double rebirth

"President Shen, are you okay?"

Thousands of thoughts flooded Shen Zequn's mind. In the past two years, he has not missed Ren Qing's death day, birthday, and he will go during Qingming.

But this time he missed it.

Ren Qing looked at Shen Zequn who was sitting there in a daze, looked at the reading time, and asked, "Is Boss Shen hungry? I made some yam porridge, would you like some?"

Seeing that Shen Zequn didn't object, Ren Qing went down and filled a big bowl of porridge.

Shen Zequn felt so empty in his heart, he didn't know why he would miss the anniversary of Ren Qing's death, but these days he was groggy, and as soon as he opened his eyes, he could see Ren Yiqing sitting beside him, sometimes tidying up the quilt for him, sometimes From time to time, I would check how many drips are left for him, and sometimes I would write and draw with a small notebook.

Even if he closes his eyes and only hears the slight rubbing sound of the pencil on the paper, he will feel extraordinarily at ease.

He had never experienced this feeling since Ren Qing left.

When he woke up last night, he subconsciously grabbed Ren Qing's hand, but he touched the other's arm.He slowly opened his eyes, and saw that the other party was lying on the bedside and fell asleep.

Just looking at it like this, he felt extraordinarily peaceful in his heart.

In this way, Ren Qing's death day was spent.

It was a day that gave him nightmares and pain.

This is the first time.

Shen Zequn followed his arm and saw that the man poured the soup into a small bowl, then shook it with a spoon and blew it gently.

He remembered that when he was dating Ren Qing, once he went to Russia to inspect a piece of land, and when he came back, the temperature difference was huge and he caught a cold, so Ren Qing boiled ginger soup for him.

In fact, it wasn't a big deal, but Ren Qing turned around in a hurry, he said he hated drinking ginger soup, but Ren Qing was very persistent, and rarely scolded him.

It was the same at that time, the heat was rising continuously, covering that person's delicate face bit by bit, but it was no longer worried and nervous like that at that time, and now the people sitting beside... had more faces Somewhat indifferent.

It is clear that they all take care of him in the same way, but they are still different.

Ren Qing liked him from the bottom of his heart, but this person didn't like him, and even resisted him from the bottom of his heart.

He can no longer find someone who treats him so well, likes him so much, and makes him like him so much.

That person is dead.

The sight in front of his eyes became hazy due to the heat, and Shen Zequn seemed to see Ren Qing who was lying on the bloody slope again. No matter how much he called his name, the man didn't open his eyes again.

Shen Zequn felt extremely frightened. He was afraid that everything in front of him was his fantasy, so he couldn't help but patted his side: "Come here, sit closer."

Ren Qing was a little confused, so he put the bowl of soup on the bedside table, and moved closer.

Shen Zequn slowly lifted the quilt: "Sit here, I want to hug you..."

Ren Qing was a little stunned, Shen Zequn told him to sit in his arms?

Isn't he a child? !

"come over."

Shen Zequn saw that he was still not moving, so he took his hand. Ren Qing had to take off his shoes and get on the bed, and sat in front of Shen Zequn. come over.

Ren Qing sat curled up between Shen Zequn's legs, and Shen Zequn slowly hugged him from behind, his entire back pressed against Shen Zequn's chest.

He could feel Shen Zequn's chin resting on his left shoulder, and those hands slowly grasped his. The next moment, Shen Zequn's kiss fell from the back of his neck, as soft as a feather, but as soft as a feather. A bolt of lightning split Ren Qing's body.

Shen Zequn seemed to be confirming something, and then gently kissed Ren Qing's hair, then slowly hugged his whole body, and then exhaled heavily.

Ren Qing froze, he didn't know what Shen Zequn meant, because it didn't look like that kind of invitation, he didn't know what kind of meaning such a kiss came from.

Carefully, as if holding a precious treasure.

"Recently... have you been working hard?"

Shen Zequn buried half of his face in Ren Qing's neck, and his warm lips kept kissing Ren Qing's neck. Ren Qing trembled uncontrollably, and said in panic: " Still... not bad."

Shen Zequn smiled bitterly: "Is it harder to take care of me?"

"Alright, alright."

"Is that all you can say?" Shen Zequn said softly, as if treating a lover, he slowly raised his right hand, then slowly faced his palm, and then intertwined his fingers: "Sing me a song."

Ren Qing's head thumped: "Sing...what song..."

"Everything is fine."

How could Ren Qing sing calmly in this situation, his whole body was clamoring and resisting.He suddenly felt that if this continues, it is not Shen Zequn who is crazy, but himself!

"Look at me..."

Shen Zequn said something suddenly, and then slowly motioned Ren Qing to turn around.Only then did Ren Qing turn around stiffly like a rusty machine.

Shen Zequn suddenly sighed, and slowly put his arms around his waist: "Am I so scary?"

