dreamer

Ji Ziyang once again came to the place in memory.

Goose feather drizzle fell from the sky, and passers-by held up umbrellas one after another. Children in twos and threes wearing raincoats chased each other and fought with each other. They passed by Ji Ziyang along the narrow street paved with bluestone slabs, and got into the side of the road in the alley.

Ji Ziyang didn't care about the splashed trousers, and followed the children just now into the alley.

In the alley are rows of jagged single-family homes, most of which are home to native-born locals.Although time has passed and most houses have been renovated several times, Ji Ziyang is not unfamiliar with all this.He walked forward tens of meters and came to a small two-story building. The small building in front of him was no longer what it used to be, but he could vaguely see himself running out of the small building when he was young, carrying a schoolbag on his back. Wearing a hard hat, he ran to the depths of the alley, humming a light tune.

He even still remembers how to hum that little tune. After so many years, he has forgotten many things, but he can't forget this tune.

At this moment, a girl with two braids came out of the small building with a bucket in her hand. She was a little surprised when she saw Ji Ziyang, but she smiled in the next second, "Brother, are you here again?"

Ji Ziyang smiled when he saw the girl, "Come and see."

The girl put the bucket in a safe place, wiped her hands with her apron, and asked Kiko Yang why she came this time.

"It's nothing, just come back and walk around."

The girl smiled knowingly when she heard this, and asked in a low tone, "Brother, it's been so long, why are you still looking for me?"

Ji Ziyang was noncommittal, just stared at the depths of the alley without speaking.

Following his gaze, two teenagers walked side by side from the depths of the alley. You bumped into me, I bumped into you, and accidentally leaned over to the ditch by the side of the road, walking around in a panic. The swaying hand was grabbed by someone in a second. There was no danger. The two teenagers looked at each other and smiled. Their figures passed through Ji Ziyang's body and continued to walk towards the entrance of the alley.

Looking back at the empty alley, Ji Ziyang's heart was also empty.

Ji Ziyang is 26 years old this year. His family background is good. His father is an engineer and his mother runs a small business.Although he is not as trendy as ordinary young people are, he usually spends a little time grooming himself. The essential step before going out every morning is to spend ten minutes tinkering with his brown hair. After all, he is going out to meet him. As for human beings, we have to talk about appearances.After graduating from university, he declined his father's kindness, and instead of using the family's resources, he went back to the city not far from his hometown alone. With the money from his family, he set up a private clinic and became a psychiatrist. In this city, there is a mixture of high and low.

Ji Ziyang's parents are also quite open-minded, and everything can be done according to his own wishes. Anyway, they didn't have much time for him since he was a child. Anyway, they themselves started from scratch back then, so they respected Ji Ziyang's thinking about himself. It's a single idea.

But in the small city that Ji Ziyang chose, the job of a psychiatrist is not very popular, because there are not so many people who need him.Even with the continuous progress of society, the words "otherwise you should find a psychiatrist" are often talked about by people, but the number of people who actually come to seek medical treatment is not as many as imagined.Fortunately, Ji Ziyang is not so rigid, and he gets along well with the neighbors in front of, behind, and around the clinic. Those who are kind enough to see that he looks good and young will help promote the publicity. Now, so I got mixed up here and there, and the names of the people on the appointment book gradually stabilized, and I lived a decent life.

Someone asked Ji Ziyang, doctor, are you the kind of person who is said to be able to rely on talent for food at home?

Ji Ziyang slapped his thigh, hey, you really said it, I am also relying on my family now.

People don't understand even more, so why are you making such a big detour?How nice it is to stay in the big city over there from your home! No one dares to bully you. Don't you feel aggrieved if you have to come to such a small fourth-tier city?

Ji Ziyang let out a long breath, looked at the high-rise buildings outside the window meaningfully and remained silent.

It wasn't that he was playing tricks, it was that he himself couldn't express the stubbornness in his heart clearly through words. In fact, it was all because he had always had a dreamer.

"Jia Le, I will definitely come back to find you, you must wait for me."

The promise he made when he was a child is still clearly lingering in his ears, but if he has to say it, Ji Ziyang himself dare not say it confidently. He returned to this city a hundred kilometers away from his hometown to keep his promise, because he had already The boy named Jia Le was nowhere to be found.

The person in the dream is not illusory, although it has been so long that Ji Ziyang often wonders whether there has ever been a young man named Wei Jiale in his life who has accompanied him through the long but fleeting years. Then disappeared without a trace.

But Wei Jiale is not illusory, he is real.

12 years ago, because of his father's work, 14-year-old Ji Ziyang bid farewell to his friend Wei Jiale, who had played with him since he was a child, and went to another country with his parents.At that time, young Ji Ziyang was sitting in a limousine, yelling loudly to Wei Jiale in the distance through the car window, I will definitely come back to find you.And Wei Jiale just waved his hands at him with red eyes, and stood alone at the foot of the roadside wall to wipe away the tears overflowing from the corners of his eyes.

