cheat

"Hwaseong!"

Li Fan came back from the stadium with his schoolbag on his back. As soon as he entered the dormitory, he shouted Chinese characters loudly, like a ghost: "Have you read English?"

Since Hwaseong wasn't in the dormitory, Li Fan knew he must be taking a shower.

Li Fan put down his schoolbag and went out to the balcony to wash his face. As expected, the light in the bathroom was on, and he yelled casually, "Hwaseong, I'll go to your desktop and read in English!"

There was the sound of splashing water in the bathroom. Li Fan guessed that Huacheng still didn't hear it clearly. He was just asking casually. If Huacheng didn't answer, he could go get it by himself.

After Li Fan washed his face and hung up the towel, he was about to enter the dormitory, when Hwaseong's voice suddenly came from the bathroom: "On the table, you did a good job today."

Li Fan stopped in his tracks, knocked on the toilet, and replied in a loud voice: "I'm sorry, but you taught me well! I think the vocabulary is bigger, and reading is really much easier!"

The college entrance examination is approaching, and the range of words that Huacheng randomly checks daily is also much wider. The main purpose is to deepen Li Fan's memory of words. After all, 3500 has been passed once before, and now most of them are checking for omissions and filling in vacancies.

Li Fan slumped on the stool in front of his desk for a few minutes, drank another glass of warm water, and then wandered over to Hwaseong's desk to get an English reading paper.

Hwaseong's desks are always so tidy, Li Fan used to throw away a book after using it, and when he couldn't find the book many times later, he would reluctantly return it to its original place.After that, I still throw it casually, and it has been a vicious circle like this.

It’s different now. If someone told him a few months ago that one day you would willingly and unknowingly change this bad habit, he would have replied disapprovingly: “I have persisted in the habit for nearly 20 years, really. , I don’t even believe in myself in this regard!”

The English paper, Hwaseong, was placed in the middle of the table, and when it was very conspicuously white, Li Fan stretched out his hand and drew it.

"what?"

There is a blue notebook buried under the test paper.

Li Fan would not have been interested in this notebook at first. After all, Huacheng put it on the bookshelf every day. It was just an ordinary notebook. read.

Li Fan remembered that this notebook was used quite a lot. He had asked what this notebook was for before, and when he happened to see it, he asked casually: "What are you writing?"

Hwaseong replied at the time: "Do something that you will never do, called reading notes."

Li Fan couldn't help laughing when he thought of this. At that time, Huacheng's image in his mind was that of a school bully, so he joked at the time: "Tsk, the school bully will never collapse!"

If it’s just reading notes, you can read it. After all, what books Xueba usually reads and how to make notes when reading books, Li Fan is still very interested.

Li Fan convinced himself and picked up the dark blue notebook.

This is a fairly ordinary notebook, which costs about ten yuan in stationery stores, and it is not conspicuous.Li Fan turned to the first page and found that the title page of the notebook only had the word "deception" enclosed in the title of the book.

Not to mention, the handwriting is really beautiful, but...

What are you doing?Is it the name of the book that Hwaseong has read recently? I don’t seem to have seen it much, or is it that Mr. Xueba often records some tricks and tricks to deceive people?

In Li Fan's mind, he imagined how Hwaseong cheated people, and immediately felt that he might be crazy.

When he turned to the second page, Li Fan's eyes widened. He never knew that Hwaseong could draw, and the Q-version characters he drew were decent, taking up two-thirds of the pages of the A5 book.

The character is drawn with a black signature pen, and the hair is messed up, just a few flies away.

The Q-version boy was lying on the table eating something with his messy hair on his head, his expression was very vivid, he looked like someone...

Li Fan suddenly felt an electric current illegally entering from the soles of his feet and reaching his head, which almost paralyzed his thinking ability.The cerebellum was probably also affected. Li Fan's legs went limp, and he bumped into the edge of the desk, leaning against it by the way.

Isn't that Q version of the anime character himself?

When Li Fan looked carefully, he found that the word "come back" was written in the middle of the figure, and the time was in the lower right corner: December 2015, 12.

It was Christmas in the second year of high school, and it was the same as many Christmases. Li Fan didn't remember it on purpose, so he didn't remember much.

It turned out that that day, he bought a takeaway and came back from the outside in a hurry, with a shaggy beard and unkempt hair, and he didn't respond to it, is it like this?