"No……"

Shen Zequn pressed his forehead against him: "If you don't want to sing for me? Then give me a kiss."

As Shen Zequn spoke, he brought his lips closer, but stopped near Ren Qing's.

"Mr. Shen..."

"If you don't do it, I won't let you go."

Ren Qing pursed his lips, and the two were too close, as if he could kiss Shen Zequn's lower lip by moving his neck a little.Shen Zequn's patience at the moment seemed to be very good, as if if he didn't follow suit, Shen Zequn would just sit with him in his arms all night.

But he didn't dare to refuse. Wang Lun told Shen Zewei before leaving that he should try to calm Shen Zequn's emotions and talk about some happy topics.

but……

Shen Zequn saw that his ears were completely red and he looked reluctant, so he didn't make things difficult for him.

It's just that the other party's current appearance really reminded him of when he first dated Ren Qing. Shen Zequn looked at the small book at the foot of the bed and said, "Go, I have something for you to read."

"what?"

As Shen Zequn said, he pulled the man off the bed and went up to the third floor.

Shen Zequn led him to the door of the room, and said, "Open it and have a look, you will definitely like the things inside."

Ren Qing couldn't be more clear about what is behind this door.

It was the recording studio he remodeled. Shen Zequn even bought the best equipment and gave it to him on his birthday. In fact, he was still a newcomer at that time, so he didn't need such good things, but later he felt that these were for Shen Zequn It's really nothing.

Ren Qing looked back at Shen Zequn, feeling a little embarrassed.

What should he say after he opens the door?

Shocked?Then cheers? !

Seeing that he was not moving, Shen Zequn opened the door for him.This room seemed to be visited by people often, and it was not as bad as Ren Qing expected.

All kinds of equipment are readily available. He has flashed countless inspirations here, and he has had skin-skin-interaction with Shen Zequn here. He has also created "Love Bell" and recorded the last confession in the album here. if.

However, so many memories seem to have turned into naked irony at this moment.

"Like it? They're yours."

Ren Qing walked in slowly, took a sip and said: "This is very professional equipment, Mr. Shen is also interested in singing?"

Shen Zequn didn't answer, but just walked over to touch the leather seat and said, "I just hope you can use these to create good music."

In this case, it was as if Ren Qing was still alive, and so was his dream.

Shen Zequn leaned on the chair, turned around and pulled the person closer to his arms: "Do you like it?"

Ren Qing glanced at the guitar on the side and the piano not far away, and nodded: "Thank you, Mr. Shen."

Shen Zequn touched the top of his head, bent down and handed the guitar placed aside to Ren Qing: "Try the sound."

Ren Qing took the guitar over in silence. The surface was very smooth. After he tuned it, he knew that the guitar had been maintained regularly, and the equipment here was also very tidy, with no dust floating on each button.

But the manuscript here was taken away by him and put in the trolley case on the day he left, along with his rookie trophy certificate.

Shen Zequn said: "Didn't you want to release a single and play a section?"

This is nothing, Ren Qing nodded and started to tune from the chorus.

Shen Zequn looked at him silently, his eyes were in a trance for a while, and he seemed to see the silly Ren Qing humming a little tune wandering from the third floor to the bedroom again.Seeing him lying on the bed reading a magazine, he hugged him, his eyes gleaming: "Mr. Shen, I wrote a new piece of music today, I'll hum it to you, tell me how it feels, okay? "

"Do you want me to report my impressions after hearing it? My speech fee is very expensive."

Ren Qing immediately showed a troubled expression: "Huh? But I don't have that much money."

"That's it... then use your people to pay it back?"

"Then, don't I have to pay it back for the rest of my life?"

"Well, yes, would you like to?"

Ren Qing didn't answer at that time, but his blushing face betrayed him.

Shen Zequn looked at the person who was also playing the guitar here now, and thought of the lifeless Ren Qing lying in his arms at that time, his heart ached badly.

He hugged her almost instinctively, and kissed her greedily.

"Well……"

Ren Qing's guitar almost fell to the ground. Shen Zequn half-closed his eyes and put the guitar in his hand on the table beside him. He forcefully opened Ren Qing's jaw with his tongue, feeling that the person in his arms wanted to resist. , Shen Zequn couldn't help tightening his arms.The tip of the tongue hooked Ren Qing's tongue tightly, and it was a struggle, as if he wanted to swallow the other party alive.

Shen Zequn's eye sockets became hotter and hotter, and he felt that the person in front of him was hot and alive, and could respond to him.

He couldn't bear it anymore, this person was too much like Ren Qing, and it was on this special day that he had the illusion that hugging this person was like hugging Ren Qing.

Ren Qing's arms were tightly locked to the sides of his body and he couldn't move. Shen Zequn's strength was so strong that he couldn't break free even after he recovered from his illness.Shen Zequn's kiss was too predatory, he had never tried such a rough method, he just felt a little short of breath, and there was no way to relieve the boredom in his heart.

