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Although indifferent, she was tacitly allowed to live by his side. Hermione was already very satisfied with such a life with no communication other than work. At least it was much better than the situation of being kicked out before. Get close, even if you can only watch from a distance, but being able to look at him unscrupulously is also a kind of progress. At the very least, Hermione found that when she boldly looked at him, he would be embarrassed and at a loss— —At least it proves that in his eyes, she is not completely absent.

——As long as it exists, it can expand slowly. She is still young, and she is not in a hurry.

Hermione comforted herself like this, so until the end of the holiday, the two people in Spinner's End still maintained a polite and alienated relationship. Even if one of them was extremely dissatisfied with this, they still couldn't get rid of the determined sullen man. .

It's just that the start of school is not a very good thing for Hermione, which means that the two of them have to return to the relationship between professor and student. This relationship is not conducive to her pursuit of her love. A student in the first grade, Hermione had to leave the man she liked at the end of August and start preparations for the new school year.

The President of the Female Student Council, this is the duty assigned to her by Headmaster Dumbledore. Although Hermione does not understand why the President of the Male Student Council is not Ron but Draco Malfoy, this undoubtedly does not make her refuse this position.Even though it probably cost her some less access to the man, it gave her more excuse to go to the cellar without being suspected.

So, Hermione accepted the position happily.

In her seventh grade, there were many courses, but fortunately, because she planned to work with Yade in the future, the huge number of elective courses planned a long time ago had been cut down a lot, except for Charms, Transfiguration, Defense Against the Dark Arts, Herbal Medicine and Outside of Potions, she only chose Arithmancy and Muggle Studies.It was only after she came to Hogwarts that she received the latest notice. This semester, Professor Snape rejected her application to study Potions.

Hermione looked at the letter in her hand in disbelief, the somewhat wild font belonged to that person, and the two flying S's were also his signature, but she couldn't accept that person's refusal of her application—he Even let her see him more, wouldn't he allow it?Thinking of this, Hermione was very wronged, because she liked him, she never dared to expect any sweetness, and she didn't expect that one day he would be kind to her, she just looked at him quietly, knowing that they lived in the same place, it was just like this How could he refuse such a small request?

Hermione closed her eyes. After a long time, she put the letter into her pocket, wiped away her tears, and rushed directly from the Gryffindor tower to the cellar.

Knock on the door and wait.

Hermione stared nervously at the door of the Potions Office, gasping for breath because of running. When she saw the door open for a moment, she quickly raised her head, stared at the indifferent man in front of her, and continued to ask with a sob: "Why? ?”

Snape obviously knew the girl's purpose, and had absolutely no intention of letting her go into the cellar. He slightly raised his eyebrows, and then said flatly: "I don't think you are suitable to study Potions with me, Miss Granger, Does this answer calm your impulsive brain?"

"I got an O last year!" retorted Hermione. "The fifth grade exam was an O too. You have no reason to reject my application! It's necessary for my future job!"

"I don't think Miss Zeller will need someone who studies potions to study with her anymore," Snape pouted, "Unfortunately, Miss Granger, I think what I mean is clear, if If you still can't understand, then what you need is to see Madam Pomfrey instead of staying here and dazed stupidly." After speaking, Snape took a step back without blinking, facing Hermione The door of the office closed with a bang.

—He hates her so much!

Hermione closed her eyes, stretched out her hand to gently caress the ancient door, carved the stripes on the door with her fingers, tears flowed out involuntarily, separated by the door, but the person inside would never Knowing that she is desperate at this moment, just looking forward to such a small hope like him, and he will ruthlessly obliterate it, why must he be so decisive in rejecting her in his life?Don't leave her with even the slightest expectation—even if there is no hope, it is still an expectation.

Quietly, Hermione sat on the cold floor of the cellar, leaning against the door of the potions office, without saying a word. She wanted an answer, and even if she refused, she must get a clear answer—a question of why he would Reject her answer, and she also wants him to know that even such a ruthless refusal cannot make her give up her feelings.

In the cellar in September, it was still a bit chilly at night. Hermione, who was sitting on the floor, had no choice but to put a spell on herself to keep warm, and then hugged her knees and waited there.He didn't come out, and he didn't go to dinner. Hermione didn't know if he would stay in the room all night, but she stayed here stubbornly, unwilling to leave at all.

Finished brewing a dose of potion, Snape opened the door a little tiredly, ready to watch the night, but when the door was slowly opened, he noticed a figure sitting by the door, with long, fluffy There is no doubt that this brown hair must belong to Hermione Granger, did she not leave?

Snape glanced at the clock subconsciously, and roared angrily: "Miss Granger, is your brain growing in vain? You actually stayed in this place for six hours? The troll wants you to be smarter! "

Hermione slowly stood up against the wall, looked at Snape, and said calmly, "I just want an answer..."

Snape frowned, sighed imperceptibly, and said impatiently, "Say!"

Hermione raised her head, her bright eyes were fixed on the man in front of her, and her thin, tight lips. She hoped that he would give her a clear and true answer instead of perfunctory.Hermione calmed down, opened the corners of her mouth, and said word by word: "You push me away and don't want me to approach, is it because you don't want me to love you, or because you don't want to give me a chance to make yourself fall in love with me?" My chance? Or, is it that you don't want to admit your true feelings?"

A feeling of being seen through made Snape a little embarrassed at the moment, but his performance was still perfect, he looked at Hermione calmly, curled his lips, "It turns out that Miss Granger has already thought of herself like this Is it important? Ridiculous!"

