double rebirth

Rao Manyun didn't stay for lunch, but left after staying for about an hour.

Just walking around Manyun, Shen Zequn felt that there was something wrong with the atmosphere between him and Ren Qing.

Shen Zequn didn't know what to do, so he had to follow Ren Qing around.

Seeing him follow up and leave, Ren Qing couldn't bear it anymore, so she looked at him and asked, "You came out... When did it happen?"

After hearing Ren Qing's question, Shen Zequn had no choice but to answer: "Just... not long after your meeting."

At this moment, Ren Qing's expression was enough to be described as stunned, he never knew that Shen Zequn had worked so hard for this relationship, but he was very angry at the same time.

Since Shen Zequn was able to do this at that time, why didn't he reveal it to him after that?

Ren Qing felt a little confused, and asked again: "Since you can come out, why did you reject me at the meeting?"

Shen Zequn was silent, and it took a long time before he whispered: "I feel that I am too selfish. After getting along with you, I realized that you are different in my heart, but I feel that the days are still long, and I am not in a hurry to think about those. I am just listening After you sang, I could no longer ignore what I thought in my heart. But I felt that I had concealed a lot from you, and I felt that I could not promise you before I apologized and explained to you. I felt very confused, so I didn't go back during that period of time. I went to talk to my mother once, and he told me that if I really want to be with you, I have to think about future things, including the marriage contract, and the old man. Then I went back once, you obviously You treated me a lot colder, and then you said that you would go abroad for several months, I know I made you sad, so I decided to deal with those things first."

Ren Qing couldn't help recalling the events at that time, and suddenly remembered that in the last year, the days he spent with Shen Zequn were really few.At that time, he didn't come back from filming for several months, otherwise, why didn't he even know that Shen Zequn was hospitalized?

After all, both he and Shen Zequn were unqualified partners.

As Shen Zequn said that day, their previous way of getting along was wrong, even pathological.

Ren Qing suddenly remembered something again, and then he looked into Shen Zequn's eyes: "Actually, you have always wanted to ask you something."

"Well, you ask."

"At that time, you were celebrating your birthday in the hotel. You were dressed so nicely. What were you going to do?"

He originally thought that Shen Zequn wanted to confess his love to Lin Li, but now it seems that it is not the case.

Shen Zequn pursed his lips, and his face became a little ugly: "I thought I rejected you on my last birthday, so I wanted to make up for it on that day. I wanted to... confess to you. I booked a private room , made the decorations by myself, I thought about making our relationship public in front of my friends, but they didn’t know beforehand that I liked you, maybe they thought I liked Lin Li after meeting you...so I also called Lin Li that day. I heard that Lin Li was coming, so I didn't want you to see him, but still...the look in your eyes made me unable to stand, and when I chased him, you were already far away."

Ren Qing no longer knew whether to laugh or cry, he just said truthfully: "I thought you were going to confess to Lin Li that day but I messed up the situation, so you acted in a hurry."

Shen Zequn couldn't help but smiled wryly: "Why, I like you."

Ren Qing wiped his face, and remembered that when he turned on the phone the last day, he seemed to have received a lot of unread text messages and missed calls, but he didn't have time to read them.

"Did you keep looking for me the week I was gone?"

Shen Zequn nodded: "Yes, I've been looking for you, but you kept turning off your phone, so I had to leave a message for you, but you probably didn't see any of them."

"I was in a mess at the time, so I turned off the phone." Ren Qing looked at him: "So... when did I die?"

As Shen Zequn recalled, his body was trembling slightly. It was a nightmare he would never forget.

"When I ran over, you were lying in a pool of blood. I kept calling your name, but you didn't respond to me...you never..."

"Shen Zequn?"

Shen Zequn's face was pale, and his whole body bent slightly because of fear. Ren Qing felt that Shen Zequn's state was not right, and quickly supported him: "Are you okay? That's all over, I won't ask... It's all over, I I won't ask any more."

Seeing Shen Zequn's appearance, Ren Qing suddenly thought of Shen Zequn's previous performances and the matter of the psychiatrist. He was a little panicked, so he helped Shen Zequn to the sofa and sat down, and poured him a glass of water.

Only then did Ren Qing realize that the scene of the car accident might be tragic. He really shouldn't mention such desperate things.Because as long as he thought about how he felt when he sent Shen Zequn to the hospital that day, he didn't dare to think about it anymore.

If he had died on the spot lying in a pool of blood, what would Shen Zequn have been like?

