double rebirth

It seemed that someone was saying something to him respectfully, Shen Zequn seemed to have fallen into a well, he couldn't see who the person in front of him was, his eyes seemed to have lost focus, and he didn't know where to look, and he didn't notice what the people around him said hear.

He only felt his body falling rapidly, and the cold wind blowing from nowhere pierced him, and his vision became more and more blurred.

Not far away, there seemed to be a group of shadows running towards him, hurriedly, as if eager to tell him something.

After he saw it clearly, he realized that it was Ren Qing.

It was Ren Qing who looked at him with a happy smile.

***

"Mr. Shen, this is my first album, I hope you can accept it."

Shen Zequn looked at Ren Qing whose face was blushing at this moment, pursing his lips and stuffing his album into his hand, feeling mixed feelings in his heart.

He took a look at the album in his hand, and Ren Qing said again: "This is a collector's edition, I hope Mr. Shen can listen to it when he is free, and there is... I am going to hold a fan meeting soon, and it will be on Mr. Shen's birthday That day, I don't know...whether Mr. Shen has time."

Shen Zequn thought about his birthday, then looked at Ren Qing, thinking that the other party must have chosen this day specially, so he nodded: "I will go."

Hearing his answer, Ren Qing raised his head suddenly, and the light in his eyes sparkled: "Then you must come! It's done!"

Shen Zequn saw clearly the expectation in his eyes: "Well, it's done."

"Well, then...then I'll go to work first."

Ren Qing seemed to be very excited, and almost tripped when he turned to go out, which is really a bit abnormal.

After Ren Qing left, Shen Zequn returned to his home, but he kept the album in his hand and put it in the drawer.

Shen Zequn turned around and looked at the scenery in the back garden, only then did he gradually realize that he and Ren Qing had been together for nearly a year.

Ren Qing liked him, and he knew it well.Although Ren Qing didn't say it, but Ren Qing was so easy to understand, he had already betrayed him with just one look and one movement.

Shen Zequn recalled Ren Qing's abnormal behavior in the past two months, and then thought about the meeting he just said to hold on his birthday. His subconscious mind told him that Ren Qing wanted to say something to him.

What are you going to say to him?

Is that appearance trying to reveal the relationship?

But if Ren Qing likes him, what about him for Ren Qing?

Does he like Ren Qing?

What I have to say is that he feels very comfortable with Ren Qing, and he finds it very interesting to see the other party's embarrassment or emotional appearance because of him, and Ren Qing is very nice, well-behaved and independent.

He liked the way they got along, and the feeling between the two of them.

So he subconsciously felt that the current state and relationship between the two of them was very good.

But when he thinks like this, he will think of why he established such a relationship with Ren Qing in the first place, and he will naturally think of Lin Li.

Speaking of which, when did he notice the feelings he had for Lin Li that he still can't explain?

Maybe it was from that year, Shen Zequn thought so, but he was a little confused.

……

A few years ago, he took time to go to Hangzhou to see his remarried mother.

The object of Rao Manyun's remarriage was a university teacher. Although he did not live in a wealthy family like before, the man took special care of his mother and their youngest daughter. The three of them talked and laughed in the small house, giving back He cooked, and Yuan Manyun did it himself.

That was the first time he ate meals made by his mother, and she didn't know how to do it before.

Originally, Shen Zequn wanted to come here with Shen Zewei, but in Shen Zewei's eyes, Rao Manyun was a betrayer. Ever since Rao Manyun left Beijing and left them for Hangzhou, Shen Zewei had never seen Rao Manyun again.

Shen Zequn was well aware of his eldest sister's temper, so he didn't try to persuade her anymore.

In fact, Shen Zequn only visited the branch in Hangzhou that time, but when he saw Rao Manyun's satisfied and happy smile, he suddenly felt that such a simple life might not be bad.

At least when he was with his father, Rao Manyun never smiled like this.

After eating, Shen Zequn chatted with Rao Manyun. After hearing the news of Shen Zewei's divorce, Rao Manyun just sighed and asked, "Zequn, do you have someone you like?"