It turned out that he thought he was alone all the time, that everyone was waiting to see the joke, but there was one person who saw it long ago and remembered it in his heart?

Li Fan seemed to have discovered a shocking secret, and couldn't wait to scroll down.Going down, Hwaseong will occasionally draw one or two pictures, but most of them are words, with a few words, very concise.

"On January 2016, 1, I worked in a hotel during the winter vacation. We had breakfast outside for the first time. It turned out that he had been staying in the hotel."

"On May 2016, 5, there was a school charity sale. I saw a photo of him by chance, so I bought it."

……

Li Fan looked at the photos posted in his notebook, dumbfounded. He knew that the school had a tradition of selling pictures of beauties, but he didn't know that Huacheng would still go shopping, and he didn't know that he was photogenic, but he could think of Huacheng when he saw the photos. Cheng took the scissors to cut the photo, he couldn't tell what it was like now.

"May 2016, 5, my birthday. He asked me to tutor him in English, and I celebrated his birthday with him for the first time."

Li Fan found that Hwaseong wrote a lot on this day. He wrote: "I thought about it for a long time and decided to let him know my sexual orientation. I have brought the book from home, and he really asked, but it doesn't seem Reaction? Forget it, for the time being, let’s laugh at ourselves as a big plan to lure the enemy into deep.”

Li Fan suddenly felt that his eye sockets were a little hot. He never knew what Huacheng was thinking, and today he finally got a glimpse of it.

But he knew that he was not unresponsive. He was so shocked that he couldn't show it. If Hwaseong knew that he went to the library for a long time after that, he didn't know how he would feel.

"May 2016, 5, as expected."

"December 2016, 12. I haven't written for a long time. He didn't sleep well yesterday. He probably had a nightmare. He often did this before. I really want to help, but I should pretend that I don't know."

"December 2016, 12 is Li Fan's birthday. He is... If it's not me in the future, I hope that person loves him more than me."

……

Along the way, I wrote bits and pieces of things that happened between me and him. The blue notebook is very thick, and Huacheng only wrote one-sixth of it, which is not enough. The penultimate article, written by Huacheng What is more: "On January 2017, 1, he came wrapped in a cold wind, and my first love began."

The last one was written today, with only the date and one sentence——

"I asked myself who I never liked, but he seemed to be cheating."

There were not many words, and Li Fan finished reading it very early, but this notebook attracted his eyes like magic, and he didn't dare to blink, just staring at it.

Hearing the sound of the balcony door opening, Li Fan swallowed his saliva, suppressed his emotions, and suddenly wanted to show Hwaseong a surprised reaction.

Li Fan then yelled very hard: "Damn it! You've been trying to break my foresight! You're so cunning!"

Hwaseong was coming out of the bathroom at this moment, when he heard the thunderous sound, he reflexively looked inside, and then he saw Li Fan leaning on his desk, holding his notebook, with a sad and indignant look on his face ...

"Cough..." Huacheng finally knew what was going on. It turned out that he was negligent. He had no choice but to hide his embarrassment by pulling the corner of his mouth: "And this... deep cabinet, why bother to be strong."

Li Fan finally moved his eyes away from the notebook, looked at Huacheng, and said, "No, let me tell you, I also liked that and so on. If it wasn't for your sake, I, I..."

When Li Fan spoke so boldly, his voice suddenly dropped, he couldn't pretend anymore, his inner feelings choked up in his throat, his tear glands didn't let him go, his red eye sockets were completely wet.

Li Fan put down his notebook, his arms were naturally hanging on his sides as if he had lost all strength, and he lowered his eyes and didn't know where he was looking at his feet.

Hwaseong didn't approach, he had been standing at the entrance of the balcony, looking at Li Fan, he knew that he had to give Li Fan time to digest, since he decided to be with Li Fan, he had done a good job. Prepared in one way or another.

Hwaseong waited for a long time before he heard the man lower his head and said softly: "Hwaseong, can you give me a hug?"

Hwaseong silently curled the corners of his mouth, walked over, covered Li Fan's head with the towel in his hand and rubbed it, and wrapped his hands together, and hugged him tightly.

Li Fan put his arms around Hwaseong's waist, rubbed hard on Hwaseong's shoulder, and wiped his tears on Hwaseong's pajamas.

