PS 143

three

At eight o'clock the next morning, I opened my eyes, thinking about what I had to do today, and immediately jumped out of bed.

It seems that I have gradually adapted to the time in Taiwan.

Xiaojie thoughtfully left a note on the table in front of the door, telling me that he won't be home until very late today and asked me to take care of myself.

"Really, who is the boss?" I smiled and shook my head.

I took a can of milk from the refrigerator and went out.

I won't forget the way to get there, not in my life.

But, can I still get in?can i find anythingI have no idea.

In front of the garage, I pressed the remote control tremblingly, but nothing happened.

Actually, I'm not surprised, after all, it's been seven years.

I parked my car nearby and walked to the door, only to see a familiar administrator.

"Aren't you Miss Shi's younger sister?" I didn't expect him to recognize me.

"Long time no see, Uncle Xu." I greeted him with a smile.

"Have you returned from your studies? It's been a long time!" He said with a smile.

"That's right, it's been seven years. I didn't expect Uncle Xu to still be here." I said happily.

"Yeah, I can retire in two years." Uncle Xu's face also showed signs of age.

"It's a good thing I'm back now, and I won't be able to find Uncle Xu a few years later." I said happily.

"Haha! Why did you come back today? Didn't you move away? Although Ms. Shi would come back to visit occasionally, I didn't expect you to come too." Of course he didn't know about us, and he didn't know that I called by mistake. I ran by mistake.

"My sister forgot to take some things for me. I came back today to pick them up by myself, but she seems to have forgotten to give me a new garage remote control." I said stupidly.

"What about your car? I'll open the door for you. You can park your car quickly." After he finished speaking, he turned back to the administrator's room and opened the garage door.

I smiled, thanked him, and drove the car into the garage.

"Uncle Xu, I'll go up first, wait to come down." I told him and went upstairs.

After getting out of the elevator, I took out the key with trembling hands, took a deep breath, turned it hard, and the door opened with a sound.

"Did you know that I would come back, so you didn't change it on purpose? Or what?" I said as I walked into the room.

The furnishings in the house have not changed, and the furniture is still there. The clean table and floor show that someone is still cleaning and maintaining it.

I walked into the room and it was as neat and clean as before.

"Don't you find it rewarding to make the bed?" I remembered what she had told me.

She can always make the bed as neat and tidy as a hotel.

I opened the closet and froze.Inside are the clothes I put on her before.A few shirts and T-shirts are neatly hung inside, and there is a faint fragrance. There are still photos taken when we went to Singapore that year on the bedside table, as if she has always lived here.

"Now, what am I to you? Why did you leave without looking back, but here again, still leaving my trace? Is it attachment? Reluctance? Habit? Or, do you really still love me? ?” I sat on the bed, talking to myself.

I lay quietly on the bed, where she slept before, and there was a faint fragrance from the pillow, I knew she had come back.

I closed my eyes and just fell asleep.

I don't know how long it took, but I was woken up by the sound of my mobile phone.

It was a number I didn't recognize, but I picked it up anyway.

"Hi, I'm in Taiwan. Actually, I arrived in the morning. I just took a rest." It was Philip.

"Oh, it's okay." I said softly.

"Are you home?" he asked me.

"No, I'm outside." I said, but didn't tell him where I was.

"Are you really, unwilling to have dinner with us?" He asked unwillingly.

"It's fine to have dinner with you, but if it's you and your mother, there's no way, I've already said it." I told him without any hesitation.

"I really don't know why..." His voice sounded annoyed.

"I also don't understand why you want us to know so much." I lay on the bed and looked at the ceiling.

"I just think you're great and I want her to know her, and I think she's great and I want you to know her, that's all," he said.

"I don't doubt that she is great. It's just that my identity and our relationship, or your feelings for me, are not suitable until these things have returned to normal. I hope you can understand." I have no intention The concession is not only because of his relationship, but also because of my role as "mother", the pain has not passed.

"Okay, but I can have dinner with you, can't I?" he asked.

"Yes, but don't play tricks, or you know..." I said seriously.

"Yes, I see." He said dejectedly.

After hanging up the phone, I lay on the bed, looked at the ceiling, and remembered that at that time, when my mother passed away, my teacher and I began to interact frequently, and she accompanied me through the most painful days.

She healed that scar, but a few years later, she severely scratched another deeper wound.