Shen Zequn was a little confused when asked by Rao Manyun's words. To be honest, he really didn't know much about feelings, so he couldn't understand what his elder sister said was fickle, and he couldn't understand whether Rao Manyun's words were plain or not. .

He has never encountered it before, so it is difficult to judge.

Therefore, Shen Zequn frowned and shook his head honestly.

Seeing Shen Zequn like this, Rao Manyun suddenly laughed. Although Shen Zequn had already become an excellent man who could take care of himself, in Rao Manyun's eyes, Shen Zequn was still just a child.

She couldn't help joking: "Oh, it turns out that our Mr. Shen doesn't even have someone he likes. Has he really never had one? In your heart, is there no one who is different?"

In the past one or two years, he has been fighting with the Chu family and the Zhang family in the dark, so he has no mood to think about it, but after Rao Manyun asked, Shen Zequn calmed down and began to think carefully.

But when he calmed down, Lin Li's face appeared in front of his eyes. Shen Zequn didn't expect that, his face became complicated for a while, so he shook his head.

Seeing that he was in such a difficult situation, Rao Manyun didn't ask any more questions. He felt that Shen Zequn was really like his biological father, Shen Yunqiu, even the slight indifference towards his feelings was exactly the same.

Rao Manyun can't say that Shen Yunqiu doesn't like him. Although he is not at home often because of work, he has not let go of his obligations, and he has taken good care of Rao's family.

But Rao Manyun felt that Shen Yunqiu didn't know what he liked, and even though that kind of life had passed, he had never really been in love with anyone regardless of his own safety.

He didn't want his son to do the same, but this kind of thing was only up to him, even if she was Shen Zequn's mother, it would be difficult for her to intervene.

Rao Manyun finally sighed, and said to him: "You are not too young anymore, this time the matter of Mrs. Zhang is over, and the old man will definitely urge you to make a big deal in your life. No matter what, Mom hopes that you can find someone who you really love. People you like, not just obeying grandpa's arrangements. Because only then will you be happy, and it is called a lifetime."

Before leaving, Shen Zequn was silent for a while before asking: "If...you see someone and think that the other person is innocent, you want to see the other person smile, and you want to protect him, is this considered love?"

Rao Manyun really didn't expect Shen Zequn to say that, she just said: "If the other party also likes you, that is love."

Shen Zequn suddenly twitched the corner of his mouth: "That doesn't seem to count."

"Ok?"

"He has someone he likes."

After hearing this question and answer, Rao Manyun couldn't help comforting him, "That's a pity."

"Then... what do you mean by liking? I've always wanted to ask, is this kind of life the happiness in your heart?"

Rao Manyun had never seen Shen Zequn so confused about anything, so he replied: "Yes, because I am with the person I like, so no matter what kind of life I think is good. I like this thing ...How to put it, in my opinion, it's like... Even if that person is already close to you, you still can't help but think of him, hope to know more about him, feel happy or uneasy because of the other person, and you I have never felt everything, even frustration and pain, but it is also very satisfying.”

……

On the way back, Shen Zequn thought carefully about what to say about Manyun, and also thought about Lin Li very seriously.

Lin Li was several years younger than him, and had always lived with his grandfather, but when he was old enough to go to school, he was taken to Beijing by Mr. Lin.And because of the good relationship between the two old men, Shen Zequn was told to protect this younger brother since he was a child, and he has always taken good care of Lin Li.

Lin Li has always been a good student in the eyes of his elders.Lin Li has a shy and introverted personality. He was a little shy at that time, and he is still the same now.

It may be that the other party is too harmless to humans and animals. Shen Zequn has always liked his so-called younger brother. When he first went to work in the company, it was the first time he wanted to use violence to solve the problem because Lin Li was robbed of his money when he was in school.

In fact, let's not talk about him, even Shen Zewei wanted to make a move at that time, but fortunately he stopped him alive and well.

He did indeed find the game arcade where the group of high school students were hiding, but when he arrived, the game arcade had already been smashed by another boy, who was Lin Li's classmate, Xia's The eldest son, Xia Mingchuan.

Later he heard that Xia Mingchuan had been suspended from school by the school.

