Strategies for flirting through books

In the middle of the night, it started to rain again outside.Yan Bozong put his arms around Qi Liangqin, listening to the faint sound of rain.

Regarding love, it is not that Yan Bozong has no illusions.When he was a teenager, he also imagined his own love.He is a very traditional person, all he wants is to find a girl he loves deeply and spend his whole life with her.

He has not discussed this issue with others.So he didn't know if other men thought the same as him, wanted to find a woman to spend his life with, and didn't need a third person to fill his life.His younger brother Yan Songwei obviously has a completely different view of love from him. He longs to have many women, and it is probably difficult to imagine himself spending his life with a woman.Yan Bozong didn't know whether his mentality was the psychology of most men, or his brother Yan Songwei's was the psychology most men should have.

But life doesn't give him much time for fantasy.He realized early on the importance of independence and maturity.And love, happens to run counter to the two.Strong love often requires a strong sense of belonging and dependence, as well as realistic and unrealistic childish impulses.He was far away from such a strong feeling for a while, and finally tasted this kind of excitement and shock from a man who was a bit unbelievable to him.

It turns out that this is what love looks like when it becomes strong. It turns out that desire can really devour people's reason.Love always makes people impulsive and full of fearless courage. It blurs people's mind and makes people desperate.

It was rare for Qi Liangqin to sleep so soundly, even in his dreams, it was beautiful.The sky is already bright, probably love is too sweet, just tasted it, and when its taste is still permeating between lips and teeth, people's souls are bewitched by this taste, making people greedy.Yan Bozong's heart was full of desire to own Qi Liangqin in an open and honest manner.

Because of the rain, the sky was still gray.He came to the kitchen and saw Aunt Chun washing rice in the kitchen, so he walked in and asked, "Aunt Chun, do you have time later, I have something to say to you."

Aunt Chun turned to look at him, was taken aback for a moment, and said, "I'll put the rice in the pot."

As she spoke, she quickly poured the rice into the pot, then picked up her apron and wiped her hands, but her expression was serious, she pressed her lips tightly, and turned around.

Yan Bozong said: "No matter what you hear, don't get too excited."

Aunt Chun: "..."

Yan Bozong opened his mouth, and seemed to choke on the words.Aunt Chun looked at him and asked, "Are you going to talk about Xiao Qi?"

Yan Bozong immediately looked into Aunt Chun's eyes and nodded.

Aunt Chun's expression changed.Although she mentioned Qi Liangqin first, she still had a little luck in her heart, and hoped that she was just thinking too much, but she didn't expect that the thing she was most worried about happened.

"You probably know something about it... Liang Qin and I..."

"He's Song Wei's lover," Aunt Chun said, "I don't believe you can do such a thing. Is it because he seduced you?"

Yan Bozong said: "He is not Song Wei's lover, never has been."

The autumn rain outside is cold and damp, and the morning fog is gradually dissipating.Yan Bozong told Aunt Chun about the fake marriage from beginning to end. Aunt Chun opened her eyes wide in horror, shook her head and said, "Absurd, absurd."

She thought it was like a fairy tale, but it was too absurd, but it was somewhat real.No one would make up such an absurd story, let alone Yan Bozong couldn't possibly make a joke about it.

"But even if the two of them were married in a fake way, in everyone's eyes, she is Songwei's daughter-in-law. Didn't you think about the consequences when you fell in love with him? What will people outside say, why do you let the old lady go out in the future? You can hold your head up, have you never thought about how you will raise your head in front of everyone in the future? What's wrong with you, you have always been the most stable and reliable, have you never thought about these things?"

Yan Bozong confided in his heart to Aunt Chun: "I didn't want to think about it before, but it was too late to think about it when we kissed. Aunt Chun, to tell you the truth, I know what price I will pay for this, and I am not the kind I, the person who put aside my family reputation, not to mention the difficulty of my mother, I didn't regret it before, thinking that if I restrained myself at that time, I would hold on... But after this journey, I am really I have no regrets at all..."

He looked at Aunt Chun, with a look of shame on his face, but his eyes were firm, and his voice was as calm as ever, as if he was talking about a very ordinary thing, but every word he said was the same as Aunt Chun never said. The enthusiasm and eagerness that has never been heard from his mouth: "I really like him, I like him very much, I want to try it."

"You tell me this, do you want me to help you?"

