came to me again, but he could only get a moment of relief here. After leaving this door, he would still return to the darkness. And the only person who had a glimmer of hope to save him, gave up he."

Since then, Li Meng has been very worried about Du Shuyao. If the depression patients are treated in time, the possibility of recovery is very high, but Du Shuyao has been hit one after another, which is likely to drive him, who is already very sensitive, to a dead end.

"I'm sorry..." Lu Zhenqing closed his eyes. He knew that all of this was caused by him. Without him, maybe all of this would not have happened. Du Shuyao is still Du Shuyao. They live different lives in the same city. A life of interference, even if not so rosy, is better than it is now.

Maybe being liked by him is a very painful thing.

"That's all I can tell you."

As a psychiatrist, it is their duty to protect the privacy of patients.

"Then do you know where he is?" Now even if there is a glimmer of hope, Lu Zhenqing wants to grab it.

Li Meng said with a smile, "I'm a psychiatrist, not Interpol."

Only then did Lu Zhenqing realize how stupid the question was.

"However," Li Meng continued, "you'd better find him as soon as possible, he is very dangerous now."

You know, a person with severe depression is always dealing with death.

"I see." Lu Zhenqing paused, "Thank you."