In fact, Ji Ziyang has always remembered the promise he made to his childhood partner, and he never forgot what he insisted on saying.Even after many years, he has never forgotten that there is still a young playmate waiting for him in his hometown.Especially in the lonely nights, or the moment of respite from setbacks and hardships, he always thinks of the partner who has been gentle to him from the beginning to the end in his memory.

It's just that he wasn't the one who betrayed the "oath" in the end, he was the one who was betrayed.

When 17-year-old Ji Ziyang climbed over the wall of the boarding high school alone, bought a train ticket with the little living expenses on his body and sneaked back to his hometown, the unique compound deep in the familiar alley had long been People went to the building and it was empty.

Just like now.

The 26-year-old Ji Ziyang came to the closed door again. The rusty iron lock hanging on the door showed that the family had not been back for a long time.

In fact, it is true, except for Ji Ziyang who is like a psychopath, who will come back here after so long.

Jiale, I will definitely come back to find you, you must wait for me.

It's nothing more than a childhood joke, who would be so serious?

If every word people say must be taken seriously, how many people wrote "My dream is to become a scientist" in their homework books when they were young, and how many people would sincerely say "I will love you" to others. What about your whole life", have all the words you said in the end come true?Isn't it all nonsense?

Just like the promise made by Ji Ziyang and Wei Jiale, although at their age, this promise does carry the most innocent and sincere friendship, but they are still too young, and the word promise means nothing to them. However, it is always too fragile.

Ji Ziyang often comforted himself like this, especially every time he came to this door, he would comfort himself like this, and he would even secretly swear in his heart that this must be the last time he came back.

But why he would stand here again and again after not too long, knowing that it was impossible, but still holding a little fantasy to ask the neighbors if the family had come back, it must be because of Ji Ziyang's own problems.

Ji Ziyang may indeed be a little abnormal, not psychologically abnormal, it should just be a little abnormal in his pure personality.

Ji Ziyang was very lonely when he was a child. His father could not come back all year round because of his busy work. His mother, who was also very hard-working, was not only busy with her own small business, but also took care of the elderly of the two families, so in Ji Ziyang's memory , For a long time, I was locked at home alone to entertain myself.

Ji Ziyang didn't have many friends in the kindergarten, which is quite different from him now.In fact, sometimes when Ji Ziyang thinks about himself when he was a child, he also wonders why he always becomes that unpopular character.Later, Wei Jiale told him that it was because he always had a straight face, making people think he was angry.

Ji Ziyang has always been worried about this, he explained to Wei Jiale very seriously, it's not that he likes to put on a straight face, nor is it because he is angry, he just doesn't like to put on a smiling face to everyone, he thinks it's unnecessary .

At that time Wei Jiale looked at him with big eyes blinking, "But Yangyang would smile at me."

Ji Ziyang bent his mouth and lowered his head in embarrassment, "Because you are Wei Jiale."

Because it is Wei Jiale, she is different from others.

In fact, Ji Ziyang lacks paternal love, who made the role of father rarely exist in the family when he was a child.So this kind of environment has created Ji Ziyang's somewhat bad personality, irritable, not docile, strong desire to control, and he has all the performances related to insecurity.He remembered that when he was in kindergarten, what he hated the most was the time after school every day, because the parents always took turns to pick up children from other people's homes, and sometimes parents would pick them up together.And Ji Ziyang knew without even thinking that the person who came to pick him up today was either her mother or the neighbor's grandmother.

I remember that he was in the third grade of elementary school at that time, and once the teacher left his mother behind on a parent meeting, and asked if their family was a single-parent family, because no matter whether it was a parent meeting or a report card that required parents to sign, only Ji Ziyang would appear So the teacher had to wonder if there was any difficulty in Ji Ziyang's family, and it made his mother amused.

But Ji Ziyang couldn't laugh at all, even though his father bought him the expensive new sportswear.

The condition of the house is good, the clothes are a little better than other people's, maybe it's the only thing that can make Ji Ziyang find a little balance.So when he was young, Ji Ziyang was full of arrogance, looked down on this, looked down on that, as if no one was better than him.Later, because no one in the family cared about him, and he often had conflicts with others, he would fight with others at every turn, so most of the people who surrounded Ji Ziyang at that time were bad boys in school.If it weren't for the fact that his grades were still keeping up, and his mother would give gifts to the teacher every now and then, otherwise Ji Ziyang would have received N disciplinary notices long ago, and he would be on the same team as the bad guys.

But this kind of performance does not mean that Ji Ziyang is so awesome. To put it bluntly, Ji Ziyang's character is nothing more than a manifestation of inferiority and insecurity. Because of anxiety, he uses anger to cover up the fear in his heart, because Others have things that he can't envy the most, so they pretend to be indifferent to everything, but Ji Ziyang didn't understand at that time.

But Ji Ziyang, who doesn't like this one, looks down on that one, keeps a cold face all day long, and doesn't give anyone face, but he treats only one person differently.

That person is Wei Jiale.

The author has something to say:

If I don’t post it, I don’t know what year and month I will be motivated to write this story, try to keep the rhythm of updating at least twice a week, if possible OJZ