Thinking about it, I fell asleep again.When I woke up again, it was already dark.

"Will you come back? Will you find me?" I muttered to myself standing in front of the window where we used to look at the city lights below our feet together.

Surrounding me is the loneliness and quietness of the room.

Every day in the United States, I lived alone. Is it because of the busyness there that I lost these feelings; or because I returned to the same land, in a familiar environment, it is easier to amplify this emotion infinitely.

It was a deafening, lonely silence.

In an instant, I suddenly wanted to escape from that space, and I sat on the bed weakly, trying to figure out the feeling of fear.

In fact, I was very afraid that I couldn't find her, and I was very afraid that the two of us would lose contact and become strangers in the end; also, I was afraid of Philip's kindness to me. In fact, I really don't need that kind of coercion. The warmth completely burned my heart.

People always think that as long as they are nice to others, they can be justified. Is this really true?I don't want to think about it any further, those emotions are too complicated.

I stood up and tried my best to make the messy bed, but I couldn't make it as neatly as hers. I smiled and finally gave up.

This is also good, maybe, she will know that I have been back.

I walked around the house with nostalgia, quietly looking at the place where we used to live together, Shi Ping, where are you?

In the end, I decided to take the picture of her on the bedside table with me.

When I went downstairs, Uncle Xu was about to take over with another guard I didn't know.

"Are you leaving?" he asked when he saw me coming downstairs.

"That's right, due to jet lag, I accidentally fell asleep." I said embarrassedly.

He turned around and introduced me to the new young guard—Miss Shi's younger sister studying in the United States on the [-]th floor.

I nodded to him and left with Uncle Xu.

We walked and chatted, and he told me that when the teacher moved away, he also asked the teacher why he didn't sell the house, because this is a prime location after all, and the price has been rising steadily.

But the teacher told him that this house is very important to her and cannot be sold.The reason for moving was because she was going to teach in another school and wanted to live closer to the school.But Uncle Xu didn't know where she went.

"She didn't tell you all these things?" Uncle Xu suddenly asked this question.

"No, I only know that we have lived in the current house." I said guilty.

"It's not as convenient as here in Xinzhuang, right?" He thought for a while and said.

"Yeah, so we must drive." He didn't know that he gave me a very important clue.

"Then you go back and drive carefully, and come back to sit when you have time." Uncle Xu said enthusiastically.

"Okay, Uncle Xu also take care." I said goodbye to him.

If it is Xinzhuang, there will be no other possibilities.

Tomorrow, go to Xinzhuang.I thought about it as I drove away.

When I got home, I turned on the computer and went to the University of F website, but no matter how I searched, I couldn't find any clues about her appointment.But C University has a record of her resignation.

Uncle Xu's words should be correct, but I couldn't understand why I couldn't find any news about her "recent years" on the Internet.All the clues were broken when she left C University, after which she seemed to disappear, and no updated news could be found.

"You are really serious about avoiding me...then I must find you out and ask you clearly." I looked at the strokes on the computer screen, and said the search results from three or four years ago.

Anyway, tomorrow, I must go to F University to have a look.

After Xiaojie came home that night, I told him what happened today.

"Well, the teacher really hides from you very seriously." He said the same after listening.

"So I'm going to look harder," I said.

"Come on! Once you find her, hold her tight and don't let her run away." He said with a smile.

We all laughed, as if time went back to seven years ago, when we were still students, we didn’t have so much burden of social responsibility, and we were talking nonsense and spanking on MSN every day.

Time has indeed taken away many things mercilessly, but the truly important ones will shine brightly under the tempering of time and will be left forever.It's like that although my mother is gone, she taught us that the principles of dealing with others have been left behind; also, our young years have also passed away, but the wounds that we stumbled over, although ugly at the time, have now become growth. mark of honor.This is where time makes people love and hate.

I looked at Xiaojie's smile, and listened to the little things between him and Lan Xin, and I knew that what was happening between them would one day become a painting in the Time Gallery. There will be more and more colorful paintings.

What about me and the teacher?

"Seriously, if we end up like this, I'll never be happy for the rest of my life." I said to Jay.

"Who told you to end like this? If you end like this, I won't recognize you as my sister." Xiaojie was more excited than I was.

"Okay, okay, I will definitely find her. Absolutely." I not only said it to Xiaojie, but also to myself, and also, this is also to the teacher who doesn't know where she is now explain.