The death has been declared, so does that mean that Shen Zequn was put on the ambulance to the hospital with a corpse that even the doctor had given up on?

No matter which one it was, Ren Qing felt suffocated.

***

It took a long time for Shen Zequn to recover. Ren Qing shook his hand, but found that Shen Zequn's left and right sides were cold and his palm was damp.

Ren Qing thought that he really shouldn't ask this question, anyway, he died in a car accident, and asking it would only make both of them feel uncomfortable.

"do you feel better now?"

Shen Zequn didn't answer, but just looked at him quietly, but his eyes seemed to be covered by a layer of fog, as if he was a lost traveler.

Ren Qing was so distressed that she wrapped her hands around Shen Zequn's neck and pressed her forehead together: "Do you feel better?"

Ren Qing sipped Shen Zequn's lips lightly as he spoke, fainting from the cold touch.Shen Zequn's body trembled, and he couldn't help but put his left and right hands on Ren Qing's heart, as if to make sure whether the person in front of him was hot and alive.

Ren Qing's eyes were sore, but he said very seriously: "Do you feel it beating? I am here, and I will never leave again."

"Ren Qing..."

Shen Zequn couldn't help but put his forehead on Ren Qing's shoulder: "Don't leave me again...don't do anything again, don't punish me like that again..."

"No, we will have a good time and agree."

Shen Zequn's throat seemed to be pulled by a pair of invisible hands, and his voice became hoarse, as if he had to use all his strength to squeeze the voice out of his mouth: "After you left, I refused to face the reality for a while, I hold Holding your ashes in the bedroom for a long time, my eldest sister advised me to let you rest in the grave, but I dare not let go."

Shen Zequn's voice was full of exhaustion and grief: "Afterwards, as soon as I close my eyes, I will see you lying in a pool of blood, and your eyes full of despair when you looked at me in the hotel. I don't want to Sleep, dare not sleep. Eldest sister, he called Wang Lun, but I don’t want to say, I don’t want to share with anyone about you. I’m afraid that if I say it, my heart will be untied, and one day, after a long time , the memories will gradually fade. Until I met you who became Ren Han at that time, the frequency of those dreams became less, but the more I get along with you, the more uncomfortable I feel."

"Shen Zequn..."

"I didn't want to tell you these things, and I didn't want to tell you the things my mother said. I didn't want you to pity me, and I didn't want to show you such a sad and hateful self. But I was really scared, I am afraid that one day you will disappear, and I am afraid that I will wake up and find that this is actually my fantasy, and you still haven't come back, and you will never come back again."

Ren Qing bit his lips tightly, he didn't want to cry at this moment, but he felt very uncomfortable in his heart.

Shen Zequn's breathing also became heavy: "Actually, during the month you left, I waited for your call every day with my mobile phone in my hand. Only when I see you and touch you like this now will I feel at ease. But I don't want to let You see me like this, so I chat with you pretending to be relaxed, I want you to be happy every moment by my side. I tried to tell Wang Lun about my concerns, and Wang Lun advised me to put everything I'll tell you, I'll tell you all my unease and anxiety, if you want to make a joke, I can just laugh..."

Ren Qing was silent for a long time, but in the end he could only smile wryly: "The two of us are the same, and neither of us is qualified to laugh at each other. But I want to tell you that the bad things are all in the past, and we don't want to think about it anymore. We What you have to do is to double your happiness and make up for all the time you missed before. Then you told me this, do you feel better?"

Shen Zequn tilted his head and kissed Ren Qing's neck: "It's much better, thank you for being so tolerant and forgiving me."

"Don't say that, whether it is before or before, we have something wrong. But the important thing is that we can get better in the future."

"you're right."

Shen Zequn raised his head and kissed the corners of Ren Qing's reddish eyes: "What matters is our present and the rest of our lives. Ren Qing, I love you..."

Both of them had wet tears on their faces, but they looked at each other and smiled from the bottom of their hearts.

At this moment, Ren Qing really felt that he no longer had to chase the figure of the other party, but really stood beside Shen Zequn.

He never wanted much, he just wanted to live a fair and honest life with the person he liked. Although the process was extremely disturbing, fortunately he didn't give up, and neither did Shen Zequn.

He looked at his own figure reflected in Shen Zequn's deep eyes at this moment, and his heart was suddenly filled with the power to move forward, with a tenacity that no one could shake.

There was a firm and eager voice in his heart telling him...

His choice was right.

This is the love he has always yearned for.