Shen Zequn's hand came in along Ren Qing's loose pajamas, and slowly moved up against his spine, pressing down heavily as if he wanted to touch every bone of him.

"Shen... um..."

Ren Qing wanted to shake his head to resist, but his jaw suddenly hurt.Shen Zequn's right hand pinched Ren Qing's jaw violently, and the kiss turned into a slight bite.The breathing of the two became more and more intense, Ren Qing was breathing rapidly because of this fierce kiss, and bloodshot eyes appeared because of the various emotions at this moment.

Shen Zequn felt his disordered breathing, and then let go of his lips.

Ren Qing breathed heavily as if he was about to lack oxygen, his feet were a little swaying.Shen Zequn kissed the corners of his reddish eyes, and before Ren Qingshun finished his breath, he took his hand and led him back to the bedroom.

Before Ren Qing could say anything, Shen Zequn pressed the man on the bed.

This heavy feeling from the opponent's body made Ren Qing suffocate.

Shen Zequn rubbed his browbones with his fingertips, once and twice, as if heavy and affectionate: "Ren Yiqing, don't reject me."

When Ren Qing heard Shen Zequn say this, his lips dropped again.

Ren Qing suddenly turned his head away, and pushed Shen Zequn's shoulders firmly with both hands, his eyes were scarlet: "Mr. Shen, you said you would not touch me."

Shen Zequn's body shook.

He did say that, and he did think so at the time.

but……

But through contact, he found that he couldn't hold on to this idea anymore, and he couldn't control himself not to touch this person.

He will never forget the despair he felt two years ago today, no matter how tightly he hugged that person, that person's body would no longer be hot, only endlessly cold.

But the person in front of him was so similar to him that he even felt that they were like one person.

It was ridiculous, and he knew it.

But he just couldn't help thinking about it.

Seeing that Shen Zequn was shaken, Ren Qing made a final struggle: "Mr. Shen, I can't replace the person in your heart."

With these words, Shen Zequn felt like being struck by lightning. He looked at Ren Qing who covered his eyes with his hands, and seemed to empathize with the other party's pain.

This desperation made him stand up quickly.

It was as if the whole person had fallen into an invincible abyss.

Shen Zequn's face was pale, he didn't say anything, he just stumbled out of the room.

Ren Qing bit her lower lip tightly, trying to calm herself down with this bloody pain.

He sat up suddenly from the bed, and was afraid that Shen Zequn would leave the villa in his pajamas, so he had to grit his teeth and follow. But as soon as he went out, he saw Shen Zequn push the door of the master bedroom. He stood there not knowing what he was looking at. But then he closed the door again, went downstairs barefoot, sat on the sofa like this, then turned on the remote control of the TV, and watched with his body hugged.

Ren Qing punched the door frame.

It was only at this moment that he realized that Shen Zequn's psychology was really unstable, and this appearance must be due to his stimulation, but what could he do?You can't spread your legs and wait for Shen Zequn to come.

Fortunately, Shen Zequn didn't force himself.

But what is this now? !

Shen Zequn was made into such a ghost by Lin Li, but he was asked to clean up the mess.

Shen Zewei thinks highly of him at night too!

But now Shen Zequn's body is just a little bit better, if he freezes again, Shen Zewei will have to skin him.Besides, it's so late now, even if he tosses them again, it seems that it won't have any effect.

After much deliberation, Ren Qing finally sat next to Shen Zequn with a quilt in his arms, covering him tightly from head to toe.

Shen Zequn just kept looking at him without speaking.

Ren Qing didn't want to sit like this all night, so he took the lead and said, "Mr. Shen...why don't you go to rest."

Shen Zequn leaned his head on Ren Qing's shoulder: "I don't want to be alone anymore."

"Mr. Shen..."

"I'm not a great person, I'm just a very ordinary person, not so indestructible, I will be devastated if I lose my lover."

This time, Ren Qing was silent.

However, Shen Zequn seemed to have opened up a chatter box, and slowly said: "You really look like him, in terms of demeanor and personality preferences... When I kissed you just now, I even had a feeling that you are all alone. delusions. Do you think I'm crazy?"

"This……"

Before Ren Qing could answer, Shen Zequn shook his head: "I'm very sober."

Listening to Shen Zequn's words, Ren Qing felt as if his whole body had lost its vitality, Ren Qing finally couldn't help but said: "Mr. Shen, everyone in this world is an individual, there is no such thing as It's just that you think they are like each other, but they are not equal to each other, and no one can replace others. Even if that person is so humble that he is not worth mentioning, no one can take his place in this world. If you miss it, you miss it gone."

At this moment, I don't know what variety show is on the TV. The people in it are all laughing, but the two of them just stare at it with staring eyes.

One doesn't know joys and sorrows.

One with eyes full of despair.