Because Hwaseong just took a shower, Li Fan felt a lot better. He finally shrunk his head and buried it in Hwaseong's chest, and said in a low voice, "Thank you for taking so much trouble all this time. .”

"It doesn't cost much," Huacheng stroked Li Fan's neck with his hands, his voice was like the breeze in April: "I use it a little, and it will come back a little."

We just swapped so both hearts can be full.

Hwaseong: "You're sweating all over, can you take a bath?"

"...If you don't like it, just say it!" Li Fan was still immersed in the eight o'clock in the evening, but was dragged back by Huacheng's words. Towel, went straight to the bathroom, and threw a sentence: "Help me find a set of pajamas!"

After turning off the lights in the dormitory at night, the two got into the same bed. Li Fanfei let Hua Cheng hug him to sleep. Hua Cheng sighed. Fortunately, the school has installed air conditioners in recent years, otherwise it would be hot to death.

Hwaseong's sleep conditions were already harsh, so when the night was quiet and the person in his arms moved violently, he woke up.

When he woke up, he could feel Li Fan holding his arm tightly. He reached out and touched Li Fan's face indiscriminately, and asked, "Have you had a nightmare again?"

"No." Li Fan's voice did not sound sleepy, and he was probably fully awake.

"...Well, go to sleep." Hua Chengcong pulled the quilt that he didn't know how he slept, and stretched out his hand to run along Li Fan's back over and over again. He could feel Li Fan slipping into his arms .

Li Fan did not have a nightmare.

He dreamed that when he was a child, their melon shed was still there.

He dreamed that his mother would play with him in the living room and teach him to do his homework at home. He dreamed that he was very cunning. He knew all the questions, but he deliberately pretended not to understand and tricked his mother several times.

He dreamed that his mother bought him presents on his birthday and ate birthday cake with him.

The next day, his mother left, and his mother said to little Li Fan in the dream: "I'm going to live somewhere else, you are a little warrior, you must grow up healthy and happy."

His mother left with a smile. He hadn't seen his mother's satisfied smile for a long time.

Li Fan thought to himself: "...Mom, I have grown up well."

He held back at first, but when he recalled the scene in his dream, his shoulders still trembled slightly. He knew that Hwaseong hadn't slept yet, so he choked up and asked, "You liked me so early, why didn't you tell me?"

If I knew earlier, maybe I could be with you sooner.

Hwaseong Guoran hasn't slept yet, he seems to have thought of the answer to this question early in the morning, and he can say it without thinking: "I thought about it, Fanfan, that won't work, I just want to convey two messages to you, I It's gay, and—I like you."

"The acceptance of homosexuality in China is too low, and the society is very harsh on us as a group. It would be best if you know these two pieces of information and don't feel it. After all, I like you, it's my own business, if you happen to I also like me, that is, I am too lucky..."

"...Telling you is different from taking the initiative to know, so that you won't be under pressure. This road was extremely difficult before I met you."

Huacheng thought for a while, and then said: "Anyway, I think it is impossible to harm any girl, it is immoral, and people like us spend a hundred times more energy in finding a partner than ordinary people, and we may not succeed. After all, there is no bondage of marriage, so I don't know whether it is a good thing or a bad thing, so I don't force it."

"The worst ending is to die alone, it's nothing."

What Hwaseong said, Li Fan can probably guess that Hwaseong has always been such a person, he must be sure in doing things, and must weigh right and wrong.He seems to be too rational. If you don't take the initiative to break the ice, he probably won't say anything if you suffocate.

Li Fan began to rejoice that he had really become the kind of brave person his mother said, and he said to Hwaseong, "From then on, I will walk with you."

Hwaseong was silent for a while, and then said: "Actually, I should be thanking you for coming to accompany me suddenly. I have been on this road for a long time. At first, I was very nervous. I hope to convey the message to you with actions, and then I'm afraid that I can't grasp the speed myself and put pressure on you."

Li Fan: "We want to go to a university."

"Then you have to work hard."

"I've been working on it for a long time."

Li Fan stopped making noise, Hwaseong's drowsiness had returned, he was dazedly waiting for Li Fan to speak, but Li Fan didn't say any more, and he fell into sleep.

In fact, Li Fan said a word at the end, his voice was softer than a whisper: "Hwaseong, I won't be with you for tomorrow's holiday, I want to go home."