Hermione moved her lips, her eyes were hot, she restrained her tears from flowing, and said firmly: "I admit, I like you, and I like you very much. But I know that you have your pride in your heart, That's a world that I may never understand, so I never thought of forcing you to respond to my feelings, you don't need to avoid me like a snake!"

Snape pursed his lips tightly, took a step back and returned to his office, just when Hermione thought he was about to close the door again, the man said coldly: "Miss Granger, I'm not here The habit of talking about problems in the hallways."

Hermione hurriedly chased after her, and walked into this rare office that she was able to enter once.

The dim light, the cold-faced man sitting behind the desk, and the uneasy girl leaning against the side of the sofa, there was a long silence, Snape looked at the Gryffindor female student council president with complicated eyes, escaping The solution, this girl's stubbornness may not be inferior to his, but letting her approach him is tantamount to letting go of her feelings. He will not be clear about what kind of sadness this kind of thing will develop.

As a middle-aged man who is nearly 40 years old, Snape has to admit that such a pure emotion is not unattractive to him, even because of this The so-called "rehabilitation" and the halo of the Merlin Medal, he has been accepted by others, but it is different from the things brought by glory, one is only because of his acceptance, which makes him feel more comfortable.

He's not a nice guy, but he doesn't want to let a girl grieve just because of his own mood, especially one who's seen the real him, even his pride, and also, the same Muggle-born, the same Smart, and also looking at him with a pair of smiling eyes... Hermione Granger has too many similarities to Lily, which makes him unable to accept her gaze on him anytime and anywhere.

Snape looked at Hermione with a complicated expression. He was a little embarrassed, and he didn't want to be his slightly shaken heart—this kind of strong mood that disappeared after the war, longing for peace, looking forward to no longer being alone, even He originally thought that after eliminating that person and avenging Lily, he would have no more pursuits, but people always yearn for light and happiness, even for him, a creature in the dark...

Hermione no longer felt the uneasiness she felt when she entered the Potions Office, no matter whether he accepted or refused, walking into this room, facing him, speaking out the words from the bottom of her heart, expecting a perhaps sad answer, was already her moment The limit of what can be done.

She never thought that her love would be so sad, even though she is strong and understands what is rational, but as a girl, she also had a dream about Prince Charming when she was a child, and the boy she liked in the dream should be She is gentle, intelligent, and considerate. She can read books and chat with her. She doesn’t need too many words to understand each other’s deepest thoughts.

It's a pity that when Hermione realized that she really liked someone, even fell in love with him with all her heart, she found that in reality, there was no Prince Charming, no tenderness or consideration, but indifference and meanness instead. Clever but obsessed almost stupidly for his own beliefs, his eyes are always filled with sad nostalgia-even if he doesn't know who he misses, Hermione can understand that there is always someone in front of her in his heart.

Thinking of this, Hermione pouted self-deprecatingly. Now that she was not even allowed to attend his class, how could she have the ability to fight for a place in his heart?Such a humble love made her hardly want to admit that it belonged to her, the pride of Hermione Granger, and she was not allowed to say words similar to begging, but... she couldn't help but put herself in this position In fact, even if you don't say it, you can only despise yourself like this in your heart.

The office was very quiet, and Hermione could hear the sound of the clock moving. Hearing this regular sound a lot, it seemed that there was such a rhythm in his heart, one second, one minute, and Hermione didn't pay attention to how long the time had passed. Sitting quietly on the sofa, waiting for an answer.

Snape hesitated for a long time, and finally decided to start with the topic of possibly rejecting her. Without any irony, he just asked calmly, "What job are you going to do after graduation?"

"Run the laboratory with Yard." Hermione said without hesitation, "This way I can take care of my parents."

--damn it!

Snape couldn't help cursing, how could he not know that the previous so-called plan to need his help was the way Miss Zeller came up with to let him and Granger get along, if Granger would still be with Yard in the future Zeller mixed, sooner or later they will find other opportunities!

Thinking of the Gryffindor who was pulling the second generation of the Dark Lord to play around together, Snape frowned deeply. He swore that this was definitely not fear, but a deep helplessness.

Seeing that Snape didn't speak, Hermione said quickly: "So, I need to learn Potions to help me accomplish some special tasks in the future. I know what you are avoiding..."

"I didn't escape!" Snape waved impatiently, evading the word, too cowardly, he... didn't like to hear it.

Hermione was taken aback for a moment, and then twitched the corner of her mouth slightly. This man's emotions are really...unpredictable, but sometimes he is so cute!Thinking of this, she continued: "Well, it's not an escape, I mean, I know you don't want to see me by your side all the time, but you can't refuse a student who wants to learn more advanced knowledge, I am Hogwarts students, I believe that there are basically few students who have better grades than me at Hogwarts..."

Snape became melancholy. He really couldn't willfully deny this kind of high-sounding conversation without personal feelings.

"Professor, if you don't agree, I hope you can give me a written reason," Hermione raised her head and restored the courage of the Gryffindor cub. Knowing this, Hermione continued to work hard and said, "You can reject me, but only if you reject me, not because of your personal feelings."

—Why didn't she understand that it would be good for both of them to stay away from him?

Snape looked at Hermione with a complicated expression. The conflicted mood and pity for his crush made Snape reluctant to say hurtful words. Maybe he also kept such a shadow in his heart. , belonged to Hermione Granger, the girl who would look at him greedily with sincere and innocent eyes.

This guess made Snape's expression a little stiff, his eyes left the girl, and stared at a corner of the office, pure and sincere feelings, no one would have the heart to paint a dull color on it.Snape frowned, rubbed his forehead tiredly after a long time, and said helplessly: "You can come to Potions class, but Miss Granger, I hope you leave the classroom as soon as the class is over .”