He didn't think much of it at first, but once in a while he and Shen Zewei saw Lin Li and Xia Mingchuan kissing in the park when they just started high school, and he was quite shocked at that time.

In his opinion, Lin Li would not do such an outrageous thing, and besides, he and the child from the Xia family were too different in character, so they would not be a couple no matter how they looked at it.

He also wondered if the other party had forced him, and his eldest sister also thought so, saying that Xia Mingchuan was young but too hostile, and Lin Li would suffer if he saw it.

After the two discussed it, he asked Lin Li about it for a while.

Lin Li always regarded him as the big brother next door, but when he heard about it, he got excited, cried and told him that it was all his fault, that he liked Xia Mingchuan, and all of this was his fault, and hoped that he would not talk to his family. explain.

Shen Zequn still remembers the way he was clearly afraid but still defended the other party, taking all the faults on himself.

At that moment, he felt that Lin Li really liked Xia Mingchuan.

But he couldn't understand why Lin Li chose Xia Mingchuan.

He and his elder sister Shen Zewei also felt like they were being robbed.

But he also felt that this might be because Lin Li was different from his so-called friends. They didn't speak those polite words when they were together, but they didn't think about paving the way for the future so that they wouldn't annoy each other. It's easy to be together, and he also wants to protect each other.

But... can this kind of feeling be called liking?

If not, Lin Li was a little different from those people.

Originally, Shen Zequn didn't pay much attention to this matter. After all, he was very busy with work at the time, and besides, Lin Li only liked Xia Mingchuan.

He thought that Lin Li was there, like a friend, like his own younger brother, and when he wanted to see him, he could ask him out for tea and chat, that would be good.He even thought that one day when Lin Li broke up with Xia Mingchuan, or got married, he could also send blessings generously, and he and Lin Li would not change in this life.

After all, assuming he was with Lin Li, he would have to face a lot of problems, family and social, he couldn't bear it, let alone Lin Li's personality.

So he always felt that there would be no result between Lin Li and Xia Mingchuan.

But later, Lin Li said that he was going abroad, but he didn't know when he would return.

It seems that he broke up with Xia Mingchuan.

At that time, he felt a little bit overwhelmed. He remembered what Rao Manyun had said. Although he still didn't know what that feeling was, he felt that he should at least keep him.

Thinking of this, he sent a text message to Lin Li. He sent it very simply, just one sentence.

"If you made this decision because of Xia Mingchuan, I hope you can stay."

He waited all night, and Lin Li finally wrote back to him in the morning.

"Brother Zequn, this has nothing to do with Xia Mingchuan, it's because I want to study abroad."

Shen Zequn quietly looked at Lin Li's reply, he suddenly wanted to try it out, wanted to make sure if he liked it, and he also wanted to feel those feelings that he had never felt before like Rao Manyun.

At that time, he quietly watched Yuan Manyunxin's family sitting in the sun, drinking tea and chatting happily, and felt...extra curious and envious.

Immediately, he replied: "What if I want you to stay? Not as an ordinary relationship, but as a suitor who wants to establish some new relationships with you, can you think about it again?"

In the end, Lin Li just replied: "I really regard Brother Zequn as the best big brother, just like I do to Sister Zewei, sorry."

Shen Zequn immediately breathed a sigh of relief and deleted the text message.

He couldn't tell what it was like in his heart, it didn't seem to be sad, he just felt a little pity, he felt that he and Lin Li would not be able to be together to feel the love that Yuan Manyun spoke of.

After putting on his clothes, Shen Zequn followed a group of friends talking and laughing to see Lin Li off. He even hugged Lin Li.

It's not a big deal, he can continue to be friends with Lin Li, there is no change from before, it just stops here.

Speaking of which, he never fought unprepared battles before, he always felt... things that he knew would fail, so why would he try that kind of failure?

He felt that he had tried it, and it was okay to be rejected. The other party had a better life plan and development. He should be happy and bless the other party.

Although it was the first time for him to taste the taste of failure, he had to say that he felt that such an experience was not a bad experience.

But also that night, he met Ren Qing in that teahouse.