"I don't actually care that much about what people outside think. It's just gossip. It will fade away after a long time, and it won't affect my life. Even if it has an impact, it's worth it in exchange for my own happiness. I just care about your opinions If my marriage with Liang Qin has to be at the expense of the pain of my family, then I will not be truly happy. I am thirty, and although I have never experienced it, I also know that a marriage without the blessing of relatives will not Good results."

"You are even more absurd than Song Wei," Aunt Chun was a little excited, trying to lower her voice: "You still want your mother to bless you? Do you think it is possible?"

Yan Bozong's face was stern: "Although it's difficult, how can I be reconciled if I don't give it a try. Could it be that Aunt Chun asked me to be a person who starts to mess up and ends up giving up, and I gave him a promise, so I can't do such a thing."

"You can't do something to abandon him, but you can do something to hurt the old lady?!"

Yan Bozong's expression darkened, he pursed his lips, lowered his head, and said in silence for a while, "I'm probably not a good son. If I really had a choice between personal happiness and family happiness, I would choose myself. If my mother is because of me and Qi Liang If I can't survive Qin's affairs, I will probably give in. No matter how stupid I am, I will not risk my mother's life with my own happiness. But Aunt Chun, my mother will not die because of this, I don't know what will happen to her , I will not ignore her, nor will I give up lightly without trying hard and trying. Not only for Liang Qin, but also for myself. I will not let go without doing my best."

"The old lady will definitely not agree," Aunt Chun said, "You try to the end and hurt everyone, so why bother?"

"Although it may be difficult, there will be a good result in the end," Yan Bozong said: "In fact, there are some things, I know that even if you love me, there is a limit to how you want to help. Many things still depend on ourselves. Let me tell you in advance, I don't want you to help me convince anyone. I hope that when other people make things difficult for him, you don't make things difficult for him. When you see him tired, give him a hand. You help the person I love, that is, you love me gone."

"You..." Aunt Chun didn't know what to say: "Why are you like this? You are already this age, but...you don't know what you will lose because of this. If you regret it in the future..."

"As long as it's my own decision, I don't regret it." Yan Bozong said: "You know me, I will never regret it."

Qi Liangqin stood at the door of the kitchen, listening quietly.

Same-sex love doesn't always seem easy.In his world, he was faced with the difficulty of two men falling in love. In this world, without this difficulty, there is another difficulty of a complicated relationship. .This road is as difficult as coming out in his world. It is destined to step on the blood and tears of relatives and make choices between personal happiness and the happiness of relatives.

This is probably the most painful part of homosexuality.Heterosexual couples get married and have children, which brings only joy to their parents. Personal happiness and parental happiness are interdependent and complementary.But the happiness of homosexuality has to be paid for by the pain of the parents, and even the pain of the rest of life, until death.Even the most enlightened parents who accept that their son is gay probably have to shed a lot of tears behind their backs and convince themselves slowly, and there are so few such happy families.

When Qi Liangqin was in junior high school, their history teacher was an old man named Yang.Teacher Yang often urges them to study hard, and the most ruthless sentence he said is: "You spend your parents' hard-earned money but don't work hard, it is equivalent to sticking a knife in your parents' heart. If you cut it down, it will be blood. .”

This metaphor is bloody, which seems exaggerated in retrospect.But one day when Qi Liangqin was sleeping on the bed and thinking about his future, this sentence suddenly popped into his mind, and he felt that this was the process of coming out of the closet.

Coming out of the closet, for most parents, isn't it just stabbing their hearts with a knife, how cruel.The person who was stabbed was in pain, and the person holding the knife probably also had tears on his face.

This is a crueler punishment than the so-called lovers who fall in love and kill each other. The close relatives and flesh and blood are happy for each other but cannot have both.

After all, he pushed the person he loves the most to this road, just for his own selfish desire.If love is great, it is also dark and selfish.The mentality that he will be happy as long as the other party is doing well, probably he will never be able to do it.

I love you, but I hurt you.This also seems to be absurd and contradictory.Why my love is a poison to the man I love seems to be a difficult question.Qi Liangqin comforted himself and said, just treat him as if he was going through the pain of coming out, and let everyone come here.What he can suffer for Yan Bozong, he will suffer for him, and what he can't suffer for him, he will make up for him with his whole life of companionship and love.Although he begged Yan Bozong not to abandon him, but if Yan Bozong really abandoned him, he would not complain.

This is already difficult.The love between two men is inherently difficult.It's like the organ that shouldn't hold the other person, you have to enjoy the joy of being filled, but also bear the pain of piercing the intestines.